once_again andie written 11-29-00 the more i reach for him the farther away he seems my mind is unsettled in knowing life with me will not satisfy him he needs something more to be great how can i tell him of the success he is at loving me how his presence chases away the nightmares that have haunted me since my younger years that his kiss casts a spell over me i think i'll never come out of or how the way he looks at me gives me all i'll ever need or want seeing him as he is right now and knowing i can do nothing for him tears at my heart instead of showing him that i bite at him and shove him away and now i'm unsure how to bridge the gap between where he fitfully stands and i am begrudgingly put copyright 2000 010130 ... ClairE One more year. We're a little older and it's somewhat comforting to have the knowledge that we've gone through this before. If only that. 030524 ... birdmad i find myself feeling alone_and_unsure 030524 ... ClairE Same mistakes. Drifting a little farther offshore each time. 031013 ... once again once_again I find it nessacary to cover these pages with the grafiti of my soul. 031014 ... once_again is not important 031102 ... Death of a Rose don't stop once again. 031102 ... serrated seraphim How old is once_again? 040325 ... dondeestanlosjaguares forgive the seriousness i didn't come here to sympathize i didn't come to be your friend just give me a reason to walk away to say goodbye and not look back because i'm done lifting your weight my shoulders, my back, my neck can do you no more favors my heart, my fragile emotions have been shattered far too often shards of memories is all that remains but looking in your eyes seeing that dreadful pain makes me want to say you deserved it and yet something inside keeps stirring wants to make me kiss those tears away i can't resist laying down so you can step all over me again i can't say no to your torture it's a bittersweet nectar that satisfies and leaves me wanting more I'm just a masochist for letting you do this to me once again why can't i stop it why am i so powerless and once again i don't understand 040705 ... once again And everyday it's over And everday it's starts And everyday I'll ask just once more and again And every moment shared And every moment lived And every moment I love once more and again I've done it once I've done it twice I'll do it all over just once more and again 040714 what's it to you? who go blather from