i_am_writing_for u24 an audience, yes, but really I am writing for you. 070705 ... pSyche a promise. Even though you broke every one you'd pledged to me, I guess the silly notion that if I held onto my end of the bargain you might reappear at some point in my life keeps me writing. So maybe now, more than anything, it is merely me writing for the sake of my mental health, a form of keeping myself in denial. Even though as any high school graduate should know, de Nile is in Egypt. 070705 ... Lemon_Soda Psyche: I say this as a skite who has tremendous respect for you as a writer, life experience that has brought to this, and with a genuine desire to see you happy. Please forget whoevr it is. Just make that decision, despite how you feel, and you'll thank yourself down the road. 070705 ... dosquatch I_am_writing_for the voices in my head. Well, maybe not voices as much as compulsions. A need to say things. I don't care if anyone ever reads them or not, it's the saying and not the audience that seems to slake the thirst. I don't concern myself with quality. There are great things written and lost without ever being seen. There's crap that's thrown out for the world's consumption. It is only in the saying, though, giving body and form to the muses, that they find comfort, and that in turn so may I. 070705 ... jane i_am_waiting i_am_waiting i_am_waiting i_am_waiting waiting for someone to come out of somewhere waiting for someone to come out of somewhere rolling_stones babe 070705 ... Ouroboros the inner space inside to grow and calm my mind, clearing the clutter out, creation of something i call my own and am proud of, myself and my sanity growth 070705 ... pSyche ... thank you LS. 070714 ... ism for fun only. where is the fun in this world anyway ? everything was fun why i was icle. 070714 ... PISSED ! WHAT AM I STUCK IN THIS HOUSE FOR WRITING THIS SHITE? LOOK AT WHAT I'M DOING SO I MUST NOT HAVE A LIFE. THIS SHITE IS FOR THE LIFELESS! ALL I WANT TO DO IS GO OUT SOMEWHERE, BUT EVERYTHING AROUND HERE SUCKS! I HATE THE CITY! I WANT TO GO DO SOMETHING FUN! I DON'T WANT TO GO SHOPPING. I JUST WANT TO GO TAKE A WALK IN THE FORREST. THAT'S THE ONLY THING I CAN THINK OF TO DO, BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE THE FORRESTS CLOSEST TO THE CITY ARE RESTRICTED! 070715 ... kung Fu i would do a worthwhile job, but no one has invited me or requested for me so i will just wait until they do, in my dream, the army work in the fields now, i wouldn't mind doing some strawberry picking but i didn't apply for the army because i thought they killed people. It is much better to politely ask someone for their help rather than making someone look in a haystack for a needle amoungst a monstrosity of jobs that seem rediculous, things like Marketing, PR, Packaging Design (to contribute to global warming), Sales jobs, Advertising and so on... Apparently they are designing eco friendly houses for young people, if they asked me i would help them design them but they havn't asked me so i will just have to wait until someone offers me a job that is worthful, in the meantime i will make my garden nice and paint a picture, i don't need much food to survive anyway. 070716 ... sab and if i read this as i_am_waiting_for then that lets me know what is going on inside 070716 ... jane thats exactly what i thought, sab. hence my ridiculous post. 070716 ... hello kitty lets go to Egypt then, i might be better behaved this time, it was all a big confusion, like lots of noise in my head. Egypt was like a dream to me, it tilted me over, expanded my imagination. It was incredible apart from the man touching me up in the bus and the flirtatous waiters, we met some grteat people tough, i smoked all his tabacoo which i pretended was heroin! i was ony joking, but nevermind. 070716 ... defkon1 Have you given up u24? I haven't seen you around lately. I think I'm heading in that direction myself. 070728 ... dosquatch User24 is, I think, British. I don't have any way of knowing, but it is possible that the weather woes over there might play some small part in his absence. 070728 ... pete a safer release then letting my thoughts and hopes be sent out vocally to those around me. 071118 ... mahayana a better sense of the confusion inside. 090224 what's it to you? who go blather from