in_class
Lemon_Soda
Somethings
not
right
I
feel
off
right
now
something
is
happening
that
I
can't
seem
to
identify
or
stop
I'm
scared
of
it
my
heart
is
racing
and
I'm
worried
I
might
die
I
need
to
move
or
run
or
something
but
I'm
stuck
in
a
class
and
I'm
not
foolish
or
brave
enough
to
leave
because
I
don't
have
a
rationale
answer
as
to
why
the
barriers
that
have
been
set
into
place
by
other
peoples
expectations
is
holding
me
as
fast
and
surely
as
a
prison
made
out
of
concrete
I
can't
out
I
need
out
my
mind
wants
to
shutdown
or
go
insane
or
do
something
so
I
don't
have
to
feel
this
way
whatever
way
this
is
I
feel
so
helpless
I
want
to
cry
but
my
body
won't
listen
to
my
mind
the
realities
of
the
people
around
me
make
me
mad
why
why
why
I
don't
know
what
to
say
even
though
I
can't
even
speak
out
loud
because
it
doesn't
have
any
pertinance
to
the
lesson
they
don't
care
or
they
don't
know
no
difference
in
my
mind
or
my
heart
where's
telepathy
or
esp
or
whatever
so
I
can
describe
things
without
using
words
because
words
never
seem
to
be
enough
what
is
this
feeling
I'm
so
scared
of
I
can't
help
it
I'm
a
failure
but
what
did
I
fail
I'm
confused
and
worried
never
could
put
my
finger
on
what's
wrong
or
who's
wrong
or
when's
wrong
or
what
the
hell
is
going
on
i
need
to
run
as
far
as
I
can
until
I
can't
run
any
furtherand
lay
down
out
of
breath
and
have
to
think
all
of
this
anymore
i
can't
escape
my
own
mind
am
I
ungrateful
a
pessimist
can't
I
feel
good
without
a
distraction
what's
wrong
with
me
if
I
don't
know
what
love
is
how
can
I
ever
hope
that
anyone
else
does
love
me
what
is
love
but
a
word
that
everyone
has
a
different
definition
of
when
I
say
bird
I
think
of
a
robin
but
someone
else
might
think
of
an
eagle
or
sparrow
we're
crazy
there
is
no
order
we're
just
trying
to
play
by
the
rules
so
we
can
pretend
we
know
what's
coming
but
nothing
ever
happens
the
way
we
think
it
will
save
me
I'm
going
insane
I'm
selfish
think
of
other
people
repeats
itself
in
my
mind
and
the
stuborn
part
of
me
makes
me
do
things
I
choose
to
do
for
my
own
sake
does
that
make
me
a
bad
person
or
is
bd
and
good
subjective
who
do
I
turn
too
that
I
knowisn't
off
their
rocker
nobody
because
noone
else's
thoughts
are
mine
to
know
even
when
they
tell
me
their
unadulterated
opinion
its
still
filtered
on
an
emotional
level
by
english
itself
I
wish
i
were
an
empath
or
no
I
don't
the
hurting
is
so
bad
do
i
really
need
to
add
everyone
else's
to
it
even
alone
I
have
to
listen
to
my
own
mind
talk
at
me
and
I
am
cruel
and
second
guessing
with
no
confidence
whatsoever
good
God
are
you
there
I
don't
know
and
I
need
stability
a
hobby
a
commitment
to
get
rid
of
all
my
fear
it
stands
in
the
wayand
makes
me
a
loser
will
i
ever
believe
in
anything
or
stand
for
everything
or
not
please
help
its
all
so
much
I
have
to
get
out
I'm
confined
so
tight
like
a
claustrophobe
I
"m
stuck
in
my
head
I
can't
get
out
I
won't
wake
up
I
won't
do
it
please
don't
touch
me
I'm
sinned
scarred
horrible
nasty
evil
bad
guy
but
people
act
like
I'm
the
good
guy
but
I'm
no
saint
I
know
what
hurts
but
its
not
that
bad
at
the
time
but
it
keeps
mounting
higher
and
higher
and
getting
worse
Help
someone
anyone
make
it
worth
while
I
can't
stop
I
won't
stop
not
by
choice
its
a
need
to
be
manic
outside
of
my
control
who
do
i
blame
or
can
i
blame
anyone
even
myself
when
I'm
not
sure
whats
even
wrong
distractions
to
many
lights
and
people
and
stuff
and
flying
opinions
won't
people
shut
up
I
don't
care
but
I
hurt
because
I
don't
I'm
questioning
my
own
moralityand
its
all
so
stupid
and
frustrating
and
fucked
up
I
don't
know
what
to
think
and
even
if
I
did
I
couldn't
commit
to
anything
why
am
I
a
genius
or
why
am
I
stupid
I
never
seem
to
have
what
I
need
when
i
want
it
only
enough
to
keep
going
oh
god
its
everyone
telling
me
its
not
that
bad
when
they
know
damn
well
they
don't
know
what
its
like
to
be
when
,
so
what
they
say
is
bullshit
but
i
need
them
to
say
it
so
bad
for
some
reason
someone
help
me
i'm
about
to
start
bawling
for
no
logical
reason
in
the
middle
of
my
logic
class
.
030917
...
.
.
031124
...
notme
.
031124
...
june
i
just
have
problems
where
is
that
other
joe
blow
040125
...
Syrope
soda
,
you
just
made
me
cry
time
#4
today
.
would
it
help
if
i
were
there
,
beside
you
,
feeling
the
same
way
?
we
could
cry
together
and
then
people
would
be
too
weirded-out
to
stare
.
040125
...
Lemon_Soda
yes
,
it
would
.
040219
...
.
.
051027
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