she_says_she'll_stop_doing_drugs_for_me Twitch It would mean a lot to me. She's started snortin alien a lot. I told her I want HER...not some side effect from a drug.. When someone's high they're not with you... And I want to exist in her reality 051005 ... unhinged she'll just end up resenting you when you don't change what she thinks you will. or maybe you'll just be the temporary remedy that will be easily forgotten when you two break up. either way, it's not a good thing. 051005 ... Piso Mojado from the experience of being that girl, i second that 051005 ... the cheer-up kid You should start taking drugs for her. More fun that way. 051005 ... Twitch But why... being high is lonely... 051005 ... unhinged being high may be lonely but it's definitely more reliable it never let's you down (for the first hour or so anyways) it never changes it's mind it doesn't lie or cheat but maybe it steals a little bit but it's definitely more reliable i know what i'm getting when i get high it let's me down gently and never pretended to keep me up in the clouds forever with the other angels until that was no longer feasible or convienient 051005 ... megan tell her to stop doing drugs for herself and if you can be a part of it, then it's a wonderful side effect just my two cents though 051005 ... Twitch I suppose I'm afraid that she wouldn't stop them for herself. But then, I suppose stopping them for me wouldn't last... 051006 ... mos dude, if she can't do something for herself be sure she'll never do anything for anyone else. 051006 ... syrope yep she lies 051006 ... endless desire that's what we all say 051006 ... unhinged i have never said i would quit smoking for anyone plenty of boys have been conditionally interested in me but didn't like that i smoked things 'i could be with you if you didn't smoke' well i do so too fucking bad for you but i did quit because of/for someone once he was trying to clean up so i felt bad about being dirty and i cleaned up too and it actually lasted quite awhile after we broke up but of course it didn't last forever i don't really need drugs i need love but that's hard to find and hold on to 051006 ... unsolicited reality she's lying...the only question is if she's lying to you or to herself. 051006 ... voice of opposition Well... if she REALLY loves you, I think she isn't lying. love makes people do things... thing they wouldn't normally do. says the glass is half full 051006 ... Twitch damn...it's pressure. If she actually stops...there's no way in hell I can break up with her. (by the way... the main drug that she had been snorting a lot of was valium...idk...maybe someone knows some of the risks about it...or what it feels like) 051006 ... asshole kids nowadays are just fucked up 051006 ... Twitch she's sincere. First she IMed me... ben i need to tell you something then she called... turns out she's addicted to codeine. I wish I liked drugs so I could somehow relate to her. but...she knows she has a problem... and better yet she called me about it. I told her to get help...and it seems like she will. It's hard, cause I can't relate... I just want to know what she feels... 051006 ... Twitch what the hell am i talking about she has a bf...I read her comment to him... Maybe she's playing it off...but it was...well here...have an excerpt Wow...just wow. You're awesome. I just wish you wouldn't cheat on me all the time ;-). Yes...to my 17 year old mind these words hurt. maybe she loves me... I dont know...either way I have to help her. 051006 ... Twitch She texted me on the phone. Said she'd see her counselour the next period... THat means so much...Now somebody can really help her. 051007 ... Twitch I'll call her soon after school...I hope she's ok 051007 ... the cheer-up kid She's addicted to Codeine? If that's the best she can do you should dump her right now. I think you'd both be a lot happier if you tried discovering some of the fun drugs together. I heartily recommend mushrooms. Oh and never, ever ever ever ever try to fix another person. Just be a good witness as they fix themselves. 051007 ... asshole i heart mushrooms. why don't you just call the rehab people on her? 051007 ... oE hey man...just run like hell ... 051008 ... Twitch Maybe you guys can help me... How do you feel on drugs...(it's hard for me to undestand because I hate the feeling.) 051008 ... unhinged i like them; much more than i like myself. i have always resented and immediately rejected anyone that demanded i quit if i wanted even a chance of being with them. and i have also had much experience from the other side of the equation; watching people i loved get swallowed up trying desperately in any way to get them to see their self_worth in time to stop. drugs are always symptomatic of a deeper underlying problem. in some cases, the only thing you can do is hold out your hand, hoping they will grab it. and when they don't, let it be a comfort that sometimes just the action of reaching out even if they didn't reach back was enough to give them something worth waking up to. she will only stop when she wants to stop. whatever the reason that she decides it's no longer right for her, she is the only one that can changer herself for the better in a permanent way. and once you develop a serious problem, it will linger with you for the rest of your life. it becomes a battle for the rest of your life that is often easier to lose than it is to win. i'm bored, i'm lonely, i'm fucked up again. funny how that works. 051008 ... Twitch Your right... There's no way I can make any decisions for her its as simple as that... Besides...If I do "change" anything for her...It'll just be a short time thing...If she wants to, she'ss return to her old ways... (By the way, codeine is the main problem now. I'm not too sure...but I believe it's really hard to stop...lets hope something'll change.) 051010 ... peyton the chemicals between us lying in this bed 051010 ... Twitch Now I'm just tring to look past it... She's not my girlfriend anyway... StillI feel for her 051012 ... Twitch Took her to Homecoming. Realized how much it bothers me to hear about all the shit that she's done. Drugs... Sex... It all gets to me. 051024 ... voice Seriously dude, get over yourself. It's not that big a deal. 051024 ... Twitch yea..your probably right... but this is one place where I can say whatever I want... I'll get over myself in due time friend 051024 ... IGG i disagree, voice. i think it really can be a big deal. loads of shit gets to me like that. twitch, just think about it and sort it out in your head. and also, i read some of your other stuff and i think that you should really go for being her bf and not a temp bf/fuckbuddy/crybuddy. it just seems like a waste of a person being used by someone who won't appreciate you. (hear that voice of experience there) you're worth more than that. anyway thats my opinion and im butting in again. is being altogether too intrusive. 051024 ... Lemon_Soda She should change for her not you. 051024 ... the cheer-up kid We should all have tattoos on our foreheads: "No user servicable parts inside." 051025 ... Twitch Yeah...IGG Maybe I should. 051025 ... Syrope magnetic fields! epitaph for my heart... 051026 ... farool Lo Twitch. No offense, but I think that this is the wrong place to ask for advice on drugs. Considering that almost everyone who blathes is a artsy type person, you won't get much of an argument from the other side here. Here's how it should work. This might sound like the little angel on your right shoulder, but don't get high to get her. You already said that you didn't like the feeling. So just stop. If seeing her hurts you then find that group of friends that you never hang out with. Find some place where she won't come up. Then meet new people there. It works, fo' reals. And something to all of you trying to recomend drugs to our mutual acquaintance, pressure isn't good. From either side. As druggies you know how it feels to always be seen as the bad guy and not seen as the soldier of love or whatever. Look into and through the mirror (if you place that quote you get a brownie point) and see the other side. Ever since you're about eight people tell you not to do drugs. That's pressure. Twitch, first off, you seem like the awesome down-to-earth-guy that I would hang out with. Second, sweet name. Third, make your own decisions. Asking for advice is awesome, just don't try to have strangers put words in your mouth. And lastly, rock on. 051102 ... farool Oh yeah, and could you put a new link to your myspace up? The one on your journal doesn't work. Damn. I sound like a stalker. No worries Twitch, I'm just trying to meet like-minded people. That being through mental disorders. Yup, we have that in common, but we also have the same source. Rock on. 051102 ... Twitch I have two myspaces but I can only remember one of them off hand (and this computer has a proxy that wont let me log into myspace) www.myspace.com/benkurtzer You seem really cool yourself. IM me sometime (My AIM Screen Name is StringedDream but my interenet at home was taken away from me as a punishment so you'll have to IM me while I'm logged on from my phone. 051103 what's it to you? who go blather from