bad_things_i_have_done kingsuperspecial actually, I can't think of any... ha ha ha . lies 010616 ... kingsupernaughty well, come to think of it, might have irritated a person or two. of course, it's really up to the person who got irritated to decide what they can or can't tolerate... 010617 ... Sol um, the worst i can think of off the top of my head is attempting to make a bonfire outside my primary school, which very nearly burnt the school down (i didnt mean thqat tho', i was experimenting with a magnifying glass) 010617 ... yummychuckle well..friday night i was with my boyfriend of like 2 days at his best friends house, andd we were all hanging out (their friend mike was there, too). and they were drunk and I was kinda on a buzzzzz from pot and Jason (my boyfriend Logan's friend) was looking really hot and he kept saying crap about me being pretty and blah blah. and So fast forwarding a bit-- we started playing footsie while i was making out with Logan, then whenever logan wasnt looking we'd be doing crap, and then it got to a point where, even WHEN Logan was looking. Like Jason was talking to logan (we were next to eachother on the couch and logan was on his bed right next to us), and he had his hand down my pants and Logan didn't notice. So finally we got Logan to sleep and Jason and I were making out madly and went further than Logan and I had... and i fell asleep all tangled with Jason on the couch and we were all sorts of cuddled up...and Logan woke up and woke me up and never questioned the sleeping arrangement until i bothered him about it. and he found out from me and mike and crap and so now I've broken up best friends and I'm still "dating" Logan...and don't get me wrong--Logan is one of the hottest guys and i never thought i could get him....but i don't know if i even like him anymore... 010617 ... Sol thats a bad one yum. i think you beat me there, the closest to that ive come was going with someone while they were going out with someone else, but when we started going out after it i felt so guilty it was crap, i didnt even know the other guy. bastard guilt complex 010617 ... paste! fuck the snakes and the dynamite i have a shrewder plan. 010617 ... bad bird kick the crap out of people for money on a semi-regular basis when i was young moving selling stealing and using certain unapproved pharmaceutical compounds during that same period spit blood on the door of a church obsessing over what is lost and what remains unattainable 010617 ... Joana. Lately: *Constantly criticising everything and everyone (especially everyone) *Being pretentious enough to believe I had any sort of intellectual ingenuity *Dwelling on a reasonable amount of self-loathing every hour of the day *Being possessive about a person who actually loves me but can't exactly be with me at the moment *Having jealous fits too occasionally *Having lied too many times to my parents, concerning the hours I spend here *Drowning myself in sloth given that I'm home alone, even though I've failed one chair already and will only have next Tuesday to prove that I'm not UTTERLY AND COMPLETELY BRAINLESS (which I am, anyway) *Not having noticed the things I would notice before I became 'pragmatic'... *Not feeling inebriated by the sight of Mars (or the tiny orange star that looks slightly more prominent among the others) *Writing very little and very badly *Confessing all of this to a lot of strangers who will read it and care for nothing since they don't know me. ...... {I feel better, though} 010617 ... dB Weeeel, there was this one time, I didn't put the bread tag back on, and the crusts could have gone stale if my flatmate hadn't spotted it. Oh yeah, and there was that time when I kinda moved away without telling anyone, and everyone spent much time pissing themselves thinking I'd finally gotten myself killed. But that was kinda funny. 010617 ... silentbob i played with a girls heart. i didnt like her, but i was lonesome. she liked me and i knew it and i hurt her and let her hate me. 010617 ... dB That is way cruel bob. Nice to see you are learning. There is a word for what you did; Marriage. 010617 ... nocturnal bad things I have done...hmm. way too many to list. I probably wouldn't even remember half of them. on blather, though, I can say a couple things I would consider bad, even if I continue to do them. first of all, I like to be a bitch under cover, using different names and fake emails or none at all. and secondly, I turn this place into a chatroom way too often. I get bored, alright? I am sorry about that, though. not so sorry that I can promise never to do it again, but I can honestly say I feel bad about it. 010617 ... black-dyed gel product once, I created this website called blather just to fuck with people. Oh wait, that was one of you bastards. 010617 ... paste! good show lad, good show? camel hockey in the desert is a good show. i have dog biscuits in my pockets. 010619 ... kingsuperspecial sometimes, when I go to use the toilet and either my housemate or his girl have used the last of the TP and didn't get out another roll, I'll get one and use it and then hide it so the next time they go to wipe something there's no paper for them. (a) Spitefulpettybitch 010622 ... flo once i had a best friend called stephen, we were young and of an age where experimentation was the norm. we felt that everything was up for grabs. with me it was mostly the full gamut of psychedelics, we thought we were beautiful and immortal. tripping took us as far as it was going to and he decided on heroin as his next move. i shied away, having known and lived with junkies i knew how unbeautiful a drug it can be. the problem for stephen was that there is never a pusher there when you need one, so he turned to me for supply. not wanting to lose face, having said i could score smack (and i could) and that i knew how to fix up (and i did), i bought him his first dose and then shot it into his arm. that was nearly eight years ago, and his is still using today. sometimes i pass him on the street, but nothing passes between us anymore. apparently he spent some time in an asylum a couple of years ago. i could have tried to stop him, but i didn't because i thought i was too cool to stand in a friends way. the worst thing i have done. 010623 ... Casey Hung out with people who didn't like me. I feel bad about that. I didn't realize till a little while ago 010624 ... Inanna I thought that a picture was me because I did a photo shoot in the same outfit, and other people told me that it was me. I was not told where the pictures were going, but I was paid $$. Since then, I realized through my intuition that it was not me, and I feel horrible about it. I took the picture out of my portfolio 2 years ago, and I accept my karma. I hope that they will forgive me. It was a mistake that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I wish I could apologize personally to the girl in the photo, but she will probably never read this. I cannot change what has already been done, but I will be more considerate now. I don't want anyone stealing my pictures, but they probably will. 010815 ... bijou yesterday my boss gave me flyers to pass out about pizzas (i work at Imo's) and he gave me five bucks for my trouble. five bucks. i threw the flyers in a dumpster on my way home. 010815 ... bijou it was an awfully big stack of flyers. 010815 ... ejo getting drunk and then going to a church with people there that dont drink and that cant figure out WHY somone would be so inclined to drink...and then asking them if they want a drink of my MT. Dew 011026 ... lk Yes drinking at a church is not one of the best that i have done but i think the worst would be doing it two years in a row that would make it bad. The fact that the people that i am inclined to meet there still don't have a clue of what i'm doing running around with a Mt. Dew and freaking out about smarties. But alas the people that i am with have no concept of how amuseing it is just to do something wrong in their life wich if you ask them they wouldn't think to admit that they have done a damn thing wrong every. 011026 ... Norm Define bad... 011026 ... Norm I'm a bad person. I've been thinking about things that I've done that are bad. I hope the good things I've done out way the bad. Is it bad to do bad things to bad people? 011110 ... CheapVodka i don't do things that i think are bad 011110 ... Aaron ohhh cheese... damn.. this is a big list.. there are some thing i won't even mention... horrid horrid things.. at 20 i've almost lived a full life cept for a wife and babies.. here goes.. i've done almost every drug, ileagle, perscribtion, and otherwise that i could get my hands on.. everything from pot to crack. mass amounts of psycodelics, amphetamines, methanphetamines, stimulants, and disasociatives. i have given kid's as young as the age of 14 said drugs, and i got my ex started on drugs.. she was 15 at the time. i gave her two hits of acid her frist time tripping, and 5 pills of E on her first night rolling. i jipped a very dear friend and a guy i was almost related to.. i cut some drugs becuase i had used some of the said substance before i gave them to him. i accused a former friend of scoring on some drugs that i had put in on and not giving me any.. i then told his dad that his mother and him were using.. i'm still not sure if he scored or not. i wrecked a friends car.. and he took the blame for it.. he later blackmailed me but that's besides to point. i had sex with a minor. i kicked my dog. i later told him i was sorry and gave him treats. i damned near scared the shit out of my cat because he scratched me on purpose... but i'm still just about the only person he likes. i stole money.. from my mother no less. i stole her car. i also brought it back. but umm it had a broken side window when i got back.. i did fill up the tank though. i slept with two girls while they were passed out, at seperate times. i stole someone's paraphanila. then again.. i'm missing two glass blows which were very pretty.. i cleaned somone's paraphanila and smoked the rez. i have stolen drugs before i think.. . ohh yeah i have.. i remember now verious sexual acts that i will not disclose becuase i would be hunted down and shot or worse. i stole a gun once. i'm sure theres more but i don't exactly remember. 011110 ... nocturnal stolen, lied, ignored, broken laws, denied opportunities, put myself first, run away, acted purely in spite, treated others like objects, didn't care about any of it. 011110 ... piercedjenny i have lied. not on purpose, and not out of spite, i guess because i could. i lied to myself mainly. i have done drugs and ended up sleeping with someone's fiance while all fucked up and never felt bad about it until i remembered, and then i barely cared. i have been in more sexual situations and lived more in life than people double my age. i guess thats a good thing, living life to the fullest, but all the bad things i've done ended up being pretty good overall. :) 011111 ... Norm I sold a girl for a 1/4 pound of weed. I can justify it but I don't like to make excuses. Thats just a taste of the bad stuff I've done. 011111 ... Jenna This is not the worst thing I've done but the thing that has been on my mind: I've been lying, telling somebody I love them when I don't. Not as bad as some of the stuff here, but it bothers me anyway. 011112 ... . ... 011112 ... Keemeers I have done many bad things. Many many... until it seems like they have merged together into one bad thing. But the worst thing I ever did was love someone who abused me. He hurt me. He hated me. He saw me as everything that was beautiful in the world and he wanted to destroy beauty. And so he destroyed me. Piece by piece, bit by bit, I crumbled underneath his hands. He remodeled me into a sick and twisted creature that cowered beneath him and answered to all his whims. And I when he felt my loyalty and devotion was strong enough. And when he knew I could think of nothing else but him. When he knew there was no strength left within me, that he was my only link to the world... He told me he didn't love me. And loving him was the worst thing I could have ever done. 011112 ... Sonya Hey rest assured I've been there and felt that exact same way. I don't think loving someone is bad. I mean giving your love isn't a crime. Although I can probably say now that loving him was probably bad for both of us in the long run. *sigh* Love is truly blind. I still can't believe how naive he and I were especially looking at our pasts. The worst thing I've ever done was want revenge on people who I cared about at some point and still care about. I let that malicious intent permeate my heart and I embraced it. 011112 ... Subterranean Visions nothing terribly bad, just petty crimes, misdemeanors. smoked lots o' weed had sex in public areas graffitti once i made a kid drink my piss (it was in a mountain dew bottle, and also one of the funnies things ive ever done) started many fires (no serious ones, though) broken curfew countless times lied ive never cheated on a girlfriend but overall, im a pretty nice guy (with some michevious tendencies) 011113 ... Norm here's another one for you. I broke a guy's leg once. He defied me, owed me money which he had but simply refused to pay. I didn't mean to actually break his leg, I did it with my bare hands so I didn't think it was possible. 011113 ... ice yesterday i fucked without a condom 011114 ... Aimee I had sex with someone I didn't love because I wanted to hurt him as badly as he had hurt me. I forced him to fall in love with me, and then I broke his heart and never thought twice about it. He sent me this letter filled with obscure adjectives and the next time he saw me, he slapped me across the face... just makes me want to hurt him more.. 011114 ... anti-social butterfly i lie to my parents, i get drunk, i spent over $600 on weed this past summer, i've gone to church high many times and hungover as well (running out of service to puke in the bathrooms), i've driven high, i have pissed in public, i have snuck into concerts, i have, i have broken someone's heart, i have ignored boys feelings, i have led guys on many a time and just stopped, i have hooked up with guys i know have girlfriends, i have used people and used boys, broken countless laws, i have been selfish, i have been critical of everyone, i have been materialistic, i have ignored people asking for change, i have smoked away the beautiful voice i once had and didn't appreciate, i skip class, i have made bad grades. i cut myself. i tried to kill myself. i pop pills sometimes. i curse like a sailor, even in front of my younger siblings. i don't even know what all i have done that is bad. there it is. maybe these aren't bad to you all, but well, those are the bad things i've done that i can think of. there you go mom and dad. am i going to hell? do you disown me? at least i have kept all of these things from you so i wouldn't hurt you by them, then again, maybe i kept them from you out of fear. i am a bad person mother, father. condemn me. judge me. send me to the mental hospital that you always wanted to. don't ever let me forget for a moment the bad things i have done. bring up every painful memory from my past. tell me i am a worthless piece of shit. tell me how disappointed you are in me. hit me. keep me from being able to change into the better person i want to be. make me incapable of changing. always bring up the bad things i have done. dammit. 011127 ... natasha I've done horrible things in the eyes of others but for some reason it feels right to me. As some of you know, by my previous blathes, I will soon wed, and it wont be the love of my life. It will be the person who treats me the best. The love of my life ignores me, calls me in the middle of the night, but only to fuck of course, and e-mails me on occassion, just when I feel like the real me is about to die. And still, I answer my love's call, hoping that he will ask me to be his and agreeing to do whatever is on his mind. Those bad things that keep my mind entertained when I am surrounded by those who bore me. I just nod and act like I am paying attention. If they only knew what was going on in my mind, (mischievous smirk). 011127 ... Mabel Sometimes it's not the act itself but the way you feel after you've done it. 011204 ... ClairE Lied, hurt people. On purpose. 011204 ... ClairE blather 011205 ... some birds fly by night spent a number of years between any attempted relationships sleeping around at every opportunity that presented itself business related violence (when i was a bar bouncer, when i was dealing and when i was just the muscle for a few dealers i knew) promised my mother i would keep my faith but left it in the ground with her when she passed away theft of nearly every kind at nearly every level and during the course of those days i never felt the slightest remorse 011205 ... bijou i am a delivery driver and people order these huge, like 10 gallon fountain drinks and i have to carry them around in my car and they spill all over the place. i almost always spit in them. or at least drink out of them. 011206 ... Casey I've become a bad boy since i last blathered on this subject. I knocked a guy out with a metal mallet, I stole from exceptional opportunites (place where handicaped people work), I drank, I smoked certain things, I made people sad, I pissed people off. I think I'm still losing this though. 011206 ... kelli crane never confess anything in writing 020112 ... ponder on this Who has written characters that were almost too convincinng? Grow one. 020112 ... phil Iam just plain evil. I haven't really done that many bad things. Well I drank my dad's beer, flunked out of college, pissed off countless people on the internet, flipped old people the bird, rear ended some bitch and then played yo-yo outside until the cop showed up. Made my parents deal with my problems on countless occasions. I did a bunch of acid, that was bad, allowed myself to get beaten up jsut for shits. Made my grandma cry, was responsible for countless deaths on a bridge, oops erase erase erase. Well that's about it. I aslo steal, lie, blastfimies the lord's name, mispell words, and had serious thoughts of killing several people. I have done evil things by mistake, which I enjoyed. I threw away someone's homework and got them sent to special classes (he works at a gas station now). I vandalized several cars and a tree. Looked at gobs and gobs of porno, used to be horrible to my brother, and um...I might need to confess here again sometime. But I think that's close to everything.: I also like the nazis, I think they're a great bunch of guys. jk. (but see, I am still willing to joke about it, that's sick I tell you, sick) I like Howard Stern. Oh ya, I kicked some kid who had just had surgery on his balls and god knows what kind of damage that did. Note the blasmfimy..uncapatalized god, america, all of it, I don't capitalize Shit. I also used to swear instead of give the pledge of allegence, and drew swaztikas in church. 020307 ... thugstylez *went to church high from a blunt we smoked right behind it *stabbed my ex "best friend" on the chest with some scissors. but it wasnt deep. just blood no meat. *burned my bed while my uncle was sleeping on it. but i didnt mean to. i just wanted to see how the lighter looked when lit under the bed *stabbed a girl in the ass with a pencil *almost shot my "homeboy's" balls with his pelet gun but he put it on safety before i took it from him. he was shooting at me first. *left my ex-girlfriend a whole lot of hickies on her neck and told her it was over *stole a few cars(or tried) *messed with the girl my ex "best friend" loves *messed around with his girlfriend when he wasnt looking *lit a turtle on fire over and over again with a lighter and hairspray..lol *im not even gonna start on the things ive done while drunk. i think im gonna stop now 020307 ... thugstylez as for all those other things like cheating, getting high off many drugs and drunk, ive done pretty much all the common little bad things. also i have really fucked quite a bit of people up emotionally. im sure those situations were probably worse than the physical pain ive inflicted on people. 020307 ... Ivonna H i once stole a jar of peanut butter. ... 020307 ... misstree I almost blathed here. Woulda been long. Let's just say that, really, I'm a good person who falls down sometimes. Okay, falls down a LOT. Worst thing I've ever done, though, is a habit: leeching off of people, staying on their couch, eating their food, invading their life, just so I don't have to do shit with mine. All about the sloth, bay-bee. But, I am getting better about it. For the moment. 020307 ... lady lunchbox god, where to start. this is like fucking confession. +i've cheated on every boyfriend i've ever had except my current one, and i will not cheat on him, i swear. +i've cheated on many many tests +i've stolen money from my little brother +i lie to my mother all the time, effortlessly +i broke up with my ex the morning after i let my current bf handcuff me down and fuck me crazy +i've hated people in the past, but not anymore +amanda and i once gave my brother such a huge wedgie that we ripped the elastic off of his underwear +i always have sex without a condom, even though i know how terrible the consequences are +sometimes i wish that he would stay inside me because i want to get rid of that emptiness i have {{*sigh*}} i'm such a terrible person. at least someone loves me despite all of that. 020323 ... Dack Rambo is my father When I was little I stole some M&M's because the man who wroked at the store liked me. So, I thought that meant it would be free. 020407 ... devalis didn't just sleep. 020818 ... GirlNamedLover Ive kept secrets. bad secrets. Ive told people's secrets. Ive lied to people I love. Ive run away from home. I drink. I used to get high. I used to cut myself. Ive kissed two boys with girlfriends. the two girlfriends were my best friends at the times. Ive taken money from my mom. I cheat at school. I liked hanson when I was in fourth grade. I had a crush on a boy when I already had a boyfriend. I cry too much. I withhold the truth too much. Ive had unprotected sex. I yelled at my dog. I have very bad posture. and Im dumb. yeah I got off subject and started listing why I suck. oh well. 020912 ... jane i sold my soul for a snickers bar 020912 ... taojones wisdom's no good; the experience is the validation. i posessed the wisdom for long before i ever made mistakes, ever made claims which were false, or ever did-a-bad-thing. I'll never touch another drop i promise... 021004 ... merf this is an interesting thing to ponder. which things i did were bad would really depend on who was judging them. there's one thing i could be jailed the rest of my life for, if caught, but i feel quite justified about it, to the day. so in my opinion, the "bad" things i did are the ones I feel very sorry for, so here they go: 1) I feel the worst about cheating on a guy I had been with for 3 years. That's a long story to explain though. 2) I feel bad about fighting with my dad even when I knew he was dying. I also feel bad about running off and getting fucked up rather than spending as much time with him as i could. 3) I feel bad about all the times I have made people who love me feel sad by losing my temper and saying hurtful things. and mainly that's all I don't ever feel bad about my kleptomania because I don't steal from places with ethics that I agree with. I don't feel bad about all the cutting and drugs. They harmed only me and I've recovered. I don't really feel bad about the times I lied to my mom, or directly ignored her commands, because I am a seperate person, with free will. I'm amused that I randomly slept with the uncle of a boy who played mind games with me when I was most vulnerable. I most of all, do not feel bad about ridding the earth of a junkie rapist, who really didn't deserve to live. 021004 ... jane 1. cheated 2. cheated 3. cheated 4. cheated and didn't tell you about it 021010 ... ferret masturbated looked at porn not the "good" kind either hoped that you were like me got you hooked on it lied lied lied and liked the result lied more of the first and the second and more of the first and some more and more lies and hoping that you could possibly be like me gone too far 030616 ... kerry nothing too horrible i don't think... i guess i am still pretty young though. ok here goes, all i can think of and it's not a whole lot. i've smoked pot, left to smoke pot at a good friend's birthday party where she made a conscious effort Not to let any 'substances' into her party, stolen beer from family members' houses, stolen liquor from my father, ridden in the car on numerous occasions with an unlicensed driver, engaged in "sexual activity" (nothing too bad) on school property, skipped classes, lied to administrators and teachers, lied to my parents, talked about friends behind their backs and completely denied to them that it ever happened, been mean and impatient with small children, broke curfew by 2 hours without calling my parents to inform them of my whereabouts, loitered in private property, cursed, taken the lord's name in vain, hated people, been jealous and materialistic, hoarded material possessions, lied about what i do and don't have, led guys on and then stopped talking to them completely, been openly cruel towards someone who had been mean to me but didn't really deserve what i did back. i think that's about it. 030616 ... god jane fonda, in my wildest fantasies 030616 ... niska whoo! heh heh! 030617 ... niska disclaimer: that may appear to be a response to your blathe, but it's not. 030617 ... not really that bad I went home with a guy the other night who I had just met. I didn't have sex with him, but I slept in his bed. I betrayed someone who isn't mine to betray. 030617 ... |-()-| this one time, i watched this john candy movie from the 80's. i think it was called Going Crazy, or something like that. some other SCTV regulars and that guy who played leo on oz were in it. man. that's probably the worst thing i've ever done, and i've done a lot of pretty bad things. that's how bad that movie is. rent it for a surreal, horrifying experience. 030617 ... .(-). Going Berserk. that's what it was called. 030617 ... girl_jane It sounds arrogant, but I'm just going on what they told me... I broke Darin's heart. I broke Chris's heart. I broke Jace's heart. And soon I'll break another... Boys, don't you realize I'm no good for you. 030618 ... pobodys nerfect Back in grade school I had a bit of a theft problem for awhile with some of my female classmates. My best friend and I took stuff from the snobby girls that were mean to us--just little things like fancy pens and stuff. And a couple times we took stickers from the teacher. I stole stuff from my classmates because I thought it would make them feel a little bit of what I was feeling when they treated me bad. I felt they deserved it. I stopped doing it when it didn't give me the satisfaction I thought it would. Taking the stickers from my teacher was just because they were scratch-and-sniff ones and I collected stickers back then. :/ Oh yeah,and there was this other time when my friend and I stole these earrings back in grade 7 from the SUPER snobby girls in grade 8. They were about 5 of them, and they always tried to make me and the girls I hung around with miserable. One time when I went home for lunch, they tried to convince the guy I was going out with,that I had broken up with him. He believed them, and was all pissed off at me for no reason. So the one day when my friend and I walked in the bathroom and saw their stuff in there while they were in gym class(it was a small school and we had to use the bathrooms as the change rooms)we took the their earrings. One of them even knew we were in there and accused us of taking them, but they couldn't prove it. For all the undeserved stuff they did to me and my friends, and all the times we never fought back, I felt a little better that day. :) 030618 ... pobodys nerfect I just remembered another one. My cousin Kristy was having a boy-girl dance/sleepover birthday party back when I was in (I'm pretty sure)grade 8. She didn't go to my school,and I didn't know any of her friends. I think my aunt might have sort of forced her to invite me too. My aunt's family and her boyfriend lived out in the "boonies" and he had these 2 attack dogs that they let stay in the house. I had never been to their house,so I was nervous around them. Anyway,we were all downstairs in the rec room and one of the girls had one of those microcassette recorders. Her and my cousin went in the other room and shortly after they invited someone else in. They kept doing this, and every few minutes they'd send someone to call someone else in. A few times I caught them looking at me when they came to call someone in there. I knew they didn't like me by the way they had treated me earlier that night(they kept asking me if I was "L 7" and stuff like that). My mom had sent a pan of chocolate rice krispy squares she'd made with me that night, and before the girls had started talking about me in the other room they asked me to make sure the dog didn't get them. I did before I knew what they were doing,but then I figured "Why should I? Fuck that",and let the dog get near(once everyone was no longer in the room). He only licked them though. And then I got the idea to try and dry them before they were eaten.. *grin* When they asked me if I had kept the dog away, I smiled and said "yup". My aunt drove us home the next day,with my place as the last stop. I laughed when I told my aunt of my revenge,and she laughed along with me. My cousin was pissed off cause she'd eaten them. hehehe! :D 030618 ... girl_jane janed 030619 ... x been my father 030620 ... Casey I wish I could do so many things and then just wave my hand and fix them. I wish I could just blow people up who piss me off, then after the satisfaction is gone I could put them back together again. I want to smash everything in this house and then be able to replace it like nothing happened. I want to strangle the life out of people and then like magic put that life back into them. Anyway, continuing on for the 3rd post here now: I no longer go to church-Its not that I don't like it, I just need to find a new one with out asshole pastors. I disapointed myself. I failed at my job. I actually took jobs I didn't want to do. I listened to an entire song by the dixie chicks. I started to enjoy rap. I treated everone at college like shit because I was jealous that they had better lives than I did. I got two speeding tickets. I touched my friend's ex-girl friend's ass and she enjoyed it...I guess that one is her fault, stupid lesbian bitch. I actually believed I could trust russ and have faith that we could tell each other anything and him not keep things from me and then only come crying to me when he needs something. I told erin to fuck off, and I enjoyed it and I have not regreted it to this day, lying slut. This girl was being nice to me and told me I looked like her cousin and I basically told her to fuck off. I thought I could let go of the past. 030624 ... Dafremen I did believe that you would understand. Does that count? (I also stopped believing that you would ever understand in case that makes up for it.) 030624 ... celestias shadow it's amazing how much stuff people have blathed here. it'd kind of like confession, i guess, only without the catholicness, which is a nice change. i'd write something, but most of the stuff i've done isn't that bad, and i don't really regret any of the bad stuff. is it really that cathartic to tell the world your sins? 040102 ... u24 I don't think anyone should regret anything they've done, at least, not spend time regretting it - the very fact that you're thinking about regretting something means that you've changed, and, as every experience shapes who you are, you wouldn't be the person you are now, without having first been the person you were when you did bad things. gosh that was long winded. 040102 ... secret4185 .... but very wise now that I know I've changed I guess I don't have to write the terrible things I've done ;-) 040110 ... legalmorality so many people list drugs as bad things. why are drugs bad? 040110 ... sahba tried to be good 040709 ... love & hate made you not love me... 040709 ... laced wore mask everyday and had her fall in love with someone other than myself 040711 ... :) Amen. 040711 ... sab are outweighed by all the good things i do part angel part demon all sab 040712 ... spiffy i was born. 040712 ... somepeoplesmile just anything i've done, just- bad thoughts i think i'd enjoy some evil despicable things 040817 ... cntstnd tried to change myself to be something i thought was cooler and not told those who really are special to me how great they are. 040817 ... tuesdays demon ive cheated on my boyfriend - 6 times. i smoke - bad for my health. i smoke pot - bad for my brain. i drink - bad for my body. i like to scratch and bite during sex...ok, not so bad. quite nice actually. 040818 ... Borealis I asked you to do something you said you would never do...and because of that, you changed your mind. 040818 ... brixter became known as a local terrorist made good people's lives harder did whatever I wanted regardless of consequence embraced chaos and destruction drank too much and made scenes betrayed everyone who helped me lied, manipulated, led people on took advantage of drunk lonely people intentionally let people down promised the world and delivered only shit and dead kittens typed up a confession of worthless diatribe 051119 ... Jazbo I had a Dream in the Theater of my mind detailing a TransAtlantic voyage to meet the Flower Kings who told me about the man with a Spocks Beard under a Porcupine Tree. I thought Judas Preist, I have been used as a Tool and run in A Perfect Circle. Much to my suprise I was greeted by the Black Label Society who took me Back to OSI headquarters where they were working on the Liquid Tension Experiment. A mad scientist by the name of Pink Floyd was attacting wires to the LaCuna Coil while a woman in an Iron Maiden looked on. 051120 ... IGG i have deliberately led people on, only to smack them down at the last minute i have got drunk at parties and made out with the nearest mouth. i have taken great pleasure from being with someone who knowingly cheated on their gf of 14 months with me and told them i wouldn't be with them and when they left their girlfriend avoided them for 8 months. i also fooled around with a guy who had a gf because i wanted to lead him on. because i could. i fuck with people's heads. i recently made one of my friends think about me THAT way and pretended it was all his fault, and that he really actually likes me. i then resumed my usual bitchy nature. [i don't know why this is like a confession, but hey, it's just a list of bad things i've done so why not confess them] i have lied so much, i don't even know the truth myself any more. i can't even write some of the things i've done here, because i'm afraid someone i know will read this and use it to damage my current situation. all these are already common knowledge, at least to different people. if they meet up they'll find it ALL out (thats another bad thing to do. showing different people a different facet of yourself means that when they meet up and bitch about you they know pretty much everything between them.) i will update this at some point, and see just how bad i become in the future in comparison to my mundane confessions now. 051120 ... Lemon_Soda I'm working on forgiving myself still. I can't really say I have until i start doing the things I should be doing. But atleast I don't hate me. Self loathing developes self destructive habits. 051121 ... (_) i regret myself. 051121 ... hyena knowingly had sex with others while infected with both herpes and gential warts. condoms don't matter with either, but often they weren't used anyway. i have told two potential lovers so far. one told me he would never sleep with me, and i'm trying to get myself worked up enough to write poetry about him. the other didn't care, and didn't deserve to be slept with. and i hope i will be a better person in the future. i have done well on occasion. there are those who i have not slept with, knowing that they did not dererve to be infected. balance. i try. and sometimes, i even succeed. 051121 ... Jenny Made out with another guy while going out with someone I didn't like. Criminal: I'm going to hell. Me: Really? Criminal: Yeah Me: I'll see you there *shoplifts and steals money from parents* 060121 ... falling_alone this list became so much longer in just a few months. 060227 ... Ooooooops I did it again. Occasionally acquiesced to this inane socio-economic system. 060228 ... im sorry though i have tricked a good girl into falling in love with me just to fuck her, after fucking her i didn't even break up with her, didn't return her desperate calls, didn't care. maybe this should be in stupid_things_i_have_done, i have taken two extacy pills while alone in fucking new nightclub, after feeling off and trying to feel off strangers, i got the shit kicked out of me and eventually got kicked out of club. it was a cold cold, winter night. i lost more than my jacket that night. 060228 ... casinoboyjaysen i once let my twin brother do the drugs we bought before me. i figured they were bad, and wanted him to go first. i almost said "wait" but by then he was convulsing. i let everyone think i tried to stop him. i was sober for years after that, until i met a girl who couldn't for the life of her love me back. we slept together, played together, hung out all the time... but i wanted forever and she wanted none of it. i gave her name, address and phone number to the man who had tormented her for years, because i wanted her to turn to me. instead, he almost killed her and we no longer speak. i have gambled away most of my inheritance - of which there was plenty - and pushed my best friend through a 2nd story window. i have lied, and cheated, and continue to bad mouth the girl mentioned above. because i can - and because it hurts her. i figure if i can hurt her, i still inspire some type of feeling. i sleep with girls whose names i don't know, and could care less if i did. i use them because they let me, but i never like it the next day. mainly, the worst thing i have done is turned my back on myself. i feel like a lost cause, and there is no lost and found for me 060703 ... birdmad publicly gloating about the impending demise of someone i have hated for nearly sixteen years thank hell for aneurysms. Barring any unlikely catastrophes, I'll be here tomorrow morning and he won't. (see, i'm even doing it right now) 060703 ... misstree gratz, birdie. the right things come to those who wait. i hear whiskey is the best kind of drunk to tie on before you piss on a grave. 060703 ... grave-dancing grendel yee-haw just got the e-mail from parts_unknown that he is indeed quite deceased within the last 45 mins I hope one of his last thoughts was the same, but, i can say that my only regret where he is concerned is that i didn't get to kill him myself all those years ago but all the same, i remain tee-hee 060703 ... today i am a vulture it's not like me and that fucker didn't try, but neither J or myself ever quite got it right but between me and him and a small cluster of us from those days, i am almost the last_man_standing and have no problems with the rest 060703 ... Ouroboros Orthodox Jews have strict rules pertaining to men and women. Menstruating women are impure- they must not touch their husbands during this time and seven days afterwards. At they end of the seven days, they must cleanse themselves in a ritual bath before they can touch their husband. Orthodox Jews do not touch members of the opposite sex other then close family. During prayer services, men and women pray separately, with a physical divider between them, to prevent distraction from prayer, and impure thoughts or actions. ---- In the basement of my freshman dorm was the laundry room, a couple of used and unused rooms, and 2 rooms for the orthodox jews on campus to gather and pray. I found out about this by going down to do my laundry, and coming upon the voices of the men studying torah. My college was known for being jewish- but the sight of the peyoses and black clothes and degree of religious observance was startling and laughable in my world of school, sex, music, drugs, etc. M and I had finally transitioned from friends with sexual tension, to two people frisking each other with hands and mouths whenever possible. We both had multiple roommates, so we were creative and varying in our touchytouchy sessions- science building elevator, wall beside the pond, etc. It was late and all the little students were fast asleep, and we somehow ended up in the basement. And we somehow ended up in the orthodox rooms. And we somehow ended up in the men's study room. And we somehow ended up naked on the table where the orthodox jewish men prayed and studied torah. And we somehow had hot sex (our first and only time togehter) on this table. --- Did I write this clear enough? Can you understand how incredibly awful and blasphemous this was? I felt no remorse- I loved it- it was a slap in the face to my childhood and upbringing and my parents (especially my father)- and I loved the freedom of it. M didn't know the significance of our actions, being a gentile and all. I only put this in the catergory of "bad things i have done" because now I try to not tread on/disrespect other's beliefs (if it works for you- go for it!-but leave me out of it) and my having sex with a gentile on the table where torah was read and studied most definitely was disrespectful. I'm surprised Y never said much when I told him- considering he is studying to by a rabbi now/is married/is orthodox. And that's that. 080104 ... Lemon_Soda Regret is like a hot knife that stabs me on occasion, but it is rarely over things I have done, but more along the lines of what I didn't do. 080104 ... . The worst thing I have done / may also have been the best. 080104 ... poet i stole a bowling ball from the local bowling alley. 080104 ... Doar I let a woman hug me, wearing a red dress, and released her. . 080104 what's it to you? who go blather from