resigned unhinged mike i'm so resigned disappointed but when i read that poem it meant more to me than it ever has because i had finally felt the depth of emotion in its words because of how i felt about you yeah, past tense because it's a certainty that it won't ever be what i want it to be 'you're not at all what i thought you'd be' but i still love you anyways it's like looking back on childhood when you are 80 you regret that every moment since then couldn't be that sweet bitter like the white of an orange 010310 ... mikey your loopy 010310 ... monadh I am to being what I am or at least in theory trying to accept the things I cannot change etc. 010311 ... unhinged hey hey hey red blather business is red blather business you don't see me dragging your red blather business over here now do you? hehehehehe 010311 ... mikey im sowwy =o( 010311 ... misstree die down, cruel spark; your wretched life has no place here. the wasteland's cold comfort will scour you from me; best that you abandon yourself at its edge, that i may someday return. die down, and leave me free of fetters, free of needless feeling. i carry nothing beyond necessity, and you can do nothing for me here. quietly, surely, slip away, and i will carry a scrap of memory, no more, though even the weight of that concession may bear me down to the rocky soil. 030908 ... jezabel yes, i have released you; i have cast hope into the_river to be carried away with fond farewells and turned away, resigned to the gentle uncertainties ahead. this will be the last poem i ever write in your name. this is the final goodbye, an end to fruitless longing, stinging need, an end to bared throat and pleading snarls. i have released you. please, don't put yourself back within my reach. 030909 ... BlastoiseMaster I think too much on things I want too much It makes me hateful and I say stupid things Only you can fill my blank heart And I'm resigned to that I wish the sun could just keep me warm And I'm resigned to that I'll forget to breathe someday I never stopped to think why ~Blur, "Resigned" 031103 what's it to you? who go blather from