wretched indust just a reflection just a glimpse just a little reminder of all the what abouts and all the might have could have beens another day some other way but not another reason to continue and now you're one of us the wretched the hopes and prays the better days the far aways forget it it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to it didn't turn out the way you wanted it, did it? now you know this is what it feels like the clouds will part and the sky cracks open and god himself will reach his fucking arm through JUST TO PUSH YOU DOWN JUST TO HOLD YOU DOWN stuck in this hole with the shit and the piss and it's hard to believe it could come down to this back at the beggining sinking spinning and in the end we still pretend the time we spend not knowing when you're finally free and you could be you can try to stop it but it keeps on coming you can try to stop it but 010620 ... baby satan singed by the ass-fire of hades. 010621 ... god ass ashes on every shore 011202 ... paste! poker got resultless, had to eat that tire. nobody really minds if i shit here, right? ok, next week i'll pull out the spacious helicopter so we can take the neighborhood lawn bowling. will that make you happy, senorita_colon? and if you tell me to go back to college, i'll probably whisk my collarbone (with that machine i built). 011202 ... girl_jane a week without knowing you're ok... It'll_be_ok. 030320 ... quicksilver21166 I am one of the few that may call themsleves one of the wretched. I do not brag about it. for I am ashamed of it. but yet it is the only hope that i have. hope to be. and hope to see As I walk alone through this world , no one by my side. Watching as the people watch me, seeing only what they want to see, talking about only what they see. For we the wretched, the sick and the lonly. We are not few but we are not many. We all know that we will nevfer apease the world that we know. For shame is my wretchedness,and guilt is it's name. Guilt for not being a good son, brother,solder,and friend. The guilt shames me so that it always rains in my head. Over and over my mind plays there words with ther faces. Again I am shamed. For guilt is a heavy burden on an already shamed soul. But no one cares, not even the ones who say they do. So for the wretched I do say find your peace, for if you do, share a prayer for me, so that some day I may be free of this wrechedness that has plagued my soul for to long. MAY WE ALL FIND OUR GRACE 030905 ... once again and one day 5 years from now... I will be smiling in the sunshine and I will catch a glimpse of a sandy haired man with a build like yours and walking to my car I will smell the burn of exhaust and even though I'm older now, stronger, wiser... I will cry. The look on my face as I realize that even now you can still make me cry that is the definition of wretched. 040521 ... novocainstain sure, i will let you see this ill let you see myself but never really true just what i want to show and i know its wretched of me and i know its horrible but i cant tell you never, but maybe perhaps when im not feeling so clever although im not really so wretched 060316 what's it to you? who go blather from