it_was_real unhinged reality the necessity of intent which wasn't all lovey dovey but image holding i should have known you would only appear to love me to make yourself look more desirable to the cocks you so loved to tease you spit venom about her with me but you are her thinking you are disguised as an angel giving me my addictions in a box like any good friend would and turning away when i needed a hug but of course i was expected to cuddle away hangovers and hold your hand in crowded rooms but you don't want the lesbian image anymore the necessity of intent leaves me sitting by the phone 020102 ... she while it lasted. 020103 ... whitechocolatewalrus i touched it water rolling spinning dripping falling down slippery on my wrist my arm my face i smelled it a storm on the verge a storm blowing raging whistling it was real i heard it flames screaming yelling begging crying flashing in my mind [it was real] it was real i saw it a speck on the horizon daring to burst glittering pride i tasted it the sky in my mouth 040407 ... notme . 040407 ... z nice form and repition 040407 ... Syrope it was real for that night but i don't know whether to carve it on my brain or accidentally lose the scrap of paper i don't want to live in a fantasy world i just want to live in a world where my fantasies are welcome 040408 ... Lemon_Soda the 3rd night. real. so real. why can't I remember save a few brief flashs? 040408 ... sab it was real it all was real this is all real even the fake things are real [i am so real i am beyond fake] how is that possible? i dunno man, i didnt do it. 040730 ... puredream the moon was real! 040730 ... cpgurrlisanatheist. they tell me it never happened, but i swear it was real! 040730 ... Borealis it was... I think... or should I just forget? 040731 ... love & hate I tell myself every night that it was real, trying to convince myself that it did exist. But it doesnt seem real, seeing as she does not believe it is worth fighting for. Obviously i was wrong, it was never real, to her... 040731 ... once agian yes. i know. it's been real. later on kiddo. 040731 ... witchesrequiem Define real? 040802 ... pete that kiss so long ago.. though only a few weeks... where did it go? it planted seeds in my mind... seeds that were watered by the messages sent... it was real, and that scares me 040802 ... kookaburra no really, it was! where did i put that blathe? i am not crazy, i remember seeing the screen. why isnt self_diagnosis a blathe? or maybe it is, and i'll be thoroughly embarrassed once this posted but at least no hallucinations 040802 ... B.liar "Delusional_hope"... 040802 ... Given Win_the_battle__'b_u_t'__lose_the_war Iraq's_security_before_the_war_after_the_war... 040802 ... kookaburra hmmm it seems that it isnt a blathe i'm going to go with the theory that i dreamed it all and im gonna make a little jingle: "if life gets crappy and you feel like screaming just keep repeating 'i was just dreaming!'" catchy aint it 040802 ... Deomis until I woke up. Then I found myself living in a nightmare. 040802 ... B.liar US_soldier_to_face_court_martial_in_Iraq 040802 ... ungreat the things i said were real. the blood was real, the fear in my eye was real. when i said no it was real. you however were awake in some dream, and i walked into a delusion. you didnt beleive me and you didnt listen and i hope your couch never recovers, and i hope you find the wallet that i didnt steal and i hope you dont apologize or expect me to becaus ethen id hate you more, and then i couldnt let myself like you at all. 070909 what's it to you? who go blather from