practically_a_cure
old jaded birdmad
(
post_romantic_stress_disorder
)
since
all
the
bad
genes
in
my
family
have
convinced
me
that
i'm
not
likely
to
make
it
too
far
past
age
50
,
i'm
having
my
middle
-aged-crazy
now
.
i've
reverted
back
to
what
i
was
like
before
i
became
a
college
drop
-out:
brief
and
mostly
painless infatuations
here
and
there
along
with
a
few
occasional
one
-nighters
with
an
option
to
revisit.
all
that
"
falling
in
love
"
noise
ever
got
me
was
thrown
under
a
long
string
of
buses (
of
the
single
and
double
-decker varieties)
080402
...
Ouroboros
working
9
hours
straight
,
no
time
to
think
of
myself
or
anything
but
serving/cleaning
080402
...
pobodys nerfect
For
me
personally
,
i'd
say
:
~
sleep
.
For
long
periods
of
time
,
and
often
.
~
i
also
try
to
be
gracious
when
kind
friends
give
hopeful
compliments
about
what
kind
of
a
person
they
feel
i
am
.
I
try
not
to
absorb
any
of
it
anymore
,
because
deep
down
inside
it's
always
there
--that
undeniable
knowing
feeling
that
some
people
just
aren't
meant
to
ever
be
happy
that
way
080402
...
Lemon_Soda
Given
up
,
have
we
?
I
know
thats
when
I
always
find
what
I
was
looking
for
.
080403
...
pobodys nerfect
Piffle
.
Whenever
i
give
up
,
the
whole
process
eventually
just
repeats
itself
all
over
again
.
I
don't
want
to
bullshit
myself
into
believing
it'll
happen
anymore
,
and
it's
not
coming
from
a
pessimistic
or
bitter
point
of
view
either
;
i
just
want
to
be
realistic
and
start
mentally
preparing
myself
for
the
very
real
possibility
.
I
hate
it
when
people
lie
to
me
,
and
before
now
*
i
*
was
lying
to
me
.
I'm
not
going
to
do
it
anymore
.
080403
...
LEMON SODA RESPONDING
CHECK
081110
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
