wayside_flavor Lemon_Soda What's that feeling you get when what you want you got and then it went away before the hype had a chance to die down? I don't know but I tend to feel that alot. It even creeps up on me before I even have the chance to lose the thing I want. I try not to want things,people, places, feelings, etc. Seems I've been trying to much. Nothing holds its flavor anymore for me. I still desire things, but the journey there AND the destination just don't seem worth it before, during, or after. Seems that things we love are doomed to crumble and fall or be lost along the way. Even my dreams won't stay coherent. I've got to much chaos or to much order in my life and I can't figure out witch one. 030930 ... Cherry_Springwater You know, your a real depressing guy, Lemon_Soda. 90% of your posts are some bitchin' and some moanin' with shit creme on top for flavor. Sure it seems bad, but is it THAT bad? And even if it IS that bad, isn't there something worse you should be thankful ISN'T happening? Jeez...just...take some medication or yoga or join a youth group or SOMETHING. 030930 ... x jesus fucking christ! if blather had a requirement that everyone was supposed to be all happy, healthy, and well adjusted, none of us would be here. oh, but anonymous people criticising us and telling us not to express our feelings through writing must really be the solution. thanks a fucking lot. Lemon Soda is free to say whatever. You are free to respond whatever. Me too. But you're still an asshole. 030930 ... sans nom eye for one have been reading keenly lemon_soda 030930 ... Cherry_Springwater Hey, it wasn't anything personnal. Just calling it how I saw it, the same as you. 030930 ... auto cross reference sysem see: aplogies (but not really) 030930 what's it to you? who go blather from