gratitude Ghost 74 when you've got so much to say. 000114 ... WoNDERGIRL I wonder if you'll ever see these tears run down my face I could never let another one come in and take your place you see, I love you more than life and more than you'll ever know the sparkle in your eyes, it frees me causes my soul to glow 000528 ... jennifer Life's been so good to me Has it been good to you Has it been everything That you expected it to be Was it as good for you As it was good for me And was it everything That it was all set up to be (Now is that gratitude) Now is that gratitude Or is it really love Some kind of reality That fits just like a glove Now is that gratitude For everything I've done Or is it something else That's got me on the run In the middle of a big tornado On the tip of everyone's tongue In the belly of a giant whale All the girls just wanna have fun In the look of a frightened neighbor In a big warm bed at night In a broken elevator In the teeth of a dog that bites In the middle of a revolution In the look of a child's face In the silence of the dinner table In the stillness of disgrace (I used to eat little girls I knew for breakfast I used to fly high up in the sky I used to chew up rocks and spit out gravel I had a heart as cold as ice) But when I think of you And what you've done to me You took away my hope You took away my fantasy I once had lots of pride The world was in my hands I lived way at the top Of castles made of sand Ooh . . . I dream of you sometimes Ooh . . . I dream of you sometimes In the middle of a big tornado . . . Life's been so good to me . . . (DE of OB) 000608 ... Barrett ...and that's right!!! 000623 ... Strideo ♥_♥ . 021216 ... Jennifer Bethke Each day I have the opportunity to be grateful or resentful. If I focus on what I do not have in my life, I invite discontent. If I focus on what I do have, I invite serenity. Whipping myself mentally for what I perceive is lacking in my life does nothing to bring more. It reinforces lack in myself and to the universe. When I find myself in that spiral of negativity, I consciously shift toward focusing on what I am grateful for -- my health, family, home, and food -- the basics of life. As I run down that basic list, my attitude changes, and I begin to remember other, subtler things I am grateful for. I am taken out of lack and into abundance. When I learned that I did not have to be a victim to my moods, but I did have to take responsibility to take actions to change them, I was given an incredible gift -- the gift of choice. That gift is one I am very grateful to have. 030513 ... amy it's not that I'm ungrateful, but that nothing seemed to stick, although it could be that i had been ungrateful all along. it's character, you know. 081107 ... Lemon_Soda Probably, ot that I know you inside or out or anything. Grattitude in general takes effort inorder to mean anything. 081107 ... In_Bloom So much 081107 ... LEMON SODA RESPONDING CHECK 081110 ... hsg give_in it will show you why. 091201 ... unhinged i just finished a nice little book: buddhist bootcamp by timber hawkeye he reminded me that the antidote to anger is gratitude. i'm still angry with you. even though i haven't really seen or talked to you for a good six months now, the sting of the fact that my feelings didn't seem to matter, that i was discarded like trash, that while you said one thing to me your actions implied the opposite, is still there. it doesn't help that i keep picking the scab off the wound. that i keep replaying the events of our failed short shitty relationship in my head and keep coming to the same conclusion: that my anger is justified. that is dangerous. it is poisoning me. but i've also been able to shift at least a few of those thoughts away from the frustration of loving someone that doesn't care back, that doesn't appreciate me. for awhile, we had a nice thing. our communication was bad, but it was a somewhat mutual attraction. that is always a nice thing. it was also a nice thing to have good consensual sex with someone at the time that i was having good consensual sex with you. i am also grateful that at some point in our relationship you gave me permission to be honest about my feelings (even though in the context of our relationship, those words just seemed like a platitude) because eventually i got over my fear and finally told you that you were making me feel like shit. i am also grateful that you helped me sort out exactly what it is i'm looking for and a better way that i can go about getting it. but for all that gratitude, my heart is still lonely and broken and since i am tired of being sad, it just all spews out as anger. anger that once again i wasn't enough for someone to give a shit about. 131019 ... daf Once here was a very kind and generous soul who gave to all in need. One day, passing by the needy on the street, he handed each a bill in turn without discrimination. As he came to the end of the line, he found himself with no bills left; only 10 pennies remained to be divided up between the two poor at the end of the line. So he put 5 pennies in the cup of each as he was able to. The first to receive 5 cents scoffed at and scolded his benefactor. “Is this all you have to offer me? This pittance?! Those others have folding money, but for me..this?! You insult me with your pennies.” But the second beggar said, “I know you are a generous, for I have seen your generosity. Thank you for the 5 cents, it is much appreciated and I will try to make the most of it.” And the day passed and another began. At the end of the second day, the generous one came passing by again. This time however, he started at the other end of the line of needy ones. First he came to the poor one who had appreciated his small gift the day before. To this he gave several bills while his pockets were full and before the giving was gone. The next beggar, the unappreciative one was skipped, because who wants to give what isn't appreciated? (He ate, but had to work harder than the rest for his supper that evening.) And of course..there were those at the end of the line who received less than the others. But that’s another story..very similar to this one. 131204 ... Ouroboros Serious gratitude for supportive loved ones, $ making opportunities that show up quick and give food, local food bank, licorice tea, fuzzy pjs, being able to see the stars at night. 131204 ... h some say the secret to true wealth. 140108 ... unhinged for ripping the band aid off fast it is better that you told me you didn't see anything lasting between us. then i don't have to wonder. but there is still lingering anger over the 'lets be just_friends' thing. i don't get why people think that is a valid option for the end of a casual dating scenario. you casually took what you wanted for the amount of time you wanted it and then changed the terms. i am casually walking_away because while i have a general sense of compassion for you and your problems, i don't have time in my own life to be the free therapist. maybe, just_maybe i will do better next time 140108 ... daf My mouth closes and chews a collection of flesh and bone collides to provide my daily sustenance. And though these eyes peer out across the great expanse of earth and sky with only a dim inkling behind them of what we are. Has there ever been a greater moment for rejoicing than this? Has gratitude ever been more appropriate than now? 160123 ... unhinged gratitude is appropriate for every now sadhana_of_mahamudra 160123 ... flowerock. Why do I ever feel any thing but gratitude? I am still growing. I_am_grateful 160123 what's it to you? who go blather from