i_missed_you Lemon_Soda Hi guys and gals, Finally got regular access to the net again so I hope to start contributing more often. How's everyone been? You know I missed you all...guess I better work on my aim. 050427 ... ABC 123 and blather missed you Mr. Lemon. 050427 ... birdmad welcome back. 050427 ... anomalous i was wondering where you'd got to 050427 ... kid andre I missed you too. 050427 ... . who are ya? 050428 ... Lemon_Soda Just a blatherskite who had been gone for awhile. 050429 ... pete stand still this time 071013 ... Lemon_Soda I'll do my best. 071013 ... gleamining beam we've been looking for you ! 071013 ... auburn my life depends on hearing these words. 071018 ... piss off your life depends upon treating people in a decent way, that is fucking all, you messed up piece of crap. 071018 ... . what? 071018 ... minnesota_chris yay we have another random fucktard blatherer, adding his stink to the mix 071018 ... pete welcome back auburn. 071018 ... u24 i missed you 071019 ... piss off welcome back thin skinned Chris 071019 ... Lemon_Soda Man, blather wouldn't be blather if I didn't get smiles everytime I read you guys giving virtual hugs and flinging virtual crap...I think misstree said it best "Reading blather is like going to a family reunion. A really weird family reunion." (I may have misquoted that, but its the jist of it) 071019 ... pSyche I didn't even realize it until you came back. Your voice, your laugh, your face- all of you seemed like something of which I was so desperately in need. I_missed_you as we hugged when you got back. i_missed_you as we held hands going up the stairs. I kissed you, and you kissed me, now yesterday seems like a memory; but I remember as we lay there I took my mind far far away and I_missed_me. I wish you were still far away enough to miss. 071020 ... Doar all I can say is hmmmm... and another hmmmm... for another blather... oh hell, hmmm... just for you. 071023 ... minnesota_chris but my aim is improving 071102 ... margaux when i came back home, he said this to me, and by reflex i said it back. i'm not really sure where i am, except to say that i feel the need to protect myself once again 071105 ... pobodys nerfect i_missed_you days ago, when i was hoping that you'd come to your senses and realize what a meddling bitch she was... i_missed_you, when i thought you were just taking some time to think things through... i_missed_you when i heard "fade to blue", because it reminded me of the last time we talked & how you said we'd always be friends... But now you avoid me. You're the one who said you only ever thought of me as "just a friend", and yet you're hiding from me when you don't even have to. Why? Because your stupid pride won't even allow you to admit that you really DID lik me just that little bit more, and you can't face me because you know i'll catch you in a lie again. Well, that's fine because i really think i'm getting over it more and more every day. You don't have to avoid me, because i have no intentions of talking to you if i see you around. Friendship is a two-way street, and i've done enough grovelling for your forgiveness and begging for scraps of your attention. Fuck you, i'm better than that. i_missed_you before, but i'm feeling different these days... 071106 ... *p I MISS *YOU MORE YOU GOSH DARNED FRIGGIN ADORABLE YOUNG JEWISH ADONIS BOY WRITER YOU YOU'RE DARLING TO ME, SHY AND I CANNOT STAND BEING MISUNDERSTOOD BY YOU OR THINKING YOU MAY HATE ME FOR GOING I SAID I LOVE YOU AND THAT I ALWAYS WILL I SAID IT WONT CHANGE AND IT WONT AFTER ALL WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH (WITHOUT EVEN MEETING FACE TO FACE) CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW IT FEELS FOR ME TO KNOW WHERE YOU ARE IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW MY *BROTHER??? THAT YOU SHACK UP WITH THIS BROWN 'BABE' AND WANT TO TALK TO ME ABOUT GOD, AND THEM GO CALL ME 'PROUD' BECAUSE ALL I EVER TRIED TO DO WAS SHARE WITH *YOU THE TRUTH IN LOVE AND THE PAIN I FEEL FOR AND ABOUT YOU IS ENORMOUS (THATS WHAT YOU DONT KNOW) YOU THINK I AM MADE OF WOOD? YOU THINK I DONT LOVE YOU ANYMORE OR DONT CARE OR HAVE NOT CONTINUED TO WEEP SINCE I WAS ASKED TO GO AWAY??? DONT LET THE LIARS YOU NOW 'LOVE' AND NIGHTLY BED DOWN WITH CONFUSE YOU ABOUT *ME GOD YOU THEMSELVES OR WHO I AM WAS OR COULD BE IN YOUR LIFE BECAUSE 'WORD' THEY ARE SO NOT GOD AND THE LAST TIME I CHECKED DO NOT EVEN KNOW HIM AND WHAT ABOUT YOU? HOW'S LIFE IN CALIFORNIA? THATS ANYWAY, CALIFORNIA? RIGHT MY BROTHER? DARN RIGHT I AM HURT AND ANNOYED ITS EASIER TO BELIEVE CARP ABOUT *ME AND LIES LIKE SAYING *I DON'T CARE AND LOVE AND NEVER DID BECAUSE THAT WILL MAKE IT EASIER FOR YOU TO GO ON RIGHT? THINGS YOU DONT KNOW AMAZINGLY PAINFUL FOR ME TO WATCH YOU WITH HER OK????? AMAZINGLY PAINFUL NO I DONT ENVY JUST SOMETHING TRULY HARD ON *ME THAT I NEVER SHARED I THOUGHT MAYBE IF I BELIEVED YOU WERE NEVER SAVED BY HIS GRACE *I COULD TAKE NOT TALKING TO YOU ANYMORE EASIER I AM JUST NOT SO SURE THAT IS SO I STILL BELIEVE YOU ARE MY BROTHER MY DRUGGED AND LIQUORED BACKSLID BOOTY-IDOL WORSHIP N BROTHER. THESE DAYS, UNFORTUNATELY :^( WITH VERY GOOD GIFTS IN ART AND WRITING AND I MISS YOU A LOT NES SO,PLEASE DONT LIE TO YOURSELF ANYMORE ABOUT *ME I WAS REAL I AM REAL I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN REAL JUST BECAUSE I DONT THROW MY BUNS ON YOUR FACE LIKE THAT GIRL OUT IN 'ANYWAYS', CALIFORNIA DOES NOT MEAN I DO NOT STILL LOVE YOU AND EXIST IF YOU EVER SEE THIS PLEASE FORGIVE ME? I WAS ASKED TO GO AWAY AND YES!!!!!!!!!!! I STILL READ THERE AND PRAY EVERY SINGLE DAY P.S I HAVE NEVER 'HATED' ANYONE YOU-STILL NEED TO GET AWAY FROM THOSE EXTREMES I AM PRAYING FOR YOU EVERYDAY AND THINK OF YOU CONSTANTLY MORE THINGS YOU DID NOT KNOW ABOUT *ME OK? p.p.s I am VERY SORRY I HURT YOU nes it hurt me TOO that I could not reply I am still in pain DAILY over this I gave *You to our GOD but I still retain a small piece of hope maybe someday if it is His will and You are maybe ever free and/or interested I don't think it was a lie though I can't recall it all o well I miss You too sincerely, *p 100920 what's it to you? who go blather from