what_i_am yoink a turbocharged, all wheel drive, broken piece of fine china, smothered in hot sauce and white widow, with a GPS receiver, some adderall, and 18 scattered rose petals, without the stems. 020314 ... Mahayana i am lovable and capable 020328 ... endless desire i am loved i am unloved i am unloved by myself i am searching for love i am living in hate i am a believer in love i am a believer in loves power i am a girl. i am a girl who is looking for something. i am a girl who never thought there was anything wrong with a dull life. i am a girl who is looking for something to wake up to that might bring her a smile and maybe a little spice and mystery to a dull life. and i am the girl who is looking at you. 030624 ... not god i am god 030624 ... peyton I am copied elsewhere. I am here now. I am my new home. I am death. I am alone. I am nothing. I am everything. I am dignity. I am honor. I am vengeance. I am misunderstood. I am unique. I am like everything else. I am not okay. I am alone. I am alone. I am not okay. I am out the window. I am dying. I am bloodstains. I am feelings gone. I am feelings now. I am not here. I am gone. I am not them. I am not him. I am never there. I am always here. I am overworked. I am underappreciated. I am misunderstood. I am not okay. I am burning. I am love. I am fire. I am alone. I am in the bedroom. I am drinking. I am on fire. I am not there. I am here for you. I am there for you. I am morality. I am virtue. I am faith. I am love, burning. I am not what they want. I am not what they know. I am not what they understand. I am not fit. I am not understood. I am not there. I am not worth being here. I am not going to know anything. I am not going to be. I want to conquer the world. I want to know peace. I want to have a important death. I want to speak so loud you can't hear a word I say. I can't sway temptation. I am not smart. I am not intelligent. I can't create. I can't bring you anything you don't already have. I want to give them all a new religion. I want to end poverty. I want to bring forth doves. I want to burn down oil tankers. I want to smash all the glass. I want to be healed. Please touch me. Please bring me back hope. Please make me ice cream. Promote what I love. Promote what I need. Be there when I cry. Touch my face and love me too. Don't let me bleed. I want to know it all. I want to taste it all. I want to know the truth. I want to hear you cry. I want to lick your face free of tears. I want to see the whispers. I am ugly. I am broken. I am on my knees. I am strong. I am tolerant. I won't know anything ever again. I can't stop feeling. I will beg. I will grovel. I will have no pride left. I feel insecure. I feel never. I feel always. I know infinity. I know hatred. I know the outside. I know the inside. I am transparent. I am a prism. I am a monster. I am hated. I am cherished. I am admired. I am nothingness. I am fucking disgusting. I am an angel. I am cheered. I am spit at. I am owned. I am a possession. I am a worthless fucking liar. I am a patron saint of truth. I am numb. I am orgasmic. I am little labeled bottles of ecstasy. I am bubbling. I sometimes can taste good. I sometimes burn like fire. I sometimes destroy. I sometimes create. I sometimes give myself all away. I am hollow. I am nothing. I want to be you. I want to know it all. I want to be inside. I want to know all your treasures. I want to see your secrets. I want to secure it all inside me. I want to make the emptiness of me be you. I feel so much pain. I am mad. I am a genius. I am dead. I am lying on my side bleeding. I am an infant. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I can't live. I can't die. I am a God. I am immortal. I am in heaven. I am a cockroach. I am a weed. I cannot be contained. I cannot be regulated. I cannot be put on a schedule. I am not fucking routine. I am unpredictable. I am pessimistic. I am yours to command. I am your master. I have an appetite. I love you. I am no good. I am a raven. I am segmented. I am made of cement. I am so needy. I am so spineless. I am not fit to lay a hand upon you. I am so dirty. I am so needy. I need you. I love your robes. I love your face. I love your taste. I love your pain. I love your torture. I love your thrills. I love your healing. I love your consumption. I love you. I burn. I have to go. I am back. I ask you again. I need it. I need you. I can't make my mind up. I can't get here on time. I can't die. I can't be there. I am too weak to stop. I can't say yes. I can't admit defeat. I can't strike the colors. I can't know destruction. I can't let them win. I can't do this. I can't be what I want. I can't be what they want. I can't live my dream. I can't be loved by millions. I can't have groupies. I can't be a fucking slob. I can't be cheerful right now. I can't be helpful, fuck off. I can't be your chipper side of beef. I can't be soothed. I can't change lanes. I can't drive straight. I can't drive and have sex. I can't dance worth a shit. I can't say what I want to say right now. I can't say this and explode. I can't make magic.. I can't procreate with a fireball. I can't make sense. I can't know what you really mean. I can't stop mumbling. I can't get out of work. I can't bring you coffee. I can't wake you up. I can't not hate it when they tell me I can. I want to hurt. I love my pain. I love my despair. I am betrothed to heartbreak. I am married to despair. I am wed to bitterness. I am the children of disregard. I am beaten by my father. I am abused by my mother. I am hated by my sister. I am idolized by my brother. I am someone's hero. I am someone's villain. I can burn down your fucking house. I can be your big bad wolf. I can hide with you and make you safe. I am mad. I am your particular brand of ice cream. I like it here. I look at you in the supermarket. I run from you in the parking lot. I hear you talk to me in my sleep. I destroy your voice like an annoying bee. I think of you my toilet. I think of you my disease. I think of you my destination. I don't think I can make it. I think I am lost. I think I am so afraid of you. I think I am a liar. I think I am forgotten. I think I am a puppet. I think I am your fucking master. I think your strings look good on my fingers. I think you should like it when I tell you hello. I think I need you more than life. I think you are my obsession. I think you are the way I want to be. I think I need reform. I think I need a revolution. I used to be a little boy. I used to love goats. I used to make the wrong choices. I used to make all the right choices. I used to be in love. I used to be touched everyday. I used to have action figures. I used to be greedy. I used to love the way the sun burned my skin. I used to lust. I used to cry myself to sleep. I used to listen to my elders. I used to be spineless. I used to be innocent. I used to have a soul. I used to own the keys. I used to guard the doors. I used to have something of value. I used to have my purity. I used to have what I needed. I used to be safe. I used to be needed. I used to be a killer. I used to be a liar. I used to be touchable soft and winter fresh. I am little acid drops of bleach. I am wonderous specks of rainbows. I am the dreams you want to come to life. I am what you want. I am this, a number of times. I am your drugs without your damage. I am your emotions without your baggage. I am what you wished you could be again. I am your escape to the windows of fantasy. I am your surrender. I am your ticket back home. I am your way to where I see you really. I am what they don't know. I am reaching out. I am the freight train that will destroy your life. I am the intensity that burns me through tables. I am the hot pitch in your eyes. I am boiling in your sockets. I am the way life should be. I am frigidly cold. I need your arms. I need your blanket. I need you. I need you again. I need you with me. I need to be inside you again. I need to be with you again. I need life again. I need to leave again. I need to be higher. I need to be alive. I need to find somewhere else to sleep. I need to close my windows. I need to get my fucking car fixed. I need to make you mine again. I need to know what you really mean. I need to skip the small talk. I need to forget about foreplay. I need to make myself strong for you. I need to hold you up so you can breathe. I need to give my life to you. I need to save you. I want to know all of you. I want to know your name. I want you to move out of the way, please. I hate your manners. I hate your courtesy. I hate you. I want you to leave me alone. I wish you were dead. I wish your family would end your life. I wish I could breathe underwater. I wish I knew when the time was coming. I wish I was mature. I wish I could sing. I wish I knew a nice language. I wish I had talent. I wish someone would go out with me. I wish someone would wipe my brow with a wet towelette. I am the head of the class. I was that jerk who beat you. I am the fall that broke your leg. I am a catch. I am popular. I am the party star. I am attractive. I am well endowed. I am nothing to you, am I? I don't even know your name. I have to stop. But you feel so good there.. don't leave I am missing you so much. I am thinking of you all day. I am a ruthless desire. I am a broken dream. I am a shallow reject. I am a beggar. I am tired. I am still hungry. I am nothing more than another face. I am tired of this place. I am phonitically brillant. I am hot. I am a lone right now. I am overwhelmed by impeding tasks. I am nothing you want to read. I am so tired of the same old shit. I am a heartbreaker. I am a dreamer. I am alone. I am creative. I am inspired. I am crying, alone. I am wondering about everything. I am concerned about everything. I am tired of everything. I am hurting. I am burning hot. I am angry. I am unstoppable. I am venting. I am a broken glass slipper. I am days past. I am too tired to be that creative. I am blinded. I am so sorry. I am misunderstood, again. I am no more than a mirage. I am a worthless liar. I am alone. I am alone. I am alone. I am alone. I am moving on. I am moving on. I am leaving this place. I am never coming back. I am so sorry for what I did to you. I