echoing_thought unhinged i want i want to peel i want i want to peel my skin off i want i want to peel my skin off i want to peel my skin off with a with a with a razorblade i want 040426 ... birdmad vivisect 040426 ... monika I want more I want you echoes in my head I want this and that What don't I want? sadness, anger, hatred... go away 050328 ... unhinged . 050716 ... unhinged my wrist itches again the itch only steel can scratch 051005 ... unhinged om om_mani_peme_hum om mani padme hung padme hung suffering suffering is suffering suffering is a universal universal condition con dition ion ion om_mani_padme_hung om om om om hum hum hum hum let me liberate liberate liberate all those that are unliberated cultivate_compassion cultivate_compassion ssssssssion my enemy enemy enemy is my best stststst teacher lama lama lama lama make make make make peace peace peace peace cccccceeee right sssssppppeeeeecccchhhh speech sssspeechhhhh om_mani_peme_hum om_mani_padme_hung 061026 ... unhinged while there's some lines i just refuse to cross anymore, it's the first thing that pops into my head when the skin at my wrist starts to itch 080426 ... unhinged i want to pull pull pull my skin off today 080528 ... no reason and i'd like to pull out my insides maybe we could build a whole other being 080528 ... unhinged om_mani_padme_hum 100103 ... unhinged my skin itches today 100124 ... unhinged has been strong this week i wish i wasn't so sensitive sometimes i wish i didn't let myself get pushed around 101209 ... unhinged has been back lately. i feel the memory of the way the blade used to bite the skin of my left forearm. i push the thought away. but here it is again. i scratch compulsively. i stop; i'm ashamed. but really, this has always been about inexpressible intangible pain. it is welling up in me again from some deep hidden place. no matter how i try to cover it, it always comes out in the end. 160419 ... unhinged . (i scratched compulsively. the marks i left behind weren't satisfying enough. maybe it's time for some new_ink ) 170811 ... unhinged the cascade of bullshit empties into a pool of itchy skin lonely tired itchy skin that isn't satisfied from scratching 180510 ... unhinged hello old friend. what do you need? how can i help? 190513 ... unhinged new_ink needed 190521 ... unhinged you are a failure starting_over won't make a difference you failed at grad_school you failed at your career you failed at any relationship you've ever had you failed at holding on to the love the universe sent you (that the biggest failure of all no matter how you try to sugar coat that abortion) you are a failure that is where trying always leads why bother? 190820 ... unhinged itchy skin maybe later 200623 ... daf You're doing better than most. 230124 what's it to you? who go blather from