remembrance EECP I guess Alzheimer's would not be so bad. Seeing as how remembrance is what seems to damage me so. I think that even if I didn't remember you I would still miss you. I think that the part of me that is incomplete would bite me the way it does now. It would lash out and leave me dying in the gutter. I would beg for help, and I would find it. Sadly, I would know that the help I found could not truly fix what has been broken. Then I would be left again with only my memory. The memories of the parts without the complications of the situation. They existed in, but without being affected by, the situation. Such wonderful memories if only the "OUCH!" would ware through soon. Oh well, I suppose now I don't deserve good memories. After all, I do so enjoy pain. 021112 ... anno_salutis the sudden gush from corners once silent a pipe bursts and a steady unseen pulsing becomes a jagged stream his hands, once ruddy are whiter now, you suddenly recall them pushing poker chips across a makeshift table as he bit a cigar and said "all in." the dust that doesn't float upward from the sudden disturbance becomes mired in liquid, everything settles everything moves on. 141111 what's it to you? who go blather from