alcoholic splinken she's an alcoholic. she has beautiful hair and nice eyelashes. she lived across from me. she was all shy glances until nighttime. when it was dark out, she drank. when she drank, it was always mixed. but strong. toward the end of the summer she didn't really eat at all. she drank instead. she gained weight. she was fiercely shy during the day. at night, she drank. when she drank, she'd sit by me in the living room. she'd show me things she drew, things she wrote. she is fantastic at both. more so than her boyfriend, who would pout under the lamp while she talked to me. we tried to talk about broken families one night and he exploded at her: "you always tell those stories. you get drunk and you complain about your family." 001015 ... squirrel I'm suprised there's not more here. Are they all off drinking beer? 010122 ... j_blue everyone seems to think i am an acloholic, but i dont they site the frequency and volume i consume not the reasons i choose to drink my boyfriend cant go a day without smoking weed, refuses to stop smoking it, even when i offer to stop drinking booze, and still calls me an alcoholic i like to drink, i dont need it, but i like it, alot, i_am_not_an_alcoholic 010123 ... yummychuckle my dads an alchoholic. he just sounds so dumb when he's drunk...one night he picked me up from the movies drunk,a nd we were swerving all over the road and i tried to hop out, but he swung around kinda fast so i couldn't. my moms boyfriend is an alchoholic. He is a complete asshole...oh yeah, so is my grandfather (an alchoholic). and so WAS a close family friend. but he died from alchohol poisoning. fun, eh? 010601 ... marjorie potential 010825 ... Norm I dont care if its a disease... I love my alcoholism, I love my alcohol and I hate all of you. Why won't you just let me drink? I'm so bored. Why do I have to be sober. I'm so tired. Fuck your just making this harder on me. Punch me I swear I won't feel it. I'm invincible. I can't be harmed. So just give me a drink and we can all sit around and smile. You like to smile don't you? Well get me a drink and smile, stupid! 010825 ... nmb i'm an alcoholic. so they say. i know i'm a drug addict. one and the same, apparently. so now i'm clean and sober 3 & 1/2 years and my life fucking ROCKS! so I figure why mess with it by trying alcohol again...too much to lose. i used to live in hell. really. aa cliches are annoying as hell to me, but usually they're true. my dad's an alcoholic, and my brother though he's sober too, and my grandfather was and all my dad's sisters are. so i look at my little girl who is 2 and very cute, and i wonder if she'll be an alcoholic. if she does what i used to do i'll die! but what can you do? a lot of people i know died. from drugs and alcohol. mostly from drugs, i guess, because it takes longer to die from alcohol, but it's really horrid. 011031 ... guitar_freak I'm an alcoholic. I loved my alcohol and drugs too. Lots of good times. Fun, parties, everything was altered. Then I began to tell the truth. I couldn't stop drinking or using and if I didn't have it I went crazy. I was pissed off and I was angry with everyone. Every problem of mine was someone else's fault. I have relaped 5 times and every time it got worse and worse until I realized that I am an alcoholic and an addict and i couldn't stop on my own. Now my life is a lot better. A LOT. Your worst day sober is better than your best day drunk. 011117 ... Syrope people who overcome addictions are the most amazing and powerful people in the world. i'm lucky enough not to have been trapped in any, but everyone i know that is...can't escape. 020223 ... lady lunchbox he says i'm turning into one 020301 ... blurred-mad i'm just a drunk, alcoholics go to meetings 020301 ... misstree i ain't no shtinking alkihallik. i dun need ta drink. juss pash me da whiskey befir i get shober. seriously, though, i tend to have a drink or two every dawy. but i work in a BAR. i don't miss it when i don't drink, and it's only rarely in excess. pot, however, is a different matter, and i bless and curse the circumstances that have kept me brom having enough money to buy a bag. if it's nearby, i'm stoned, period. funny how that works. 020301 ... yummychuckle i won't be one. 020302 ... Valentine I know a woman who has a broken heart, because her husband chose a bottle over her. How could you love poison more than the only person who loves you? 021117 ... Torch i'm probably a borderline alcoholic 021118 ... Lost I am slowly be comeing my mother. An alcoholic. 030728 ... a sweet girl Oh, that's me... 030729 ... Syrope you know of more than one, Valentine 030729 ... AntiJester Im not a drug addict, at least not yet, but_I_so_could be. Both my Grandparents were alcoholics, in a sense. My grandfather would go to work at 7 am, at lunch go to the bar, and not come home till 2 am. He did this for years. He ran over and killed a man once, but this was back in the day when drunk driving was the excuse for the crime, not a crime itself. Did I mention he owned the buisness? My grandmother picked up the slack. She drank, a lot, but I never saw or heard of it causeing problems for her, like she never endangered herself, or let her family down, unlike my grandfather, who died at 60 from a emphazima and a bum liver. My uncle is heading down the same path as my grandmother. So yes, I could be an addict, quite easily. But I wont be. Some things you stop doing for yourself, and you keep from going back for others. 030730 ... calum My ma and pa were both alcoholics and I totally agree with the idea that no one else is to blame for mistakes of one's own making, but it really is their fucking fault that I got hooked. And goddamn did I get hooked .It started off the usual way; I was ten years old smoking some crack with my friends and leering at bitches, you know, the usual shit. Anyway things got worse and worse and before I knew it I was on to the hard stuff; ben and jerry's, 70% chocolate, crotchless underwear. Those things cost man and once you are addicted there aint nothing gonna stop you from getting your hands on those frillies. So It was a good thing that my pa kept a sub automatc machine gun under the bed just in case those damn jehovah's witness people ever managed to get in the house. Anyway I had the fear. I was in withdrawl man. Sweating, Hallucinating all the time;and always those godamn images of liquor soaked frillies would come back and make me cry out. It was fucked up . So anyways I take the piece and walk straight into the first shop I find. I don't remember too clear but I think it was called Hassiddic Ely's World of Gerkins or something like that. You know just some white boy shit. There this freaky looking guy behind the desk- massive sideburns and a huge beard and I say to him stick your fucking hands in the air mother fucker or I am going to make an abract painting on the wall using nothing but your brains and these crayons i got here in my pocket. He says somethething funny like "ivy" or "oivy" and I'm like shit this is england man don't anybody speak no goddamn english anymore. Stick your fucking hands up I says to him and I'm like trying to mime it for him you know. So he sticks his hands up and I see in one of his hands this long green thing. I aint never seen nothing like it man. It's got these bumps on it and it's kinda shaped like those things that women use to go up into space. But man that thing touched some part of me and the minute I sees it I get all you know. Agitated. Anyways he must have seen that I had kinda lost it and he comes out from behind the counter and he's trying to get me to put down the piece he saying that we can work it out man in that strange ass voice. But he's still got that thing in his hand and I'm so confused. I Says man I know what your'e going to do with that thing and godamn some part of me really wants it too but don't come any closer man don't do it or i'll fuckin blow you away. I swear as long as I live I'll never see a man look so confused as that guy did when I said it. He just kinda lunges at me with that thing man and I just pulled the fuckin trigger. I am writing to tell you all that addiction is bad man, real bad. If you are a drinker and want kids I say to you just think how you'll feel when you find out that your son has been caught holding up a delicatessen wearing nothing but a pair of crotchless leather biker pants and that he will have to spend the rest of his life playing checkers and watching daytime t.v. in a home for the mentally impressionable. 030731 ... calum just think about it man. 030731 ... ... everyone i know has confronted me about having a drinking problem. this is a toast to them. cheers. 030801 ... Daydreamer...x =My Mum 040702 ... 14 xXx My Mum. shes made my life something i never wanted it to be like. Its good when shes not drunk, you can talk to her, but a few hours later she will completley portray herself as another character. Shes driven a car before drunk, nearly killed half my family, and is constantly depressed. I used to think 'it will all be over soon' and that i can move out my house and move on- but nothing will change. leaving it all behind wont make it disapear. Were in debt, yet my family is so strong- all of us are clever and mature enough to deal with this situation. I dont think anyone understands how hard it is. im not guna sit here and argue about how my life is much worse than others, but i hate it when people have 'problems' which are so pathetic, i wish i could put them in my shoes for a day. Im guna try and make the most out of my life anyway, my mum isnt going to hold me back- whats the point in being depressed, wheres it going 2 get you in life? If your in the same sort of situation, dont give up xxx 040702 ... Fool both parents of mine are alcoholics. they have tried 2 kill themselves many times too. selfish? 040717 ... puredream my_father_the_alcoholic 040717 ... laced hi, my name is Jason i'm an addict and an alcoholic 070804 ... angie I saw one of the most haunting Intervention episodes on Sunday about an alcoholic mom named Leslie. It was really sad...I can't stop thinking about it. 071204 what's it to you? who go blather from