underwater jess Everything is so loud Why does it piss me off I want to hit her Her faces When she’s mad I could scream She thinks she not psycho She’s just fucked up Underwater now Can’t breathe Give me meaning Give me air Take the pain away Don’t let me fall Don’t let me fall Will it ever stop Insane and slowly drowning Thoughts are no longer clear I live my life so confused The dreams lead me to it It was all my fault in the end Underwater now Can’t breathe Give me meaning Give me air Take the pain away Don’t let me fall Don’t let me fall It stopped drowning out the memories I can be a bitch if I want It fucks up more and more They take advantage when I behave He thinks he knows everything When he fucks it all up Everything is my fault Am I still beautiful? I don’t know anymore With such ugly thoughts I want to fall asleep forever Underwater now, Can’t breathe I fucked up again It is no longer my fault He thought he knew too much She was just fucked up Or psycho Call it what you want It was them not me It’s too late... Give me meaning Give me air You can’t take the pain away I am listening tell me how…show me how I am at the edge Without a second though Underwater…you let me fall 000112 ... skiblu looks green in a dirty pond 000724 ... somebody when i o.d. blow my head off underwater 000919 ... startfires one time my friend carmen o.d.'d on some weird pills and she was at the pool and everybody thought she was gonna die. and from her comatose state she started yelling, "just slide me in the pool! just slide me in the pool!" and though i think everyone wanted to they didn't. they just wrote all over her t-shirt: just slide me in the pool. 001031 ... Mel afraid of water for a good reason? 010422 ... truth i love you because you are brave, intelegent and afraid of loosing something that you never will loose, it's called friendship, real friends can forgive, real friends can trust, real friends will give and take love. but if the scales are uneven, this becomes yet another control drama, this is not friendship, just a struggle with yourself which your friend really and truly can not help you with. if you can respect that then the scales will become more and more balenced. 010422 ... Arwyn it's like everything lately has been underwater. Slowed, muttled, unclear. I don't know what to do or think anymore, and everytime I seem to get close, an obstacle arises. I feel like I'm trying run underwater because I haven't quite yet figured out how to swim. *sighs* Please say it gets better. 020525 ... on the bus i tried to breathe underwater through my skin as if i was deep into my meditation tried to meditate in a dream while on a moving swing but the swing kept breaking and i was saved from the fall, twice once by a man with a flower design etched into his face without a name the second time by a savour whose name we all know far too well. i tried to sing many a song without my voice through the stereo to you tried to heal listined to the wisdom of the trees of lives long past and of new ones to come. i tried to dance with ether 071026 ... on the bus i tried to breathe underwater through my skin as if i was deep into my meditation tried to meditate in a dream while on a moving swing but the swing kept breaking and i was saved from the fall, twice once by a man with a flower design etched into his face without a name the second time by a savior i tried to sing many a song without my voice through the stereo with you tried to heal listined to the wisdom of the trees of lives long past and of new ones to come. i tried to dance with ether 071026 ... . https://youtu.be/-H0L8L66DZE?si=8QcRTRVGt9ytkbuM 240603 what's it to you? who go blather from