secure Tank how i feel when you are lying asleep next to me and your hand is holding mine. i feel wrapped in you in a literal and metaphorical sense and that brings me an inner calm... 010317 ... trixie somehow I felt perfectly secure in my little apartment, all drugged up and out of pain, just laying there on my red sheets with all the lights out, admiring the way my skin looked in the glow of the tv. what a wonderfully still moment that was easy and seamless, even though everyone thought this was such a terrible time, I was fine when I could eat my dinner with the Cosby Show and All In The Family. And when the warm wave of the drugs came over me, my eyes would dry and my brain could soften and my thoughts would all say that I was okay, I am going to be okay, and I am. I actually am. 030523 what's it to you? who go blather from