(_) that my legs don't automatically bend when i let go. i lean forward and have to hold the bar again, but that's all. not crashing to the floor in a heap, like it used to seem i would do if given the chance. more balance than i've ever had, ever. i am so happy. i don't want to know what it means. holy_fucking_fuck, maybe more impossible things can happen. whatever did this to me, it gives me hope.

[crying with unfounded joy]
phil He danced for the zhombies, and they showed great pity on him. 051216
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