i andrew@benicetobears.com sometimes i think it's a word, sometimes i think it's a letter, but invariably it just ends up being me. 980819 ... sage like this. 980821 ... eric i am yellow too... 980903 ... jeff i ... personal pronoun ... an act of referring to one as self. 980905 ... sarah i am one with nothing 981021 ... Pacia take up entirely too much of my focus. 981107 ... Dallis am. Am I now? Such selfishness. Just cant stop talking about yourself can you. No, I cant. You know you Want to. I know. 981118 ... a want to 981120 ... Adi I blathe therefore I am... 981121 ... oh yeah need a break from reality. 990121 ... Danny everything...not much at all really, but everything 990209 ... adam imply nothing, assume nothing, trust nothing, rely on nothing but am scared of everything. 990212 ... Demi Monde i am the world. when i die, the world will no longer exist, because i will no longer be there to experience it. of course, this is an entirely subjective POV: the same is true also of you. 990301 ... Owen Ty Kahle does not see does not wonder does not wish does not care does not accept does not love 990305 ... kyo can't see how I was ever underground since I always wanted everybody to notice me 990328 ... daxle the most boring word in the english language sometimes I'm embarrased when I realize how much I use it 990414 ... ceorl used to think i knew who i was, but found it takes some knowing 990418 ... allie am? 990501 ... mareberry a small word which sums up our entire existence in one breath... it is who we are. we shall never escape the chains of the word, the life, the soul. 990505 ... leese should really go to sleep 990514 ... jake enk. am the point from which all of you exist. that is how i see things backwards. 990603 ... suzan don't want to begin to admit what you mean to me, without some sort of reassurance that you feel the same way i do. 990604 ... tarin is the product of a brain filter that by nature works against itself. 990605 ... bfnh only to be typed in lower case, those who do otherwise are @$$holios 990617 ... bfnh ok, maybe not total assholios 990628 ... benji am a process. I am becoming Benjamin Bradley. 990723 ... flowers too like boys... grammatically speaking 990729 ... BUTTerfield8 I totally agree with bfnh 990729 ... Legion ...is a fundamental misconception. ... to begin with the notion oneself, an oxymoron, as the primary concept of identity, is to begin with the most fundamental fallacy, conceptually embedded in the language one learns to speak from birth. for there is not *one* self, there are many selves, each saying *i*, each oblivious to the others. ... is this one that says *i will get up early in the morning* the same one that won't get up? is the one that says *i will stop smoking right after this pack* the same one the buys the next pack? the one that says *i love you* the same one that kills with a word or a look? are they not difffent ones altogether, each claiming *i*, each wearing the same face and bearing the same name? ... our language perpetuates the misconception. *i will...* is already a lie. to have will is to be able to do, but how can one do anything if in one moment *i* wants to do it, and in the next moment *i* doesn't want to because it's too difficult or has become meaningless. will is a function of unity. ... And he asked him, What is thy name? And he answered saying, My name is Legion: for we are many. 990731 ... adam suck 990831 ... jonn think this is insane. A healthy insanity, however that fosters more creativity than its creators know. They knew it would catch on, but onto what? What makes this insane. i forget, i do... 991004 ... Pete first person, singular used to justify everything 991022 ... i i 991103 ... Colleen there is no "i" in the word team... but there is the way I spell it. 991111 ... Alexander Beetle I am paranoid of being caught doing something illegal that I didn't know was wrong 991116 ... why me i quite egocentrical don't you think? i 991122 ... valis no, no "i" in team. but there is a "me". 991207 ... Starbuck I think, therefor I am. 991207 ... nameless why does I spelled with capitals? thats because I write about I and I is the center of MY world. they only added "am" to the I maybe because a simple I was too simple, people often mistaking to mix simple with boring and therefor "am" added to the I. I=me am=being 991217 ... setsuna meiou I oft wonder who I am in some strange life was I the same and shunned as I am now or was I an empress and revered by countless subjects or maybe this is just my first trip around and I am new and I have to learn for myself and maybe next time I won't fuck up as bad 000101 ... bee the word turns people off. i don't care. when you use it, subconsciencely, i know i wanna smack ya. 000104 ... candace is so small yet it means so much. sort of. when i write it there's a window so small inside and if your eyes can focus hard enough you'll see my magic there. 000106 ... deb i fucked up today i think i tried to say hello but you just flashed me plastic smiles or pretended that you didn't see i was talking to chris my friend's gay friend and you looked at least a little jealous as though i shouldn't smile with him but he smiled back -toothily and real- should i be the mad one? i'm not- instead i stare at the pac-man treats head_down_eyes_up on the way to our dear VI 000110 ... tuiviq once dated a girl who was in love with I. She forgot that to be a couple, she would also need to love WE. That was impossible... I could not share with WE. She goes from one partner to the other, always lonely and wondering why? WAKE-UP b---! self centered people live alone in their mind! . 000121 ... bane why should i deserve to be capitalized? 000124 ... ime iii mememe I ME i me 000127 ... power through passion am here what more can i say? what more can i know? who knows? but it sure is fun 000311 ... a am done 000313 ... amy it's not you. you are wonderful. it is me, and my life. it is a little hard to figure out. i am happy to have... more time to see you in. i will know what i feel... it is already a warm line. 000317 ... Midnight Bliss am a whirlwind of emotion i am a hurricane of despair. i am forever burdened. i am the one with the short red hair. i am me, and i am exactly what i want to be. i am myself, and no one else... i am an individual with and individuals mind. i think for myself, taste by myself, feel for myself, i learn by myself. i am me, deal with it. you can't change me, no one can. 000319 ... girl cant trust anyone anymore, and its scares me. 000326 ... meggie blather sometimes. 000331 ... girl i am a girl. i have a story. (...and they lived happily ever after) 000409 ... awake am all that i have left...the rest has been thrown to the birds 000410 ... Tink I am Tink, I be mildly amused 000420 ... Uqbar or the curious habits of the modern word processor, programmed to automatically capitalize. 000504 ... WoNDERGIRL am waiting patiently for three more letters to come to me and make us (you eloquent smashing young man) 000520 ... silentbob the universe is unique as i see it. no one else sees it EXACTLY the way i see it. which can only mean one thing. without me in the world and the universe, the world and the universe as i see it would cease to be. MEANING I am the god of my own universe. and i must find people to believe in me so i can continue the struggle of life love and the pursuit of happiness. 000601 ... mungo i drive my killer car and pray that i live 000610 ... silentbob i have this ripping gut-wrenching heart throbbing sensation going all the way through me from the bottom of my stomach to the top of my throat, swirling through my head. i miss her so much sometimes that i think i am nothing without her. 000619 ... Mimi I wish I could be more like ME! 000621 ... maccie am pointy nose, i am skin and bones but it motherfuckin' makes me try... 000626 ... eruth be eye spy a revolution...or shall i say i despise the lies of historians wrapped in an slithery yet enchanting package...eye candy for the masses...most similar to that of razor bladed halloween "treat"...just believe the kids wont notice as their pleasant eyes twinkle to their own demise...why dont you just pick on somebody your own size...you jerks...i am sorry you recieved countless swirlees in the lower school bathroom...i am sorry your teeth were all funky looking and you had to sport braces for 7 years...so she dumped you senior year...get over it...she had bad breath disease anyway...eye spy 000710 ... Jeffrey am a platform for the historians . . . and you are an angry young man . . . spy this masser Be . . . i am selfish am concerned for the welfare of the candy eating masses but am not alone there is this voice in my head sayin eeeeeeeeeeweooiuuuyuowwwww get out more man who am i i scream you scream we all screeeammm man can you feel it coming down through the keys i am sending it at you it is your rage it is me it is I i AM HE WAS i am not I am but satisfied fully in the knowledge that he is me .. . . . . what i am is not what i am not is hungry my words have fulfilled me who is i who is 000710 ... kim have to go 000712 ... Mariah am selfish and lonely. am jealous, bothered, and shaky. need off this whirlwind ride of in betweens and ups and downs. just need a break. 000726 ... ladyg when you're not here, it is not we, but I 000815 ... wolfman i is the essence of individuality... saying i am i will i love all are proclomation of ones individuality. but never ever WANT to be an individual. individuals die. 000908 ... power through passion just a letter the strong silent type solitary and simple but packed with so much ten million bursting concepts a handful of brilliant precepts each fortified by a thousand case studies what is the purpose of this i? is i a means for itself or a platform of servitude? one i can give rise to a tsunami another i can gently wash through the deep blue waves of history but which i should be me today? fragments of identity some forced by others some created by nature some adopted by passing fancy i does it my way just like the man with the big band says 000927 ... lolita i once wanted to be everything to everyone scurrying right only to discover i should have drifted left sleeping in the gutter only to find i should have accepted the offer to bed feeding the strays only to find i shouldn't let them get attached making my ties stronger only to find i should have severed them long ago.... 001024 ... Rebecca I want to cry, I want to die, but what I want doesn't matter. I am not physically ill, but still... the pain is real, I cannot see the light which is ahead of me. I'm in too deep, but cannot fall. Yet I can't walk, for I must crawl. The mud is deep, the air is thick. I am in quicksand, sinking quick. And though there are those who care, I cannot find them anywhere. 001024 ... god i am god 001024 ... *tammie stand beside myself, cowering in fright 001025 ... god no, really 001025 ... me need a psychiatric evaluation. i am crazy. i am blabbering. i willgo. 001113 ... kitten on drugs need to go to bed, but i'm blathering!!! 001205 ... Greg against I. 001213 ... god of bad brains no, i really, really am god. 001213 ... Remiel I know I believe in nothing but it is my nothing Ni! 001214 ... experiment I am alone. 001223 ... allaboutme Who isn't, really? 001223 ... yes me I am the is-ness of body-mine now, here or elsewhere occupying this space very slowly, urgently calling for meaning for this I or U 001226 ... JACKIE I AM WHO I AM I CAN BE SAD I CAN BE HAPPY I CAN LOVE YOU I CAN HATE YOU I CAN HURT I CAN HEAL I AM WHO I AM DO U WANT THE GOOD OF ME OR WOULD YOU PREFER THE BAD OF ME ITS UP TO YOU FOR I AM SEVERAL THINGS;) **I AM URE DREAM EVERYTHING U NEED** 001228 ... evolutionending its all me me me with you 001230 ... Quiggz just a letter or word.... it's the concept that really matters, and that changes from person to person... then again, isn't that why this page is here? When is it proper grammar to say "I is"? "I is the letter after H" 010101 ... dailyallowance exist only in my mind's "I" 010106 ... hoodrat ...am freezing in this cubicle. Searching for something. What? A sign of life? Humility? Why has life turned so cold? Children kill themselves and others (it's not the music- fucking Jerry Springer Parents, that's what- still I dislike that Eminem character). Kruder and Dorfmeister are telling me that it's all in my mind...maybe so. Who the fuck are they? Never mind that. So I'm looking, freezing in frozen cube. Looking for signs of life for honesty loyalty peace in myself 010114 ... kx21 You can only reach the state of real piece of MIND without " I ". 010114 ... kim i am who i am and nothing can change that i cant be who you want me to i know that i cant so take your u's keep them to yourself cause i am just i 010114 ... meat beat manlyfesto oh yeah! and did i mention that on very rare occasions such as this I've even been known to beat my ever lovin' manly potted meat product 010119 ... bobster most of ya are all saddened w/ all your troubles and you need to learn that your troubles aren't all that bad! geez! 010122 ... vinny you are the one. Dony lie... Vinny... The one who, the one speekin is the one who looks apon the screen. You however are the guilty party who incriminated two of which one me who did nothing wrong. Dont spread rumors as@#ole 010122 ... Vinny Taplin Everything is anything and anything isnt everything. All that is known comes from a source. All that has been passed is not passed though thin air but through a means of communication. Unknown to me the words that have been spoken about a friggen new years party at Vinny Taplins house. I am Vinny. If you dont believ me call me in two time zones away. I have ears and you who posted it knows what they are looking at. Busted. Why try to tarnish the reputation of one (or two) when you know that is cannot rust. I dont even live there anymore-dont talk sh#@. I know... 010122 ... Deniedu lie cheat steal and judge 010123 ... mimeruu "am i in earth, in heaven, or in hell? sleeping or waking? mad or well advised? known unto these, and to myself disguised."-comedy of errors(shakespeare) 010131 ... lalalala i is no longer we we are not together we are forever apart. 010205 ... Uriah Hate you for your suburban life. Mommy Daddy, and little sister's bike. Minivans and school dances. Training bras and first chances. Plastic symbols of the everyman dream. Dysfunctional, apathetic families. I am me, not a drone. I will always be alone. 010207 ... Lady Morgaine ...have dreams and goals, fears and obstacles. ...have known the pain of unrequited love. ...have felt the joy of unconditional love. ...have experienced pleasure and pain. ...know the tendernes a kiss can bring. ...know the fear a slap can give. ...am human. 010221 ... kx21 I think therefore I exist... I_am_nothing therefore I see Everything... 010221 ... florescent light Up until this year I was (literally) afraid of girls who wore lipstick. 010222 ... Jae eye to i 010222 ... TheShovel reach down through the everlasting throat that is my pee pee; Tomorrow, I shall be seen to be done, and in any other case, I shall retract the folds of my encasing, and you shall bear witness to the sloppy heavens contained therein 010302 ... jerrym i am lost, but i love this. This is fun. i wander and it makes me wonder -there are a lot of i's here. nobody asked you! wondering is wandering with a strategy i call it curiosity. i got to go. -see you later. nobody asked you. -see you later anyway. 010305 ... mikey am chaos am unpredictable am sexual am sensual am affraid of the unknown am lonely am depressed am addicted to blather am saying again i am addicted to blather am telling you i think i really am am saying things just to say things am even annoying myself! am logical am wondering can a human be logical? am thinking that i at least try am wanting to hold YOU and you know who you are so badly that it makes me sick. am an enigma am wishing i had more then 40 bucks in the bank right now! am hoping i get this great job am leaving now 010306 ... misspudding am was will be but more importantly... is 010307 ... nocturnal i is? that's bad grammar. 010307 ... Sol the eye cannot see the eye I cannot see myself prove i exist 010309 ... mikey you just wrote this. which is a totaly obvious no brainer answer heehee 010309 ... johnny west i are what you is, just as jesus sang 'bout squirrels doin' the hibbity jibbity. ya still feel like some applesauce? 010309 ... silver I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice cream!!! 010320 ... silver factor I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice cream!!! 010320 ... DannyH and I will see you through. - Bob Marley 010321 ... kx21 I am what I am I am who I am I am who I see I am I am what I think I am I am who you see I am I am what you think I am 010324 ... nocturnal hmm, this is disturbing. when I read that last thing, I thought of that eminem song. I hate that guy. well, I must confess I do enjoy "Stan" but THAT'S IT! other than that the guy is beyond ridiculous, and not in the good, cute way either. 010324 ... mmm i am not you, i will not be you, i will never b who u want me to be. 010324 ... vampers i love weapons 010324 ... roel i dance i sing i dream i love i 010326 ... owl i am always afraid. 010327 ... vampers sit here in the school's library posting cause im addicted to this thing 010328 ... Sol Dont be silly of course i dont exist 010328 ... Sol YOU are dreaming YOU are reading this YOU are interpreting this YOU are thinking who is to say you are not all that exists? 010328 ... keeper i realize i am naive...playing head games with myself...acting like a little kid...selfish...wanting what i can't have...not seeing what he does...not realizing what i have...frustrating myself...hurting myself...possibly hurting others...i need to stop...not sure how...but i know i do...this has got to be the end...i dont want to hurt anymore...i dont want to cry anymore...i no longer wish to be envious and jealous...those are awful attributes for a person to have...i dont want to be known as whore or a bitch...i dont want to think of myself as one...no more 010329 ... mikey need to get to sleep but i cant sleep!!! 010330 ... lifeandlight I... I am my stream of thoughts, my cognitive process. I have no real evidence that anything exists, yet I belive it does... may as well, nothing else to go with. It does seem quite tenuous that any of you exist. All I have to go on it a string of words on a monitor.... yet You and I and human perhaps..... I guess I'll run with it, nothing else to go with. Question? If I am my thoughts. When my thoughts change, am I still me? 010330 ... Chrity go to: i_have_words 010408 ... elisabeth I am scared of what might happen, I am afraid of your responce, I am happy with the friends that i have found. I finally found out who i am I finally know. yippee 010411 ... TheGreatIam I thought I knew who I was until I reacted to another person in ways I did not recognize in myself. So I obviously do not know who I am. It is also obvious that others do not really know who I am; but as I try to discover more about myself through my interactions with others, I am more like who I think others think I am than I think I am. 010426 ... rebel nose, mouth, ears... etc 010427 ... redspark comes before E except after C 010428 ... god i am the alpha dnd the omega 010430 ... god i am the alpha and the omega 010430 ... god am the zombie woof 010430 ... Alexander Beetle it is not coincidence that it can also mean 1 010507 ... redspark I have a friend named Anna. I'v known her sence i was in the 7th grade, im in the 8th grade now so it hasnt been really to long but it seens like its been forever because we have been through so much togeatehr. im so glad to have her, shes the best friend you could ever ask for, shes been there for me through thick or thin, shes always there to make me smile. im so glad to be her friend. go to love (click on it) 010509 ... raeffer its actually i written backwards 010510 ... wes the idea of the Self. a misconception that the universe revolves around it. the first gate of your personal filter. the separation of One into 6 billion. the space between me and you. 010522 ... nemo i am a waste of space 010605 ... Byrnes i alone love you, i alone tempt you, i alone love you. 010606 ... dustessa i feel i am where i've always wanted to be, on the road to becoming, in the sea of endurance, we can love with empathy and *be* who we *are*... 010609 ... rubydee why does word always turn my well-intention "i" into "I"? if i felt so important i'd remember to hit the shift key myself 010609 ... User24 i agree. i also hate the way Coreldraw always capitalises the first letter of a sentance, cause i do a lot of design work, and some things simply look better in lowercase; eg [-h a c k e r-] looks better than [-H a c k e r-] i think anyway. 010609 ... congz I think therefore I am, I am therefore I am paid....... 010621 ... black-dyed gel product I feel like being mean to people for no reason today 010624 ... //// i miss you. i miss our friendship. i need it back more than anything. back to way things were. help me. i dont want to be bitter, hurt, and angry. i just want it back. 010701 ... baby satan i'm watching all of you. so stay away form all that wholesome shit and stir up some trouble! 010701 ... baby satan "from"! not "form"! damn every penis that ever lived. 010701 ... black-dyed gel product I've sworn off thinking about getting a girlfriend, and thinking of girls I know as anthing more than platonic relations. In other words, I'm tired of trying to find love. It's not out there for me, so I simply give up. 010702 ... genevieve I love you black-dyed gel product 010714 ... chaos am the girl with the most cake 010716 ... sykoze I dont really exist. I am just the composite of what others think of me. I am an integrated part of society, doomed to never leave. I am trapped inescapably. I am not. 010718 ... gigabyte or other wiaeky known as jamonky i suck i free from nothing? my from differ place like weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? hy mi namy iz twee 010718 ... illya23b illya23b 010719 ... caveman I know a man named Senior Wiggley who only dreams of herion and fat nuns... 010729 ... genevieve don't know where to go from here 010801 ... TERMINATOR WHO THA FUCK ARE YOU? 010801 ... TERMINATOR WHO THA FUCK ARE YOU? 010801 ... User24 hmmm, not only in caps, but posted twice, that's gotta rate highly on the_annoying_scum_sucking_mutant_scale 010809 ... me the_annoying_scum_sucking_mutant_scale ??? 010809 ... mellon i think, therefore i am a waffle 010811 ... marz102984 i cant stand people who type in all caps all the time. 010819 ... french i like to stand up for myself, but sometimes i have a problem doing so. And i am so happy when i do stand up for me. 010820 ... your mom patty 010820 ... marjorie ayn rand- anthem quotes. "I am. I think. I will." "It is my eyes which see, and the sight of my eyes grants beauty to the earth. It is my ears that hear, and the hearing of my ears gives its song to the world. It is my mind which thinks, and the judgement of my mind is the only searchlight that can find the truth. It is my will which chooses, and the choice of my will is the only edict I must respect." "Whatever road I take, the guiding star is within me; the guiding star and the loadstone point the way. They point in but one direction. They point to me." "I know not if this earth on which I stand is the core of the universe or if it is but a speck of dust lost in eternity. I know not and I care not. For I know what happiness is possible to me on earth. And my happiness needs no higher aim to vindicate it. My happiness is not the means to any end. It is the end. It is its own goal. It is its own purpose." "Neither am I the means to any end others may wish to accomplish. I am not a tool for their usse. I am not a servant for their needs. I am not a bandage for their wounds. I am not a sacrifice for their altars. " "I am a man. This miracle of me is mine to own and keep, mine to guard, and mine to use, and mine to kneel before!" "And now I see the face of god, and I raise this god over the earth, this god whom men have sought since men came into being, this god who will grant them joy and peace and pride. this god, this one word: I." 010825 ... everything i said i wasnt became 010915 ... Ishtitoon I am fooling myself! 010917 ... stars I'm not the kind of person you think I am. I'm not the antichrist or the iron man. 010922 ... rah me myself and I I I I I I I I I want this I did that I love you I hate you I am goin to kill you I I I I I 011002 ... MadCat Me, myself and I Three persons in one body 011008 ... Jesse I-ness, me-ness we are not our name,our country. We are we. 011009 ... reitoei who am I to take a letter all for my self. I'm just cells. IIIIIIIII. I'm best, I'm here I is mine. so selfish. this body known as rei is not worthy of the I. lose the ego 011020 ... general direction i love grape jelly 011020 ... foolonthehill capitalize what's important - because its you and you're important. i don't usually bother. 011106 ... me? ...need to 'cher' :)! 011115 ... CJ I am me and I am Carly-Jo 011123 ... ClairE "i" isn't a word--it's a letter and makes me think of Lisa who is a whole world unto herself. 011126 ... anon ... makes it easy to figure out who is being referred to. The fact that there are many thought bodies within the one is irrelevant. 011127 ... Matthew We want what, we don’t have, and what we don’t have, in all it’s horror and beauty is the life of a stream around the rock stuck in the stream bed. I am here. Where is it that I am, (who [1 * 0 = 0] what) is it that I am? I suffer underneath the self-same sky, knowing my real not-suffereing, now, I... as a relative object, Buddha not-self, not, I... & to desire & to suffer, well, quite, sick & to lie awake & heer, my tears utter “now I am what? I fall & cleanse, nothing other... So the practice of Zazen, and I don’t know when but to sit in my mind as my mind sits in me I can write it and describe it, but VERY HARD for I to KNOW it. The love & charity, hate & poverty Almost retributive, I want to leave is Moving I--other, only now; when ONE is present When is ONE present? When is ONE not present? Or perhaps.. Who, What, Where, When, How, are ONE interrogative Why! BECAUSE! Yes I write this stuff.... the worst part about it is that it actually makes perfect non-sense... I can see how people would think I was trying to be cryptic. No... I am just trying to be here... And surely if I see the Buddha... I’ll torture him to death... As I am doing.... What! Don’t! Do! Me! (I am)(itchy) * (I am)(cold) = (I am )squared * itchy(cold) itchy(cold) = (I am)squared alright... Philosophically speaking I like Satre’s preliminary idea of ‘neant’. The self is, what it is not. Everything that we see and talk about and feel about and interact with is..... Wait The true self is what it is not The self is not a tree with dead branches Therefore the self is the tree with vibrant leaves this is the central weirdness for me. How can something be what it is not. Now I’m going to sit... later im going to talk about drugs.... Well... I know what drugs are... they’re bad for me!... I have resigned to never mix up my fun with my spirituality. You read about Tim Leary and co. sitting and realizing their affinity with shit... Fact of the matter is that when im on any drugs (don’t matter how hard) my ego swells to gigantic proportions, all I can think about is myself, and how everything pertains to me... In that state it becomes very hard to stop thinking... I like drugs sometimes.... but sometimes I don’t... But there are realizations that have occured to me under the influence of drugs that I simply can’t ignore. The fact being that the ideas were not a result of the drugs cause the ideas were already there... I just had to remember... Acid and Mesceline allowed me to realize how peculiar humans were, and see us in our beautiful brutality. Acid allowed me to see humanity thus see part of myself. I think that drugs can sometimes allow certain people’s biological self see a proverbial finger pointing to something other then what we sense. But that is all. In fact I think it can fuck up certain peoples ability to actually realize their own true being. So while it is done and can be useful for what it does, it is not necessary and people should be made aware of unreality of the situation. And in one way it is very unreal, but in another it is all there is and is dy definition, most real! About the universe That the universe as object is similar to a fractal, and that our particular senses and states of thought have very particular ways of interpreting patterns of energy like trees, energy that composes every human awareness. I mean really think what scientists are saying when they look at the matter that we are made of. All that stuff they “discover” about the properties of sub-atomic particles are the very particles that cause any and all biological thought. But that it seems like sub-atomic particles are not alive in themselves (though “life” is an arbitrary definition). These sub atomic particles make up atoms and molecules. Molecules make our bodies and all things in our environment. These things in our environment look, feel, smell, taste and sound in a particular way... A human way. There are worlds inside of us and we are part of the worlds outside of us, but that no matter what level the world is on it’s the same world inside, that is outside. Furthermore that my thoughts on this are too human and miss the point. Maybe that as we study our physical world we truly do learn more about ourselves. But that eventually reason gives rise to contradictions or paradoxes are just leaves it incomplete. So one must make that quantum leap to death before death. The “Who’s” The “who’s” live on a planet, that is in a galaxy, which is in a large amount of space. That large space is the space between two gluons in an atom that composes part of your left pinky fingernail. The one thing all these worlds have in common is their existence in time and their nothingness in no-time. When we die we so too does time die. Our awareness plummeting ever quicker to meet the end of time and space, we become forever, whilst everyone still here on our particular world sees us buried in the ground. The true sadness is our sadness, at not being able to interact on our particular plane of my bedroom, of my house at 8 Chartwell Ct., Fredericton, New Brunswick, Canada, northern hemisphere of Earth which is somewhere in the milky way galaxy, which is in all “worlds in worlds” that composes ONE and NONE, the UNI-VERSE or ( ) (short for “not universe”) ADAM Perhaps when He was in the garden of Eden, he ate the apple of time, and was born, himself as distinct from God. To be innocent is to not know right from wrong... To die is to become innocent, to go back to the garden of Eden and God. To not distinguish between yourself and God. Though as always subjective self holds on to his will so stubbornly. He must make himself empty and poor in order to be the wind through the trees, or like the boy typing at his computer. And it is truly wondrous that some humans have sense to be. I find no reason to suppose that we in our most reflexive self-awareness should do anything other then what humans do naturally. Yet it remains that for whatever reason, a thought that is before thought is within us and without us has been given as a gift. “The gift says, do not be afraid. Go about your business as you will, theorize, pontificate, love and leave etc. but in the end or the beginning you are in me and I am in you.” When this is fully realized you will see no reason to hurt your fellow man because he is you. You might by mistake hurt someone, and people will hurt you, but it is really just the incidental workings of time, and so you must forgive what people do with their free will. You will all return to me and your nightmare will be over with. Aliens And what about those aliens. Well aliens that could possibly interact with us on our plane in a similar enough fashion to us would probably be in a similar predicament. 011207 ... WingedSerpent cogito ergo sum for better or worse 011207 ... ever meditating non cogito ergo buddha i-less 011207 ... Mu! byah 011215 ... TK Apparently I don't know my alphabet nor for that matter can I count *L* Here go to "Anyone" to see one great big blunder 011231 ... Rebecca In the darkness of my soul, I sit alone. Not really alone, the force of life within me I know as God watches me, but does not speak. Are you angry with me? 020121 ... Rebecca I love you Jim 020125 ... scarlet I am something unique. I am my own. I am lost, and I am found. I am broken by love, but I am tired of hate. I see beauty for what's it's worth inside and out. I am poetic, yet I'm rough. I am perfect, because I know my flaws. I am loved, but I am alone........ 020126 ... Miffey Nikki! 2 i's! 020127 ... misaligned "!'m do!ng a headstand..." it says, "look at me! look at me! look at me!" i loooves to be the center of attention. 020130 ... Grievance such a small symbol to hold everything that is me, yet i say it or write it, and there i am, in all of me. one line and a dot. that's me. so ironically simple and quaint to hold all my derisions. 020131 ... homelesswalker Wordjazz.com with Ken Nordine i think this blather is wordjazz. i think it is important to write the word songs of poetry. i would like to say the birds carry it to the tree tops and sing it out in colors for my ears. The flowers give it color for my eyes and sounds of taste are felt when I eat a petal of a rose or a daylily. Sounds are i 020208 ... bethany too many start with I 020226 ... reenz me, you, who. them, her, giving up so soon? yes. no. maybe. 020308 ... FaL I dont know what i had til i lost it I Am so so so Lost without you Ryan I Would do anything for you I Wish you couldve loved me like i loved you I cry every minute since you told me I hate how you can control my mind I Love how you control my mind I will miss you forever, you are the only one who ever impacted a lost street girl like me I hate you 020317 ... Id HITLER HITLER HITLER HITLER HITLER HITLER HITLER HITLER HITLER HITLER RHYMES WITH: 020502 ... Toxic_Kisses "Oh I keep lookin - I keep lookin lookin for something more..." 020518 ... Jacer "I" is such a can be selfish, or selfless, either way, I don't much care for it 020519 ... gh666 the most alone and head ache shit 020520 ... Lora am one, of many, that reside in one body. 020528 ... "Ancient Pagan" i am ancient_pagan said hela2 mistoo mastoid proboid psychismaticaliticalisms & butter on toasts! 020601 ... ! milk is satan! 020601 ... cnxn am 020607 ... aero i am only human but i love myself anyway. 020612 ... so sleepy i DO NOT want to work tomorrow!!!! 1-8 today 1-6 tomorrow 1-9 monday (YUCK YUCK YUCK) 5-9 wednesday 9-1 thursday 9-5 friday Thank God i'm leaving my "part-time" job in two weeks! Woo hoo! No more $! (j/k) "paramasturbatory?" 020629 ... andy wanna cry. I can't cry, i'm a man. tears would release. i have to hold everything. 020721 ... D y a n n e get me 2 pair I need 2 pair so I can keep on stomping in my air force ones (big boys) stomping in my air force ones 020809 ... slip I think I 020816 ... Perspective_Of_Soul He who is saddened, is i. He that is suffocated, is i. I choke on your hope filled words regarding it. I lay infested with doubt on the reeds of your obligation.You shall not stop its current. Filter it slightly, disturb its flow, maybe. But never shall you stop it. Never shall you dam that which is already damned. That which is i. 020817 ... Ahmad i. i dont know what to say, dont know what to say, i dont know what to say, i ont know what to say, i d nt know what to say, i do t know what to say, i don know what to say, i dont know what to say, i dont now what to say, i dont k ow what to say, i dont kn w what to say, i dont kno what to say, i dont know what to say, i dont know What to say? i dont know! BUT ME does. me know what to say. me just said it 020822 ... myplasticmind what do you call a fish with no eye? a FSHHHHH *giggles* oooo thats fun. 020828 ... Left Sided I close my eyes and remember what I know I will not forget I try to make sense of what I know makes no sense at all Yet, no matter how easy it is to say, it is always a million times harder to do 020912 ... svd I am the biggest idiot I will ever know, the stupidest jerk I have ever laughed at, the most cold-hearted bitch I can imagine, the poorest fool I have failed to cry for, a liar, a thief, and the single most important thing in the world. Mostly I am nothing. Quiero dormir o morir, no me importa. 021001 ... alora I am living in an ice age. Ice_Age. 021003 ... crazy the indivisable word. all knowing powerful chance to see the world, feel the world, tast the world, be the world. To be nothing without I. I, but a single speck in the cosmic goo that we project our desires into something to create meaning. I is only a part of we. 021003 ... screwing for virginity i wish i could just be i 021006 ... filzkugel who am i? 021012 ... bencvt you are i 021015 ... you what if i were to use a capitol I instead of a lower case i? would it make a difference? would it lead you to a different section? well maybe I will see. 021121 ... you no, nevermind, it doesn't make a difference. so much for expiraments. Or however you spell it. 021121 ... shatttered it's time for me to get over myself 021230 ... megan need you. terribly. you make me exist, you make my world real. you make me shine. sometimes i think i need you so much that if you took yourself away, i wouldn't be me anymore. i would be lost. 021230 ... Sol Rosenberg I believe in the blathersnitch. 021231 ... guy on shrooms i went to the supermarked and tenants are stupid and smell like the rats were just too much for california suns in bootlegged boots rather not for the intestinal for them are wicked and the really wild abcdefg because everyone needs goals 030119 ... me I_wish_today_that I knew how to make a new page in blather. 030204 ... x will take a whiskey sour, thanks 030204 ... saiamne? FIRST OF ALL WE GET TO RESPOND CAUSE WE TOOK TURNS AND READ ALL THE ABOVE POSTS ALOUD. We have defined the I as "Symbolic of a country, and since it is necessary to mention it for further analysis is as fluid or as constint as such". The social constrcution of the Self, the act by which society is the origin of the "I", is assumed. The "I" is the internalization of social/individual constructs of previously uninfluential entities that alter the self or behavioural indications of the self which may or may not have corperal form. As such, the self does not truley exist in a singular enviourment (ie. an enviornment in which only the "I" does exist). Also, as an acurate representation of the conceptual body to which the mere word implies (ie. the model of the word-body "I" does not fit the self). The "I" if it does indeed exist and is deemed true enough, is by definition and necessity the center of all, and furthermore nothing. Since the "I" is a construct that is capable of believing any and nothing, as it will; if it deems it so. -All of this is indicative of Absolute Relativism. "I" is in the thought and We is in the act. One can think, while two can not. Yet, two can act, while one acting alone could not, because of the subjectiveness of not only the observer by the acting party in relation to the observer. This is the best of all possible worlds, because I can believe I am right and together We can act to make it so. Another problem solved by violence... And the "I" of We says "You" get a time out. FUCK YOI!!! 030218 ... delial (who have nothing) 030218 ... catherine in all honesty, the most important in my life. if you all are honest, you'll admit it, too. 030218 ... ian i am an ian 030219 ... ian i'm ian 030219 ... ian i ia ian 030219 ... me ian 030219 ... acw I freeze because I was left, left alone to bear this weight, this ultimatum we've created. With days, the stakes are raised and accumulate into one final exchanged failure. Promises lack what time defeats, and I don't know how many times we've gone over this, circles around it, and sought out to change. But, the power of our weaknesses is not what compells them. It is but out ignorance to this loss of innocence. You, as well as I have experienced this, but not as I have, I your one true love, your innocent baggage, I, both young and stupid. 030224 ... DraugHrafn i mean most certainly to break him in half for this 030224 ... icy way too much and way too little - all at the same time. what is said and what is thought and what is done all depends on this... and yet it doesn't simply because it is i. one single letter with too much significance. and maybe with too little. torn in too many directions, all worried over all the other 'i's, stop and think. stop and think. 030319 ... pepperdrinks "He's chasing tornados. I'm just waiting calmly." What is this about? hope trust hate love beginnings mankind freedom A good question. I don't know. Maybe nothing. Enough about that. Now about me. brash smart weird small (what is this journey we are taking?) full predatory alive incomplete clumsy outspoken faltering new apart together here now "So it was. Here I am." Pay attention please. "It must be worth losing if it is worth something." Are you listening? Am I listening? I try. I hate burning bridges, self loathing, stereotypes, being tied down. I love personal expression, awareness, private moments, you All these things are real. Do you know where you stand? I admire Jack Kerouac, Dad/Mom (you didn't have to but did), Ian McKellan, Kevin Smith, Wes Anderson, Julianne Moore, Adrien Brody - (all contributing to the art of keeping it real), Sam Rockwell, Adrien Brody, John C. Reilly, Adrien Brody (see a pattern, flow with it), Tori Amos, Easy Company, the world....my dog. This will be on the exam. Take good notes. You'll need them. Trust me. Do I know it all? I don't claim to. But someone smarter than me said "the future is peace." Let's go with that. The future is peace. And it will be televised. "I'm just waiting calmly." 030417 ... god there is no "i" in mall 030417 ... Jenna Capitalized so it stands out in a sentence. i don't want to stand out. From now on, i am lowercase. 030419 ... ever dumbening . 030501 ... 82 i, i havent slept in two days, im hungry and I cant find my keys 030512 ... the repeater xdaxlex: sure RJONNZ: that's what you say now xdaxlex: well yeah xdaxlex: as opposed to when? RJONNZ: as opposed to the time you just wasted reading this sentence. xdaxlex: no time was wasted RJONNZ: don't start getting optimistic on me xdaxlex: well shave your own sheep then! RJONNZ: them's just jokes, maw xdaxlex: andre cardigan muffler xdaxlex: chalk that up to your chickens why dontacha! RJONNZ: glass bottomed goat fudge xdaxlex: goats xdaxlex: ou and your hairs xdaxlex: ou etc pagam! RJONNZ: ich bin ein stryper xdaxlex: whatever dude xdaxlex: pass the cheetoes RJONNZ: mint cheetos xdaxlex: slowreadher xdaxlex: little green fuckmonkey RJONNZ: slow children xdaxlex: beebopaloogi xdaxlex: slow seniors xdaxlex: what's the difference RJONNZ: she's my gravy xdaxlex: cradle to the grave let's ROCK xdaxlex: rock like gravy, sure xdaxlex: hows the outlook on the old ostrich beranda xdaxlex: i could eat a bag of my own hair! RJONNZ: it's very leafy. possums darting everywhere, nice hair xdaxlex: no way RJONNZ: red and black like a fine deck of iraqi war criminal playing cards xdaxlex: i aint no dark iraqi RJONNZ: i ain't to proud to beg xdaxlex: if you see her in thr moning with the penis on rhe side RJONNZ: just touch my butt cheek before you leave me, baby RJONNZ: just call me angel hair pasta xdaxlex: remember when you shit yourself? RJONNZ: why, yes. yes i do. RJONNZ: thanks for asking xdaxlex: that was presconsterous xdaxlex: wait so xdaxlex: what happened to your head? RJONNZ: i ask myself over and over as i rock back and forth xdaxlex: was it the drugs? RJONNZ: no. xdaxlex: i feel like maybe you should send naked pictures xdaxlex: but if not, just tell me if it was the drink? RJONNZ: no. i am not drunk xdaxlex: well fine xdaxlex: hen what's supposed ot happen? xdaxlex: am i gonna get drunk for you? RJONNZ: beats me xdaxlex: ok RJONNZ: i did eat 13 wilmas from a flintstones chewable bottle xdaxlex: whoowee RJONNZ: i think i am getting younger xdaxlex: is that because xdaxlex: NOOOO xdaxlex: i need food xdaxlex: pretty please? RJONNZ: i got some spaghetti sauce xdaxlex: ok, it's done! 030529 ... peat psycosis. 030602 ... Angie i is the 9th letter