solitary
fyn gula
Solitary
was
what
he
was
called
,
alone
is
what
he
was
and
if
anyone
could
truly
hate
anything
,
he
was
the
one
and
the
absence
of
self
was
the
object
of
his
disgust
.
000203
...
firehunden
is
010225
...
unhinged
there
has
to
be
somewhere
where
i
could
go
to
avoid
human
interaction
011102
...
chartreuse
would
be
the
place
for
me
in
prison
.
i
would
misbehave
on
purpose
to
get
put
there
.
some
days
i
get
so
tired
of
people
talking
to
me
,
prison
sounds
like
a
good
idea
.
i'd
miss
sushi
,
though
.
011108
...
blue star
I
want
to
be
a
druid
.
020618
...
unhinged
i
like
being
by
myself
now
i
think
.
there's
no
one
around
to
tell
me
everything
i
do
is
stupid
;
no
one
to
laugh
at
me
;
no
one
to
tell
me
i
am
lazy
or
a
liar
or
untrustworthy
or
an
asshole
.
things
are
rather
uncomfortable
between
ur
now
,
or
rather
i
would
have
probably
perceived
them
as
uncomfortable
a
few
months
ago
.
i
don't
care
that
you
talk
to
me
in
your
'professional'
voice
.
i
don't
care
to
salvage
the
farce
of
a
friendship
that
we
used
to
have
.
but
i
must
admit
;
you
are
good
at
maintaining
an
image
.
but
the
reality
is
so
different
that
it
still
startles
me
sometimes
.
i
don't
understand
people
like
you
.
you
don't
understand
people
like
me
.
so
lets
just
leave
it
in
the
'professional'
realm
.
i
ate
lunch
by
myself
today
.
i
was
dressed
all
in
black
because
of
my
audition
(
that
i
thought
was
slightly
unfair
and
anticlimatic
for
all
of
the
work
i
put
into
it
recently
)
and
i
think
my
waitress
was
slightly
scared
of
me
at
first
.
but
i
said
please
and
thank
you
and
she
looked
kind
of
shocked
.
i
don't
understand
why
some
people
treat
servers
like
they
aren't
human
.
just
because
it's
her
job
to
keep
my
coffee
cup
full
doesn't
mean
i
can't
thank
her
when
she
does
it
in
a
timely
fashion
.
i
walked
all
over
youngstown
today
.
earlier
it
was
cold
and
rainy
.
i
walked
outside
after
my
audition
and
it
was
blue
and
fluffy
.
sometimes
the
sky
can
still
make
me
smile
.
i
think
i
should
become
a
transient
musician
and
just
wander
on
my
own
two
feet
from
place
to
place
.
sometimes
i
like
to
be
alone
in
my
own
mind
on
a
pretty
fall
day
past
the
antique
city
i
live
in
.
you
know
how
they
say
pets
can
look
like
their
owners?
i
think
where
i
live
is
starting
to
look
like
me
.
021005
...
makeda
am
i
alone
in
here
today
030610
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
