lonely jeff loneliness... is that not what chains us down? sometimes, i feel that it is one of the most wonderful things in the world. to withdraw from the world and live in your own for a time. but the ache in your heart, mind, and stomach gnaws away until there is nothing left but a deep fucking hole. it is a drug best not served, but there is no escape. 980905 ... Rob lonelyness is hell. and I feel like the devil should start charging me rent by now. 981021 ... sarah why are you so far away from me? 981021 ... emma and then you start to wonder about all your interactions. why am i interested in talking to you? because i like you or because i am interested in talking to anyone other than myself? am i a whore? 990123 ... adam is me; i am lonely 990218 ... daxle I don't know if it's possible for me to be lonely. I don't mind being alone at all. I just mind being without people I like, and especially people (okay, person)who I love. 990428 ... ceorl I like people well enough, but they can be tiresome. Lonely? Never. I find myself daydreaming about jobs like lighthouse keeper or solo deep space freighter pilot. I'd really miss not having a dog though. 990428 ... lee I am two boned sockets brimming up to hold you like a well spills up to hold it's moon. I am the blood and bone to your breath- If you leave my body where can I live? Stretched like a fish on sand? Hoping your tide turns back in time? 990719 ... jessica always lonely. it's looking someone in the eye and knowing they don't see you. it's being in a crowd and laughing, knowing you're the only one there. it's staring at the cracks as they talk, and then missing out. it's past and present, and it creeps up when you're not looking. and you wonder where the hell it came from, because it wasn't there for just a moment maybe. 990920 ... thera not the same as being alone. 991005 ... Drennan I don't really know what it is to be alone. Perhaps it's that gutwrenching pain that crawls up from the back of my skull when I'm on my own (or maybe that's just a migrane), it claws at your throat, just wanting to scream help, for sanctury away from the lonelyness of being human. If that's what lonelyness is, then I hate it. I hate being alone. 991007 ... Alexander Beetle There was a whole clique when I was in high school that bitched and moaned and complained to each other about having no friends. Didn't have the guts to be truly lonely. I hate posers. 991120 ... deb ... so so lonely, even in a crowded room.... 991215 ... meli It creeps up on you. Being alone is great, but imagining that the alone-ness will never really end is when loneliness gets you. 000105 ... koti ..lonely is what i am....mostly.. 000108 ... gaudior afraid trapped in a box of others' device "GODDAMMIT, WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?" no longer 000112 ... Alien I need... Why do you reject? 000119 ... cliff i knew a girl like that 000120 ... zap! I'm only lonely in my head. Cause no one can share my mind with me. 000217 ... Christy His hand fell away and I remembered the loneliness. How can one survive alone, knowing the power of human touch? 000302 ... Rachel Lonliness staring deeper into my soul. Living day by day never saying a word. do you not know I'm there? Who are you? I wouldn't know I don't know anyone. 000302 ... lizard loneliness creeps upon me its shadow blackening the scenery i've carefully landscaped with my friends engulfed in one corner and innate beauty in the other. beauty is good, there when you're feeling strong. helps you be secure in your isolation, experiencing between you and the world. friends help you spend your time, divert your attention from your intimate little world. loneliness is stronger than all of that, and as it exhales an icy breath down my neck, i remember the feel soft lips on my own.. someone's hand grasping mine.. eyes i fell into.. whispered pretty words. seems so petty to some, seems weak in their eyes.. seems weak in my eyes... the longing remains. 000522 ... em loneliness it drives me insane stemming from corners where sanity never touched loneliness shouldn't belong but it does and it eats me away slowly 000524 ... MollyGoLightly I was standing at the bar with my dorm suitemates when this blond man with glasses tapped my arm, leaned toward me, and said: "i think you're pretty. in a natural way." He pulled back and said "i'm sorry. i'm so drunk. i'm sorry." over and over. From the expression on his face I could tell no one had really listened to anything he'd said for months. 000524 ... Wil My bed Used to be so huge and empty At night, now I need no comfort I can live alone without loving Without closeness or touch But I crave all the same 000531 ... Phoebe is knowing that wherever I go, I stand alone, longing in silence, wanting to have the courage to be a nobody. But it never happens because I am a coward, that maybe deep down I really want to make that splash. 000623 ... Brad Working on it.... 000624 ... The Schleiffen Man today is one of the boring days. i sit at home and play online all day, waiting for someone, or anyone to talk to.... but they're all out in the sunshine, doing people things while i sit alone. if only i didn't choose to be so bored. 000708 ... birdmad joy_division 000709 ... p2p I reached out to you and I fell short of you only to push you even further away, and as I drown here I wonder if you were ever there in the first place. 000712 ... gigaphairy I wasn't lonely before. But then the time I spent I wouldn't give back. But now it's gone... I'm lonely. 000717 ... grendel "how i wish you were here with me now" 000717 ... klarchen "I am here, but I am no substitute", said the girl. "Nutrasweet is no substitute for sugar", she added. 000717 ... disabled Yeah that's right, blame me for you feeling lonely. Like I didn't have feelings at the time. Like I didn't find it hard being alone. I was confused and why should you get to make me feel guilty when all I needed to do was sort my head out? But you do. And maybe you don't know it yet but that probably isn't for the best. 000722 ... Aaron lonely.... am i so? that the world wrecks me to bits with the teeth of love. they grind and tear at the self that is me until the mush that is spit back in my face is undiscernable as my heart. 000802 ... Lodi Child *Sigh* I'm really lonely. Is anybody else lonely? Because I would love to have a conversation here. 000806 ... Lodi Child *Sigh* I'm really lonely. Is anybody else lonely? Because I would love to have a conversation here, if you are. 000806 ... stan Lodi Child balloons and ferris wheels cotton candy and dandelion fluff 000806 ... Lodi Child So are you talking about the annual Lodi Corn Festival or what? :) 000806 ... misstree i was talking to the boy who was different, the one who i could sink into like a dream and forget the rest of the world, telling him i couldn't move to texas and raise horses with him. i needed to travel, i needed to write. he looked into my eyes, and with the horrible spark of truth said, "you're going to lead a very lonely life." i looked back at him, the hand that had pierced the surface of this cold, brackish pool, and said, "i know. crazy old lady with lots of cats. at least i'll always have myself." i wonder if he heard the bitterness i tried to hide, if he saw the tears that i tried not to share. if only it didn't feel like so much of a death sentence. 001128 ... purple lady The lights have dimmed The sparkle dies No-one hears Her desperate cries The darkness invades Thoughts whirl around No-one sees her sobbing Alone on the ground Her soul is fading And so is she Only one person Can set her free But it cannot happen It will not be His eyes are closed He cannot see. . . Onwards she travels She falters, she stumbles The life she knew It fades, it crumbles The lights have dimmed The sparkle dies He doesn't hear Her desperate cries 001128 ... foo i am so lonely..i have someone but they are soo far away..i miss him soo much 001128 ... god take comfort. all that has happened must happen again. the size of time contains repetition of every possible sequence and combination of everything in every direction. 001128 ... gwyllynne somebody told me that loneliness was like being blind..... .....then I must be blind 001129 ... chanaka everyone has their time to be lonely. now is mine is it over yet? 001129 ... steve is 001129 ... frustrational Why won't anyone understand the real root of what's behind everything that's happening to me? This is not just some sequence of unconnected mini-dramas! This is not just me 'creating'! I'm lonely, for heaven's sake. Isn't that obvious? A family in tatters, most of whom I don't speak to. A dwindling circle of friends, many of whom I used to be trust implicitly, but about whom I'm no longer as certain - since the feelings of paranoia and ostracism invaded me. And the person I want is so many miles away, the person whom if I could even just hear down a phone line, listening to me and understanding me, might make things better. But instead, I just shrug, sigh, pick up my belongings, turn round and head on in to another day. When will this ever end? When will my mind stop closing in on me? When will I not feel lonely? 001208 ... amalthea sometimes people will tell me that they are lonely, or friend-less, or miserable, or that the world is against them, they don't fit in, and they're sick of it. as they tell me my anger crawls through me and i think, you do not know what these things are. you cannot imagine life without your soft enclosure of the things you say you lack. and then i have to look at them to offer my condolences on their behalf and i see that they think it's true, what they've said, and i see them lonely, miserable, hating their selves and lives. the next time i see them, laughing and smiling with the company of their friends, my anger is the thing that isn't there, and i can only feel myself twist into painful sadness as i wonder how to be lonely like them. 001208 ... amy this thing is, a lot of people do care. but you've earned the right to be honest with YOUR OWN self. again. can't you see the power in that? can't you see how totally admirable that is? can't you see that you've been TOO RIGHT about a lot of things? and amalthea, i feel like that a LOT. 001208 ... 1414 I am so lonely I wish to crawl back to my mother I am so lonely, I want to die. Forgive me God. 001210 ... god Hey, you didn't do anything to me, aint got no beef with ya. 001210 ... Greg Loneliness is a blessing and a curse. To be able to be comfortable with oneself, no matter what the circumstances, is a great gift. However, it can be damn boring sometimes. 001211<