hate drew hate and violence perpetrated upon others, in speech or in act, is a sign of one's own guilt, fear, and insecurity of self. 990402 ... daxle I used to hate I'd say "I hate." Now I'm just too tired to care that much 990426 ... ceorl both love and hate claim to be "pure" emotions, undiluted with fact or logic or even healthy self interest. the wisdom of succumbing to either is suspect. 990427 ... allie du hast mich 990501 ... Enygmatic I don't know whether or not I'm happy that I haven't had the chance to truly hate somebody yet. I haven't had the chance to love anything yet, either, though, I suppose... but it seems like it'd be really fun to be so pissed off at somebody that you'd think of ways every day to spite them. Hey... I'd have something to do. Then again, I suppose love is a much healthier way of having something to do. I don't know... either way, I'm just sick of the uneventfulness of childhood. 990602 ... jake enk. is real in sincerity. without sincerity, we love as much, which is just as easily lied about. 990603 ... steffen why? 990606 ... matt. You've taken over my mind. You've raped my thoughts with your image viruses then sold me fake cures for your own disease. Your words and pictures scream orders at me like angry prison wardens. When I cover my ears, your voices echo in my head. I hate you. When I see your billboards, your talk shows, your rock concerts and your factories, when I see the work of your twisted libidos, I want to kill you. I want to set fires, plant bombs, derail trains. I want to smash your buildings and tear at your bodies until the skin of my hands is worn to the bone. I am filled with a rage that burns my eyes. I don't want to feel this way. You have done this to me. These feelings are the fruits of your multi-billion dollar sowing. And I am not alone. There are others like me out here. Every suicide, every madman, every man and woman who gets a gun and just starts shooting -- these are your illegitimate children. They don't all know what they are doing. All they know is hate for the invisible walls which you have raised around them, hate for the narrow path you have tried to make them walk. And the innocent pay in blood for your negligence. Remember this: My mind is big. The more you try to push me down and make me small, the greater the pressure inside me becomes. The greater the pressure, the greater the chance of an explosion. There was once a time when I felt love, but now I feel only hate and anger, and fear at what I might do. And you can tell me to "BE HAPPY," but I know that you really mean "BE QUIET". Believe me, I want to be happy. You stand in my way. 990726 ... adam i used to have a skinhead girlfriend, but she beat me up all the time cuz i listened to snoop, and cuz my favorite band was the cure. i hate hate. 990731 ... h8r h8r.com i'm sorry, i had to do it. 990921 ... Morphean Hate is no fitting spine for a hero, or inspiration for an artist. 990930 ... Drennan I usually find it hard to hate anything. To hate, to despise someone or something. I find it difficult to hate most things, except racism, I truely hate people who hate others without reason (and Tories, I really, really hate Tories but that's probably because I'm Scottish). 991004 ... tex I hate me 991104 ... me? theology & practice of a contemporary religion 991110 ... . . 991116 ... elimeny is the same damn thing as love. and i mean that. if i hate you, then i love you. if i love you, then i hate you. there is no real difference. Both possess your mind and spirit. Both are the strongest emotions I feel. And I can slide from one right back to the other so quickly, they most just be different degrees of one another. So there. 991207 ... unrighteous1 Hate's like...Uh...The second strongest emotion. If I said 'I hate you' to someone, I'd mean it. As in, I'd want them dead, as in I'd want their foul stench rid from the world, cause hate is that strong. And if someone said 'I hate you' to me I'd be pissed/upset, as in very. But now the word hate has been used out of contexed just as much as the word love (the strongest emotion)has, I hear so many people say 'I love you' and 'I hate you' I can't help but wonder if they really mean MY definition of the word. I guess they mean their definitions of the word, but it's like everyone has the same idea except me. Am I weird? 991212 ... R.A.I.N. is what I feel for the higher class, for the sell outs, for the corporate leaders, for the ones who try to convince me to change my beliefs and ideals so i can be happy like them. I want to kill you all. I HATE YOU! It clouds my mind and eats at my stomach. I feel diseased, please don't give me a chance to act on my feelings. I don't want to cause trouble. I WANT YOU DEAD! I try not to be hated, i'm hated by the shiny people, the brand name people, the influenced peoples parents, I hate being judged, yet I judge their kind so readily. I'm not a fake and I fear for my own well being. I am just a malcontent youth. I will never make any difference in this world. The majority pushes me down. Each time they do it becomes harder for me to breathe. HATE ME FOR THE CLOTHES I WEAR! HATE ME FOR THE THINGS I SAY! HATE ME FOR THE THINGS I DON"T SAY! HATE ME FOR NOT KNOWING A BETTER WAY! YOUR WAY IS NOT A BETTER WAY! I HATE YOU TOO! And it leaves me unguarded and vulnerable. I feel too full of hate. 991215 ... jennifer my father is on the phone, and the poor girl on the other end has no idea how evil he is. He screams and doens't listen to what she says, and because she speaks in a slight Hispanic accent, he lectures her about how people in America should speak American. And he has the girl on speakerphone and I can hear everyword, and I realize how much I hate my father. 991221 ... mad madame mim burning with a desire that only you understand 991225 ... gaudior no longer let these chains bind you. faith. 000112 ... bane somewhere, someone said there are more people living now than have ever lived before. and for some reason, just about everyone believes it without asking who this person is. so why is it so hard to believe i hate cheese? 000124 ... spikey-ho you have no idea. 000124 ... PHONEY a bright light concealing the spitting darkness. 000127 ... kari who really hates but people who have too much energy to waste on something that just doesn't matter? apathy is much easier and more respectable. 000127 ... oodles "Let God deal with the things they do 'cause hate in your heart will consume you too." I used to think that I hated my stepfather, and I do still dislike him as much as one person can dislike another. But Kari's right--hating is a waste of energy, we should be putting energy into positive things. However, I don't think apathy is more respectable. 000128 ... meggie fate, gate, mate, state, late, estate, relate, masturbate... 000304 ... Shar is useless 000306 ... Brad I don't think you should hate anyone. Even when some random person decides that they hate me (it's happend twice in my life) for no reason, i still dont hate them. It's mental masturbation and it gets you nowhere... we're much better off without it. 000309 ... girl ive come to discover it is not a matter of like, dislike, and hate (love wasnt mentioned on purpose because it is a separate entity) it is all am matter of tolerance. how much can i tolerate a given person. aside frome the one person i love i dont care about people enough to wory about liking dislikeing or hating them. 000327 ... Free Hate is a sure sign of insecurity. A dark, destructive, egotistical emotion. It seems to me that Hate and self pity go hand and hand. 000408 ... Tal fucked up fuel inside my soul knawing, chewing and eating it whole 000430 ... lisa_is_bionic "You don't /have/ the capacity to hate everyone, Lisa. It's too hard." 000526 ... BIRDMAD MORTIS VIVAT NIHIL i want to hate you but i can't i try but it only makes this empty aching of desire burn more fiercely inside. 000526 ... WoNDERGIRL I never really hated you. I only loathed what you were. Somewhere deep inside my self-satisfaction, I wished it wasn't so hard. 000528 ... Zoe i think that hate is the most powerful emotion, even more powerful than love. hate can destroy love and does often. love hardley ever destroys hate. even though i've always said i don't hate people, i only dislike them, i know that that is a lie. i do hate. i just don't say anything about it. everyone hates everyone else, and yet everyone hates to be hated. 000716 ... the bisexual apathetic psychopathic bitchwhore (em people... people who i hate whom i love are interchangable. they are all the same. i love them and hate them equally. as i walk down the stairs with them, proclaiming my love, i wish to through them down those very same carpeted stairs... my tears are not for them. they are for me. i pity myself to depths i knew not existed. i hate myself for my pity and that which causes my pity. but i never pity my self-hatred. pulling at my souls equal forces neither can pull apart my heart and so i stay in battle with myself a battle between life and death of another and of myself because i regard myself as a stranger i am not alone because i am with myself. i am alone because i am the only one here. all of me is my companion, i'm so lonely. i dont want people i dont want pity i just want to hurt and let that be known i am the bisexual apathetic psychopathic bitchwhore now get over it. 000812 ... u2zoo is such a strong word, perhaps one should say something else. 000823 ... oshekono hate to wait for fate. its usually late, without a date, and can't relate to my state. 000920 ... unhinged "don't say hate. you can't mean that. it's such a strong word." what's the point of being water-colored blue when you can be tempera paint blue? or red or yellow or green? i mean what i say. i was raised in hate and i try to escape it but there are certain things that can beget nothing but hate. all of you that say you don't hate are liarss. we all hate rainy days when it rains for days on end and it gives you a cold...we all hate intolerance (or at least we all should)...fuck it 001203 ... chanaka i hate myself when i am jealous. i know that no one can replace me. i know that we talk about her, and they don't talk about me, because they don't ever talk anymore. but i burn. thousands of tiny teeth eating away my skin, gnawing my bones into green-tinged dust. i hate that i am so unsure of my effects on other people that i must resort to an emotion so horrible as jealousy in order to ensure my place in someone's heart, even if that place is only a little corner. most of all, i hate uncertainty. isn't hate such a strong word? a word that is overused, sadly. but it is the only one that describes the intensity of my emotions. so i must use it. 001203 ... JACKIE THE REASON I HATE YOU SO MUCH IS BECAUSE I LOVE YOU:( 001228 ... JACKIE I LOVE YOU BUT I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU LIE TO ME YOU LIE TO ME SOOOOO MUCH IT HURTS CANT YOU SEE I JUST WISH I COULD ERASE MY LOVE FOR YOU AND JUST HATE YOU BUT I CANT I WANT TO HATE YOU BUT INSTEAD I JUST END UP LOVING YOU MORE AND MAKING MY HEART ACHE WITH SO MUCH HATE:( I DONT WANT TO HATE HATE IS NO GOOD HATE IS EVIL ... 001228 ... rollins If you really have a lot on your mind, and you really want to do something with yourself..(as i'm sure that all of you do) Hating someone is giving them too much of yourself right there, Just leave them alone. Its like when someone wants to hand you a big pile of horseshit, you don't have to take it. just say, "Fuck you, man" 010106 ... alex311swim Hate=Love=Jimmy 010204 ... the elf king If you flip through the Bible, you'll eventually find the parts that say it's a sin to hate people. Well, then, I'm sinning. I hate him. My father, I mean. Just looking at his face or hearing his voice or smelling his cologne makes me feel positively sick. I don't know how to forgive him, and I don't even know if I want to. I can't forget what he did to my family. I'll start to feel guilty about holding a grudge, but then I start to remember...Mom spending every night in the bathroom, crying, because of him...Stephen being black and blue, because of him...His hands around Julie's throat, choking her, and then slapping her in the face...David hiding in the closet because he was so scared...Me, when I ws 5 years old, backed into a corner and screaming because he was so angry and I thought he was going to hit me...I hate him. For breaking apart my family, for putting us all through years of pain. I'll be 18 next year, so I can move away, if I want to. And I want to. Of course, I'll have to live in a run-down apartment building and work at some sleazy grill or something until I finish high school, But it's the lesser of two evils. No one knows much of anything about all of this...I feel like I'm lying to my friends by not telling them. But I've already lost one friend because of this whole mess, and I'm not going to lose any more. I have to go now, and eat lunch, and pretend that absolutely nothing is wrong, the same way I always have. If it weren't for this website, maybe I would have gone crazy long ago. But I don't know, and I don't care, really. It's the hopelessness of this whole situation that gets to me...I look back at the past, I think about the present, and I see no hope for a brighter future. Well, that's not completely true. One year, and I'll never have to see him again...freedom... I don't like turkey and cheese all that much, but I don't think there's anything else to eat around here... 010206 ... firehunden popular hate? self hate? love hate? cruel hate? the power of hate? hate of hate? keep hate simple. 010223 ... god fling your arms madly, old lady with a daughter. 010223 ... god scream_thy_last_scream 010223 ... arayer judge me, kill me, stone me, rape me. who the fuck are you to judge me. Escape, escape from my heart, escape from my mind. you'll never know, you'll never understand me. DONT EVEN THINK YOU KNOW ME. twisted, fucked up suicidal mind 010226 ... Dafremen ...to burst your bubble, but I wasn't really HATING you, in fact I hadn't really NOTICED you before. As for you hating ME, like I said, I hadn't really noticed you before. 010226 ... Little Hawk ...just the same as love, though people seem to mistake it for a beast of its own. You love someone...you hate someone; either way you think of them often, and without them you'd be absolutely empty. 010228 ... G_wiz13 in essence the thing that drives me and many other people. the thing that makes me breath. If it wasnt for the childhood i had maybe i could be happy just maybe normal. Then again if i was normal I wouldnt be "freak" that i am.*sighs and thinks* if only my mother hadnt taken drugs just maybe i would have had a normal childhood. 010228 ... Dafremen Waaaah! Been there done that. Get over the hate, get over the love you never missed, get on with living. A childhood lost to someone else's irresponsibility isn't worth being hateful over. Your hate is like a monument to what they did to you. Is that your intention? To immortalize the fact that they didn't give a flying f*ck about you with a psychological memorial? See also: People Painful Sister Children Love Computer Daddy Dad What_i_want_to___have___but_can't 010301 ... cheeze i love the way you hate me i love the way you hate me i hate the way i love me what is hate when it is subceeded by love. 010302 ... johnny west A strong word? Yes. I hate everything, while simultaneously loving everything. Is that possible? Probably not. 010304 ... cheeze i think that it is possible to love everything and hate it at the same time. but where do you draw the line is there anything that you hate more than you love. i hate everything that i love 010311 ... Aimee I hate being hurt. Everytime something good happens, it's taken away from me. I really didn't want to get hurt this time. I really didn't. I thought, wow, this may finally be the end of my bad streak. But of course, it wasn't. I am so tired of this. Someone please tell me it's almost over.... things were looking so damn bright.. and in a heart beat it all went to shit. 010311 ... johnny west In a lot of ways, life is shit. The challenge is to work your way through the shit...and, ultimately, to become "happy". Whatever that is. 010311 ... cheeze i agree life treats me like shit 010312 ... Dafremen Good gawd here we go again. Waaaaahhhh!!! Life is soooo hard. life treats me like SHIT! I HAAAATE life. Ohhh Woe is meeeeeee! I think I know what I hate now. I hate listening to people whine about how crappy their life is. Give it a rest wouldja? Wanna talk about eating shit for breakfast and asking for seconds? Try getting a hot wheels track across the face when it came time for a beating. Let me tell you some days you were thankful for the hot wheels track too, that meant they weren't using the belt on yer head, buckle side! Bunch of whiney spineless twerps good lord. Get over it. Each crappy moment in your life is an experience that you can look back on when things are just so-so and then suddenly so-so doesn't seem so bad anymore. Especially not when compared to a hotwheels track across a 5 year old's cheek or a Seagram's bottle across the back. I mean geezus boys and girls, just read: Painful and tell me your life is sooooo bad. Here's the deal folx, this is the one you got, good or bad, you can either sit their crying about it not being everything you want it to be, or you can find the COURAGE to live life and enjoy it, like I said, good or bad. "Life treats me life shit.." sheesh. 010313 ... Dafremen how crappy their life is. Give it a rest wouldja? Wanna talk about eating shit for breakfast and asking for seconds? Try getting a hot wheels track across the face when it came time for a beating. Let me tell you some days you were thankful for the hot wheels track too, that meant they weren't using the belt on yer head, buckle side! Bunch of whiney spineless twerps good lord. Get over it. Each crappy moment in your life is an experience that you can look back on when things are just so-so and then suddenly so-so doesn't seem so bad anymore. Especially not when compared to a hotwheels track across a 5 year old's cheek or a Seagram's bottle across the back. I mean geezus boys and girls, just read: Painful and tell me your life is sooooo bad. Here's the deal folx, this is the one you got, good or bad, you can either sit their crying about it not being everything you want it to be, or you can find the COURAGE to live life and enjoy it, like I said, good or bad. "Life treats me life shit.." sheesh. 010313 ... Dafremen Ok so that wasn't too slick...I HATE it when that happens. Oh well...that's life 8 ) 010313 ... cheeze well... hows this... every part of the body hit by everything imaginalble. including hot wheel tracks across the face... any thing from spatula's, belts, boots, lamps busted over my head... scolding hot irons... for doing nothing... i know exactly how you feel... everything you just said is about my life... 010315 ... Dafremen Excellent!!! You've got plenty of memories to make the rest of your life seem like PARADISE in comparison then. Aren't we a couple of Lucky Ducks?!!! 010316 ... cheeze in so many ways we are alike 010316 ... bret Dafremen-- I don't think you should belittle people for being unhappy. Everyone has the right to be depressed or hate life as they see fit. So what if you had a worse life? There will always be someone else who is worse off. It's irrelevent. Thinking about others in worse situations is usually not conforting -- it just adds guilt to the depression. The point is, no one should feel shamed into diminishing or discounting their feelings of loneliness or heartbreak just because -you- had an unhappy childhood. Everyone lives their own life independently, with personal joys and personal tragedies. It doesn't matter if your tragedies are "worse" than mine in some sense. They are still my tragedies, and I am entitled to the appropriate emotions, without you jugding me. 010321 ... 13lueee I hate him...all of them for making me cry and being the reason for my depression and self-destruction...and they didn't even care.none of them... while i cried they were with her...happy... and thats the worst. it was all because of her...and they didn't even know what it did to me, how it hurt me and they wouldn't even have cared... 010321 ... Dafremen Indeed this IS an independent journey. One which we each must go through alone. On my trek I see so many whining sniveling people who wallow in their self pity and so-called "misery" and I think to myself, MAN I'm sure glad that I haven't CHOSEN to feel sorry for myself or bitter for the hand that life has dealt me. Indeed it COULD have been MUCH worse, I realize that and I temper those moments when I am most tempted to indulge in self pity with the knowledge that my plight is not so bad as it could be. Belittle someone? How could I possibly make someone feel litte? As you said this is an independent journey which each human travels alone. Each person's thoughts and feelings are his own and therefore if someone reads my OWN personal thoughts and is made to feel little, that is on THEM not on me. I simply expressed MY feelings on the subject, MY thoughts on the matter, THEY are the ones who turned to my thoughts, considered them and then modified their own feelings of themselves (or didn't) based on what they read. Such hypocrisy! In the same breath you say that we are each entitled to our own thoughts and feelings and then you BLAME another human being(me) for somehow influencing the thoughts and feelings of others with the written word. I am not capable of making anyone feel little, that is something that can only be done by each individual who reads my words and then adjusts their attitudes or opinions as a result. Change occurs from the inside, not from the outside and therefore your attempt at judging ME is falling on deaf ears, because I erfuse to let it change my perception of ME. It's just another bout of whining, something which as I have already said, I am tired of hearing. Keep ranting if it makes you feel better however, it doesn't change my thoughts or feelings one way or the other. How could it? I am responsible for my OWN feelings and thoughts. : ) 010322 ... lost fuck you deframen I dont feel sorry for myself. I use what has happened to me for a way to remind myself not to do it to anyone. If you've gone through stuff i have gone through you would cry like a little bitch. I will admit i am pretty fucked up, but it makes me an individual. 010323 ... hated they will. they have. you might again too. it's partly a gender thing. there is hate. it is not my problem. 010323 ... Dafremen My aren't you EVER messed up. Cry like a little bitch..mmmm..ohh now what is this an abuse-a-thon? Hit me with your best shot tough guy, until you've been lying in a gutter in Tijuana with some cholo from San Ysidro putting his cockroach killer boots upside yer head, I don't suspect yer silly ass could come CLOSE to even making me shut up, let alone cry like a little b*tch. I'm tough as nails because of what I've been through and to tell you the truth, the tone of your post leads me to believe that more of your rant was bragging than truth. Get over it...move on. Hey and good idea, don't do it anymore, any LAB RAT knows that..if you get hurt, don't do it anymore. Sounds like you've learned a very important lesson that just about EVERYONE learns in life eventually. Don't be a schmuck, sit down! Yer making a fool of yourself. 010323 ... Dafremen P.S. The wife told me not to go out that day. She said she just had a bad feeling about it and she wanted me to stay home. But when a man has 6 mouths to feed including his own considerable one, he does what he has to do with no regrets. Besides, overtime pays time and a half and at the time I was making squat as an a assembler. Well she got her way anyhow. When they dropped my silly ass off at home bleeding from head to toe with a broken nose, two black eyes and contusions on the sides of my head that gave it the shape of "The Fly", she immediately knew her hunch had been right. Guess I should have given that big ugly motherfucker my walkman after all huh? Wait til you've paid your dues kid, then you can step to me. Right now yer just stepping off the porch with the pups. Go sharpen your little teeth on some other old geezer's bones. 010323 ... 13lueee i'm sick of playing your game what would you do if i fell? would you say it was your fault or would you fuck up like last time??? 010327 ... bluedaisy33 i'm sick of playing your game... because i know that when i fall your all gonna act the same... ...and i hate you for that... 010327 ... bluedaisy33 that just fucked up isn't it??? 010327 ... bitter bird none more than him 010328 ... lost lol... I'm good at making an ass out of myself. Its kinda fun to do to. I dont give a fuck what you think Dafremen. I just come here to talk and shit so fuck you again. 010329 ... dB Hey DaFreman, I think he's steppin to ya. What do you reckon we should do? Call in the possee? 010329 ... just some mean bitch alls I'm saying is that I hate dafreman. he thinks people should feel sorry for him because his life has sucked a whole lot and he's been through a lot of shit. well guess what buddy, most of the people on blather have very similar stories so quit your bitchin and stop telling everyone all about how whatever fucked up life story they have, you've got one that's worse. good for you, really. congratulations, your life sucks too. shut up! 010329 ... Dafremen Looky looky...I'm so proud of you young whippersnappers. It's nice to see you doing something besides whining about how pitiful and miserable your lives are for once. As for where that mean bitch got her information, I'd really like to know. She obviously hasn't read a word I've written. In everything I write, I say, DON'T feel sorry for yourself, and HELL NO for GAWD SAKE DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR ME!!!!!! What's past is past and all that I ask is that those of you who think yer life is rotten look to others who's lives were more rotten and realize that you don't have it that bad after all. My past and the experiences I have had define who I am and how I feel about life, which is this: I LOVE it!!! I wouldn't change a THING about my past my present or my future, and since I really can't change my past, and the present's already here, I guess all I have left that's within my power to change is my future. I have NO idea how you read that I want people to feel sorry for me in ANY of my blathers you mean bitch, but whether you want me to or not, I forgive you for your ignorance. Keep on growling and snarling, if you must, growl and snarl at me(in fact I INVITE it, you soft spineless wimps need a punching bag to get you in shape!). It's a refreshing change from the usual pathetic whimpering, pissing and moaning I hear from so many of you here all of the time. smooch baby P.S. I'm so proud of you all. - - 010404 ... Dafremen Db, Heheh these little ones will get smart one day. One day they'll realzie that dafremen isn't the problem, db isn't the problem, life isn't the problem, the world isn't the problem and everyone else isn't the problem. They'll realize that their attitude towards all of the above is the problem. Til then I guess it's just you and me and the other realists kicking back and watching them make fools of themselves while we sip a brewski or two eh? - - 010404 ... Chrity Hate is the poison of the soul. I don't hate, I just harbor strong dislike for some things/people. People who hate other people are mean. Mean people suck. That's all I have to say about that. 010408 ... chanaka i hate that i put up a face, acting like i don't care that he says he loves her. how free the words fly from his fingertips. words that he never will say to me, never think, never feel, never believe. we all must be strong, to not give in to the hate. i must be strong and not let it show. he my hate away with his words. he does not lie. i cannot stop them, nor him. so i smile away my hate for a day. 010408 ... mmm i hate my parents right now, they still don't trust me 010410 ... elisabeth I hate that wet drop that runs down my cheak it comes from my eyes, i hate the felling of it and the cold chilles it sends up and down my body. Most of all i hate the fact that i can't stop them they just keep comeing. 010411 ... Tim!!! i hate looking at this tree, sitting, looking waiting for me to join it. i hate the things that it does to me. i hate the tathered piece of rope that still hangs from it. i hate the fatct that the rope didnt hold my weight. i need a stronger rope... 010411 ... Tim!!! i hate the fact that i cant spell or type 010411 ... keeper hate me, you really should 010417 ... the iron sausage prove it 010417 ... Rayne I hate feeling 010417 ... unhinged it is a losing battle but there is one thing to be said for all of this. connotation and being a literalist and trying to make words vague that are abundantly clear is even more annoying than all the 'whining and crying' that goes on around here. i don't think anyone started judging you until you started telling all of us that our problems aren't worth your precious time. i've tried so hard to just keep my mouth shut because i realize it is a battle lost before it even begins. you are the kind of person that is always right. that is apparent. thanks for trying to change my childish view of the world. i have walked away from our encounters a better and more complete human being that now lives life to the fullest. 010417 ... Dafremen Hate to think that you were being sarcastic.: ) Oh well, life is good anyhow. Best wishes in whatever trips your trigger, Daffy - - 010418 ... dB Unhinged, Daffy, How about that brewski. No point getting bent out of shape about other peoples ideas/thoughts or whatever. Fremen; you said us realists should just kick back and enjoy the show, then let's do so. Could be entertaining. Anyone up for a Bud? Oh Yeah, Nancy, I think you'll find that in this sense it is a COMMUNITY of hypocrits. 010419 ... Dafremen Bud gives me a headache. HARP Lager here. 010419 ... dB Harp? Never heard of it. You wanna try a Stienlager? 010419 ... Dafremen HARP is an Irish beer. Sure I'll take a Stinelager 010419 ... oh pee um it's only the mirror of love. an intensity so pure and volatile, it will burn who dares to touch it's fiery soul. 010420 ... claudia i went to a birthday a long time ago, after i had a huge fight with a group of my friends. We were all talking about it around the kitchen table while doing crafts and one of my friends said "you must really hate them, eh?". my only response was "yeah". then, my friends mom jumped in and said "never say 'hate'. you can never hate a person until you love them first". and so i thought to myself that i never loved anybody, so what was this hate shit i was talking about? But that was years ago. And i can truly say now that i do hate. i hate with my whole being because i loved and was repeatedly stabbed in the back without so much as a whimper from me. I used to think that it was called 'uncondional love'. but being treated like shit isn't really love, now is it? but i know what hate is. HATE IS: wanting somebody gone not only from your life, but from everybody else's. not resentment or pain. a sickness which only fresh blood can cure. an incessant fire within that cannot be defeated, only fed. so i say right now to anybody and everybody reading this: don't deny your hate. It drives us with a desire for justice and change. It is the greatest motivation i've ever had. 010430 ... melvinwang i hate it when people say that this is such a strong word, and ask us not to use it. we use it, like any other word, because we mean it, it is the only way to express our feelings. it's like any expletive speaking of which, i hate my life sometimes. life is hate. hate is something we should learn to accept but never act on. it's a part of all of us, our commun human nature 010504 ... anon I HATE LIFE!!!!!!! I HATE MY DAD AND MY MOM!! I HATE MY GRANDPARENTS AND SOME OF MY "FRIENDS"!!! Funny thing is, I don't hate myself........... 010508 ... anon I HATE LIFE!!!!!!! I HATE MY DAD AND MY MOM!! I HATE MY GRANDPARENTS AND SOME OF MY "FRIENDS"!!! Funny thing is, I don't hate myself........... 010508 ... Dafremen Here we go again. Hey folx, Umm after this anon guy..can I PLEASE rest my case?! I mean can the next person that hates life, their parents and the world PLEASE just say "ditto" to what the previous "rage filled" angst-ridden teen said? I'll stop if you folx will. 010509 ... Dafremen I hate that as a parent, I have to be the BAD guy all the time. It sucks, I'd rather be having fun with the missus,or playing some Quake, but I have this stupid job to do called raising my kids and paying to keep a roof over their heads. A perfect example of Daffy the "Bad Guy Asshole Parent" My 15 year old tells me that she hates me and she wishes I would let her do what she wants to and leave her alone. I left, and came back with a suitcase and a 10 dollar bill. I said "Fine, get the fuck out." (I normally don't swear at my kids, but I had a point to make and I think it was well served by the expletive.) "Here's a suitcase for your stuff, and some money to get started." "Where will I go?" "That's not my problem, you want to live your life, you hate me, here's your chance. Get the fuck out." "But I don't know where I'm going to go and that's only 10 dollars." "Hey, I came up from Mexico with only 10 bux in my pocket and a suitcase. You've got it easy. I had a pregnant wife and a child with me. Now get the fuck out." "But I don't know where to go and I'm afraid." "Tough shit, so was I. If you don't want to live by my rules, here's the alternative, leave. If you don't like me and want me gone, here's your chance. Get the fuck out if that's what you want to do. I'm not stopping you." "I don't want to go, why are you doing this to me?" "You said you wanted me gone. Well there are other people in this family who don't. The easiest way for me to be gone from your life is for you to leave. I love you and I'll miss you, but if you hate me that much and you can't live by my few EASY rules then get the FUCK out if that's what you're going to do. Cmon, get packing." (Sobbing)"I don't want to go." "Well, that's your choice, but if you're going to stay, you've got to live by my rules. This is MY house, this is your mother's house. It can be your home, but it can't be YOUR way. It's my way and your mother's way or you know where your suitcase is and I'll keep this 10 dollars in my pocket just in case." "You hate me!"(Now THERE'S a twist. I hate HER! Sheesh F*cking teens!!) "I don't hate you, I'm just not gunna put up with your shit. This is MY family, I built it NOT you. I'd rather watch you walk out that door than watch you tear this family apart with your selfish, immature, I-wanna-do-what-I-wanna-do bullshit." "You would REALLY let me leave huh? Why are you so mean?" "Mean? Mean? I'm not the one telling YOU how much I HATE you. That's you telling ME that. All I ever did was put a roof over your head and love you to death. Screw you, YOU'RE the mean one. All you think about is your friends. Your friends haven't given up a THING for you. What have your friends ever done for you? Name ONE thing that your friends have done to feed you, clothe you, protect you. I'm mean? No YOU'RE the mean one. I'm just some hard working sucker that fell for a cute little baby that started to HATE me when she turned 14." "Would you REALLY make me leave?" "No, and I wasn't making you leave, I was giving you the choice. If someday you decide you're ready to leave, don't look back because you WON'T be coming back. I'll still love you and I'll still worry about you, but you're a tough girl, you'll make it and I still have your brothers and sisters to think about too." "I'm sorry I called you mean. I don't really hate you." "Thank you. I'm sorry I yelled at you. You gunna be able to handle living by my rules or not?" "Yea, I'll try." "That's all I've ever asked." - - 010509 ... swanker I hate Taco Bell But Love Green Cheese 010517 ... Ninny Nu Nu I just hate you. Ii really hate you. I really really do. 010528 ... nemo i hate me 010604 ... Dafremen I hate it when blather slows down in the middle of the day. Not that these Dog_Boot_Company RangeHunter LS's don't make it just a bit more bearable. 010605 ... nocturnal at work I hate that, too. I will ignore the second portion of your statement. 010605 ... Sheena such a strong word...even if u dont really mean it. watch how u use it and try to never say it. hate can hurt someone 10 times more than u can imagine. hatred is one of the worse things anyone can ever have. it brings u and the person u hate down. dont hate but LOVE! 010618 ... josh hate--- hate is very strong word. i think that people hate because they fear something. If people call themselves Christians...they have two obligations....Love God and Love people. If we all lived up to this, there wouldnt be any room left for hate. I know that in life there will be people u dont like and thats fine but hating them is not the asnwer to anything. God made them beautiful and hating something of God is blasphmey.email me any time. 010618 ... josh hate--- its very strong word. i think that people hate because they fear something. If people call themselves Christians...they have two obligations....Love God and Love people. If we all lived up to this, there wouldnt be any room left for hate. I know that in life there will be people u dont like and thats fine but hating them is not the asnwer to anything. God made them beautiful and hating something of God is blasphmey.email me any time. 010618 ... dB Disney created happiness Bon Jovi invented love (otherwise their records would be even more inane) Alanis Morisette made guilt Hate just is. It's there and everyone uses it, everyone. It's a human condition. There are pills for it even. If you don't hate, then how are you supposed to be objective? 010618 ... me its bad 010619 ... nocturnal at work a hobby of mine 010619 ... Sol this is depressingly long, so i felt i should add to it, I dont hate, I dont feel much at the moment, other than a creeping depression, (similar to that described in Nausia by Satre, if anyone has read it) and a sudden elated calm, serenity topped by blissful happiness, irritation is the closest i come to hate, i may use the word, but i mean something much less severe than what is described by people on this page 010619 ... sgsdg its bad 010622 ... lostchild pointlessnessnessnessnessss. at least if you're angry you get things done. 010627 ... jane Dafreman...clever clever...was it your point to get people to hate you on this page? I respect you for what you've been through, not pity you. Good for you for reflecting it. but then you said you forgive for ignorance...don't "forgive," pity. some people just aren't capable of comprehending what others do, so i say just let them blather and be on their merry way. 010706 ... in-sanity RAH I hear you speak RAH the trumpets sound RAH the madness is beginning again ... 010929 ... RAH HATE oh to hate friendly hate evil hate hate hate love hate kill hate 011007 ... Wicket today I hate him today it feels like the only right thing today I could kill him today I should hate him today I should do many things But I should stop doing this... coming back you you everytime I'm hating you I can't keep from coming back to you ....I'm hating myself for that... 011007 ... Wicket today I hate him today it feels like the only right thing to do today I could kill him today I should hate him today I should do many things But I should stop doing this... coming back you you everytime I'm hating you I can't keep from coming back to you ....I'm hating myself for that... 011007 ... Caseys Deep Thoughts I used to think everyone hated me. Now I think everyone just hates certain things about me. Like the fact that I think everyone hates me. 011007 ... Fairy Juice ....is something i dont **UNDERSTAND** yet fills me to the brim.... 011101 ... turbocharged jet black bird (re-entryburnout) i can hate myself better than anyone else i've earned it i worked hard for it prove me wrong for every dark secret i can confess i hide five more worse than that when i thought i could shake it off, some one always came along to prove that it is pretty well set in stone this is my express_handbasket_straight_to_hell bought and paid for with a bit of blood and a whole lot of dirt (figurative and literal) maybe i wasn't quite wired together straight to begin with, but this is where i am now 011101 ... anti-social butterfly i am incapable of hating people, well, except for myself. this is an emotion that i do not understand, yet i wish i had. if i could hate i would not be able to get so hurt. if i could hate and hold a grudge then i wouldn't let him hurt me. i would blame him instead of myself. hate must make one invincible. but i do not know how to be mad for more than 5 minutes. i do not know how to not forgive. i wish i could learn to hate. but instead i love, even through the abuse, and i get hurt, all because i cannot be mad at him. all because i love him anyway, all because i forgive him no matter what, all because i do not know how to hate. i think it is very unhealthy for me not to hate him. does anyone know how to teach me to hate, i mean truly hate? it may be my only means of avoiding more self-destruction to help me forget. i cannot hate, but i can never forget. 011101 ... Lover Hate makes you ugly. 011109 ... nocturnal hate makes me happy. but only with a few certain people. 011109 ... ninsong this world rejects me this world threw mw away this world never gave me a chance this world's gonna have to pay i dont believe in your institutioni don't believe in your institutions i did what you wanted me to like cancer in the system i've got a little suprise for you something inside of me has opened up its eyes why did you put it there did you not realize this thing inside of me it screams the loudest sound sometimes i think i could burn i look down there where you're standing flock of sheep out on display saw your lives burned up around you i can take it all away something inside of me has opened up its eyes why did you put it there did you not realize this thing inside of me it screams the loudest sound sometimes i think i could i'm gonna burn this whole world down i never was a part of you burn i am the agent i never was a part of you burn i am corruption i never was a part of you burn i am the angel i never was a part of you burn of your destruction i never was a part of you burn i am subversion i never was a part of you burn secret desire i never was a part of you burn i am your future i never was a part of you burn swallow down all that fire 011206 ... blue i hate calculus 011211 ... no reason i hate you and i thought saying that would make me feel better but it really doesn't. i hate the way you talk so animatedly, so full of life, so happily, to other people who aren't like me, who aren't me. Who is me, anyway? And i don't mean Who am I, because i know that, unfortunately, i know myself really damn well. Why the delicacy, the fragility? i won't break, there's no room for pity. Never any room, I loathe pity, makes me feel that i'm a person worthy to be pitied, that i'm a pitiful person. Why can't you just be true to yourself? and i never want to see you again because i hate you and i hate myself because i'm a hypocrite and i know that i love you and i only don't want to see you because you remind me of who i am, which i'm usually able to forget, to deny, to squish back in my confused and delirious mind. i need to call for help but you ask and you're too afraid to know and there i go again reversing things because in effect i'm the one who's afraid. It's so crazy and confused and it pounds and it buzzes and i can't stop it can't deny it can't hold it in much longer before i lose myself. 020210 ... blown cherry I don't hate calculus. Calculus, when it works, when everything fits neatly into place, is beautiful. A type of neat poetry. I just wish I were better at it. Anyway, hate. I don't think I've ever really hated anyone. Not for more than a few minutes anyway. There are plenty of people I dislike, but disliking them entails not giving enough of a stuff about them to bother hating them. I'd have to really care about someone first before I could come to hate them. I suppose I'll learn to hate you someday, and you'll be the one to teach me how. 020211 ... blown cherry Hahaaa! I beat you to it didn't I! Notice the particular irony considering my above blathe :P I made you hate me, and I still don't hate you, even though you told me you'd like to see my kidneys pulped out throught a straw in my back then force fed to me! !!!!!! Exclaimation marks for everyone!!!!!! I should hate you. Why can't I make myself hate you? Fuck me. Fuck me to hell. Hmm. Does it look like I've flipped out here or what? 020223 ... glenn what a word the strongest word in the english language i dont hate i cant hate i wouldnt want to hate