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charley yellow, yellow, yellow... 980906
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walt stumbling towards it? 980906
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amy something that makes people exclaim it's all one! we're all one! don't you get it? 980913
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emma it's a drug, but it can also be acheived without drugs. i've been known to do it once or twice. 981026
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ang is that warm fuzzy feeling deep inside. it's there somewhere. i promise. 981026
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pixie i admit that i am an E junkie! 990617
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emsie I did E once and fell in love with it. It was a really strange high, but made me feel amazing. Ecstasy is something that is achievable without drugs tho. it's total happiness. the best feeling in the pit of your stomach. it's hard to achieve, and once you do, you sometimes don't even realise how great it is... 990630
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josh is a little pill I will probably try for the first time this weekend. Acid was last weekend and it was too fun. Mustn't go too far down this road, though. 990701
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Rob Frank the drug that destroyed her forever. How can i compare to a pill? If emotion can be simulated with a pill, what is the point of emotion? I hate it with a passion. I won't give in. I won't compromise. It makes me sick. fuck you all. 991122
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lauren i need to stop
i really do
but its the best thing that ever happened to me
I NEED HELP
but its my problem and ill have to deal with it alone
advice don't do it
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eric ecstasy: our native state. our birthright.

we long to return to our origin.
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jay gordon come - come - i'll take you there - DAMMIT - i can't believe i just said that 000104
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brandon MDMH is a wonderful thing. Let that seratonin flow..................... 000123
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kari i think i deserve it because i can't climax during sex. so instead of fucking and getting nowhere and feeling frustrated, i eat e and climax for about 5 solid hours. 000127
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Will A lifechanger. An eye opener to what life could (and should) be like but isn't.
I could be hit by a bus tomorrow, any of us could, but I know I wont because I'll probably be in a club somewhere on a few mitsubishis continuing to have the time of my life.

http://www.mp3.com/cellular
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power through passion A pill is the easy way out, it is the payoff without the long hard road. But the road itself is what makes the ecstasy worth it.

And I promise you all, the pill is like using a stepladder to reach heaven. You may feel a little closer, but that is it. A little closer.

Only when the mind and soul have been vigorously prepared over many years can real ecstasy be attained.

But our magic pill society has killed the attainment of real highs. It offers shortcuts for a shortcut world.

It offers an easy way for a world of children who cannot do better.

Is it wrong to deny a child happiness?

It is worse to deny them a chance at maturity.

Some say death is an ecstasy, a release from the suffering of life.

But that should be a thing of peace and beauty, not of violent struggle modified by the tentacles of a thousand pills.

Somehow, Mozart knew it. Faure knew it. Durufle knew it.

Is it any wonder that the French call an orgasm "the little death"?
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valis odd how the name for one of our pinnacle emotions is now linked for all time to a pill that gives, for some, the same effect.

i'm taking this to the next logical step. who wants some "god" (tm)? it's just popcorn kernels, really, but there's always kids willing to bite the hype with all their back teeth ...
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ac the drug: a brain opener to pathways of feeling good...the smiles are prolonged and genuine. if one can get to heaven by going through life kissing people on the cheek, a quiet-ish night on e will count for more than a few kisses. in my opinion, the lack of focus makes enlightenment impossible while on the drug, but love...yes yes. 000220
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amy i want to talk to you at the partE. i want to say happy birthday and know you better... deal? 000313
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a "sage, my fingers and toes are starting to tingle?"

"that is why they call it ecstacy."

"oh ."
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emily ...what a totally crazy fun thing... 000522
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MollyGoLightly A friend of mine paid fifty bucks for some aspirin tablets with the "A"s scraped off. Heh. 000522
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lisa_is_bionic Oh, for the love of God, I need it, what sustains my existence, what I'm on now, and what pulls me out of the mundane mediocrity that I'm swimming amidst..No one consulted me on life, now let me escape it, let my body relax and tip, let my eyes glaze over, and make me love everyone that I would otherwise hate. My chosen state of being, chemically induced, serotonin hampering, dopamine restricting, make me happy like no other, and I promise to make it up next time I live. MDMA are the letters I live and die for, and I fall to my knees and pray that I will not cry tomorrow, with my E's, and my ease, and I do one more. 000524
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Brad but is it really living? personally, i need something more concrete, something that actually means something. I prefer to create it for myself, rather than relying on some chemical to create it for me. I count that as a testament to my character, that I can rely on my intellect, talent, imagination, creativity and ambition to transcend the mediocrity we sometimes seem to be assigned by fate. It's much more satisfying in the end, and you don't suffer lows. And you're not destroying your brain... that's just a nice little side effect. In my opinion, drugs are stupid, plain and simple. 000525
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mimo one small pill opens the gate to heaven to me, as i float on another dimension, it consumes me with a powerful euphoric feeling. It is so uplifting, you feel that is how life should be. The warm fuzzy feeling, and the love and passion that hid itself away, flow freely when on a high. I have never looked back after my first pill, I only look forward, I know it is a roulette with life I play, but who would say no to that pill containing happiness. You are onw with yourself, you are one with the music and the beat. I want to stop, I know the dangers, but to choose...... X.T.C is exactly that....ecstasy 000607
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Brad Uh... yeah. It also kills your brain. Get a clue. 000607
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Grendel "i'll heal your wounds
I'll set you free
like jesus christ
on ecstasy"
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merrimill now available in pill form
and now look for epiphany-coming soon!
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moonshine I ve tried. once twice, thrice. I thought it was amazing at first. A feeling that was unattainable completely sober. A feeling that was simply unbeatable. I could dance for hours better then I ever danced before...Then I couldn't dance unless I was intoxicated. I realized the stupid unreversible things I was doing. I looked around to the people with the false smiles, the friendliness that lasted as long as the pill did & then everything quickly faded away. Watching the drug and the drugs control those around me. Watching the drama unfold. Watching people survive on the meth, the e, acid, ghb, K,coke, even herione... More and more each time. No they werent addicts the had variety in there intake..yeah right.The overdoses, the depression, the arrests. Things like that, and you'll change your ways before you drown. 000828
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stephen in movement. 001029
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lovers lament in his arms. ecstasy, free from harm. ecstasy, let me be.

don't let the shadows get to me.
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butterflies it's a funny thing and I love it! the only thing is I am starting to always want it and that's not good. So if you do it be prepared to always want it. But otherwise. rolls your butt off 001126
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Brown MY skin is so comfortable and the darkness resting on the walls makes everything.....very nice. Some things help us see things that we take for granted, there may be a price but the brain is more powerful than any drug 001130
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Chris Only at that moment do I accept that I exist - never do I understand why I exist. Hopefully I will know when I die. Hopefully when I die I won't be.

I never meant to harm anyone.
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john from michigan but lost in L.A. The only drug that I do anymore. fuck shooting heroin, fuck snorting coke and screw pot. Ecstasy,MDMA,rools,beans,e,x,adam pr whatever you call it is a great thing but don't get mentally hooked then you end up like 1/2 of the party kids out there. 001228
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Er am i dreamin 010118
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G_wiz13 mmmmmm.... the best drug ever especially if your gonna have sex. 010118
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kitten on drugs sex is definitely great on e, but it's always better when you're simply in love...don't let the drug fool you. 010125
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Stephen So, what's the scoop on this stuff? Personally, I'm more into the regular kind of ecstacy, well, maybe not "regular" at least in the sense that sometimes we kinda, go ... a little way out there on the intensity scale ..., but then I'm getting kinda personal here aren't I? But really what's wrong with talking sex? I mean if you can't talk about THAT, then hey, I might as well go back to AOL Hell! 010127
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peyton Surrender to me your dreams and fears..

And I will create for you an ecstasy you were afraid to dream of..
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coral fumbling 010131
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starlette a mormon girl in the dorms had a headache, so she took some of her roommate's "aspirin"...

...she ended up in the hospital getting her stomach pumped.

her roommate was out $50.
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zentist being conscious about ourselves,
being beware of neurotransmitters,
why not engaging?
it's the logical progression of humanity

a vicious circle
use it or abuse it
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xtc it is a perfect little pill
it calms me, makes me hyper
it spins me around fast and then slow, it makes it helps me to love him more
be careful with it though cuz now all i do is look to the weekend hoping and wishing
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xtc it is a perfect little pill
it calms me, makes me hyper
it spins me around fast and then slow,it helps me to love him more
be careful with it though cuz now all i do is look to the weekend hoping and wishing
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peyton and it's popular because people are too weak to deal with reality anymore 010222
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Dafremen all of the drugs I have done were to make me feel better. But however I've felt at any one time, is NOT how I want to feel anymore. So I do some shit, it doesn't matter what, X, Weed, Cid, Coke, Crystal you name it, and then I feel different, but still not like I want to feel, so I do something else, whatever, and then I feel different but I don't feel like I want to feel, so I do something else and I feel different, but I don't feel like I want to feel so I do something else..and one day I'm gunna have a heart attack or a stroke and it'll be different, but I won't feel like I want to feel... 010222
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Dafremen I think maybe I want to be stupid. You know, not a blithering idiot, but just a normal everyday joe, without all of these thoughts and facts and opinions floating around in my head. I want to watch TV and not KNOW what's gunna happen next. I want to look at football and not think, damn they're doing this same stupid shit again THIS year? I want to be able to listen to people without going into a coma, and I want to be able to talk to people without their eyes glazing over. I want to understand my wonderful family, and wht they like about the insanely dull things they like, and I want to stop liking the INCREDIBLY dull things I like. I just want to be yer average not an idiot but just nominally stupid joe. 010222
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grendel glass of water and an orange 010222
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X drughead e is a drug in which no one should love
especially if the love is so strong u cant stop! I have tried this drug and relized its not worth it create your own extacy through life. Quit being lazy and realize you have to make the shit happen.
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Markavelli E is the greatest substance on Earth, and it hurts you. That makes it, at the same time, the worst substance on Earth, because it's too good to let go, and too bad to keep doing... 010311
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monadh was when I first
set eyes upon the dawn
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nick The first time I took ecstasty was one of the greatest experiences of my life. A pivotal moment. I had been handed the keys to the kingdom. Thanks to one small pill, I understood the genius of dance music - which I had hated - and I felt glad to be alive and in the moment and so full of love towards my fellow human beings. My whole perception of the world changed and I had real insights into my life; actual epihanies. I hit the clubs and had a ball. But one day it all went terribly wrong - the pill was so strong I had a psychotic reaction and ended up in a psychiatric hospital for a week being pumped with medication, which I needed to take for three months afterwards. I literally lost my mind. So be careful out there - I survived but I understand that it could have been so much worse. It's a very powerful drug and needs to be respected. I still yearn to take it again but I don't want to end up back in a hospital ward, surrounded by nurses wielding syringes and tablets and trying to remember who I am and what my life story is.
I fear for people who take multiple E's in one night because it could so easily happen to them and they don't know it. So take care.
But I'll say this: despite having experienced the dark side of the drug first hand (and it's pretty dark, believe me)I have never regretted taking E. It allowed me to see the world in an entirely different light and feel a happiness I didn't think possible before.
E is both a blessing and a curse; a poison as well as a cure.
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corey :-) Oh....that was fun...let's take another!! 010403
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lame E is exactly that(ecstacy)...but once you pop it's fucking hard to stop.... 010404
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Teddybear(may change name) there once was a happiness, an ecstasy, that was undefined that once made a fortress in my mind.

it wasn't a drug
nor a pill
nor came from a needle and a tube

this feeling was love.

The feeling of love is more powerful than any act of man.
Love truely does conquer all

But like ecstasy love can have a side-effect, or a withdrawl.

Once you lose love, true love, it is like a hole.
It feels as if someone has blown a hole through your heart with a shotgun

but there is no patch or 12 step program to help you get over love and loss. You just have to live with it.
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my way down raves and glow sticks 010405
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todd i love it... 010409
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AzNxTc how can u say love is blind if the lights are so invigorating? 010412
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AzNxTc how can a world full of hate reject a pill full of happiness... i dont believe it! thats why i take it. thats why it takes me away, far away... 010412
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AzNxTc how can no one blather!? i am lonely! the weekend is not yet upon me, my pill awaits... speak now or forever hold your ______. (you fill it to your delight) =) 010412
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Vinnie What the fuck? you people are fucked up, life = Pain, thats the way it is, if you dont like it, then go fucking kill your selves, do society and the people that have to look affter your asses a favour. E fucks with your central nervous system, if a "little Death" is so good, then stop being chicken shits and go all the way! do it, just fucking do it! Im sick and fucking tired of stupid little kids that cant deal with reality cause there minds are burnt out. I have to deal with you little shits every day, if this post angers you, then good... maybe you will think about it, or maybe, you will just keep on being stupid and a drain on out Society, and in that case fuck you! 010518
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Dafremen Ok folx, NOW THAT is a rude tactless asshole. I hope you see the difference in our approaches? If not, well you could always take his suggestion. 010518
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Vinnie Nope... not an asshole... just very angry about the whole druge usage debate. sorry bout the excess of foul language! Have you ever had anyone die on you from drug usage... Extasy the drug is REALLY bad! guess you just gotta find that out the hard way! 010518
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ladybird ...is our backs arching together in the morning sunshine 010518
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recovering addict i don't need any more holes in my brain

the blank look on his face kind of scared me and when i found out a week later that he was reacting that way because of a pill i don't think i could ever swallow it. the first noble truth is that we all wish to escape suffering. but i don't think replacing emotional suffering with bodily suffering is what the buddha meant by that. i've got my hooks, this just isn't one of them.
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DannyH Someone had been stroking my hair for about five minutes before I realised I had no idea who it was and that normally I would have needed to find out immediately but now I didnít care even whether it was gay or straight male or female doing the stroking because it was just undeniably nice but realising how unusual that would be to me normally made me realise just how fucked I really was and made me laugh which broke the spell so I looked behind me and saw it was Angela which surprised me and she kneeled down beside me and said thanks for being there for her yesterday and I remembered how she had been fighting with Benito and I had taken her out to the garden and we had been sitting on exactly this bench and I thought about how there was no way you could see it as the same bench because the atmosphere was so differentÖ
Doug was here sat opposite me which made me happy because he didnít come out often enough and I always worried heíd go all pale and paranoid locked up in his flat but now he was out in the open air flirting with that girl in the red velvet dress that changes colour with the angle you look at it from if you tilt your head like a coloured liquid inside slithering over each other and never mixing like oil and water in the trays we had at school for doing marble effects on paper hey hey everyone do you remember the thing you did at school with paint and oil in a tray to make marble effects on paper that was cool yeah why donít people do that all the time it used to look sweet tomorrow we should buy some oil and some paint and a tray and some paper and just make shit loads of marble things to put on all the walls man that would be cool Iíve got to go for a pissÖ
There are so many people here fucked out of their heads it shouldnít be allowed I mean whereís it all going to lead ha ha do we know how to have fun or what look at the state of him jesus how am I looking am I OK course I am fuck what am I talking about have you could I ponce a fag oh cheers mate look lets no just just come over here a minute I just want to say away from all that lot because to be honest with you mate they can all fuck off I come here to see you and I just want to say look I know its just the pills talking but you know anything you know right give me a hug I love this songÖ
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nemo i tend to be an e-tard sometimes 010605
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jesse my boyfriend and all my friends call me ecstasy, it started in the 9th grade idunno how my boyfriend stated it all who knows 010612
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TalviFatin euphoria in the sexual sense. 010802
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blueberry tea a soft enveloping cloak
in this fuzzy womb
gliding, gliding, gliding off my skin
like oil
like your touch
like your gaze
and every stretch feels like birth
every movement feels like water
and when my eyelids flutter down
and the corners of my lips turn up
the rest of me rises
my feet are light for this moment in time
and your eyes
behind those black shimmering orbs I see you
just like I saw you yesterday
and two hours ago
but now it's greater.
I tremble.

Now I move
swiftly
precisely
and sink into the floor.

it's clear now
the rhythm
the movement
the cycle
the connection
the atoms and the eons
and my chest opens up like french doors
the light comes shining through.

I float back down to rest
the world has stopped trembling with me
and I lay my head on your chest
content
sleep will not come for a while now
but this calmness
this release inside me
this letting go and understanding
will live with me.
and in the coming weeks I will remember this peace.
And perhaps one day, weeks, months from now
I will relive the trembling dilating rebirth again
and the peace will be reinforced.

It is not a crutch for me
it is not a dependency.
It is a reminder
and a powerful one
for those that know their limits
for those that understand respect
for those already with a clarity.
And I will remember.
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MelBee Rollin rollin rollin
kill that serotonine
N my brain is swollen
Ecstasy!
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niki blueberry...wow... 011213
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Lindsey he says he wants ot give me an orgasm, but every time i get close, i push him away and cry. 020106
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SilentBob2 Lovers Lament is one big fake.
A little sex is all it would take.
To convert her butt, into a slut
But she already is, says my gut
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loveheals agreed. soul recognition and appreciation (=love) can do wonders. 020524
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blown cherry Turns him into a sloppier kisser,
but god it's wonderful.
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black i had a friend that tried x one time. his name was tyler.

it was his first time, ironically, he took a whole white pyramid, and had a ball of a time until about four a.m.

he lost consciousness at 4:06. i know because i looked at my watch when i caught him

he didn't wake up until four days later

he has trouble tying his shoes now. but sometimes he sits in his room when i'm there, and i try not to act uncomfortable when hes drooling on himself

he asked me once, "do you remember me when i was smart once?"

i say.. "yeah.."

and then i leave because it hurts too much

i think i'll never do x

ever

my other friends said, "he must have done something else too, because x doesn't hurt anyone.."

he didn't do anything else. nothing else was in his bloodstream, and i was with him the whole night, practically

everyone thought he was awesome to party with, too
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Trig Those little pills . Trash . Fake feeling , fake emotion . Nothing to trifle with . 020909
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kori The demise of my love. poor Daniel, spiraled down that path just a bit too far. 021203
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gay gizmo a fuckin relentless torturous ordeal....it consumes me, even when i'm not on it 021204
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the swinger of birches joey took ecstasy when he went to college, he took tweek and acid too. he got addicted real quick and had bills to pay, but he never paid them. he dropped out before the year was over, he came out too. he lives in west des moines with Austin. i think they're happy. he's clean now and teaches ballet at a dance studio while working at a movie theater at nights. sometimes i wonder if i'll just exist the way that joey does. he's like a lost cause and someday i think maybe he'll become sober enough to realize that he is just in a daze. 021204
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crown shit how long can i wait?!
time passes so slow when your waiting for the next party!
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screwing for virginity this page is too sad to be called ecstasy. i see all the ravers talking about how great it all is right next to the blaths of people saying how it fucked them or someone they know, and it brings a tear to my eye because i know that in a few years the nay sayers (now grown in number due to those who have had bad experiences) will still be telling people not to do it but it wont stop those who are determined to screw themselvs. 021207
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experimentor of amphetamines is a good thing, but a good thing is too easily spoiled as I found out lastnight, & now Im in a state of regret. 021208
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niska true ecstacy is the moment of anticipation - better than the deed. better than the memory...

his eyes are big black pools, craving me as they twitch. he closes them and smiles as he licks his lips and moves closer - i know he's going to kiss me. this all takes about a half a second.

the wait is an eternity.

the thrill of anticipation in that half second: his hands melting every inch of my body with their touch; his mouth, so heavy and warm while his tongue, caresses my skin, as he moans my name with the last, whispered breath he can manage during that final moment of release - clutching my body tightly to his, shaking, unable to think, to breathe, to speak, to see, to hear - only to feel this fantastic feeling that's never the same twice, and will only be better every time we feel it from this moment on... the feeling we can't express to each other with words; he knows I feel his hot breath in tiny bursts on my back as i hear him swallow hard; he's slowly rocking me back and forth... we try to find air again, but would rather suffucate ourselves as his lips move around my face, finally finding mine and assuring me we're about to start this all over, right this instant... Ecstacy.

And no drug in the world will give you a feeling anything close that half second before he kisses you, just knowing where you'll end up. That's ecstasy...

It's real and it's free.
you just have to let go.
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niska kari - you aren't doing it right then.. 030302
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mike i did e once and it is the best felling i have ever had but i will make sure that i am not going to do it alot 030325
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drugs and broken hearts its prom night
you stopped the drugs
but the excitment just isnt lasting
you have a girl
she isnt there
you know that she doesnt want you to
and you know that you dont want to
but you do
so you get freaking hyped up
and you have nothing better to do
so you start making out like crazy
who knew this would happen
so after prom, she comes by the post party
you dont want to comfront her
so you just wave

the next day
you hang out, she doesnt know about it
not the drugs and not the making out
you want her to know
but you dont want to tell her
...its better if she doesnt know
so she goes on loving you,
spending time with you
CARING for you!
and still knows nothing
so finally a few weeks down the road,
you two arent doing so great
however, you and your former prom date are doing just fine
spending more time with her then the one who actually cares
so you break her heart
not for long just for a couple hours
she knew all along not to get attatched
you were definitly NOT that special
so she goes on not caring
even when she sees you with the prom date
so she is cool with this
honestly, not a problem with her
shes having her fun with guys for sure
she thinks that there is nothing going on with you and her and are still friends
but it seems otherwise for you in her point of view
ignoring her, walking past her
not making any effort
she'll IM you just to talk and nothing happens
why is your head so far up your ass? she thinks
and then she starts to think about what happenned...
your not seeing eachother because of E,
you have a relationship with the prom date because of E,
things that were good are over because of E,
she wonders, why is thier relationship better, especially when you didnt want one?
why is this one lasting longer?
it isnt based upon actually feelings..
its based on a drug
that make you feel how you normally wouldnt
creating emotions that shouldnt
whether or not its ended up good or bad
she has put it in the past
why cant you
you cant because its a drug
the definition of a drug is an addiction
so guess, because of this
you dont just get addicted to the drug
but to a person
breaking a heart and leaving lives shattered along the road
and yet, no sense of emotion
"desire shows NO mercy"
unfortunately
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the reporter Ecstasy study used wrong drug, withdrawn



BALTIMORE, Sept. 8 (UPI) -- A controversial study suggesting people taking the street drug Ecstasy might later develop Parkinson's disease has been retracted.

The study was withdrawn after it was revealed a labeling error was discovered on drug bottles used in the study.

Researcher George Ricaurte and his colleagues at Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine in Baltimore published their work in the journal Science in September 2002, provoking widespread alarm in the media.

Newscientist.com said the team found three consecutive doses of ecstasy given to squirrel monkeys and baboons caused profound damage to dopamine-producing neurons in their brains -- neurons lost in Parkinson's disease.

The animals were injected with ecstasy at three-hour intervals to mimic the way humans take the drug during all-night raves. Two of the 10 died within hours after developing hyperthermia.

But the researchers issued a retraction in Science this month, saying they discovered all but one of the animals received amphetamines instead of the intended drug. Methamphetamine, also known as speed, would have been expected to produce such results.
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Hack Kat ecstasy is the best thing in this fucked up world bet were i dwell its so fuckin expensive anyone know how to make it?? blunt i know but hay im an outright person with minimal funding. 031202
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ouicestmoi ROLL ON! 031225
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ryen I love e. 040305
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Persona I did two caps once, and suprise suprise, I loved it. My brother and I talked for long minutes of things we could never say. Mostly he talked, about the life he'd been leading. I don't think I'll ever feel that kind of empathy again. We went out with a group of close friends and danced our asses off, loved everyone, drank water, chewed, chainsmoked. I was indescribably happy and so very charming. I thought I'd never want to stop doing E.
I went through a state of depression which lasted for 3 months starting the day after E. I hated myself. I had anxiety attacks... eventually I got better.
One night of that much wonder isn't worth that many long nights of lonely lethargy.
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Mari i did for the first time this weekend... wat it is, is amazing... its so undescribable... but once u had it, u want it again... i had my own world for 4 hours... AWE. now im depressed it fuks u over so bad :( DoWnEr 040308
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ryen it is amazing though 040308
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dcd sparingly. you should never become dependent on anything. if used sparingly it works perfectly. harmony. two to three times a year. that's it. enough to experience but not enough to destroy. sparingly people. avoid decadence and you can achieve happiness on both sides. they'll overlap. i promise. 040330
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hsgatincamail happiness is the center of conscious is
a seed that spreads through kind
thought you should know what its like to live fully in love with everything forevery way will bring you back to the same resting
place your love outwards and and give others peace.
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Cole ROCK AND ROLL this is what e is fucking greatest feeling ever, so god damn great, homosexuality means nothing on it, just alive, free, spirtual good ride, there is no car, its you soaring through the air, free with your buddy, your long hair flowing from headbanging, and your face finally smiling 040429
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Cole ROCK AND ROLL this is what e is fucking greatest feeling ever, so god damn great, homosexuality means nothing on it, just alive, free, spirtual good ride, there is no car, its you soaring through the air, free with your buddy, your long hair flowing from headbanging, and your face finally smiling 040429
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Cole ROCK AND ROLL this is what e is fucking greatest feeling ever, so god damn great, homosexuality means nothing on it, just alive, free, spirtual good ride, there is no car, its you soaring through the air, free with your buddy, your long hair flowing from headbanging, and your face finally smiling 040429
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Cole ROCK AND ROLL this is what e is fucking greatest feeling ever, so god damn great, homosexuality means nothing on it, just alive, free, spirtual good ride, there is no car, its you soaring through the air, free with your buddy, your long hair flowing from headbanging, and your face finally smiling 040429
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Cole ROCK AND ROLL this is what e is fucking greatest feeling ever, so god damn great, homosexuality means nothing on it, just alive, free, spirtual good ride, there is no car, its you soaring through the air, free with your buddy, your long hair flowing from headbanging, and your face finally smiling 040429
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Cole ROCK AND ROLL this is what e is fucking greatest feeling ever, so god damn great, homosexuality means nothing on it, just alive, free, spirtual good ride, there is no car, its you soaring through the air, free with your buddy, your long hair flowing from headbanging, and your face finally smiling 040429
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Cole ROCK AND ROLL this is what e is fucking greatest feeling ever, so god damn great, homosexuality means nothing on it, just alive, free, spirtual good ride, there is no car, its you soaring through the air, free with your buddy, your long hair flowing from headbanging, and your face finally smiling 040429
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ethereal feed me. 040429
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black you posted the same thing six times

and you're still a moron, and still not poignant

sorry
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dust Empathy

I loved the beat of our feet hitting the sidewalk as we walked around the city that night.

Agony

The next day. No sleep. Pale, tired face. Still chewing away at nothing. I smoked endless cigarettes that day, and chilled alone in my room, just being. I had heard the comedown and the day after can be rough. I was taking it easy, even enjoying it, but...
After a few days that wow-my-life-has-changed feeling dwindled away and I went back to being a bundle of hangups.

~I think, in the long run, the (ex)perience helped me a little. Not a whole lot. But at the very least it's a great memory. Certainly no regrets here.
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Piso Mojado i_cant_wait_to_take_the_pill 040522
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34 Ha ha, stupid girls.. Get a girl hooked on e and she's all mine.. Acting like a moron who loves everyone, free for me to carry out of the club and into my car and take to my house.. Free for me to use and turn into a slut.. I could even film her if I wanted to.. Are you lonely? You don't have to be anymore, just go to the nearest raver club and pick one of the girls lying on the floor strung out on e, or acid, or some other drug that renders them unable to resist. Girls who would otherwise say "You wish, tee hee".. Carry her out, she'll be debilitated for hours.. You can do anything you want to her.. Dumb bitches.. They deserve nothing more than to be raped and discarded in an alleyway like the whores they are. Hey mister, take a good look at what I've done to your daughter. The bitch is gonna die soon anyway, once that shit fucks up her brain permanently and eventually kills her.. She gave up her worthless life for a few fleeting hours of so-called heaven.. Meanwhile her body is mine to use however I want.. Age doesn't matter to me.. It's not like she'll have any idea what's going on.. Nice going slut, you fucked up good, and I couldn't be happier.. All I have to do is put on a smile and you will think you've fallen in love.. Stupid ass. All you want to do is to escape reality, and the truth.. And in the process you have become my toy.. It's a ticket to free poon-tang.. Thank God for e. 040523
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Blink ecstasy, like a beast in me, crawls up from my toes, wants to control the world. Ecstasy like that beast in me, growls heavily inside my body, eats through my thin walls. Ecstacy, we and our search for exctasy, that beast in you, that wants it all, knowing death comes eventually. The control is yours and ours, think about that while searching for ecstasy in those 24 hours... 040618
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kimmyness ..it's everything you've ever wanted. orange yin yangs, blue dolfins, supermans, mitsubishis, butterflys, smiley faces, and random little letters. who thought they could bring you such happiness? once i took my first, and i didn't end up dieing or in the hospital, i knew it would be my friend for years to come. as long as your responsible about how/who with/ and where you do it...than just feel free to pop one back and relax, taste the sky, enjoy the euphoria.

*this insanity...it's a crazy thing*
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KiMmYnEsS is anobody out there?
or am i all alone
is no one here to save me
no angel of my own
i miss your arms around me
your eyes so deep and blue
your kisses soft apon me
my body aches for you
i crave your hands to touch me
and glide along my skin
to feel you deep inside me
i desire you within
your body is my temple
i praise you on my knees
i accept your all,
fault or flaw,
for you i aim to please
cause you fufill my dreams
you control my fantasies
your my nirvana

my pure bliss

your my ecstasy
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GIMMEaLIGHTshow the name says it all....How can anything that makes you feel so good be so bad? Californian Professor Alexander Shulgin (the godfather/ inventor of ectasy) knew exactly what he was doing and he IS a GOD!! 040728
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essence i see red stars, red sun rising, all this time of my life, see blue stars, high above, the blue stars, in the blue sky... la la la... la la la la... 040922
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hsg lucid_dreaming is superior to any pill 040922
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Cole I would appreciate it if you would not use my name and email. 041026
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Hajera ANOREXIA 041204
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tinkerbel a feeling that is as transient as everything else in life... the first time is the best time... you search for that feeling.. you'd do anything to get it back... you take more and more... but it never comes... highs get increasingly low... you know you won't stop until something comes along and rips your eyelids back...like having your best friend die after telling you all night that she's an orange and to stay away from her because she has hysterical paranoia and thinks your going to turn her into orange juice... nothing fun about it... the feeling this drug gave me the first time i took it was absolutely amazing, there isn't any point denying it... but it wasn't REAL... it makes strong people weak and embarrasses people who have pride... i used it to escape and found that when i came down all i wanted to do was kill myself... i'd never felt like that in all my life... there was nothing wrong with me, nothing had happened and yet i felt like i would rather be dead... i never even felt like that when my grandfathers died... i knew then that, that feeling wasn't REAL either and i had to stop... once a year or so i'll have one but to be dependant on anything is ignominious... all things in moderation.. 041206
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tinkerbel a feeling that is as transient as everything else in life... the first time is the best time... you search for that feeling.. you'd do anything to get it back... you take more and more... but it never comes... highs get increasingly low... you know you won't stop until something comes along and rips your eyelids back...like having your best friend die after telling you all night that she's an orange and to stay away from her because she has hysterical paranoia and thinks your going to turn her into orange juice... nothing fun about it... the feeling this drug gave me the first time i took it was absolutely amazing, there isn't any point denying it... but it wasn't REAL... it makes strong people weak and embarrasses people who have pride... i used it to escape and found that when i came down all i wanted to do was kill myself... i'd never felt like that in all my life... there was nothing wrong with me, nothing had happened and yet i felt like i would rather be dead... i never even felt like that when my grandfathers died... i knew then that, that feeling wasn't REAL either and i had to stop... once a year or so i'll have one but to be dependant on anything is ignominious... all things in moderation.. 041206
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Easy Dave 50 bucks? fuck that. I'll take some Malboro 100's instead. 041209
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pSyche rising
rolling like the sea
a wave of ectasy washes over me
in and out
my breath
is like the rapids shallow
tossing and turning
in the ocean of pillows
roaring in my ears
taste of salty lips
rough and flowing over mine
the waves subside
and I am left gasping
for air
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Melissa LOvee it. Complete n total happiness ...word of advice tho , if you like to smoke buy a carton before you take E for sure, because when your not dancing you need it , I smoke about 29723457274398 cigs. Love it thO , wortH a 100 bucks a pill 050116
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message_in_a_Bottle ECSTASY ECSTACY ECSTACY
The wors says it all!

in reality one would never think of me as someone who would go that way. But for me, in the part of life that counts, the amazing E reigns my thoughts and actions.

I wish that i could feel the magic tingle running through my body each and every second...
Me part of the music, the tunes overflowing in my head.
Everyting passing by slowly or streamlining past me in seconds.
I feel like someone, cofortable in the E-Zone created by all like me.
A blink of an eye confirms the mutual feeling, before i sink back into my own world, my own heaven.
Passion arousing my every sense.
Alert, but only to what i want to notice.
One leads to another, another to another, the high gets more and more apealing,
Forgetting all that bothers.

If not, why not?
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blah "Abstract
All around
vicious sounds
fall to the ground
spinning faces
dazed new places
in ecstacy
my heart races"
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no poet you guys are a buch of fuckin losers, making poems who the fuck makes poems about drugs seriously what a buch of fuckin nerds who r never gone beat u think with ur pencil u sould start thing with ur dick. that is probabally the gayest thing i have ever herd, makeing poems 4 a drug. i have some advice 4 all of u suck my freakin cock u sons of bitches.
I heart Beans
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Lemon_Soda John Lennon.
Jimmy Hendrix.
Rolling Stones.
Nirvana
Eminem
Etc.

All poets.

You need appropriate instruction in dictation, societal influence, and civility.
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kariann it's a beautiful word, let me tell you.

i dont do drugs, i capture my ecstasy other ways, and it's wonderful, oh so fucking wonderful.

oh god, why did he ever leave me? what did i do wrong.
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whoknows you are all fucking idiots.. you just wait till all of you pill poppers hit rock bottom and you start skippin classes, pawning your stuff, losing your friends.. all for ecstasy. you think you can stop but you just don't want to right? SMACK YOURSELF OVER THE HEAD BITCH. i was the same, i hope you realise what a mess you're making of your life before it's too late. 050919
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flexible so she was right, blather does blather_stalk you, all by itself. 050920
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iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl how did i guess you would have posted here.
predictability, my dear flexible.

i can't do this any more.
i won't be the designated ambulance caller.

if you feel the urge for a happy pill
i shall leave you to it.
maybe permanently, actually.
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flexible idle_threats 051002
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i prefer weed i'm donig the shit anymore, through with it. fuch you happy pill! 051002
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Piso Mojado last night's tea bag wisdom: "love is ecstasy" 051002
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ex-X-popper ok, so i popped this "happy pill" on thursday night but i regret to inform that after prolonged use, the drug no longer works the way it should, that is, the way it used to.

before i used to get a feeling of euphoria and bliss, like everything was alright and i fucking loved everything and everyone. now i just get a rush of energy, still paradoxically intertwined with the present reality and refuting it as such. perhaps the worst thing is the morning after, for after coming home "high on ecstasy", alone, i have stayed up all night and part of the morning suffering through a detailed introspection of myself, coming out clean with the good and the bad - however being able to confront and conform. the next day is just a waste, either depressed or too fixated on last night's events
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Kitten We only take it once or twice a year. Sometimes more, sometimes less. We are respectable hard working adults with a family and responsibilities, and it's our escape, and we fucking love it.

It's like the happiness and love we have simmering under the surface in our daily lives bubbles up and I can't control it anymore. It's such an amazing feeling, doing E with your lover. I just want to touch him and watch him dance.

We've both been doing it for years now, before we met and since, and it just keeps us close and strong. That time together, away from the world and so into each other and the music, it keeps our love going.

I don't get comedowns, but he does, but then I am 9 years younger! I don't ever want to stop doing it, but I know one day I'll have to.
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Cassandra I felt it from a pill last night, and tonight I felt it in my lovers arms, I prefer it naturally, it takes over my body with passion, I feel happiness and amplified love, my little heart beats ever so rapidly, for these moments life is pure bliss. and everything else seems bearable 060716
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dries&hardens ended up being a tremendous waste of money though i am comforted by your immunity
it seems we're both of the breed that requires substances not to create emotions but to stifle them
one in the painfully impassioned same asking only for a little quiet
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RoaulDuke i've done e once. it didnt make me nearly as horny as mescaline(san pedro). wasnt nearly as intense either, but maybe i didn't get a high enough dosage to have a profound trip. 060718
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chelloveck my eyes are numb now. 070201
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z see: nihilistic_ecstasy 070201
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i viddied nadsat 070201
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teeru it's love and it's love and it's love,

but you know i was coming down when i met you girl, chemicals abatin', this shit's for real.
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secondbody is reserved for special moments 081125
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