pipedream misstree keeps me buoyant. i always think of her as carrying relaxed smiles, spare ones, in her back pocket. and when she said that when she leans on trees, she thinks of me, it made my entire day. :D 031006 ... mon :) pipedream is rockness rockness is my word_of_the_day pardon my sillyousnousmess . 031006 ... pipedream reduced to warm puddle o sentimental flu i haven't slept properly for the past two days. i have had a mid-term every day since yesterday. i spent most of my very (very) early morning throwing up my dinner and midnight study-snack. i just took a pre-cal midterm. i am running slight fever and feel like i've been steamrollered and my brain turned into mashed potatoes. and then, this wonderful little one-word page happens to catch my scrolling-down eye and the world is pretty again, the sunshine is warm and the breeze cool, and my stomach stops feeling green and seasick, but smiley and snuggly inside. i love you guys. thank you for the joy you bring to blather, the sparkles of your souls, the intelligence of your minds and the thoughtfulness that tempers the quirky and the goofy; both so essential...i love the sillyousness, it makes my heart smile real big :) and trees, yups indeedy i always think of you when i lean against one, or sit under one..you're like that. indelible once you've arrived. and incidentally, mon/nom- i've been clicking on SO many blather titles that have last been blathed on by you that i was going to tell you on a mon/nom page! coinky-densh, no? happy one, nonetheless. i shall now go work at my CS 101 assignment, but in such a different mood. thank you; you've put the spring back into my step. 031006 ... oldephebe spring! and don't forget about the bling bling ..you know diamonds in your eyes and all that gurl..shimmering soul streams ..ye-up..for shizzle! pd! so ineffably rocks!! okay so the eloqence and oracular have abandoned me today..still though..I can't count the times when your thoughtfulness and your oh so generous spirit have been that tiny tinkling bright sound amidst all the brown sound rolling in my head.. i come stumbling into my duplex like a whiskey preach from the edge of his world to the edge of his fallen life..and many times it is your word of encouragement that really sends a shard of light..to go rummaging into the dark..helping me to find purchase on these cobbbled streets that roll and heave under my feet..I'm not the hugging type..but if i were i'd project one your way.. later, ... 031007 ... mon :) i'm so sleepy i can only smile (: 031007 ... realistic optimist wonderful moon whispers of articulately delicate beauty rumble and flow from the pipe that dreams are made in. thank you for shedding shadows of hidden light upon our aching yearning maws, and anyway, who wouldn't want to lay some dreampipe? 031007 ... pipedream you think so, phebes? i hoped i could be encouraging in some way; sometimes finding yourself again when one's dangerously close to losing oneself in the murky bog of thinking too much can be real difficult unless someone holds out a pole to pull you out with. im glad, im terribly glad i could be pole-bearer :)) wow, realistic. wow. im bowled over, totally. *goes red* 031007 ... pipedream y'know i was thinking- realistic has this way with words that reminds me of phebes here sometimes. not the same because everyone's sparkles shine differently, but similar appreciation of words, sensitive usage to create a rich tapestry of image and sound. 031007 ... oldephebe yeah i get that.. brah has definately got skillz yeah pd when twilight is growing tall within my chest it is sometimes just serendipitously stumbling over your beatific pulses..don't know if i can be redeemed by the light in anothers eyes but..when blight bursts from...Black orchid blooming within me..your words help to thread the thatch bridge back to the little things i hold so dearly.. and ah RO is bad..but as in the words of Run DMC..not bad meaning bad but bad meaning good!! yeah let me just mercurially lacquer on the levity.. am i for real? *pneumatic discharge between pursed lips..and then a long repose* ... 031007 ... realistic optimist although with my lay some dream pipe comment i was trying to be bad meaning bad. kind of a lascivious flirtatious come on ya know? i couldnt resist the pun... 031007 ... pipedream ah, reality...i personally think russell's got reality down pre-t-ty fine. but yup, you're as real as anything else. alternatively, you're as real as your words on a screen are which means you're quite real anyhoo. um. i think im babbling circuituously (i spelt it right, woo hoo), must be the high i get from this page...or the fact that technically speaking, i haven't eaten since yesterday (Thank You Rampaging Stomach-Bowel Mutiny). no, must be the good karma this page generates. *grin* 031007 ... oldephebe pd please take care of yourself..trying not to nag..i'm always cramming food down my kids throat to fortify him for his day..what with his high metabolism and all. well not really cramming more likegenle reminders to eat, and handing the old brown bag plus money for the daily sugar cravings he gets..he won't drink fruit juices so..i gave up on that yeah and realistic optimist, yeah i got the whole lascivious thing..but still wanted to acknowledge your ah skillz so ah pd ggod luck on the rest of your finals, and i hope your feeling better 031008 ... pipedream hahahhaha i *didn't* get the lascivious thing!!! im rather thick at these things hahaaha *me winks at RO to make up for lost time anyhoo* lol i discovered i've lost five pounds yesterday, no WONDER i've been feeling kind of bony...birdlike about the..um..bones :D but i'm all right, just a little tired and feeling like a raisin, that's all, but im eating okay and sleeping properly so i s'pose t'will all be fine in a few more days, thank you for your concern, lovie :) your kid sounds like a spunky little thing, probably likes rolling down grassy hills and chasing butterflies and climbing trees..tell me about him/her, 'phebes, if it's all right with you :) 031008 ... stork daddy what i wouldn't give to lose five pounds right now ! 031008 ... pipedream not like this you wouldn't, this feels like ruddy dysentry *grins* and yet, i'm as cheerful as ever, as good friend remarked yesterday.. 'you think SOMEthing would dampen it, but nooooo' hahahahhaa and its a him, its a him. i knew that. 'phebes jr. tee hee. 031008 ... oldephebe uh...heh heh...she said jr...yeah..heh heh..yeah that's right jr...heh heh 031009 ... realistic optimist youngephebe, eh? i imagine he'll have some great words to wield, and will be great at cracking encryption ;) 031009 ... misstree pd, make sure you're drinking enough water. carry on. 031009 ... pipedream water? gotcha..i've been drinking a lot of apple juice though, if that counts...im really tired of rice, bananas and apple juice now, i keep dreaming of pizza, and chicken karahi, and lasagna with my best friend's special secret sauce :`( forgive me, im whiny today *scowls at her stomach* 031009 ... blah-ze take my word for it... eat coffee! you don't need to sleep for at least 100 hours! and take a camera for when it gets really weird and its fun for later as well! but no. that would probably kill you. anyway... as the First Person on Blather to have Ever Really Talked to me, you are officially Great. there will be a pipedream shrine next to the endless desire shrine. anyway, now you are Great, you may revel in your Greatness, even if noone else understands you. 031009 ... pipedream reveling in her newfound greatness but 'tis quite swankilicious , talking to you- *grin* 031011 ... oE uh..Yo pd..'sup? 031011 ... blah-ze indeed, does smack of the swanki. the shrine is up and functioning. it has everything short of a neon sign and walk in restarant. for those i have to get council approval. i slept from twelve yesterday (which was fourteen hours ago now) until twelve this morning, and could not believe it. messed up my *study timetable* no end, plus i missed the rugby match between france and new zealand. maybe my system just instigated the great coffee purge...or maybe i just passed out from lack of blood (gave blood on thursday and had four blood noses since). either way, there is too much blood in my caffeine stream and i must replenish it. 031011 ... blah-ze mess that, it was 26 hours ago. and three minutes, counting. 031011 ... pipedream how sweet, you're taking the HSC? i did that a year ago, only we call it the A-levels here..what subs? and if caffiene is giving you a bloody nose...that's just...spooky :S why are you studying like a madman, generally? there's plenty of time..unless you're taking the december ones..ohhhhhhh *ting* -- lightbulb *pats your shoulder in sympathy* sally forth, my child *nods sagely* 2 As, 2 Bs. muahahaha. 031012 ... blah-ze my exams start in one week, as of five hours ago. english, straight up monday morning at 9:15. i am worried lots, see why? i am doing 4 units of english (2 unit advanced, 1 unit extension and a forth unit for a major work, i did a short story), two of ancient history, two of maths, two of IPT (computer theory stuff), two of chemistry, and because i am in a catholic school and have to do religious studies as a compulsary subject, so i do the bludger unit of 'catholic studies', which i barely ever turned up for. god, i can't believe school is already over. and caffeine is your friend. good point, though, my blood noses do seem to start again when i hit the caffeine. pity, i have a cube of coke i have to go through... maybe i'll quit after then. 031013 ... realistic optimist what are you going as for halloween, dreamy? 031013 ... pipedream hmmm...that's a good question! we don't do halloween as such here but i'll just pretend :) i would like to be a butterfly, or the cookie monster... *grin* what 'bout you? 031013 ... realistic optimist aww you don't? it is my favoretest holiday in many ways. and i havent decided as of yet. so far the best idea i have is to go as a skeleton. if i choose this costume, i will wear a black thong, and paint my limbs silvery and try to accentuate their thinness and length. however, it gets cold here by halloween, so perhaps a more practical costume would be prudent. 031014 ... pipedream hmm..how about a black jumpsuit with bones painted on it? kinda hokey, but at least you'll be warm...or you can just wear the thong and go as a corpse with rigor mortis (hee hee geddit? from the cold and all? hee hee) naah, we don't have halloween, but we DO have basant, which is a festival that marks the coming of the spring...everyone flies kites and wears yellow, because that's the colour of spinach flowers -spinach blooms in spring. its SO much fun, its in february and i love it best of all :) 031014 ... Death of a Rose just dropped by to deliver this package. Please sign here and here, over here and once upon my chest. Thank you for being blue pipedream. blows some lips your way. 031018 ... realistic optimist mehehehe he said deliver a package... meheheheehehee 031019 ... oldephebe heh heh ..i think this page is beginning to skirt the edge of male ribaldry .. um..hey pd ... 031019 ... pipedream *giggles with R.O* hi 'phebes, jigar *grins* you realise that you have been given a nickname of pure lahori slang, you being miles n' miles away in a little corner of the yoo-nited states and all...welcome to the wonders of modern technology. yay! i wonder what was in the package (perversions entirely aside) i LOVE surprises *rips open box* awright! pause for suspense! WHAT'S IN THE BOX? *drumroll* (ideas, ideas, folks) 031019 ... pipedream i can stand on my head sometimes. just so you know. and yes yes! before i forget! i would like everyone to contribute a jar to pd's_special_sparkles :D hehehe 031020 ... realistic optimist can you jump to a handstand, pd? and here are my moonsprinkles. i didn't have a jar, so i brought them over in a kangaroo pouch. 031021 ... Little Lost Riding Hood Am I the only one who reads this excellent site from the United Kingdom? Are there any more Britishers as it seems predominantly American? ;) Be interesting to find out... 031021 ... oE i think neesh and U-24 are british and bla-ze hails from australian - that's all i know of - oh yeah there are a few canadians here as well - 031021 ... Death of a Rose What's in the package? No perversions, naughty man r.o. Well, I was going to say the obvious, 12 long stemmed white roses, but then I thought of maybe just the scent of roses, then......well....hmmm.... 'We apologize, the 4:07 package from Doar has been forced off the train tracks, please see ticket office for alternate arrangements. Thank you and have a blue day.' 031021 ... pipedream roses! WHITE ones! oooooooo! *gathers them up in a big armful and feels very girly and pretty and beauty-pageant-y* (nobody has ever sent me/given me real life roses-flowers, you see..flowers from my best friend on my birthday don't count) pshaw for the train-bouncing package, it sprouted little rainbow coloured feet and walked its way here. thankyew :D *smiles happily at the pretty roses* 031021 ... pipedream and i'm not british, but we use british english in my part of the once-colonised world...on with the colour and favour and labour, although i don't call trousers trousers, i call 'em pants. mostly. 031021 ... pipedream i got roses, i got roses (even if they're just cyber-world ones that jumped off a train that i'm not technically *no pun intended* supposed to have) i wonder if i'll ever get scads of surprise roses. but it'd count if it were from some secret admirer i'd want to be sent roses from. okay pd, off to bed with you and your tangent, chop chop :P 031021 ... Little Lost Riding Hood Well thanks for the info guys, its nice to know that this is a multi-cultural system of diversity!! Written a few things, love it. Never had anywhere like this where you can express yourself under the cover of the blue pages....so unique.... 031021 ... pipedream oh yes, its an entirely different world. liberation; i've never felt freer or realler as much as i do when im blathering. the cloak of blurple bringeth out the sceret sparkles of everyone's soul... *gothic music* 031021 ... Little Lost Riding Hood I agree Pipedream - never a truer word said. Nice to make your acquaintance! 031022 ... realistic optimist hi dreamypipes. nice to see you keep similar hours, even if you do live in some strange mystical land with no halloween. well anyway, i saved you some milk and cookies. 031022 ... pipedream cookies, yay- im rather hungry at the mo...and my mystical land isn't *that* bad. yesterday i found a dead dragonfly, entirely whole. it was so pretty, dragonfly wings fascinate me. and then a boorish friend of mine showed up, pondered on eating it for money and then yanked the wings off. i surprised myself by yelping,covering my eyes and recoiling in horror. mauler of the dragonfly, it still makes me shiver, and i am not usually squeamish. it was just the destruction of such a fragile, beautiful thing. boor. 031022 ... nomatter amuses me 031023 ... Death of a Rose ding dong......ahem..... another package of roses, deep blue ones, for your arms to hold. Cheerio, luv. 031023 ... wolfMan hello pd, guess who? Just another person from your weird world without haloween, or christmas or easter for that matter... but yes.. basant is glorious isnt it? Thought id drop a little line down to this little blue part of your world (blue being pure vibrant and real, not sad) to see if youll come up to me tomorrow or the day after or the day after that and tell me youve seen this. Worlds combine worlds collide, and where are we all left but shards of insanity. *me donates all my sparkles to you... didnt have a bag so i drew one and put them in there* and oh no.. chester the anorexic cat (who i drew right next to the bag) is nibbling around it... hmm do you think sparkles give you a stomach ache if you eat them... i dont think they SHOuld... but the more i think about it the more i think they just might... especially if you dont chew them properly. sweet dreams... shabakhair... 031023 ... pipedream eeeeeee! *more* roses! blue roses for blatherskites...how beautiful these be! *smiles radiantly at D.O.A.R* and although sparkle tangents should *technically* be in the sparklearium....oh well. sparkles never give you stomach-aches...even if you're a very very skinny, greedy cat who shares a name with the chee-tos cat...i suppose if you ate them your tummy would glow translucently for a while, and you'd feel like you swallowed something fluttery (but in a nice way, not a mexican-jumping-beans feeling) and bright...and it'd feel good. something you'd want to happen more often. and sparkles never donate themselves. you can't donate sparkles. they come and go and stay only if *they* want to. we are only hosts. but thanks nohow, i'll put whatever sparkles choose to stay (and there will be *some*, sparkles are indelible and always linger after contact) in its chester baggie on a shelf in the sparkle storeroom. (pd's_special_sparkles, y'know) 031023 ... pipedream why does this page of mine 'go' to 'fiona_apple_lyrics'? geeeez! *feels vaguely insulted* 031026 ... pipedream is it a loser thing to buy yourself flowers? i did the other day and i don't think it is. sad, maybe, that noone will give you some anyway, but not loser. i don't think so. 031028 ... realistic optimist why nothing could be farther from the truth! what is so loser about buying yourself flowers? i mean its not like you have a lack of people who would love to buy you flowers. doar and i could go in on a giant bouquet and beat each other up over who gets to present it! anyway, it's nice to have flowers around, so by all means, buy them! 031029 ... pipedream yeah, you're right, i *will* keep on doing that. if you want something enough, go get it. roar! and that's really rather sweet of you, the flower offer. *smiles happily* y'all make me sparkly :) 031029 ... Doar okay RO, I'm calling your pinko commie, motherlovin, flower stealin ass out.....come on......put the dukes up, maybe some earls as well..... Oh hell......why don't we both give this lightbeam flowers. Hey Pipers. 031029 ... minnesota_chris to answer your question, the "go" button goes to a random page. It's fun to make that link your home page. It's this: http://blather.newdream.net/cgi-bin/blather?random;from=pipedream 031029 ... celestias shadow pipedream is my hero. somehow we always seem to end up posting right after each other on the same blathes. i guess we're kind of consensual_stalkers. in a good way. :) pd rocks my socks! 031029 ... pipedream that sounds quite cool, chris...how would one do that? (rather inept at techies y'see) hey, DOAR (a deer, a female deer..) *grins* and celestias, my consensual_stalker jigar. you rock my socks and turn them into rainbow stripey ones :D 031029 ... realistic optimist i suppose doffaroz has the right of it: we should just all parade in and present the sparkle goddess with a fitting tribute. *grabs 21 lilies, takes ten paces, turns, and blows through the stems, which makes all the pollen sparklies fly through the air in a 21 lily salute* 031030 ... Doar yes, a 21 orchid salute present flowers, ready, aim, throw. 031030 ... pipedream right now im sitting in one of the computer labs at my university, and i have the biggest, goofiest, happiest grin on my face. ear to ear, i kid you not. *buries herself in orchids and lilies and lily pollen-sparkles and sighs happily* what bliss 031030 ... Death of a Rose aap merey baagh main aayenge? poop! blather is having problems today or our service provider is. that's what R.O. and me are here for little lady, to bring you butterflies, flowers, anything you should wish for cause you make others happy with such ease and exuberance. anytime you need some more just whistle. oh, and you better stop being nice to me cause a crush can turn into infatuation. :P 031031 ... pipedream i can't not be nice to people who bring me butterflies and flowers, you know. *shakes her head* nope, just 'aint happenin'. and besides, turning the surly ones into mush is the funnest thing :D tra la la! im having such a good hair day today, pretty curls..no frizz, yay for winter hahahah 031031 ... pipedream today i will see something magic. today i will see something magic. today i will see something magic. something magic will happen today. i was re-reading my favourite parts from 'the secret garden' and colin's digression on magic was enchanting...as it always is.. 031102 ... schadenfreude are you capabnle of shutting the fuck up, or will we forevermore have to wade through your chatty crap in order to read something of substance? 031102 ... pipedream nobody asked YOU to wade through it, if you don't like it, bug off. ingrate. 031103 ... schadenfreude no, but i do so _normally_ enjoy wading through the cacaphony of thoughts to be found hereabouts. instead, my wading carries me through acres of empty muck, bunch o' bullshit that leaves me anything but enlightened. i was just asking if you were planning to stop shitting pixie dust at any point in the near future so i can stop wasting my time on empty platitudes. 031103 ... blah-ze life sucks. live with it. if you wanna find insight, go stalk dafremen on a bad day. otherwise, we'll keep pipedream to ourselves. 031103 ... schadenfreude then why don't you keep her to yourself on one of the many excellent and free chat clients that exist in the world, rather than cluttering a space as special as this with blowing nitrous up eachother's butts? 031103 ... blah-ze please step to continued_arguement_here 031103 ... scadenfreude why? and i'll bite my tongue on the spelling. 031103 ... blah-ze cos we wouldn't want to go cluttering up the precious space here with you inane drivel 031103 ... schadenfreude oh, dear! attempting to turn my own arguments against me? but i think that starting a whole other blathe just so you can spout the same tired arguments when this one works just as well would be more clutter. besides, i like it here. it smells funny. smells like i've hit the crap at the source, and the sidecrap has come flying to the defense. that's fine. bring it on until the morning light, because i will be sleeping, and caring far less than you. 031103 ... blah-ze the hell wit' ye. ye can keep your ego, but please post somethin' worth readin' afore ye goes on, like this. i'll be reading. 031103 ... REAListic optimIST go troll somewhere else. 031103 ... Road blather is whatever we, as its' users wish it to be.....you may smell *crap*, we who actually enjoy have pixie dust spewed around will stay here, so stay or don't. 031103 ... celestias shadow *stab* don't criticize pd! i love her very much and she's special. criticize blather if you want, that's ok. it's not for some people. but don't pick on individuals, k? find a leeetle corner to fit into and spew your disapproval from there, por favor. 031103 ... pipedream love you guys! :) *whispers* (schaden-whatever is just jealous because it hasn't got a blather_family) 031103 ... blah-ze sorry 'bout cluttering up your page with argumentative nonsense... prolly a bad idea in retrospect, but i just couldn't stand that bleeding git. and i think we're gonna have to change swanki costumes. i got called the sidekick. 031103 ... pipedream it's all right. i appreciate the standing-up very much :)) change costumes? well, okay, good thing all this is lycra *lol* poor swanki oracle, called sidekick...there there ;) 031103 ... minnesota_chris To change your home page, if you are using the evil internet explorer, like everybody else, you go under tools, options and paste that link into it as your "Home Page". I think Netscape/Mozilla uses something like preferences or something like that. 031104 ... blah-ze if i was in the blather_family, i'd be the older brother or cousin, the one that's a social embarassment and you wouldn't want to take out in public, but hideously protective and occasionally charming. very occasionally. 031104 ... celestias shadow we'll adopt you anyways. right? *looks around* all in favor or blah-ze's adoption into the blather_family, say aye! 031104 ... pipedream aye! ayeayeaye! *waves her hands around enthusiastically* and we'll take you out in public ALL the time, you'll be our proud mascot family dude :D 031104 ... blah-ze hehehe... you're loss, dearie. i'll try not to get excited and jump into your lap when you talk to people... just let me off the leash when nature calls... asking for some little_sister advice here, whadya think i should wear to my graduation thingy? (it's kinda like a prom, i s'pose) i was thinking all black... whadya think? side note: i have asked everyone i have been in contact with over the last four days this question. this amounts to depressingly few people. 031104 ... pipedream all black...like a suit? yeah, i'm sure you'd look properly studly in a nice suit..but be sure to wear a funky tie :D otherwise doing black pants and a black shirt will just be too goth for a prom...i wish i could go to a prom and wear a slinky dress and all! 031105 ... blah-ze ... and you are the only person who has gone for the idea. gotta love how people think they know me so well. and this weekend i'll be sitting out back with my dog and a bottle of some strong spirit instead of going to the end-of-exam party... god i hate my parents sometimes. 031105 ... pipedream it doesn't matter, end-of-exam parties aren't all they're cracked up to be...heck, at least you get to GO to parties, i went to my first real-life late-night mixed party a few weeks ago :P so does that mean i know you well or other people do? *scratches head* 031105 ... blah-ze other people think they know me. i'm a pretty private person. other people call me paranoid. but they don't know me. you know me better than them because you have no assumptions about me. my parents want me to buy a car for a winery job next year, out with the spirits then. my dog loves alcohol. pity. anyway, i know all i'm going to be able to afford is a tin can with a two-cylinder engine. and it doesn't help that i can't drive for shit. and i cant believe i spent $4000 this year. damn. 031106 ... pipedream pffgghh! money is a stupid thing to worry about...and don't get your gorgeous doggie drunk! *hides the dog in her closet and gives him a doggie treat* and at least you'll GET a car...i don't have on of my own so i drive my mom's car and blaaahh! i want one i can call MINE and feel free to bang about and all! i looove driving :D 031106 ... blah-ze and next week in addition to bakery work i will be... chipping onions! i hate my parents trying to make me independent. i have to work tomorrow morning at 2:30 am, and i should be out celebrating. i would go to the pub on the weekend with friends... but i can't because i'm seventeen and they are all eighteen. an event which charicterises my driving talent: i was in a carpark and someone wanted to cros in front of me, so i waved them across, went for the brake and found te accelerator instead. they leapt out of the way probably saying a few choice words about me. i was too scared to laugh. 031106 ... pipedream *muffles a giggle* but you coulda laughed that semi-hysterical kind of shit-scared giggle that comes when you do something really scary like that...but just imagine, if you'd done that on purpose, then it'd have been really funny in a really sick, twisted kind of way *hee hee* 031107 ... blah-ze i would not do something like that on purpose... at least not conciously. really. don't look at me like that. got my suit today... black all cept for a really sweet orange tie that shimmers. it was strange for me to actually be able to present a good idea like the tie. good idea btw, thanks. everyone looked at me when i said i thought all black would look to goth. for once, i was a functioning memeber of society. i have to go now, australia are playing scotland in the rugby. aussie! aussie! aussie! oy! oy! oy! 031108 ... pipedream aww, the tie sounds SO vunderful, wish i could see it! i'm sure you will look utterly handsome and vanquish the lil' ol' hearts of all dem lay-dees at the prom, yay! *tries on the tie for size* niiiiiice :D 031108 ... blah-ze eh... i'd settle for not screwing up too badly. at least the sunshiny_girls in our year might throw in one dance, just to prove how generous and all-loving they are. i liked the suit too... gotta put you on retainer as a fashion consultant or something. i need one. 031109 ... celestias is excited go black suits! good call. i'm sure you can install some subliminal device in the shimmerorangy tie that will make everyone want to dance with you. not that you NEED it, of course....*winks* have fun. :) 031109 ... REAListic optimIST i went to MY prom in a black tux with a black shirt and purple tie, handkerchief, and cumberbund. :) i can only imagine that you must look pretty slick. 031109 ... blah-ze all i can say is that the people i dance with better have fast feet, or steel caps in their dancing shoes. in other words, i can't dance. i ain't gonna embarass myself quite that much. 031109 ... pipedream *appoints herself fashion consultant* 'tis only natural, i do it all the time at home *grins* c'mon, lets dance- and you *must* ask the girl you think looks the prettiest at the prom to dance, plus the wallflower by the punch bowl who nobody asks...the latter is more important, so that when she's old and gray she won't have to tell her grandkids that nobody wanted to dance with their gran'mommy. okay? 031109 ... pipedream *grabs blah-ze and waltzes around* what colour was the cummerbund, realistic? in my part o' the world a cummerbund is a ropelike thing you put in your shalwar (baggy lowers of regional attire) to keep it up :D 031109 ... blah-ze if i go and ask someone to dance, their first reaction past supressing a laugh would be asking me what i am on. and good god, you are so sunshiny it make me want to... not gonna finish that. you can finish it for yourself. me? i am the wallflower. the freaky guy who you hope doesn't notice you because you ain't sure if he's going to do something... interesting. 031110 ... pipedream please dance with the chubby wallflower. and please make a stir by looking *very* handsome so everyone goes 'good gawd! who the heck's THAT? ohmygaw! that's *insert blah's real name*, i didn't know he had shoulders like that....rowr!' okie? 031111 ... REAListic optimIST it was purple. and i have no idea what you just said about cummerbundins and lower something or others... 031111 ... pipedream was talking about a shalwar...d'you know about shalwar kameez? you have to put elastic in the waist, or a cummerbund to keep it up...shalwars nowadays- like the ones i wear- have hooks, so no elastic/fancy rope things fo' me :D hahaha shalwar kameezes are great! they're SOO comfy, hide bits you want to hide, look stylish...very yummy 031111 ... REAListic optimIST i don't know about shalwars. it sounds interesting... i'm envisioning some sort of scottish dealie, but it actually sounds like a blade of some sort, but if you use it to cover up yer bits... i am truly perplexed. jsut goes to perpetuate the idea that americans are ethnocentric and ignorant i suppose... tell me more of your mystical land without halloween which includes shalwars... 031111 ... pipedream a shalwar is kind of like those really baggy pants m.c hammer used to wear...quite close, actually. these days we don't wear 'em so baggy (fashions change and all :D). a kameez is a tunic kinda thing, these days we wear em' real short...mid-thigh barely butt-covering for the very trendy. will dig up a pic or something and send it you. we don't have halloween, but Eid is coming up in about two weeks...goody! Eid is great! wheeee 031112 ... Death of a Rose Eid al-Fitr is coming up for you pd? is that the end of your fast? 031112 ... pipedream yep, Eid ul-Fitr is the end of Ramzan...and we get new clothes! and scads of money! and goodies and the family congregates from all over and it's great..like thanksgiving and christmas rolled into one. yay! and everyone is celebrating, because its a well-deserved holiday. sparkly. 031112 ... daf you will, no doubt, be providing the sparkliest sparkles..this whole room just spins with sparkles. What ever did you spray in this place? Even the creepy, geeky, wallflower guy is looking mighty dapper in here. Did you replace the florescent bulbs with tequila or something? 031112 ... pipedream lol those, and a few chinese paper lanterns...because we all have to look soft and magic while we wait for another alan gray to come along, who will be straight, and stronger than the first one...its funny the way all of us harbour a blanche. 031113 ... daf Will you help? I am trying to properly prepare to begin doing the Salats tomorrow. The preparations and the words are unfamiliar to me. Will you provide me with, or direct me to some comprehensive information on offering all 5 Salats? 031113 ... pipedream daf, i'm working on the Salat thing; my cousin hooked us up with the Islamic E-mail Circle and they had a really good series on how to offer the Salat with pictures and everything, so once I find that I'll send it along; otherwise I'll ask them for a forward. blah-ze: another psychic brother, how wonderful :D:D 031201 ... shroud all it was, a pipedream, a nothing, a hope for hope, a dream that i could finally dream, and dreaming of you, see your face, and fall away, far away, and never taste your bitter words, but i love you, now, and now, and then, and i can never stay, and never leave, but i must do both, and i fear your eyes, mocking, hurtful, i weep when i see, soft eyes harden, soft lips tighten, and your heart, once velvet, stone. 031201 ... brain stew a pipedream perhaps i can slide through. if i go fast enough will i have to watch blurred shapes of a dream pass? 031202 ... blah-ze goodums, wot hey! just on the odd chance you would know, what removes strawberry stains from carpet, short of battery acid or dog slobber? 031227 ... blah-ze speek to mee! (in a very mouselike voice) 031228 ... oldephebe shroud - at this time of year when family feeds upon our bright embered hearts and plays our sorrow so virtuosically, so sadistically, so intimately..these words you left here inscribed somethong soft and aching and eloquent upon that callous that clothes my insufferable heart..thankyou ..call the dead light back to life..yeah 031228 ... pipers been here after a long time...*blows cobwebs off doorknob* nope, i don't know abt strawberry stains...how 'bout detergent? *grin* what'cha wanta hear? *squeaks back in mouselike voice* 040125 ... blah-ze hehehe... i actually go it out of the carpet after all... lots of water and rubbing... and a late-night sprint to pick up carpet foam from the supermarket. and don't ask me... i hate the taste of strawberries... twas my dog, running loose in my house. 040125 ... blah-ze and i wanna hear my boss, the 30 year old hyperactive always grinning sunshiny woman, ring up and tell me i'm off night shifts again. 040125 ... pipers bleh, your boss sounds like me :S but even i dont grin all the time so i think there is still hope ;) you don't like strawberries, but cutie poochie does. go figure *grin* 040125 ... blah-ze *pout, with a hint of secret, barely controlled grin* awwww, shucks 040131 ... pipers hehehe...lookit DAT, blah-ze is gettin' a little sunshinyyyyy :D 040212 ... whitechocolatewalrus HHHiiiiiiIIIiiiiii! Green swirving twirling long skinny durable PiPEs that I do certainly do drEAm about. (my cat loves you tooo, he says meow) anyways, hellooo. 040216 ... walrie or is it swerving? 040216 ... Death of a Rose Well, blather wife. As dissapointment is riding my heart today, I will assume that the promised card has not been mailed nor will it ever be. . I'm am making a change in my life so that when these dissapointments hit me, I'll be ready with a baseball bat. 040217 ... smallrus wooden or metal? Just asking. what does pipers think? 040217 ... pd much love to your kitty-cat, smally. *gives it a good scratch about the ears and under the chin* i'm sorry, doar. its becoming increasingly difficult to be me right now. i live on the borders of a breakdown i cannot allow myself and i am trying to flee the gloom that lurks behind my defenses, waiting for the smallest crack, slightest hint of giving up. i can't be tired and i must do this alone and god, its so lonely being me right now. 040217 ... pd *nods* i feel like i don't have any friends either. me, who says hello to more than half of the population at university, me who is sunshine and cheerful smile personified. everyone is so wrapped up in their lives that its like i only fit in when someone's bored or has nothing better to do.its awful- other people matter so much to me, i'd do anything for people i consider mine...and its like i dont figure into ANYone's equation. nobody would go looking for me if i weren't around; i've even experimented with that and been proven right. sad shit. so i'm lonely and hurting and so well-hidden behind the frickin' smile that nobody would guess, or bother to...mom was right. zero expectations, from anyone, and you'll be just fine. its a problem, i guess; i keep wanting to be loved the way i love. im a 'good person', i try to be. surely good things happen to good people? yeah...right...whatever...'good' people just get their hearts stomped on every single day and they still go out to buy birthday presents. what a wonderful world. 040218 ... blah-ze just survive, pipey dear. *sings 'lean on me' off key* 040219 ... pd you're a peach, swanki oracle. and the idea of running away has never seemed so enticing before in my life....am i a coward if i choose to give up? wasn't i meant for great good things, not just survival? will i be condemned to a life like this, where i have to do things against my will, hold myself back,let other people wrap their bandages around me and become a pinata up for anyone's hit? because i care too goddamn much, that's why, and i can't turn myself off like that otherwise i'll wither away. but im already doing that, aren't i, already turning into a dry, small leaf being blown about by the gale... where is God right now? 040219 ... pipers smally- swerving. and wood baseball bat, they're prettier :) 040219 ... blah-ze i don't know where god is right now. i run from my problems. when i am angry with myself for not talking to her, or being too scared to get her something for valentines and she got nothing at all, because i have no self confidence. that is one thing that makes it all just a bit better. so i run. i run until i get tired (generally 10-12 kilometres) enough so that i cannot feel angry, only tired, and when i wake up, i feel nothing. i choose not to remember. it makes nothing better, and i stay as scared and helpless as i was before. running makes you mean nothing. standing and fighting, feeling yourself to others, is what makes ou alive, makes you survive. 'your god is in the details, not mine, never mine. my god is in me.' 040220 ... pipers 'my god is in me' wowza. and if you cant talk to her mister, then i suggest you follow the following certain-to-melt-any-woman's-icy-barrier route: tape one pablo neruda poem and a rose to her door, every day. start with a white rose and progress from yellow to pink to red, and a diff poem every day. at red rose stage, knock on door and hand-deliver poem. *applause* it'll get you over the shyness and by the time you get to red rose im sure you'll have gotten over the 'ohmygodicantevengowithinafootofher' and t'wil all be good. yay. 040221 ... blah-ze so long as you get into yours, too, dear. i think that was what this was about, no? 040221 ... pipers my what? im a little dense today :) 040221 ... blah-ze tehe... i guess i'll have to read up on this pablo guy don't worry, i write like i talk, and it doesn't make sense unless you think like me. which is unlikely. i met up with some of my friends today, but they're all off to go to university all around australia. oh well. 040221 ... pipes oh YES, DO read up on mister neruda...and im done with my finals, glory joy happy happy....until the grades come out of course... :PP but for a week im free to do anything i want...yay! 040222 ... blah-ze smile like a dame, pipedream, smile like a dame. loving it here home, hating it there at work. my jeans went purple-ish from collecting samples of red pressings... that ain't blood, that's wine, and just because i drive with a hockey stick in my car does not mean i'm a psycho, there are so many other reasons. ahhh... night shift six days a week with the in the company of the weirdest people in australia. 040225 ... pipers what bliss....*mischevious smile* seriously, why do you drive with a hockey stick? its really not weird, here we have crook locks that you loop around the clutch and the steering wheel and lock so noone can steal your car, and that's MUCH more lethal than an old hockey stick, but still...how come? :) red pressings for wine? interestin', tell me more 040226 ... pipes one clip of metal teeth turn my fingers from adult shiny pink and white socialite, potential of inducing shivers to schoolgirl demure practical cute again. i don't get the drastic nature of the exercise. 040227 ... blah-ze the pressings are the stuff that comes from the grape skins after they crush the grapes... and they are red cos the grapes are red, or something like that. i work in a winery, but hate wine. it's the vintage season here, so they get extra workers, and i'm in the lab. i drive with a hockey stick in my car cos i go home on thursdays to play hockey. so it stays in the car. and makes people nervous. 040227 ... pipey oh, i talked about hockey on the swanki page. heh. oh well :D wow, the wine thingy sounds interesting....over here noone does interesting jobs as such. noone in the teenage/in-college bracket works anyway...social thing. i wouldn't mind, its good to have some money to spend...what'd i do? baby-sit, i like kids...or do readings at the library, things like that :) 040228 ... blah-ze work just got a whole lot more vexing fo me... lots of reasons, mostly about people... i find, after saving away some money and paying for rent and food, i don't have much money left to spend. but i hope when i save up enough, i'll be able to pay off some of my uni fees when i go... probably not worth it, but hey. i couldn't imagine me doing readings at the library... siddown, little kiddies... this'un's called frankenstein... 040303 ... pipers and THESE are me FANGS! mbwahahahahah!!! but with kids of today, they'll prolly be like what-ever dood, where's the candy? 040304 ... blah-ze todays conversation: "say something meaningful, please" "as a believer in defeatism and the eventual failure of the human race on all facets of existance, i think that we are intimately lucky to be sharing this conversation at this time-it in itself has a meaningfulness we will never be able to comprehend, but will always hold within ourselves" "that's bullshit" "how about 'murf'?" *silence* "that word is cool" "where's the shapes?" "behind the couch cushion" piey, pipey, pipey, it pleases me i can still laugh 040305 ... Zantic Hello Ms. Pipedream. 040525 ... oldephebe Your .mp3 file is on it's way, I'm sorry it has taken me so long. I've just some last minute revision to do on yours, RO's and wcw'w and someone else's file. Got caught in a broken swale of spirit..so that pretty much means creative flood or creative drought..kind of gasping tiny cloud puffs of dust from my throat...figuratively that is..so... I've done some work on it recently started it several wekks back and now..yeah..mood swings a many and it puts a real damper on the creative process soooo.. you, unhinged and everyone else WILL be getting an an original .mp3 written in the key of your soul from me to "you's guys" hope you're feeling a little better, We can't meditate while moving and we can't see the perfect beauty of god or allah or jehova or please insert your own name for god while listening to the ache of our own hearts, but sometimes it's just something simple that separates the soul from the spirit and man you know..eventually basking in that perfect peace and presence of the Creator who is whithin, the temple, the sanctuary is cultivated within ... ..even my tortured soul finds a respite from gnawing on the same bitter piece of bread..the bread of heartache... i am wishing you joy pd...perfect joy ... 040525 ... notme good morning afternoon evening pipers! 040525 ... notme where is pipedream these days? 040604 ... lilmomma hi pipers my fav. blatherskite!!!! just wanted to say hello cuz iv been niglecting my blather lately. ohhh iv missed you guys. is ambermoon =0) 040604 ... Doar You are quietly beautiful my pillow. 040803 ... monee where's pipey these days? 041224 ... Death of a Rose she has dissappeared monee, taken a sabatical I guess. Maybe she decided blather wasn't for her anymore. I have to remember to ship her an e-mail before the new year is out. It is getting awfully close to our 1 one blather anniversary. . 041224 ... u24 is missed . 061028 ... REAListic optimIST true to her name, she couldn't stay. 071123 what's it to you? who go blather from