heartache Quintessensual heartache, heartfelt, is the feeling I have when you, yes you, have that kind of headache 991023 ... Nate Higgins When a little piece of childlike fantasy is shattered on the the harsh unyielding rocks of reality never to live again. 991030 ... koti heartache is an ailment i have had for much too long, for which the only cure is to be swept away by those pale arms that i know and love. 000108 ... miniver Ouch! I pulled my aorta! 000410 ... miniver Aorta, aorta, aorta, aorta, aorta. Aha. 000410 ... Amber S. Is the perfect word to describe the man you love dump you because you refuse to have sex with him. And then to see him out openly with a girl who will. 000606 ... sammayel is the perfect word to describe saying those three_words to the person you thought was your best friend only to have her tell you that she's not ready to be involved with anyone again just yet even though she's fucking someone when she's not seeing you. 000606 ... Raina There's no such thing as a broken heart. Just Miscommunication. Suck It Up, it's just gas. 000925 ... unhinged i get this feeling in my chest where my heart is supposed to be when i talk to you. this realization is just too much. i'm going to hide it. put it up. leave it alone. watch you smiling from across the room. i can't make you feel anything. so i just listen. 'we were two cripples dancing to the bitter end we live' 010301 ... MaraJade the feeling you have inside when the one you love the most walks away because the pain of staying is too great. the feeling you have when you know everything should be alright, and you know you should be happy and over it, but you arent. not by a long shot... 010528 ... birdmad the empty sensation that overtook me on that hot dry day when i opened the envelope and read that_letter and every song on the radio mocks me since then and everytime i think i'm past all of this when i tink i've climbed out of this place the sand starts to shift and the walls crumble around me and i'm right back where i started 010528 ... unhinged sometimes i still listen to jeff_buckley and see your drunken posturing at the kitchen table holding the acoustic guitar playing the chords of so real over and over again "this is the most evil chord i have ever learned" and the amazing feeling i got the first time i ever listened to grace all the way through, the tears, come back to me. even after all this time, my love for you hurts like a knife, unrequited, unfinished, undone. 010528 ... Qryssi When the most incredible guy you've ever known breaks it off with you for a few reasons unknown; "I can't deal with it anymore", he disappears for a few weeks, you have nightmares about him coming back and trying to kill you, then you have dreams about his tender eyes gazing into yours while he makes love to you... and when you wake up, you sob because he's not yours anymore, because he left, because you don't understand it and tears are all you have left, and his pictures are everywhere and you've saved everything from him and your teddy bear is named after him and teddy doesn't want a new name... when you do know him better than anyone else in the world, and he doesn't realize this. All he knows is that he hurts you sometimes and doesn't want to hurt you ever. So he leaves. So he makes mistakes and makes you sob and suddenly isn't warm and cuddly and you can't go to him for advice, support, you aren't his beautiful; he's a rigid stone and you don't know him anymore... and the heartache he caused will never heal, ever. This is a fact. 020425 ... blah blah constant. reading the news, listening to other people be mean or stupid,sitting around at work wondering if your bf is dead cuz his brother is calling he's late to pick him up and he left 2 hours ago and why would it take two hours and it's raining outside and he sucks at driving and there's an accident on the road he's taking. i worry too much. thinking about the good times you had with friends you no longer have. thinking about the future and the present. wishing your brother would quit wasting himself and all his money away on drugs. realizing how absolutly nothing makes sense and how it probably never will. 020425 ... c.o.r.e. you feel it sweeping inside your body and you try to hide it until it catches you unprepared. Now it you hurt and hurt and hurt and literally noth ing makes you feel any better. Every time you see the person that caused your heartache you feel that pain again, but you can't locate it, you can't control it, you can't cure it. It's always gonna be there, although it loses importance when you move on. 021222 ... c.o.r.e. you feel it sweeping inside your body and you try to hide it until it catches you unprepared. Now you hurt and hurt and hurt and literally noth ing makes you feel any better. Every time you see the person that caused your heartache you feel that pain again, but you can't locate it, you can't control it, you can't cure it. It's always gonna be there, although it loses importance when you move on. 021222 ... pain Heaven hath no rage like love to hatred turned, nor Hell a fury like a woman scorned. I thought how nice it would be to be here with you and then I thought how much better it is to be here with someone who wants to be with me. 030610 ... patterns You convinced yourself, to protect yourself that you weren't looking for anything serious and your actions showed it, but then she burns out giving you unreturned love and at that moment you realize how much she means to you. How much you love her. But she is gone. 030713 ... ItGirl There are so many firsts... First Love, First Kiss, First Time... maybe you couldn't be any of those, but you were my first heartache... 030713 ... unhinged turns to bitter black. i had this new brand of heartache over you. i had learned in the interim the place that things have in my life. your place in my life was important, definite, complete, but short. it was just not the right time; or maybe it was the perfect time. for the month we were together i forgot how to cry and then separated it all came back. slowly, it all came back. and then, like everyone else, just like everything else, you did me wrong. and for awhile the change was enough to chase away the blackness, but now like every other time it turns to hate. how could you do that to me after all we went through together? at the risk of sounding selfish, all that i went through for you? but i know you don't get it. you didn't get it. i could have been anyone as long as i was laying there with you every night, silent, breathing, living. but that was my life in youngstown ; i could have been anyone to any of you. and now i'm gone and done. but i still think of you so many times a day. and sometimes a few tears still eek by. but that is how i changed when you were gone. 030908 ... gosh...... is when you wake the one you love the most to go to a party that he doesnt want to go to....for you to LEAVE that party and later find out that the person YOU dragged and left there...was murdered...because you woke them and insisted that they went WITH you to a party they never wanted to go to from the start. 031030 ... lynnme falling for someone and then having them tell you that they have doubts that it's going to work because of the hour distance, thinking that this one might be different then seeing that it's all the same, realizing that you've gotten hurt so many times that you're ready to just give up and say NEVER AGAIN!!!! 031112 ... Death of a Rose always repeating 031112 ... brain stew only twice i asked for space in a soul 031113 ... shroud i always thought, so mundane, so blase not going to happen, romantic nonsense but i ache, i do, for you, and for me i ache and i don't know why, do you? i wonder, if you do too, do you? sit and sigh, wonder why, can't you do a tiny thing, and look to me, just once and make it ebb away, for a heartbeat and my heart skips as it beats, your eyes expose my ache, and throw it away 031114 ... gripe mean gawd...why does everything on this page have to sound like it's me? 031114 ... mythomane When someone you really liked a long time ago suddenly comes back into your life in a burst of unbearable cuteness, and tells you that he fell in love with you two years ago, but didn't realize it then, couldn't interpret the ache in his chest at the time. But he's sort of over that now, and even though you never loved him, just cared a lot about him and lusted after him and befriended him dearly, you feel the ache of losing an opportunity you never even knew you had. The ache of the near-miss, the never-was, the not-quite-right. 050108 ... god i'd rather eat glass... 050108 ... pasha when i said 'i'll love you forever', someone locked it in stone, i meant what i said at the time. i never realised it would be true today so many years after our parting. i love someone i haven't seen in ages and i may never see again and i'll never be free. time heals all but my time alone. 060723 ... misstree so many gravestones bearing that single word: "forever" and each one with a vigil light and fed with longing, regret, gladness for what was as well as wondering... gravestones for the not truly dead 060723 ... Stargazer That numbing sensation when you know he can't embrace you anymore, when he answers the phone to a man that he doesn't even want. When you listen to the song that says you deserve more than this, but you stay because you see some good in him (or you think you do). It's when you're playing around and your eyes lock and you can see the emotion there but he fights it and you do too... 060818 ... uyanga How much longer is this going to take? Could I shut it off this minute just by saying so? Maybe that's it. Maybe it's been ten months and it somehow hasn't occurred to me to press "OFF." 060818 ... cantevenbreathe is what happens when someone who was a part of you is torn form you without you knowing at first. you think this time it will be different, but you know deep inside that it will never be 070410 ... no feeling i know... .. i can't even breathe also ! you wouldn't believe this ! i have just gone out for a drink with a guy... whom i thought was a friend... i just wanted to talk... it's Tuesday night.. and he insisted on a kiss.. i said.. no that's no what want... i just want to be with a friend without all if that... without it feeling awkward no wonder all of my male friends are gay ! he said it was because i wasn't over my eX .... well actually... maybe it's not that... actually.. i don't have any attraction to you ... and i don't want to kiss you.. i don't feel comfort with people that try to force things upon you when it is quite obvious there is absolutely no connection and no feeling involved surely intimacy is a two way thing ! i feel sorry for people if they don't know fully what intimacy is. well i surely know... whether i will ever find anyone again that does know ! 070410 ... unhinged he used to make me forget to be sad; until i was put on the back burner, put in his back pocket. a sister, a friend. i need him in ways that he couldn't understand, ways that i am afraid to tell him. the gulf between us grows everyday he is with her. but_still , i can't make other people feel something they don't. you are so far_away too far_away i can only imagine the way your hand felt in mine the way our hearts felt pressed together 'don't put your trust in walls cause walls will only crush you when they fall; be_here_now ' ray_lamontagne 080708 ... Light unspeakable, undeniable, torment, longing without shame, collapse, self destruct, hot tears carving cheeks in the dark 080709 ... flowerock. But it's actually painless 160705 what's it to you? who go blather from