but_still unhinged after almost a year of much more intent, albeit sporadic, practicing, i still can't quiet my inferiority complex. but then again, it doesn't paralyze me anymore. reshaping my mind one degree at a time. i smile at the thought of him and i can let myself sit in the bliss of being that connected to someone for quite awhile before i start telling myself i don't deserve to feel that way. that he'll disappoint me by finding someone prettier (so i guess that means that i still find myself inherently unpretty) but still, i smile at the thought of him. teeth and all. 061014 ... unhinged other people's achievements still rankle, make me feel inferior 180816 what's it to you? who go blather from