rigid unhinged even though i want it so much i shy away from his touch he hesitates pulls back i stiffen maybe he thinks in revulsion but really i'm paralyzed by fear cause what if i'm just another stepping_stone convenient cause i'm right there i.e. 'this is just a random thing; it won't happen again' why not? i don't want to have to hate him for that the quiet hate that boils in my stomach while i smile and laugh cause i don't want anymore 'random things' a phone call when it fits in a thought at the back of his mind a passing_glimpse cause i'm like a sister to him 080324 ... unhinged unyielding kiss_your_lover_goodbye 080326 what's it to you? who go blather from