unhinged misty I'm not sure what I'm doing today. Just breezing along on the breath of my desperation. My fingers are trembling. 000330 ... mika every now and then i stare at the dry erase board in the front of my gov't classroom and i begin to understand the meaning of becoming unhinged 000330 ... fairydust the aliens have not come to visit. they have not come for a long time. i almost miss.they must have finished their research.i wonder what conclusion they came up with for me. 000331 ... MollyGoLightly It's fun. Rather like flying off the handle, only with less yelling and more calculated revenge plots.... 000404 ... Philifledermaus stereotaxic implements lie upon the table, interacting with the gaze of fearful operatives. occasionally they are stroked, and finally inserted into the cavernous headspace of the humble mouse. the mouse unhinges, and it changes form, achieving wings, adopting bat like form, and floats away to mousey heaven. 000506 ... skiblu when was i ever hinged? 000724 ... unhinged "like a broken closet door that won't close right." mike knows where it's at. it's that feeling when you know your mind is in pieces...you can feel the pieces rattling around inside your skull and the empty clanking is driving you more insane every day. 001204 ... flo a lack of clarity. leaving the things which stabalise you behind (family,kids,work etc) and fixating on something else. for a while it was comp. games for me. i once spent 3 weeks in the same chair, i did not move or speak to anyone, i just played. i could see my daughter playing around me and hear the entreaties and threats of my then girlfriend but i just could not respond. from there my obsession moved on to suicide, and for a while it was touch and go whether i would end it all. this sounds like bleating, but i was serious. strangely what snapped me out of it was getting mugged, and having a very violent confrontation with my attacker during which i may or may not have killed him ( i fled, I think he survived because there was nothing in the press). my senses started to return and after a couple of days sleeping rough i went home and kind of sorted mt life out,although it could never really go back to how it was before. but i suppose you could say that i was unhinged for a while. 010422 ... MollyCule where are you? 010606 ... unhinged i'm at home 010606 ... Miner The last door i walked into was on its way to being unhinged (i would have to guess i was walking to fast, I know it was dark, and i was positive the door was open, but alas it was not, and it broke, moral of the story, either turn the light on, or just dont walk into closed doors, especially if it means they will break). 010609 ... god fragment 010614 ... god she did NOT pee in a bottle. 010615 ... god vator 010615 ... Casey It's like when my mind can no longer take anything else, so it just shuts down. Everything ceases to be important, people, school, family, everything. Usually it sarts about November and goes till someone actually gives a damn. 010902 ... Dafremen I miss scrunched up silly faces do0d. 010902 ... unhinged right now i couldn't make a scrunched up silly face if my fucking life depended on it..if it did i probably would intentionally not make one. 010903 ... Dafremen cup of joe? 010903 ... unhinged it was just a bad bad late night/early morning 010904 ... Dafremen I like morning time. It rocks..(after a good night's sleep of course) Ever notice how easily annoyed people are in the morning? 010904 ... Norm You're so cool. Period. Don't deny it. 011204 ... unhinged thanks norm. on occasion i have been known to make an ass of myself in the computer lab laughing at some of your more humorous posts. 011204 ... Mahayana: Zakah: i'll give an amen to mayahana's post. "you are a fucking whore of a bitch" [¿could you please eXplain line 2 of this post?]thaNk yOu [[i'll respect whatever youve gotta say- i just wanna know what you think]] 020103 ... Mahayana: Zakah: P.S. What are ya returning 2 Milwaukee 4, anything interesting? [hope that isnt 2 personal] +ive been to that StarBucks on Brady street many 'o times, esp. before Uni [ahhh good 'ol brady street, with its eclecticism & artsiness] the view from that Starbucks is so interesting cuz of the odd structural lay out of the street. +milwaukee... is a pretty damn good place 2 be, esp. on the eastsIde of tOwn 020103 ... unhinged i was afraid you would think the second line of that post was directed at you. it wasn't at all. that's why i put a few lines of space to what i said about you and what i said about someone i really don't like anymore that may become a conflict in a few weeks. i am going back to milwaukee hopefully this summer for the annual chamber music festival the violin prof there has every summer. i miss brady street. where i go to school in youngstown, there's nothing so nice and ecclectic as brady street. somehow, i always felt right there. 020103 ... Annie111 At first I was scared of her. But she's pretty darn cool. :) 020123 ... unhinged i sometimes wonder why i come across as male to some people on this site. 020214 ... Mahayana sometimes when we womb-en women wimmin love & or can appreciate other wimmin women womb-en our seX is assumed as: male [it is more so not a reflection of you, as it is of others mental processing][or could also be known as heterosexism] [prob not always the case, but just some suggestions] 020214 ... Dafremen I've always known you were female...I just thought do0d fit, that's all. Like "slim" or "tiny" for a fat guy. Sure beats the hell out of "princess" dontcha think? 020215 ... florescent light sparkledsneakers on aol, Nicole- come find me, beautiful 020523 ... Arwyn I miss you... *tear* 020523 ... zander That unhinged person writes probably the coolest, most interesting, and altogether best entries I have read. You should be an author or something. 030103 ... unhinged thank you. i have contemplated that since i was in elementary school. but i think i love the violin too much. *lowersgazeandkicksfloor* thanks again *blushes* 030103 ... User24 unhinged: hello! may I ask what "affame le geant" is all about? 030401 ... User24 I agree with zander, you are very cool. How hard is learning the violin? I was going to get one this month (now I have money..) 030401 ... unhinged i don't know what 'affame le geant' is about. i got lost awhile back and haven't been reading it. sorry fyn :( learning string instruments, especially fretless string instruments, is probably the hardest of any instrument since there is no automatic pitch reference built into the instrument. but if you have a good ear, it probably wouldn't be too hard to pick up if your hands are small enough. the violin is actually a little instrument. i'm really starting to love the viola. (not that that was part of your question ;) ) and i wanted you to post on: dope :) 030402 ... Dafremen I have something I would like to send to you. 030404 ... unhinged do you want my email....or my address address? 030404 ... Dafremen address address. If you don't mind that is. If not, email it to me...I'm sure you will like this very much. 030405 ... unhinged aaawwww i love presents from my blather_friends so what's up daf? 030406 ... Dafremen I'm driving a bus now. A city bus. It's just like playing that game Paperboy, cept I get paid and I can kick the @ssholes off of my bus. I get to help old ladies and kids and stuff. I talk to them. It's good for my astrological studies. What's new with you? 030406 ... unhinged right now i'm concertmaster of ysu's production of madama butterfly by puccini. this week is hell week....4.5 hours of rehearsals today...4 more tomorrow; performances thursday, friday, saturday, sunday. i'm so glad it's a beautiful opera. the one butterfly is absolutely wonderful and she brings tears to my eyes. i got accepted to the university of wisconsin-milwaukee music department for grad school. i might have an orchestra assistantship there. i'm moving there probably about the end of june. and in the past two weeks i've been horribly rejected by someone and impulsively told by someone else that they wanted to start their live over with me no matter where it was....here or in milwaukee. and i haven't seen him for a year and a half. he was born about june 28th i believe. what is his sign? yeah, my life is the typical turmoil right now. and i've been prettty sad about leaving younstown. i guess that's how i'm doing right now. 030407 ... Dafremen He would be a Cancer dear. They are moody, but more optimistic than the females. They are also possessive and clingy. But they are generally loyal. I'd have to see his chart to be sure. 030408 ... unhinged clingy seems about right considering the whole he hasn't seen me in a year and a half and the second time he sees me he's asking me to move in with him. 030409 ... Dafremen They're also strongly attached to the past. You could say they live there most of the time. They have a tendency to blow injuries and romances from the past a bit out of proportion as time goes by. But they have excellent memories and remember it like it was...well, yesterday. They are super sensitive, many are insecure(most) and so they need a lot of reassurance, time and attention. Think of a turtle. You spend 15 minutes waiting for him to come out of his shell. Then you go to pet him and in he goes again. Then after years, he learns to trust you. Especially after you've fed him good food for a few years.(Or in the case of a relationship, have at least experienced good food with him.) Food is the key to the Cancer heart. Patience is a handle that opens the door to that heart. They are really wonderful people, just moody as hell. 030409 ... unhinged well i have known him for almost four years. and i called him today and woke him up and he got pissed off and hung up on me. so i guess he is a typical cancer. 030409 ... User24 is bloody good at blathering. 030603 ... unhinged i guess it's cause i have so much practice :) sincere thanks user24. god daf, is he a textbook cancer. just a little too possesive and jealous for me. i don't let anyone tell me who i can and can't hang out with. i think it's my father's german/irish stubborn streak coming out in me. 030603 ... Dafremen The crab tends to be that way. They call it tenacious in the astrology books. Just think of a crab grabbing onto your finger. 030604 ... trippingdaisy (aka DammitJanet) don't mean to interupt :) i just wanted to agree with most of the posts on here. unhinged, i love your writing. it makes me want to keep reading. 030604 ... unhinged thanks...i never really know what to say when people compliment me and i'm afraid that it seems fake. but seriously, thanks. 030604 ... carlita i enjoy reading your entries, unhinged... and about your cancer friend... i feel for you. my boyfriend is a cancer, and they can be tough to handle... btw, i also live in wisconsin... la crosse if you know where that is :) 030618 ... unhinged well i guess he is my self-proclaimed boyfriend now.... and i'm not too familiar with wisconsin yet, but my brother plays lacrosse :) thanks dear 030618 ... Dafremen I'm doing a home page. I don't know why, except that everyone keeps bugging me to