heartbroken sphinxradio it does give me some consolation, somehow, that you were crying too. 020309 ... silentbob it hurts me that this wasn't blathered under before 020310 ... unhinged is there ever going to be a night when i'm not screaming for you? 020310 ... emo-kid-that-wont-cheer-up havin been heartbroken before is what makes me think it's best not to ever give away my heart again. if you keep to yourself, if you don't trust anybody and if you don't care you won't have any pain no more. but no heart either. 030517 ... Mahayana i am 030617 ... trixie i told him my tale of woe and he said it was interesting and not that sad. that made me feel better. im normal. 030617 ... lovechild i got over it. 040219 ... stork daddy everyone on blather has known heartbreak, whether it was theirs or someone else's fault, or even if they broke their heart by breaking another's. you don't come to a sight like this if you haven't known hurt, and lonliness. 040219 ... nobody to no one Bah, love!!! Who needs it!? All it does is screw you ever when you least expect it, or need it. I mean, sure, some people find the "right one" but what about all of those other people? All they ever find is new and different ways to make themselves feel pain. I guess I would like to find the "one" but I also think about how, when searching for her, all I've found so far is many reasons to feel despair. I truelly hate the struggle but I'll probably push on because, like many others, I'm a sucker for happy endings. I hate it so much though... 040312 ... Frowin ...and now it starts again, couldn't we see that this would happen? feels like a fucking deja-vue! just because I'm used to it, doesn't mean this is the way that it should be... 040426 ... 8yrs_is_now_nothing Just tell me the fucking blunt truth. Why do you tease me with hopes of a future? I am hanging on the edge of this building. You pretend to reach out to help me, but you pull away when our hands are almost touching. Sometimes you step on my fingers. If I fall, what will happen? Will I make it? Will I land on my feet or be permanentely disfigured? 040427 ... me? It's better for the both of us, this way.. right? Right? No. 040629 ... 2sadd2madd Should i smile cuz were friends? Or should i cry cuz i know thats all we'll ever be? 040914 ... alone i put every single part of me into someone who loved me once. and i thought it would be easy to hate them, but it seems impossible. and no matter what happens between us i cant go on without him i love him so much it hurts to be awake or to even sleep cause thats where the dreams wait for me. 040919 ... dani i need help.. please 041124 ... Octavo sit in a quiet place, breath slowly and regard your pain, just look at it, not resisting it, and as you look at it, realize that it isn't you. You are not your pain, and it doesn't control you. Just look at the hurt...the you who is looking...is not in the pain, the pain is outside. Some relief might be there for you, even if only for a second...and if not, then I'm sorry for your pain. 041124 ... .just a girl. .to find a love as precious as you is something i could never do...and i know i have my faults and i know i've made mistakes...but losing you isnt a mistake i'm willing to make . 041224 ... unhinged broken_hearted 041224 ... blown cherry Haircut by The Waifs This is more than a haircut I'm wearing on my head I thought I'd dye it red but got it cut instead And maybe I could send you my long blond locks Cause you were always after something baby something I’m not See I’m darker underneath, I'm darker by far I’m dark as hell – you know who you are My eyes, I always, I wished they were green My skin is so damn brown but the sun, it don’t see And fingernails I could’ve stuck them on The hair on my lip I should’ve waxed it off Yeah I know my lips could do with a little more pout The mole on my chin I can do with out And my cheekbones, they never sat real high I’ll get some bone put in, they can take it from My thighs I’m darker underneath, I'm darker by far I’m as dark as hell - you know who you are So now when I make love I make love to myself I got no disease so it's good for my health I got my hands in my pants – down my calvin kleins I don’t need you no more baby, I can come every time I’m darker underneath, I'm darker by far I’m as dark as hell – you know who you are Don’t you ever show your face here again To me or any of my friends 'Cause I’m glad I found out what you're all about When I finally fell down off my cloud Cause baby when you ran away You broke my heart You kept my Kerouac books and that old guitar And I am darker underneath, I’m darker by far I’m as dark as all hell, you know what you are I don't need to tell you, you know what you are I don't need to tell you, you know what you are I don't need to tell you - I don't need to tell you, no You know what you are This is more than a haircut I'm wearing on my head I thought I'd dye it red but got it cut instead. likes The Waifs 041225 ... mohoto Am I supposed to write poetry? I'm heartbroken, and dont feel like doing poetry. What's the big deal with being heartbroken? You can't be heartbroken if you dont love and get close to someone. And I'd gladly do that again, even if it means breaking my heart again in the end. Plus I learn something new every time. The last lesson was that you have to deserver to be loved (at least at the beginning) and that it's never in the pocket. 050125 ... mohoto Am I supposed to write poetry? I'm heartbroken, and dont feel like doing poetry. What's the big deal with being heartbroken? You can't be heartbroken if you dont love and get close to someone. And I'd gladly do that again, even if it means breaking my heart again in the end. Plus I learn something new every time. 050125 ... Crazy In Love Worst kind of heartbroken is when you are with someone that you know you are crazy about but you dont feel like he is that crazy about you even though he says he is. You notice all the little things he does that makes you realize that the relationship is doomed because you cant be in a relationship where both people dont feel equally the same towards each other. Being in love is supposed to be this great feeling, but i realized that the feeling is short lived followed by a long and painful process in getting over the other person. Though is would be easy to say that I wont ever hurt again, we all know that is untrue because every relationship comes with its ups and its downs...for me its just been a lot of downs. 050912 ... emmi at least i only have a broken heart, you just threw yours away. 050924 ... emmi a broken heart has more surface area than a whole one 050924 ... *Amy* for the fifth time you are breaking my heart, and all I felt all this time scratched it more and more. I tryied to kill the pain being with you again but only brought more. I can`t stand this situation anymore. how do you give me so much pleasure and cause me so much pain. I wish I could forget you forever. 050924 ... courtstah that knot in your stomach that never seems to go away... the feeling that you'll never find anyone better... not knowing how to let go...of him and your feelings and the memories you made together... paralized with pain... 060503 ... LS Can't even call once in awhile, just to chat... I thought we could atleast be friends but I guess not... 060503 ... Kilt-Man Maybe I'm not damned after all but then again i probably am...maybe it's time to take down the balloons, not that it matters, they never notice me, insignificance... kiss me but... 060504 ... misstree i still cringe at the thought of contact i know part of it is because i don't want him knowing what i am right now but also it is because it still hurts. 060514 ... grendel the last time it got broken, i decided once and for all that i was better off without it reptillian instinct coupled with cold mechanical logic and only the shallowest of emotions like i used to be before i started harboring any of the ridiculous romantic delusions that used to drive me through the meat-grinder 060515 ... misstree i wish i could turn my back. but i know, the next chance i am offered to jump off a cliff, knowing intimately the rocks at the bottom, the stinging surf and broken body, i will have no choice but to jump anyway. because there are those moments in the middle that, if you can sweep away the heartbreak well enough that you can approach it without cutting your feet to ribbons are cherished forever. almost a year, and like the blood stain scrubbed clean and reappearing, my pile of shrapnel seems to slowly recollect as if, when my back is turned, the_river comes through and deposits what it has found, slowly breaks boulders, leaves them in sad silence, flowers on a grave that rattles and stirs in the night. too long, too long. i should be free by now. too long. i can do nothing against it. 060516 ... unhinged some new_ink is well in order 090127 what's it to you? who go blather from