compelled
unhinged lament


in simple terms
it begins with the tiniest of sentiments
to be snuffed_out
by the constant reiteration
(the same tired_old_story )
of one descending tetrachord

a small fuzzy whisper
expanded into gutwrenching plea
(harmonic dissonance; vertical
cause it all piles up)
but there's something about the variation
inside those same four notes
that just pulls it right out of me

but even with all these people around me
i'm starved for humanity
a kind touch is so hard to find
i need to reach out
but my hands are always empty


fact is
there aren't many people in the world
i can truly be myself around
so when i find one
i tend to grasp

i could live inside the sadness of that piece
of any of the pieces i learned
i leave that one in my case 		080313
...
unhinged i feel the need to get more new_ink 141108
...
unhinged no matter how hard i try to stop
i just keep going 		151103
...
unhinged there is no choice in the matter. there is no rest. there is no labor.

i just have to
i am only a conduit
it just falls right out 		180714
...
misstree I CAST THEE OUT, DEMONS OF THE FLESH
while I feel the ghosts of... and the touch of...
YOU HOLD NO POWER HERE
but hold me... yes, there...
THE POWER OF LIGHT COMPELS YOU
but what gives more light than a supernova?
a star hungers... 		180718
...
unhinged sadhana_of_mahamudra

in death
charnel_ground
i find the strength to protect life 		180719
...
ego hum to watch 211228
...
ergo hum a scream of defiance
is that it? 		211228
...
ego hum or a laugh of nonrecognition 211228
...
ergo hum or a sigh of
compliance 		211228
...
sameolme I'm still fighting 211228
what's it to you?
who go 		blather
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