cigarette
dallas Sort of like a girly cigar, but not as smelly. 980901
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donaldson this is where i am when i'm on the edge of a book of matches, the edge that has no phone number and nothing to call 990604
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OTK dunno, all i smoke are cigars: cigarettes stink . . . and filters are for suckers, so suck that butt. 990723
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jessica two packs a day. darryl says i'm going to die one of these days. i'm cutting down, though. that counts for something. 990922
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elimeny hmmm.
they used to impress upon your mind
that only "bad girls"
drink
and smoke
and have sex
so does that make me a bad girl?
well, i dont like it either.
i feel guilty about it....
thats gotta count for something, right?
because ive tried to quit
but i cannot express how much i love
sucking on that cigarette
gimme gimme
all day long
i would fuck them if i could
i love them so much
so there.
991207
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coolM A way of capitalism.
THEY say.
Smoking is bad.
then you see this kind of
cowboy.
You think.
Who cares?
Capitalism won.
Since I realized that
I closed my mind away from
commercial attacks.
I began to drill my
cigarettes.
991208
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jennifer you smoked camel lights and I smoked marlboros, then one day, I was 18 and you were not yet, so I had to buy you some, and the lady behind the counter was my neighbor, so I bought two packs of camels and no marlboros, and smoked the camels, and I hated them at first, but now I'm up to a pack a day, and that was in June, and you live in New York now, and I never see you, but I still think about you every day as I light that morning cigarette 991222
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alicia this is odd..

the first time i ever smoked was in eighth grade at r.'s house with t. and h. and the funny thing about it is that we had just gotten back from this pentacostal church retreat thing. so like, an hour earlier we had been singing "lord i lift your name on high" and listening to people speak in tongues.. and then whoosh there we were at her house lighting up. heh.. i dont know. i just think its hilarious. and so ironic. and especially since in eighth grade smoking is suuuuuuuch a biiiiiiiiiig deeeeeeeeaaaal..
991229
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wesleann they save my life when i'm sad....watching the smoke curl cat-like through the blackness of night, or mingle with the coffee steam. somehow, they keep my breathing through my tears. 000115
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sean hmmm... a cause of vocal damage, cancer, and other fun stuff we love to read about! 000125
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dizzy cigarettes, like majorettes, not major, but not quite minor 000219
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bellee escape? stress relief? a good girl's way of being bad...yeah. "oh my god, you smoke?" yeah... what would mommy and daddy say..."not our girl.." nothing is your girl now. the smoke glances the surface..no telling what lies underneath. inhale, exhale--who am i? 000220
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amorfus Sublime tobacco! which, from east to west
Cheers the Tar's labor or the Turkman's rest.
-Lord Byron

no comment...
000302
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Rachel It's such a comfort. Until you realize that you might get cancer. 000302
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BoofPixie i admit it. i buy into the stereotype. james dean is a million times sexier with one in his mouth. 000310
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nameless I don't think it's sexy at all, I never smoked and never will. Then again I'm only 14... what do I know... 000414
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diggy death on layaway 000424
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grasshopper rising
billowing
trailing
spinning
sinking
twirling
floating
lingering
falling
twisting
hanging
playing
sizzling
staining
tasting
burning
flaming
s m o k e

too beautiful
some art is deadly

watching people light each other up gets me off.
000525
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birdmad Black-wrappered.
Clove.

I take the pack out of my shirt pocket with a casual flick of my wrist.

pull one out, light it up
the sweet paper.

in the shade on the parking garage steps as the breeze comes twisting through

watch the ashes fall and dance like snowflakes as i flick them off the cherry end and the smoke spirals to heaven like a prayer
000525
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Tank i wish they weren't bad for me, but since they are i now live my life smoke free... 000710
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grendel i take it for granted that i will die anyway and indulge my pleasures no matter how detrimental they may be. 000710
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EECP It is not the cigarette you like it is only the nicotene. Corprate fuckers took such an adictive chemical and combined it with a vehicle that kills the user and the people around the user. I wish the people I love who smoke would stop. 001214
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lady amalthea watching my grandmother hack and cough on sixty five years worth of tar every christmas we visited has had little effect on me. like now, as i write this, i am smoking a Marlboro cigarrette, oh the shame. i was such a nice little girl. but he still thinks i am, so i guess i could be. that or else i can cover it pretty well. 001214
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silentbob benfoldsfive 001214
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EECP I am sorry to say that my reaction to a smoker is disgust. Even if I find the person to be attractive. Just a little insight. If you want motivation to stop, try thetruth.com. 001221
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lovers lament paused with my cigarette an inch
from my lips
smoke tangling into my hair
your hand lazily brushes my hip
and i adore that half smile
even before i see it light your face
and although i know your heart
tonight i'll fall from grace again

an open floor of moonlight
tonight i'll kiss the stars
and become an empty twilight
and burn alongside mars
but loneliness consumes me
you'll never comprehend
an ache you couldn't fathom
sorrow has no end.

paused with the silver an inch
from my wrist
blood tangled in my veins
making sure every scar is kissed
and i adore that feeling
of a completely empty meditation
and although i know i shouldn't
it's an open invitation calling me.

december 21, 2000
copyr. 2000
001221
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unhinged i remember sitting in dennys with my portable cd player listening to jeff_buckley becoming fascinated with the smoke around me like a holy blanket. i must have looked like a cat or really stoned or something. i take the hedonist approach myself. 010105
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Ween smoke that bitch
breathe the vapors of death
and love it
it soothes me
why do you berate me?
if i wanna die
then let me die
bitch
010203
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........... i need to go buy some more so i can toast them for use in some joints... i need to get high soon, i really need a fix. 010325
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unhinged i count them; plan out when i'm going to smoke each one. this one's for after dinner. this one's for before rehearsal. this one for the walk back. that should get me through the day. it's almost time to throw in a pack of cloves. i miss the sweetness. i don't really care if the cancer forms faster. i only smoke a half a pack or more a day when he comes back. i have a feeling i've finally seen the last of him though. 010325
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CinnamonGirl hmm listening to y'all makes me wanna light a cig and suck it till the filter
I smoke winston and cough as I read it
I have asthma but I gave up on quitting, after all we don't get out of this life healthy anyway (especially me) my first pack was noblesse... sad I know I remember me and a friend stole it from her made, it was the first time I inhaled and it was so sunny we were completely dizzy, since then we smoked once a week, the we started smoking in school, then home alone I don't even remember how it developed but I sure know I can't stand noblesse now (no bless)
my most romantic pack was when I went to my best friend who I happen to be head over heels in love with (still) and we didn't have money so we bought a mustang pack for both of us
it was the first time we had sex
now I have a bf I don't even love
I WANT HIM BACK DAMNIT
010604
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panacea i remember being 7
and taking a salty pretzel stick
out of that little yellow box

i carefully placed it between my middle and ring finger
jutted my left hip out
tilted my head upwards
and took a puff



and that's where it all began
010716
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shade a time increment
the only reason to just sit, alone
submission every time
love/hate
010906
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shade a time increment
the only reason to just sit, alone
submission every time
love/hate
tick. tick.
010906
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starved filled the motel room with clove smoke waiting for you to call

chasing myself around in circles trying to come up with the right thing to say

the column of smoke rising from the ashtray like a string of wasted prayers to a heaven that had long since closed its doors and moved away

then finally, at the lowest point


the phone rang
010906
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dB Fred Jones was worn down
from caring for his often
screaming and crying wife
during the day but
He couldn't sleep at night for fear that she
In a stupor from the drugs that didn't even
ease the pain would set the house on blaze
with a cigarette.
010906
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silentbob db

you are a good boy
010906
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DanetteTN915 He told me that I was a little girl. Smoking on the porch with a drink in my hand, trying to be a grown-up.
Immediately seizing the pack and snatching away the one in my mouth.
He forgot to theorize that instead of trying to show him that I was grown-up, I was trying to show him that I was not his perfect, heavenly being, that I am capable of having vices just like his empty bottles of wine and empty girls he has used. I am no girl.
011014
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"cool" where to begin...god how I know its killing me, and how I cringe everytime I take that puff. where is that supernatural force coming from that brings the cancer stick to my mouth everytime Im out with my people? Why dont I just quit?...being stoned just wouldnt be the same...nor would hanging with the buds, god Im sucha loser...but they all think Im 'the shit'...why? 011104
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Nikki Ok ...I'm sorry, but being addicted is completly mental. I dont care what people say that is is the 2nd most addicting drug next to cocain. If you haven't quit, then you dont want to. I mean all you have to do is fill in something to do when you'd normally be smoking. For me it was driving, waiting inbetween classes, and breaks at work. Now I blast my radio and eat sunflower seeds. Yes you get crabby as hell and yes you get shakey but if you can just go 4 days. give yourself 4 days and let yourself think "I'll only smoke when I party and smoke weed".. (that is if you dont smoke weed every day already.) That's what I'm doing and I haven't smoked in a week. I was up to a pack a day and one day just quit. You will never quit by cutting down, it wont work. You have to let yourself know, that you can only smoke at certain times.. in my case it was parties. Even then, only have a few. Now I just find myself wondering why I couldn't buy just one cigarette, instead of 20, so I don't buy packs. You have to have people support you as well and dont tell them you're quiting till like 2 days later, it's much more gratifying to keep it to yourself for a little bit and then tell people "I'm quiting, I haven't had one in ___ days.. They get so proud of you. All but the ones that smoke, cuz they're jelouse.

This is coming from someone who drinks, smokes weed, and used to smoke a pack a day for the last 5 years.

If you Truely want to quit, you can do it! Mentally prepare yourself for the worst, and overcome it, it just makes your stronger each day.
011104
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psychobabe bah *wants one but cant cuz parental units* heh when i first smoked i never thought i'd be addicted. But fuck it pulls you in like no other. And now since i have started and tried to quit, it just doesnt work 011104
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whoknows why do i smoke? i dont even like it that much....
i tend to smoke more when im stressed, which lately has been quite often
011104
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. : * p s y b o r g * : . I don't smoke and I never will...I'm fine with it if other people do, though, I'm just like, whatever 011104
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whoknows i think ill have one now. need something before i start my multivariable calc. that shit gives me a fucking headache 011104
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unhinged i don't have any more goddamn cigarettes

fuck you you random kid who had to bum one off of ME when i only had two left. i guess you can pick out any sucker in the crowd.
011104
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psychobabe damn strait 011104
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starved sucking them up as fast as i can till my lungs are black with it

chasing myself around in circles wishing i could understand this

no unread messages
no unheard messages
not so much as a word

just this same old dust and the ratty coat that hangs on the closet door waiting for the first chill to let me wear it again

no surprises there
011105
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mmm fuck, i'm out. i need more. and very soon. 011106
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whoknows want one of mine? im going to quit... again 011106
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mmm sure. i'll take them all 011106
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psychobabe one would be nice about now. I just woke up. Got home from school, had been an okay kinda day and went to bed at 3:30. woke up at 5 and fell back asleep until about 5:57 which is where i am now. Tired, groggy, in need of a cigarette and just *meh*. Ever have those times? just kinda not feeling anything, bored but excited, happy but sad, tired but awake. Yea, definatly had one of those days. 011106
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Casey Last night my friend needed to talk to me and have a friend close to him. So I met him outside in the freezing cold and we sat on his deck and talked. He lit up a red. I had never smoked before, but I figured what the hell, I don't give a damn. He had 3 more packs in his car, so I bummed one off him and lit up after many many tires. It felt alright, I have been around many smokers before, so I had no trouble with my throat or coughing. It felt alright, kinda relaxing to my stress level even. I think just talking with my friend was worth it though. 011108
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Persona what? yuck?
what's wrong with you, you pink lunged fuck?
A cigarette contains 20.8% of your body's daily vitamin and mineral requirements. So smoke, enjoy, and know you'll be the last one to die from smoke inhalation in your burning house
011109
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whoknows fuck quiting. ill at least finish this pack. sorry mmm. 011109
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nanny someone needs to smoke with me.....



ahhhhhh

now i feel better, and my day can begin.
011110
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psychobabe *lights one up*

i'll join ya
011110
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whoknows fuck fuck fuck!!!
i need a fucking cigarette but im out and im broke so i cant buy any...
shit.
011118
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psychobabe i just got off of work, VERY hectic, i dropped two glasses with ice to the brim, i dropped pop on the gound, i messed up an order and it was extremly busy. All i felt like was going out and haveing that cigarette and i must say, it was one hell of a smoke 011118
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pontifier the thing i hate most in life possibly. you light it when i need fresh air. you sit next to me and cause me to move. your face implodes and your body asks why. i hate you and i don't even know you, yet i turned to you to calm my nerves before i chose the my path in the greatest fork in the road ever 011210
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ClairE yes classy in theory but all too dumb looking my daddy told me never and he is too weak to quit
my mommy did
but she lost her figure

i'll stay with what i've got.
011211
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kristen they're going to be the death of me. 011212
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Jenna I've discovered the only ones I don't mind are Camel Lights.

Not for me, mind you. Just the people I am hanging out with. Camel Lights smell nice, and the smoke doesn't choke you to death.

I told somebody that in my sister's presence and she gave me an incredulous look and smacked me. I think she thinks I was trying to "fit in."

But it's the truth, I tell ya.
011212
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low tar birdmad sweet, sweet poison
the sugar on the filter paper tip

dizzy from all the roundabout running and then the sudden stops

the ratty black coat upon my back, the smoke fresh exhale looking twice as thick rising and moving outward through the chill air

dressed in dark colors theonly indication of my presence in the shadows is the cherry ember burning on the end
011213
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[remy] s/he could only make me feel worse if s/he put out his/her cigarette in my EYE. 020118
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blamethesky getting drunk. taking pills. smoking in my room.
feeling sorry for myself.

putting cigarettes out on my stomach to see what it felt like. they are next to all of my other scar sets.

not promising you the next night that i wouldn't do it again. not sure if i won't.

getting my picture taken..the photographer obessed with the burns. he told me he was documenting them. not my finest hour to remember.
020118
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ice 2 weeks 4 days now
i haven't been smoking cigarettes.
i have, however, been
smoking more weed,
and eating more little debbies.
020119
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I am Yeah they're tastful, sure they're strees relieving, okay, maybe they're addictive;
BUT
They contain over 4000 different ingredients each, such that are also found in
Rat Poison,
Jet fuel,
Windex,
turtle wax,
finger nail polish and varnish, dishsoap,
plastic,
ink,
white out,
glue, cement,
dye, hair gel,
wood oil stains,
paint thinner,
formica,
gasoline,
engine oil,
rubber,
batteries,
fertilizer,
bug repelent,
hair spray,
shaving cream,
listerine,
ect.
020212
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reitoei very addictive very bad for you.

entrancing to watch someone smoke one. to see the smoke rise and swirl and be sucked out of the window. grey blue wisps trailing from lips spiraling swirling drifting and cascading down through the microcosom of air.

i think im addicted to watching people smoke. ill probably die from secondary smoke but who cares c'est la vioe. as long as i dont start smoking them.
020213
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green eyes i'm sitting in a booth at a local bowling alley, its probley midnight by now. 'im sitting there proped up, my head is spinning. cigarets make me sick, i smoke them anyway 020223
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creep ALL OF YOU THAT SMOKE - I AM GONNA BURN A BUT ON YOUR REPRODUCTIVE ORGANS, TILL YOU SCREAM FOR MERCY. THEN I WILL CHOP OFF FEMALES TITS, CUT OFF MALES TESTICALS, AND EAT THEM. THEN I WILL SPURT MY WET DIHAREAH ALL OVER YOUR FACE. BLEED YOU WEAK SHIT!!! I WILL MAKE YOU FUCK YOUR PARENTS WHILE I KILL YOUR DOG!!! YOU ARE UGLY!! SLAP YOUR FUCKING FACE!!!! HAHAHHAH!!! YOU MAKE ME SICK FAGGOT!!! FUCKING LESBIAN PEICE OF SHIT!!!

I

WILL

KILL

YOU
!
!
!
!
!
020329
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continuous ache why do people like you even bother posting here? what satisfaction do you get from being loathed? 020330
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minnesota_chris :) my thoughts exactly.

My theory is that creep is the 12 year old son of a Rabbi. Who just had one too many seders, snuck away to his dad's computer, and just started typing "poopie poopie poopie poopie!"
020330
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continuous ache that one may have me laughing for weeks, chris. thanks... i needed it. 020331
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Casey I had my first about 6 months ago. I didn't have any problems becuase I've been around second hand smoke a lot so it was nothing big. Except it tasted like shit, I think I'll just stick with second hand, I like the smell. 020331
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lemonlizzles i ran out, this morning, inhaling the stale early morning taste of my last camel light, rubbing my arms with cocoa butter in the feeble beginnings of south carolina's dazing summer heat.
she gave me two, holding out more menthols as though they were the gift of the majii, and their smell was so littered with despair and stagnance that they remained in the bottom pouch of my silk purse, curled up in my bookbag.
the girl came with us to the country, carrying packs of cloves, the kind that crackle into the empty night air when we smoke them and make our hands feminine, glamorous, languid.
the best one, she says, is the one now, when the air is still thick with pot smoke, when we can feel the smoke in our lungs, in our bodies, in our minds.
020402
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jessicafletcher sets the house ablaze. 020515
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Sailor Jupiter I have a friend on ICQ from Germany. I know our conversation is abotu to end when he types, "So, last cigarette of the night." 020516
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CRO I haven't had a cigarette for 5 days. Something pretty big happened and it snapped something inside me. I don't think I'll smoke again.

Which I think is a good thing.
020516
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filterless low tar birdmad 9 weeks with no smoke i'm surprised i haven't gained any significant weight this time...grrrr arrrrgh... 020516
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jessicafletcher i just want to say that it is soooooo rad that you are quitting... your lungs are smiling inside you.
my mom quit so she won't die as fast.....yay!
020516
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.blekk.tchynah.dol. i'd stop smoking if i found another way to calm me down and stop me hyperventilating from your over possessiveness and inability to give me answers, your quick reason to look me in the eye and take my breath away again and the way you make me feel like such a whore 020519
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Freak I had a night that I could smoke. You had never seen me smoke before. You said that you have never seen anyone smoke so much in your life. Didn't you realizing that tell you anything?! 020605
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sirflaccid Little pieces of time all rolled up into a thin little tube. The magical orange tip filters out the evils of the day. The sweet smell of relaxation fills the air as time burns away.

This genius little object can take the happiness found later break it off and place it in the now. Smothering in the pleasures of now, we forget how fast life burns away when we forget to pace ourselves.
020611
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Mahayana reminder: [if you smoke 'em]
[dont even look at my lips for a kiss]

[stop smoking honey b4 you get addicted]
love,
sass :]
020611
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jane i'd like to say i quit but i had actually told myself that i "couldn't buy another pack". so that means that as long as matt keeps being a good host and offering me one every time he goes out to smoke, i don't have to stop completely. damn i found a loophole to my own rule 020612
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dashbchick i wouldn't stop smokin the cigarettes, it kept me closer knowing he smoked too even though he was so faraway.I kept smokin until the next time i saw him. I had to let him see i didn't quit so he'd know i was tough enough for he's love, now i quit smokin and i feel as tho i've lost him, but he's out there somewhere,w/ packs of those cowboy killers 020804
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dashbchick i wouldn't stop smokin the cigarettes, it kept me closer knowing he smoked too even though he was so faraway.I kept smokin until the next time i saw him. I had to let him see i didn't quit so he'd know i was tough enough for his love, now i quit smokin and i feel as tho i've lost him, but he's out there somewhere,w/ packs of those cowboy killers 020804
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me are my taste 020820
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jane this is how i met stephan

"can i bum a smoke?"

he gave me one, we started talking, talked for the rest of the day.

works every time.
020820
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Glory Box Recently discovered.

When I lose the head rush, it's time to run in the opposite direction.

Can you be addicted to one cigarette a day?

I know, I know. Escalator action. It's never always one a day. I need to go to a seminar. Make me believe that I'll die young. I'm still too immortal to fall for that shit.
021031
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me I'm on an 'out of town' x-mas trip and
I'M GOING TO GO FUCKING CRAZY I HAVENT HAD A SMOKE IN 7 FUCKING DAYS!!
AND I'M NOT EVEN TRYING TO QUIT!!
021227
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me again for everybody who wants me to quit:

i quit every time i put out my cigarette
021228
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Glory Box Smoke for boredom, for something to do with my hands when I'm busy thinking in the light night up north here.

Smoke because I've always wanted to, and because it's something I can share.

Smoke because.
030614
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girl_jane I think it'd fit nicely at a time like this...blather can wait for a bit. 030619
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crimson Late at night, early in the morning I used to sit in my bedroom window and smoke. I used to cut class and smoke at the back of the school with the stoner kids and a teacher or two. 030819
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misstree my daily masochism.

i won't quit until i know i'll never have to be a waitress again, and then i will shell out lots of money for... is it zyban? because i have no willpower, and i get ANGRY when i don't smoke.
030819
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close your pretty little eyes mmmmmmm. clove cigarettes. 030922
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pipedream when i was about ten or eleven, our driver used to smoke. i got him to quit. i used to go around yelling the health surgeon's warning when i saw someone smoking on the road. now i try not to bat an eyelash and wave smoke out of my face.
activist at heart, heart needs people, people light up. terrible cyclicality; i am so concerned and yet have to keep that under tight wraps because you can't tell people what to do all the time.
030922
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crimson My mouth had been robbed of its lipstick as it let the blood red skeleton of a cigarette fall. Mercifully, laces drooping with woe, my shoe crushed and buried the filter. 030926
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Markafterdark ....exploded on the pavement tossed out the window. I saw it in my rearview mirror. In the car rides with me a girl whose name I don't know. She sticks another in her mouth...I reach over I lite it...I still dont know her name. Led Zeppelin comes on the radio, i love this girl, she knows. My mind is so colorful right now just like the cigarette...I still don't know her name... 030928
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bmckenna i love cigarettes. quit for years but can't give up on them. smoke cigars too, and actually enjoy them more, but cigarettes have a necessary component which cigars leave out: nicotine. the only thing that keeps me going during finals. 030928
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girl_jane It'd be nice to have one right now... 030929
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buh yuck. rollups are much better tasting. 031114
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kms hmmm..."the truth" always reminds me to light another cigarette....so much for that commercial 031114
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nomatter Would you hate me if I smoked? 031115
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girl_jane one last clove... 031116
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grindmath everyday new agey assholes
tell me about bad cigarettes are
for me.
tell me about the new yoga program
which salon they take there annoying fucking dog to.
what mix of grass seed they'll use this
year

and most recently
how drinking piss is good for you.

everyday i find new reasons to smoke
031116
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r1y9a6n4 it was sunday no saturday morning. he awoke to the sound of the automatic coffee maker earning it keep. the cat crawled up on his chest and rubbed his nose against the pillow. the look throuhg the window was evidence that it had long been up and without a clock he guessed it was close to 10 or 11. still feeling pretty cloudy from last night friday? the bar was packed with the ususal suspects. all the same alcoholics that he sees every saturday?
he shakes his head and realizes that that was the last thing he should have done. once he has sat there long enough and the cat has peacocked the tail in his face just one too many times he emerges from the covers. "gotta stop doing that" he thinks. he approaches the coffe machine as if he were not yet alive pouring out the blackness into a twice used cup. black and hot. he starts out the door to get the morning paper (there is a mchine under his stairs) in his wrinkled boxer shorts that partied with him all night last night. the manager yells at him though he doesn't know or care what she is saying. he walks back up the stairs and throws the paper on the table where it will sit for two days until he throws it away untouched. he returns to the room form where he came and starts the computer. the fan whines and the drive clicks as his unshaven face is lit up by the monitor. he looks over to the side of the desk and grabs a small box wrapped tightly in its clear wrapping paper. he opens it like a present pulling its string and slowly romoving the top. he digs through the silver paper that houses the gift inside its box. he rumages through its contents to find what it is that he wants. the fire is flicked and puff
031125
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r1y9a6n4 it was sunday no saturday morning. he awoke to the sound of the automatic coffee maker earning it keep. the cat crawled up on his chest and rubbed his nose against the pillow. the look throuhg the window was evidence that it had long been up and without a clock he guessed it was close to 10 or 11. still feeling pretty cloudy from last night friday? the bar was packed with the ususal suspects. all the same alcoholics that he sees every saturday?
he shakes his head and realizes that that was the last thing he should have done. once he has sat there long enough and the cat has peacocked the tail in his face just one too many times he emerges from the covers. "gotta stop doing that" he thinks. he approaches the coffe machine as if he were not yet alive pouring out the blackness into a twice used cup. black and hot. he starts out the door to get the morning paper (there is a mchine under his stairs) in his wrinkled boxer shorts that partied with him all night last night. the manager yells at him though he doesn't know or care what she is saying. he walks back up the stairs and throws the paper on the table where it will sit for two days until he throws it away untouched. he returns to the room form where he came and starts the computer. the fan whines and the drive clicks as his unshaven face is lit up by the monitor. he looks over to the side of the desk and grabs a small box wrapped tightly in its clear wrapping paper. he opens it like a present pulling its string and slowly romoving the top. he digs through the silver paper that houses the gift inside its box. he rumages through its contents to find what it is that he wants. the fire is flicked and puff
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girl_jane Only four today...I'm closer. 031125
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Lis The parallel of conviction makes me see crooked ideas... pixeled among the squares of colored stained glass that reflects the images of mirrored visions to remind me of my home. 031225
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Princess Butterscotch the Fateful I want a cigarette so bad right now I could chew my own arm off 040106
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floralieca Je ne sais pas comment, mais c'est ce que tu es devenu pour moi, une cigarette. Un objet que l'on désire, une habitude, une facilité mais oh combien nocive pour la santé, un système d'auto-destruction. Quand tu n'es pas là, je veux te voir. Quand on se voit, je reparts frustrée parce que tu n'es pas ce que je voudrais, tu ne fais pas ce que je désire, tu ne dis pas ce que je voudrais entendre. Et alors, j'écris toutes sortes d'imbécilités. À toi et à moi. Je déteste ce que je suis devenue. J'aimerais que ce soit si simple comme pour toi de redevenir ta meilleure amie mais il semble que j'en sois incapable. SVP, donne-moi ton truc. Je sais que je devrais arrêter de fumer.

Alors voilà, aide-moi. Ne réponds plus, ne me parles plus, ne me regardes plus. Je fais ça au nom de notre amitié, pour qu'il en reste quelque chose de viable en bout de ligne et non juste de la haine. Présentement on ne fait que se taper mutuellement sur les nerfs. Moi par mes e-mails et mes blathers, toi par ton mutisme et ton je m'en foutisme.

On se revoit à l'automne ok ?

Bonne chance -XXX-
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pigeon okay.. so everyone who smokes knows that it isn't good for them, i'm sure all smokers at one point in time have read the surgeon general's warning... the pack i'm smoking right now says

"Quitting Smoking Now Greatly Reduces Serious Risks to Your Health."

short sweet to the point.. all of us smokers know that smoking is bad for them. so why is it that some non-smokers feel as though it is their job in this world to tell smokers that smoking is bad for them.

we all know that it is unhealthy, and that it is going to kill us. I heard on the radio the other day that every cigarette you smoke takes off 7 minutes of your life.. but it's the last 7 minutes. so it's not like you're gonna be around to see what you missed... and hell, we're all going to die some day anyways. so why not do whatever you want while you're still alive.
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pigeon and another thing. i live in the crappy state of new york. where smoking in public places is now banned. which really sucks, cuz we all know how great a ciggy goes with a beer in the bar.. but not in new york.

and to make things worst.. all the cigarettes in new york either have a little black line or a little star next to the upc code on it. and that means that it is self extinguishing.. so if you don't constantly smoke on your cigarette, it will go out.. which really sucks for me cuz i'm the kind of person who will light a cigarette while on the computer, and set it in the ash tray so i can type, and it goes out before i get a chance to pull another drag off of it. which only pisses me off. it doesn't piss me off enough to make me quit. i don't know if that is what they had in mind, make people angry at their cigarettes so they stop smoking. i don't think that'll happen. what's happening is that everyone is complaining about them.

though i can see why they make them self extinguishing. more chemicles, i'm sure they'll find out soon enough that whatever it is that they added to ciggs to make them go out on their own causes cancer worst than smoking... give it time... but i'm pretty sure they did it for saftey issues.. if it goes out so fast, then if you fall asleep with a cigg in your hand, you can't burn your house down. i think that's why they did it. pretty sure.. either that or just to piss me off when i'm out of matches.
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Rhodekyll Oh, I love you too,
Delightful Izmir Stinger
Come and smoke with me.
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q smoke 050817
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belle de jour A Lebanese gypsy taught me to smoke. 050817
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spartawinsthewar a quarter of me is thinking that my boyfriend is using me for drugs and cigarettes.
but the other quarters of me are thinking that he's not.
he's just using me to look good.
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smokette i remember when i was in like middle school and said "yeah i will NEVER smoke cigarettes its nasty and so bad for you"

gues what kids. everyone says that. then you light one up because of peer pressure or just for shits. and thats it

the buzz is so nice. i love nicotine
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ivyducktwilightseto i lit up, then I got sick, and decided that cigarettes suck. I've smoked quite a few times since then, but usually only when drinking. And I haven't in the past few months because I am a runner and I'd rather have my lungs clean. 060414
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jane [chesterfield lights]
(__(______() ~^'


i woke up at 6am & couldn't breathe. 'bout time to cut down, i think.

{"how much do you smoke?"
"um. half a pack to a pack a day."
"you need to quit smoking."
"..... i know."}
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Twitch they're starting to get a hold on me 060418
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poet cigarette is an awesome word for use in songs. it rolls off of the tongue well, and i find it pleasing to my ear, especially in the right line.

personally though i hate cigarettes
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secret7 ah...smoke... 060628
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triplesix I feel like smoking a cigarette underneath a gorgeous moon. 061111
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hsg does anyone here chew tobacco instead of smoke? 061120
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kchan my hand shakes with the first one.
unfurnished apartment
naked matress
honeyed wine
i will fill up this ashtray
and wait out the storm.
immortal and finite
i am too young to go home
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stork daddy you're like that fucked up friend, who we can't leave behind because we don't want you to think we feel like we're better than you. 070105
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chelloveck i am 6 in iowa. it is red ribbon week. they show us black lungs between glass plates. she takes up smoking in the front seat. i cry.

us four on the docks, smoking & speaking & sighing & singing sunshine away the day.

o the adventures i go through every night just to get down & out my house for a cigarette!
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z smoking is good for people who dont want to live. 070202
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nameless after 8 years It's funny. I wrote in here 8 years ago that I will never smoke, 6 months after I said that I started smoking and 2 months ago I quit. 080311
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birdmad i started when i was 14... quit for the first time not long after i turned 21, stayed quit until i was 25, quit again when i was 26 and started up again about 8 years ago...quitting heroin was easier 080311
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sedrftzsxdc theyre like little disposable friends that you can buy, 20 at a time. you may not have any friends, but as long as youve got 5 bucks, youve got a cigarette.

knows this sounds sad
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sedrftzsxdc sorry chicagoans and others, i know smokes are more expensive in some places than others, i just know im glad i dont gotta pay 8-9 bucks for a pack, id be fucking pissed. all my friends in chicago smoke roll-their-owns, i couldnt believe it when i first saw it 110620
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gja Sixteen dollars and fifty cents for a pack of twenty here.
Roll on revenue raising taxes.
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sedrftzsxdc jebus tapdaning christ
thats too much

remind me to never vacation
to where ever that is
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sedrftzsxdc *sigh* tapdancing 110620
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