insomnia sarah it's 4am and i can't sleep . sigh . 981021 ... emma something that plagued me all my life, but the drugs work i tell you. 981026 ... Pacia "memories jostle each other for face-room like obsolete film stars..."-Plath 981108 ... k god i love plath. i can't sleep even when i'm tired sometimes. 981121 ... a-team awake i am. 4 in the morning it is. annoying talking like Yoda I am. 990221 ... L Ever tried melatonin? It works pretty well. So does getting out of bed and doing something else. 990612 ... me? ever tried phenobarbital? works pretty damn well... me, i just skip on down to the doctor's for a bit o' that ol' black an' bitter presciption... doctor insomnia's, i mean. 991222 ... lion how do you sleep, my darling sometimes not at all? are we sleeping in the same way when from heaven shadows fall how do you sleep, my love when the heart has ears for silent tears dreaming in the daylight hours sleepwalking with your fears sleeping more or less than never sometimes not at all 991224 ... deb i tried to sleep, i did, but i kept turning, hearing music in the backround wanting to sing along the phone rang and the bubble popped and now i sit at the keyboard at 7:42 barely awake and i wonder if i'll ever really sleep again soon i'll curl up on the couch and close my heavy eyes and smile as i drift away to somewhere ive never seen before~ ::yawns:: nite. or morning, as it were 000102 ... setsuna meiou I fear that this wonderful thing I have been given is only a dream, and soon I may wake up to face cruel reality. but, I pray, that the gods will have favour on me, and they will let me sleep forever 000102 ... wesleann it's those night where you would fall asleep, but lay in bed thinking about shit like "How come so many hairs fall out of my head every day, and i never go bald?" 000124 ... Brad could it lead to schizophrenia? Sleep deprivation has effects remarkably similar for your creative mind as those of intoxication. 000319 ... vega After something like 72 hours of sleep deprivation, the brain produces a chemical whose base is vaguely similar to LSD(so I have been told), but by this point aren't you already fucked up enough ? 000320 ... girl has been my house guest for far too long 000326 ... psycho insomniac so why am i so damn depressed, you say. depressed indeed. sleep is a good thing. cherish every second of bed time. and when you close your eyes, thank god for letting you sleep, instead of lying there hour after hour leaving you with your thoughts and you own fucking twisted mind... because everything will be okay for you. you will wake up to a morning and feel refreshed. you sleep when your tierd. i sleep once a week. and between those few hours, i'm so fucking depressed because reality feels like a damn nightmare. and i cant hide from it. because i know the nightmare is my reality. hmmm... 000904 ... evi is the reason I wear sunglasses even when it's dark 001002 ... guitar_freak unless you want MY medication, weed is the only cure 001013 ... Barrett Cure: 2 1/2 oz. Jack Daniels Short glass of ice Warm can of Budweiser(optional*) Pour the Jack Daniels over the ice. Sip slowly (it tastes better the more dilluted it gets) Follow with beer* When finished, close eyes. 001014 ... psychobabe tried it, and it works like a charm, thanks barrett! My cure is just get a bud, go out at 2 or 3 in the morning, and cruise/walk around fucking town all night, or go to a party and get wasted...... Thats my cure 001121 ... SCOTT hey next time let me know i am a raging insomniac-even booze does not help-i am a go-go-go gotta go-gotta go-gotta go kinda guy-unsexy too 001127 ... deb i can never sleep anymore i sit awake until early morning staring blankly at the phone wondering why it never rang all night- silly me, he's in bed- i stopped caring about my sleeping habits long ago when i realized i didn't have good ones and now, when i need some rest any rest i can't even coax myself to bed- really, i think this is it: i'm afraid of waking up and having all of this be a dream 010114 ... god i'd better go to sleep tonight 010115 ... monadh I should be sleeping but like the nut that I am .. I rarely go to sleep at night .. and so ... here it is .. freshly morning and I am still wide awake but know that I should go and catch some Z's before my eyes fall out from sheer lack of common-sense 010310 ... nocturnal second FUCKING night in a row. it's after 5am, I've been lying in bed since about 3:30 and nothin. this is insane. what the hell am I supposed to do with myself? insomnia sucks more than anything in the world. 010413 ... melvinwang i have a friend who can't sleep because of overactive bladder. i never sleep anyway, so i know this type of thing. my reason for not sleeping is either boredom or depression 010505 ... mmm "With insomnia, nothing is real. Everything is far away. Everything is a copy of a copy of a copy." -fight club 010505 ... mmm i've been suffering for about a year now... i average 3-4 hours a night.. sometimes i don't even sleep, at all 010505 ... Pink Paint hay UPers, do we have a fight club crew or what, mmmm.... me knows what ya mean, most certainly abad idea though, fun but kindo risky, c i've just come through the urr.. no sleeps fun stage, and you turn into a freak, its an experience , butt just watch it, things get pretty risky out there. just remember to eat and drink enough, then sleep deprevation isn't such a problem if you are incontrol of it. Fight me for it, come on, i'm tellin ya, it's a great soap box, you slip up, go through rough patch, then if ya lucky you'll come out of it one tough happy go lucky cookie. 010519 ... whats wiv the deadballerionasociety 010519 ... sickgirl im so asleepy i need some sleep i dont like sleeping... my head begs me some sleep i lie on my bed... try to close my eyes...then they opens so wide i see the dark, the shadows in my room...im so insomniac... i feel scared, i need to rest... im so fucked up 010724 ... Translucent I sit here, waiting, wondering if I should watch a movie and attempt to sleep, or just sit here and continue to dowload and type. Once I fall asleep, I will probably sleep until 2 in the afternoon. Probably unhealthy, Mom calls me vampyric, should I biter her? 010823 ... Translucent I sit here, waiting, wondering if I should watch a movie and attempt to sleep, or just sit here and continue to dowload and type. Once I fall asleep, I will probably sleep until 2 in the afternoon. Probably unhealthy, Mom calls me vampyric, should I bite her? 010823 ... erin the luftwaffe sodapop the_string_between_sleep_and_death 010823 ... echo my boyfriend 010824 ... translucent so here I am again, its 3:00, and I am awake. fully awake. watching Gladiator, typing, being alone with my thoughts. this is how i like it. nobody to annoy me, no stupid people saying stupid things. freedom. i think i may look at some porn later. 010826 ... kerry i've had it since i was little. always. it comes in waves. i beg my mom for the sleeping pills but she won't let me have them. i never take the full dosage... too scared of never waking up. one day i'll sneak into her room and steal the bottle. and sometime i'll get out of bed and write songs and books and maybe they'll be even better than the ones i wrote when i wasn't trying to sleep. 011210 ... cole it always facinates me how the gnawing pain eating away at the pit of your stomache due to feeling sad as fuck can keep you awake. who the hell needs vivarin? 020113 ... kelli crane i love xanax. i have a problem sleeping. i think too much about stupid shit. I'm out of xanax, so i'll go take a tylenol pm. i've been blathering for hours now. it's 5:20 in the morning. if i have to watch the sun come up i'll die. My x boyfriend used to grab his guitar and play "here comes the sun" when we lived in Hollywood and used to stay up for days on end. Shawn kelly was sweet. 020113 ... Jenna Dammit. It will not claim me again. Time_for_bed. 020205 ... broken_down girl I come here to attempt to blathe my insomnia away (3 hours staring at my ceiling in the dark)... only to find that I was the last one here, trying to... blathe my insomnia away. It's just been getting progressively worse. Enough to really bother me. I used to wear the fact that I could stay awake until dawn like a badge of honor. Booze or none, I cannot seem to sleep before 6 am lately. Lord knows I've tried and I've tried. I can't get any strong sleeping pills to correct this. For one I would have to go to the doctor, who probably wouldn't give them to me anyway; and for another, one bad night and I'll take the whole bottle and never wake up. {see sleeping_pills} So I sit up writing, writing to no one and everyone, truly on the verge of tears, trying to sort out what the fuck is wrong with me. I have finals, yes. And I will be moving back to my parents soon, an unhappy place where people hate each other. But that's not what I have been thinking about. My mind is simply active, awake, refusing to think slow easy thoughts but rather play out my future, both good and bad versions of it in my head. I see myself getting drunk so I can finally talk to that guy. I see myself making mistakes with a completely different guy for all the wrong reasons. I see myself partying with friends this summer and being happy. I see myself sitting at home alone. When I spoke to him this evening, he told me he had spent most of Monday evening talking to her. "I think she likes me but she's dating Chris." And I prayed silently that they would never happen. She's a wonderful girl but uses and discards men unknowingly; she would hurt my best friend. But my most prevalent thought was, "Oh god. Please don't let her steal him from me." I find myself as a jealous girlfriend even though we are not romantically involved at all. Am I wrong for that? If he has her, will he still want me around? I need him. He is my support and guide and brother. There is a storm coming on. Perhaps it will lull me to sleep. It's 6 am. Time_for_bed. 020501 ... Toxic_Kisses I'm tired and yet I can't sleep, and to be honest I really oughtent be blathing when I'm tired kuz thats when I make the most mistakes and say things I really shouldent of said @ all *Sigh* but I have no other place to be and theirs nothing on TV I wish 24 were here 020518 ... .blekk.tchynah.dol. all the while its 2am and im wishing to be away in the world where nothing is real and im not hurt by you. i wish i could sleep. its been more than two months now since my sleep has been normal. youve hurt me. and my sleep has disappeared. ... i think it ran away from me.. did you steal my sleep baby? 020519 ... CRO Insomnia is good. You get to blathe and read what people's hopes and dreams are, and then you get to see them not get fulfilled. It's like watching somebody bleed to death on a street corner. 020519 ... tildan