relapse typhoid One night he set fire to twenty pages of calculations. Integral signs weaved like charmed cobras, comical curly ds marched along like hunchbacks through the fire-edge into billows of lace ash. But this was his only relapse. 000222 ... miniver I think I should be punished for using too many -ly words. And, also, incidentally, for drinking out of the carton and so cleverly, persistently getting away with it. I ought not be doing that, nope. Nosir. 000313 ... ClairE Is it a relapse when I come back to you, or when I turn away again? 020104 ... happiepill why... why do you have to do this to me AGAIN... once is enough, i can't take it again... i'll break, like your truck dashboard after i kicked it... 031123 ... yeah yeah yeah semi_relapse 040212 ... bangaaeter ninecat had a relapse 050712 ... emmi i wonder if i even want to move on. 060511 ... skinny where to from here... 070218 ... f hospital maybe ! xxxxxxxxxxxxxx 070218 ... nom semi_relapse 070218 ... f I thought I was better but I'm not, there will always be a chance for me to slip out of reality inyo a world of paranoia and confusion. I don't think i will ever come out of this depression unless reality comes into play. i will always sit crying on my bed each night wondering where the happy days went. The days when I felt like I was capable to do anything where I felt so full of joy. I know without that I will feel a great sence of loss, like part of my soul died. I hurts so much because it is lonely, it feels like no one will ever understand me. The trauma can only be delt with by me, everyone else can make their own judgements on what is sanity and what is not but I know one will ever know what you feel inside. 070219 ... Lucy boo hoo ! 070228 what's it to you? who go blather from