ask_unhinged silentbob What is YOUR story? 001209 ... unhinged my story....it strikes me odd that someone is actually interested in that. that sounds self-pitying doesn't it? fuck it. i'm just waiting bob...waiting...i think i might be waiting for an eternity 001209 ... silentbob waiting for The Next Big Thing? 001209 ... pat sajak are you waiting for columbus? 001209 ... unhinged waiting for some little inch in return i give everyone around me miles and i can only move an inch...if i had someone else's inch i would be miles away from here...just the open road and the great big bowl of the blue sky if there is something you would really like to know about me, give me an e-mail or something 001209 ... silentbob if i think of something i will this is just an attempt to let you have an ASK column as well and maybe the blatherskites will get to know you more Does that sound like a good thing to you? (that was my question :) ) 001209 ... startfires deer unhinged, how_does_it_feel to be truly un-hinged? 001209 ... unhinged got it bob it's a torment and a blessing all in one. although a couple of months ago i think i was more unhinged than i am at present. i'm just delirious with some weird sickness that seems to be going around northeast ohio at the moment. to be truly mentally healthy you have to be completely selfish. don't try to fix those that seem to be broken (they are broken for reasons beyond your control) and don't give those a second chance to someone that almosted killed you because chances are they didn't even realize that you were almost dead. it all comes down to looking out for yourself. i'm still not very good at that. i can't throw you away. you are the reason that i feel whether it be good or bad. who could i possibly still care about him? *sigh* does that answer the question? 001210 ... silentbob um... i dont know. do you like pizza? 001210 ... unhinged pizza...that depends i'm really not a huge fan of the pizza but i will eat it occasionally if the taste arises....pizza hut sucks some major ass...so does papa john's...marco's and gepetto's are good pizza places 001210 ... unhinged and columbus.... hhhmmm....my sister's fiance lives in columbus and in may i think she will be living there. one of my best friends from college lives in columbus and my brother's lacrosse team kicked the asses of two teams from suburbs of columbus last year. overall, i don't really care for columbus much although i do miss dilly and dana. 001210 ... unhinged so i was just wondering a month later if anyone is out there...... 010102 ... silentbob do you think its better to detach from pain until it builds up and kills you? or give yourself a chance to absorb it, soak in a bit, and then ventilate, making it easier to get over in the end. 010103 ... unhinged i don't think detaching yourself from anything is good for you. it's easier to get rid of things if you can get some answers talk about it get it out. i have an attachment problem, so i myself never can detach myself from anything. i always let myself get too involved for my own good. but if it gets to the point of pain, i always find some way to talk about it. sometimes another point of view is all you need. 010103 ... MollyCule dearest darling unhinged - is it normal to sit around listening to "hallelujah" by jeff_buckley and crying for days straight? no wait, you know what, screw the normal thing, is it something that someone who has also been affected by the delerious sickness spreading like wildfire throught northeastern ohio should be doing? i miss you. xoxoxox 010104 ... MollyCule dearest darling unhinged - is it normal to sit around listening to "hallelujah" by jeff_buckley and crying for days straight? no wait, you know what, screw the normal thing, is it something that someone who has also been affected by the delerious sickness spreading like wildfire throught northeastern ohio should be doing? i miss you. xoxoxox 010104 ... MollyCule oops 010104 ... unhinged i cry everytime i listen to the album grace by jeff_buckley. that boy knew how to write a love song. in a week and three days i will see you again my love. i miss you more than i can say. i'm so sad and lonely here right now. i hope you and jeremy enjoyed the christmas present i gave you ;) until sunday the 14th...what sickness are you talking about? 010104 ... MollyCule yes, jeremy and i enjoyed it IMMENSELY, thank you ever so. the sickness - i don't think it could ever be summed up in actual words. you need to look into someone's eyes to see if they're afflicted too. blame it on lack of sunlight, maybe, or lack of vitamins or lack of love. i don't know. i don't know what it is and i don't know how to fix it, but we are all falling victim. even the timko has been affected. my sickness in and of itself it slightly more explainable than most of the others. maybe it's just winter. but i will see you on the 14th, I will be there will bells on - no, wait, i'll be there with headphones on and jeff_buckley echoing through my brain. 010108 ... unhinged the timko affected?!?!?!?! oh no...this is more serious than i thought. but i do think i know what you mean. after i moved to y_town the same sickness invaded me. "i love you but i'm afraid to love you" jeff_buckley is always echoing through my head. you should really listen to the unedited version of I Shall be Released molly. i have a feeling it will be one of the last things that me and mike and frank ever share before ivet gets all famous and stuff. remind me to tell you my work story on sunday. it's really quite funny. oh and go read stupidpunkgirl while you're at it. there's some good news there. hehehehe =) 010109 ... Morelen Dear Unhinged, What do you do, when all of the people you end of loving, end up hating you, resenting you, telling you indirectly they were never in love with you, etc.... Sincerely ~A piece of shit* 010124 ... unhinged i could give the standard psychologist answer i suppose; look at the actions that i did that caused everyone to feel that way about me and try to change it. but i more than likely would sit in a corner with a razor blade for awhile and wallow in my own self-pity. cause everytime i try to do the right thing i always end up breaking down to the weakest alternative. and maybe some of the problem is your perception. did these people come out and tell you that they resented and hated you? cause i get that feeling from my friends sometimes because i take everything too personally. and as far as the whole love issue...i've always loved people more than they've loved me. i really don't know how to deal with it either. lately i've come to the point of apathy on this but only after a lot of heartache. after awhile the world just makes you not care. but there is no other way to reach that point without living. i actually kind of like it. i don't think i've totally lost my ability to care. i just don't let myself care about everyone i know. maybe everything i've just said is a load of bullshit but i hope that it helped you somewhat. 010124 ... unhinged so i said to myself "HEY SELF what's going on these days? you've got piles of work stacked up and you are in deep love with another girl but you still find your way to male lips." and self said "take a break dear." 010423 ... boerg47 i got this piece of glass, it's a hypothetical glass... with zits and hair in the crack- with deep ridges which hold in the stuff (candy, jello etc) and cakes the inside with bacteria, but that's another story. do you think plastic-edge metal, plywood scissors cut through vegetable oil slower??? 010424 ... unhinged depends on whether it's heated or not 010424 ... boerg47 eureka! 010425 ... unhinged =) 010425 ... The Moon Is Down What do you do when you just want to be held, and theres no one there, when all your friends have forsaken you When the Moon is Down? 010425 ... korie unhinged - i've been wondering this for some time now, and you seem rather well equipped to be able to answe this . . . . is it better to be all soft and mushy like, and open to everything, and threby leave yourself open to hurt, or better to pave yourself over with metal armor, leave out the hurt, but cancel out any possible good too? there doesnt seem to be much hope for a good middle ground here. 010501 ... Dafremen Unhinged can answer the question but my .00000005 cents worth is that THERE IS a good middle ground dear. Play life like you're the hardest hard ass out there and throw little hints out occasionally whenever you think anyone who's worth the time might be listening. If THEY CARE enough to listen AND they're a REAL person who really gives a f*ck about other people, they'll notice that you might not be the complete hard ass dickhead that you appear to be. That's where the friendship BEGINS, once they get past the HARDASS SHIELD. From that point forward be fair, but abrasive(pick on them alot) to your friends for at least the first year of the relationship, making sure that the person you've allowed into your inner circle has TRULY latched onto and figured out who you REALLY are and aren't fooled by appearances. Make sure they aren't just into the relationship for what they get out of it. After that open up more, become softer, but never completely discard your armor, people are unpredictable as hell. So that was my .000000000000000003 cents worth. Anyhow I came here to ask unhinged a question: Why do people continually think they KNOW what you're going to do next even though they are continually wrong? Don't you find this annoying? 010501 ... firehunden i already know the answer to that one.... ,and your wrong about what you think is the answer. so there. 010502 ... nocturnal that was interesting advice on building relationships, daffy. I do the exact opposite. I act all nice at first, just reelin 'em in, then when I feel the time is right and that they'll stick around, I start treating them like shit. It's mostly in a jovial manner, just fucking with them, but it's pretty bitchy and humiliating for them a lot of the time. I think the end result is about the same, though. sometimes they decide I'm not worth it, or that they can't take someone not taking everything as seriously as I probably should and they stop hanging around me, which is fine by me. the ones who have stuck around are some people that are cool as hell, so I like my methods. just thought I'd add the reverse suggestion. it's worked for me so far. 010502 ... addy unhinged-korie's question: don't you think it's OK to be mushy and accepting? Sure you'll be hurt.But that way, isn't your skin naturally thick? Don't you think there is too much armor in the world? What do you think? 010502 ... Dafremen i guess nocturnal, that the advantage to my approach is that not even folx who have no intention of doing anything but using you get even the slightest opportunity to treat you like a sucker. The disadvantage is that you tend to meet less nice people who will look past the hardass exterior. So your approach nets more good folx, mine fewer good folx but less heartache. 010502 ... unhinged i haven't checked this in awhile because no one ever asks me anything. sorry i have been leaving it to neglect. i think that dafremen's approach is decidely something i would think him to do from reading him here. but i am the opposite myself. if everyone in the world was a hard ass then everyone would be alone. the hard asses need the people that are willing to get hurt and be open to find out that they really aren't the assholes they portray themselves to be. and i do hate when people predict your actions, so that's why i did a lot of things my first year of college--- just so all the assholes in high school that perceived me as a goody two shoes could stick it up their ass. my first joint was dedicated to quite a few people. i know i know...that's no reason to partake of illegal activities. but it was still fun. 010519 ... yoink i will be echoing that thought next year 010519 ... unhinged when the moon is down i roll up a joint, pick up the blade, and wallow in my own tears. i'm only human after all... 010519 ... addy thanx unhinged. I had a feeling that you would agree. I hoped so. 010522 ... unhinged sure =) 010527 ... sabbie dearest darling unhinged, how do you feel about pompoms made from daisys and skirts made from soft, furry bat wings and cheers straight from the heart? ... ack... monitor dying... fuzz ... fuzz .... is anybody there? am i still here? typing about little dots and swirly fuzzes and not being able to read anything. not seeing beautiful blue blather screens, nothing but unfriendly mirco storms of nasty light pixels laughing uproarously with shades of black. tpying blind.... writing in my diary in bed at night in the dark when i was in high school was much like this... oh dear diary, i'll get back to you... 010528 ... Dafremen As a member of the hard ass persuasion, I take issue with your representation of them here. We're not all crusty crust....hard asses are part of a balanced breakfast. 010528 ... Ditto hah? 010528 ... unhinged i think that daisy pompoms and bat wing skirts are a wonderful idea sabbie. and i love more than my fair share of hard asses daffy. i always find myself over-balanced in the hard ass department. hah hah 010528 ... Dafremen I was trying to decide whether or not it would be funny as hell if I started popping off about wanting to kill myself or something. You know...take the hypocrisy to the edges of bad taste. I decided against it, cheap laughs are easier and I'm lazy. 010529 ... unhinged *shakes head* 010529 ... MollyCule where are you? did you go back home again? every time i look for you you're not here. i called kt the other day but she either got a different # or her phone is turned off. you never did give me yours. 010606 ... unhinged yes dear, i'm at home til the end of august. kt still has the same cell phone number. she must have just had it turned off. i will e-mail you my phone number but i'm going to be leaving pretty soon for milwaukee. and i just checked up on you the other day and you haven't at least posted anything here in awhile so there. i miss everyone from school terribly. being at home sucks. 010606 ... Photophobe Dear unhinged, Its it better to be empty or afraid? When all is done, and your dues are paid? 010606 ... unhinged i would much rather be afraid. i have had a few moments of relative emptiness and that has made me more afraid than anything. i think the two kind of go hand in hand. but if they were separate things, i would much rather be afraid. 010606 ... Aimee Are guys worth it? Are they worth the tears anymore? 010607 ... unhinged i think that 90% of people aren't worth it. that still doesn't stop me from being a giving blundering idiot, but that's what i think. i also think that there are a few people in everyone's lives that are 'worth it' i have a handful of people in my life picked out from the millions of faces that i've seen that i would do anything for. a handful of people whose smiles mean more to me than anything. so yeah, some guys are worth the tears. i just couldn't tell ya which. 010608 ... sabbie dearest darlingest unhinged, this is for you - batgirl. you can be one too, if you want. no membership fees or anything! just cool knickers on the ouside of tights and superbatcapes. yaa! 010611 ... sabbie erm, i meant go read batgirl, cos i have just officially dedicated it to you. i didn't mean just the word was for you, though i can wrap one end of the word up in florist paper and put a ribbon around it and give it to you just like a bunch of snowdrops, but i don't think you should put it in water. it might vizspark and that would prolly not be good and it might charge the water electrically and then if you were to drink that water (after taking the batgirl out of it, obviously) then you might get a shock. on the other hand, i could jsut wrap up an entire batgirl in gold foil like a big chocolate but then she might melt cos she prolly wouldn't fit in your fridge and then there'd be an awful mess on the floor that everyone bar the ants wouldn't like but then even ants need to live and breathe and eat and maybe chocolate batgirls are their favourite food, i don't really know cos i have never asked an ant cos i don't really talk to them very much and that's not cos i'm an elitist but just cos i think my words are too big for their little ears and so they don't fit, anyways, they've never answered me back and so if we didn't allow them the opportunity of eating melty chocolate batgirl well that might be terrible cos they might have all been really really good today and... damn. i have forgotten my point. 010611 ... unhinged reading that just made me get my silly/stupid scrunchy face when something makes me smile in a funny kind of way (which is a good thing). i'll go read it. thank you. you are such a sweetheart sabbie. you always make me smile. 010612 ... Dafremen You know sabbie whereas nemerfaD thins that HE is the anti-Dafremen I know for a fact that YOU are the true anti-Dafremen. Perhaps its because for you unhinged's charm is in her smile, for me it's the blaze in her eyes and that sharp CUTTING wit she whips out on occasion. I guess each mood requires a different beholder in order for its beauty to be truly appreciated. - - 010612 ... Dafremen Unhinged...are you OK do0d? I haven't seen or heard from you in a couple of days and it's starting to worry me a bit. I realize that's probably premature and unwarranted and all...but well..tough sh*T...I'm worried anyhow. There's a message for you on blather_friends. There's another one somewhere else..I forget where. 010702 ... bloody potato chip she's in milwaukee for a few weeks. 010702 ... unhinged yes, i have been in milwaukee for a week and i have four more to go. i am here for a chamber music festival and i have been practicing and learning a lot. and oddly enough, smoking a damn lot of weed. but that's probably besides the point. i'll be around more often in august. thanks for the concern, but you were right. it is pretty unwarranted :) 010702 ... i think you know if itll be yes or no so tell me which 020804 ... oh wait.. nevermind 020804 ... soar..crash what'll it be? 020814 ... werewolf so unhinged...when you're in that half dream state...like a napdream, so you hear people's voices but they morph into the words you expect them to say, and everything gets all blurry and you can do anything you can imagine...what do you tend to dream about? 020814 ... unhinged yes .... seeing that the fall of my senior year in high school, i stopped dreaming consistently, i don't really know. but usually, i dream of people that i care about that i haven't heard from in awhile that are dancing on my subconscious. the last dream i really remember: weird_dream 020814 ... Aimee How can i learn to be happy again? I used to just will it, but now it doesn't seem to be enough anymore. 020815 ... no reason what's your favourite song to listen to while stoned? and...how can i say that i think you're really cool in the form of a question? well, guess i just did. 020815 ... Dafremen You realize, of course, that they won't LET you help them...right? I've been pounding my head against the wall to make the numbness last. 020815 ... unhinged aimee dear--- you can't learn to be happy. i've finally forced myself to believe what i always thought was a forced cliche from people who didn't have any answers and stupidly thought that they should. but if you are honest, with yourself, with everyone you love, someday happiness will come back to you. i promise. i've found it and even though it's thousands of miles away now, the thought of him makes me smile a thousand times a day. no reason--- oh my god...i can't believe i have to answer this question. what i listen to when i'm stoned: ivet (live) radiohead (late radiohead is best, kid_a, amnesiac; you will have an out-of-body experience, i guarantee it) les_claypool and his fearless flying frog bridage (this dude rocks so much ass i can't stand it) tool jeff_buckley gorillaz placebo that's the list that immediately comes to mind when i think of music i MUST listen to when stoned; thanks *blushes* daf--- you know i honestly know this; i'm trying to walk away from the fatally wounded, but it's still not all that easy. 020816 ... sabbie dearest darling unhinged i have a question. questions. many many questions. being infantly curoius about the world around me leaves me bubbling with constant questions, like lemonade, like the time i cornered the guy who delivers water to our office and demanded he explain how he puts the bottles of water onto the despensers without pouring it everywhere when he tips it up and judas grinned and said 'curious little thing arent you?" and i noddednoddednodded and sometimes i wonder where the butterflies go when it rains but today i bought a skrinchy PVC coat the colour of old blood from an op shop and it makes plasticy noises when i walk and so i know where sabbies are gunna be when it rains and sometimes i wonder where all my knickers go, cos theyre never around when i need them and i was climbing under the bed the other day looking for something 'portant and i found where all the dust goes to play and that reminds me of the dust faerie from brian frouds good faeries bad faereis and it says how it loves to live in the vaccum cleaner but if one had a vacum cleaner that was neglected well, its like sitting in the coatroom all by yourself at a party and i suspect thats why the dust faerie now lives under our bed and while i was trying to find that dust faerie, who is actually the fluff faerie in the book, i came across the crumb faerie who "puts crumbs in the bed in delicate patterns that have great meaning to the faeries" which i think is funny cos we have a crumb faerie in league with the grit queen and they hold daily rituals under our sheets. after all that, i have forgotted what i was going to ask you. sorry. 020816 ... unhinged i sent a faerie your day the other way. she was floating by looking for a dark place to spend the night and i let her crawl in bed with me, and being the nomad that she was, she asked me if i knew anyone that could fit the description in australia because she was looking to go that way next and i told her all about you. maybe she's still on her way. i love you sab 020817 ... sabbie hey sweets im on the lookout for your faerie. i have two new faeries in my life at the moment, the caps_lock_faerie who follwed me home one day and has a little caps_lock_faerie sized portal to my desk at work, and this morning i spotted the alarmfaerie's work, shes kinda like tennis. i turn the alarm on at night and she turns it off at some stage so that it doesnt remind me to get up and go to work in the mornings. now you _know_ i am always welcome to faeries in my life, but she and i are going to have to have a serious, finger wobbling chat some stage soon or i'm gunna get in troub for being late to work too often. and darl, theres a dark space in my head that your faerie is more than welcome to spend the night(s) in. its big enough for all. i havent met your faerie yet, but i know what she looks like and a surprising amount about her, when she comes to visit i'll tell you. course, with the time delays tween here and fae lands and plus if she gets anywhere near as distracted as me at times she may not be around for a bit, so prolly got caught looking at shiny things over the antartic, but i have this feeling she'll turn up soon. you know shes wearing mostly black and she has elflocks. but shes more than welcome around here. i have this feeling we'll get on fine. kisses to your orchestral powers (prowess?) . 020826 ... unhinged i have no orchestral prowess unfortunately 020831 ... sameolme There was something you wrote a while back, it was short, witty and to the point. I've wanted to repeat it at times but haven't been able to articulate it well. It went something like: "All religions blame people for being human, but the buddhists give you infinite replays." What did you actually write? 070529 ... qef who were you asking ? love yourself first then you won't have to ask anyone what is the right way to be. Buddha is a beautiful role model but he is not a god and he did not claim to be anything more special than you or me, just that we can all be special, if we just share and give without making judgements. past is past why feel guilty for it ? humans are humans we have tomorrow, thats all that counts.. noone should demand how one should live, they should only repsect each other and care for one another. why does it have to be more complicated than that ? 070529 ... unhinged you know sameolme that sounds like something i might have said, but i couldn't even begin to tell you exactly what i said ( guess_which_posts_i_did_high sic ha). my wit is usually chemically induced, sadly_enough . ummmm...do remember if it was here on blue or over on red...was it something i wrote awhile ago? i've had buddhist leanings for quite awhile; it sounds like something i might have said in my less serious days. qef, dude, chill. (which i know sounds pretty hypocritical of me as of late,but seriously man. chill.) who is asking who how to be what? all these vague pronoun references are making my head spin. 070529 ... sameolme There's no way I'm going to remember where or when you wrote that, so I'll just go with how I remember it. "All religions penalize you for being human, but the Buddhists give you infinite replays." I usually like to be accurate when I plagiarize, but under the circumstances I'll make an exception. Thanks 070530 ... unhinged sorry dude stupidfucking_sinusinfection and being here for a long time i couldn't even begin to quote myself for the most part i just think it's cool that you want to plaigarize me 070530 ... u24 re: religonvsphilosophyvssexvsartvslogicvschaos you think there are things that make humans unique? if there are, is it not merely because we grew the fastest? to become human, do other life forms not simply have to accelerate? is there something that of necessity sets us apart from humans? I'm asking you on here instead of in-blathe to attempt to avoid a hijacking. hopefully the sanctity of an ask_ page will be respected. 080514 ... u24 "is there something that of necessity sets us apart from humans? " haha. what a mistake to make. I meant: is there something that of necessity sets other life forms apart from humans? 080514 ... dafremen Do you believe that animals have souls? 080514 ... florescent light do you believe that ants have souls? if so, will they go to hell for stealing from my picnic basket? what about plants? and roaches? are there roaches in heaven? please let me know so I may know to request a can of Raid at my funeral 080514 ... unhinged my view on these things is slowly becoming complete, cultivated. sentience is the measure of a soul. so the more sentient something is, the bigger the soul it embodies. (does that make sense) so ants and cockroaches for instance, have minimal sentience so they have minimal 'soul' but they still do have something that is worthy of respect. i try really hard not to kill bugs, but with roaches that is especially difficult. there is something innately creepy about them. animals have souls. of course they do, which is why i don't eat them (a vast majority of the time; i still have a weakness for sea bugs especially if someone else is paying for them). if you've ever played or hung out with a cat, it's pretty obvious that there's something in there close to our own intelligence. i'll have to get back to you though u24. my brain is mushy from teaching hungover. 080514 ... unhinged so i guess in my definition plants don't have souls. people argue with me about this pretty regularly because i'm a vegetarian. but really, we need to eat. i mean if i don't want to eat animals what else am i supposed to eat? food should have more respect in any case. but that really doesn't have anything to do with any of the current questions on this page. in the cosmology i've adopted in the past decade, cockroaches can't find their way to heaven til they've climbed a little farther up the ladder of incarnation, so you don't have to worry about that sheryl. i do think there are a few important things that make humans unique from other animals. faith and the sentience/intelligence to realize that faith are the unique traits of humans. our ability to exist at a higher level beyond survival sets us apart from our genetic cousins, quadripeds, bugs, fish. (but every being should be respected in their own struggle for survival) and also, but that is not to say that most humans use their ability to live on a higher level than survival. some of us are not able to do that for reasons beyond our control. which it is the job of those of us that are, to help those of us that can't. i believe in the mystical. i think there is some other reason beyond evolution and physical, scientific growth that our species exists. i have never been able to only accept evolution as a reason for human existence. there is some other reason why millions of years ago monkeys began to walk upright leading to our faith, our science, our understanding and intelligence and our willful denial of the truth of our actions. there are things in our reality that science can not explain fully, which is why billions of people still turn to religion. when i was younger, i believed more solidly in the foundational truth of science. the catholic god i grew up with made no sense. but to fulfill the higher purpose of a human life, i found religion really the only way to do that. i believe in things like the power of words, the influence of the planets in the universe over who we are and how we act. in full disclosure, my middle name is quite literally faith and my grandmother was a devout catholic who showed me the positive power of faith. so i have spent my adult life seeking a faith that satisfied the mystical and logical parts of my brain. like many profound movements in human thought, the industrial enlightenment failed us in a way that is only now becoming apparent. capitalism, materialism, accumulation have allowed us the tools to elevate ourselves far above a preoccupation with survival but have only made us preoccupied with the means instead of the end. mental illness (maybe our heart's way of telling us what we are lacking) is more prevalent than ever. i DO believe quite strongly in the truth of karma and almost equally as strongly in the cycle of reincarnation. it is not simply a matter of beings accelerating towards humanness. our actions make us who we are. i feel like i haven't practiced and studied enough to fully articulate the truths i have discovered in my own process of faith. but the one thing i do know for sure is that the deterioration of the planet and more specifically human society comes from a blind belief in science that denies the human capability of faith and a higher purpose. we are all connected through the molecules that makes us. willful ignorance is the most destructive force on this planet. an open heart and an open mind is the best religion no matter the specifics that each of us might use to get there. 080515 ... .. .. 090119 ... unhinged wow it's like a condensed growing_up chronicle pour moi a la blather 090120 what's it to you? who go blather from