misstree Mahayana deprived... no currency to move forward on towards home train situations traumatized predicaments more often than not humanity double-dealing mangled and hemorrhaging on the footways [but not that day] [humanity was genuinely unmuddled and sustaining the footways] [you do not need it from me, to know] [but thank you anyhow] [for taking care] [of perhaps a lost angel] :: you never know, whom you have helped :: [thank you for your beautiful gesture & compassionate ways] 020316 ... Dafremen I wasn't sure that anyone had noticed the great care that I had taken to try and make it good for those that would take the time to read. Thank you so much for noticing, your praise was high praise to me because I have seen your children too and some were so precocious and touching that I have them cut-and pasted away in my poetry folder. Thanks again. Sometimes a sip of praise is what it takes to inspire us to continue our labors of love with as much love as we have to give. 021202 ... gwyllynne attention_misstree and maybe goats will be involved 030623 ... Dafremen dearest lovely tree i seem to have misplaced your email. i thought it was in my drafts folder. please help and send me that stuff again. so sorry chicklette yer bud, daf 030717 ... Dafremen dearest lovely tree, i am a moron. there it is. forget i said anything. sorry for the trouble, yer bud, daf 030717 ... misstree daf, you're quite obviously not a moron, you're simply suffering from reality's boredom. it has a nasty tendency to play hide and go seek with things, and electronic media are no exception. :) 030717 ... Dafremen MAybe yer right! Hell, I know yer right. MY watch'll do that to me all the time. I'll be looking for the little prick and he'll wait til I'm not looking then strap himself to my arm. 030717 ... User24 misstree@chaosmagic.com I have a website with chaosmagic.com. :) 030822 ... misstree w00t! what's the addie? 030822 ... unhinged i'm sorry :-/ 030822 ... misstree eh? 030822 ... ferret urine_bucket 030823 ... unhinged i felt the need to apologize for my post under that hating loathing page....i don't remember the exact name of it but i'm sure you can think what i mean. blah blah blah sometimes i feel like such an ass 030823 ... misstree i took no offense... it being a topic of emotion rather than logic, i especially respect others to their own thoughts... i actually am grateful for the opportunity to poke at my own brain and see what it had in it. :) 030823 ... User24 fractal.chaosmagic.com though I never update it now! if you go to www.project2501.plus.com, you'll (possibly) see some updates to the fractal site. :) 030825 ... sabbie you stand tall and are not afraid to leap on in or sit on back i admire your words and the thought[s] behind them thank you for sharing. 030826 ... Dafremen THE_FAREWELL Stay in touch lovely tree...shaker and breaker of chains. Daf 11:11 031002 ... User24 misstree, see dear_blather for my hopeless excuse as to why I've been rude enough to press you for questions on ask_use24, and not even bother answering you. :) 031005 ... misstree take your time, darlin', i've got some serious procrastination of the pineal gland over here as well, and i kinda see ask_use24 as an awesome friggin' chess game, where it's best to sit back and think about things before i go running my mouth (for once). and i have to say, it sounds very typically british of you to be apologizing so, especially as it should be blindingly obvious that i'm incredibly difficult to offend. :) 031005 ... User24 knew you'd understand. yes, the chess game analogy is good. see you around soon. 031006 ... misstree god, i've been pouring out so much brain meat lately, i think it's gone down to a thin dribble; gender over here, rawrness over there, pacifism versus lust in my real life (with disorganization and poverty doing a little dance on my cranium), art, politics, ask_use24, the book_of_eris... listen kids, i'm getting stretched and starting to write like crap and i can tell, so i may have to fade back for a bit and recollect myself. i'll still be about, and still posting to some degree, but if ya bait me and i don't bite, it's because i'm trying to put my teeth back in. and no worries, it's a good thing, i've never been one to complain about too much input, i'm just sayin' that i need to step back a bit to make sure i'm taking everything in rather than putting so much energy into reacting and responding and putting things back out. if ya wanna poke at me in private, this post links to the proper email addie. bombdiggity's been dead for years. god rest its funny-sounding soul. 031007 ... oldephebe misstree..what can i say that i already haven't said..one of the strongest brightest implacable voices I've ever encountered. What would it be like i wonder to rummage through your head..i wonder if i'd emerge with my sanity still intact. like asking to behold the hidden glory and then being indelibly marred by its sheer essence, mind jarring luminesence (sp) I'm still wending my way through your provocative words..haven't posted to them..sometimes its just wise to let something of beauty or power or brilliance just be and not mar it with my masturbatory mumbledegee..sooo..At least your paring back the prose gives me an oppurtunity to go through your posts without thinking I'm missing anything current. "and so he sheathed his chest in iron to boldly bear the brunt of the battle." okay so that little digression to greek antiquity just bubbled up out of the murk..just totally disregard. I'm like a blatherer with ADD or something. Gotta say though I'm still impressed by the continental breadth of your cognition. really..i feel like such a fraud sometimes..and please no need for encouragement..or anything blah..i seriously need another spiritual enema. So in the intervening interregnum of your pause in profundity..ah..i'll just catch up a little with some of your more eclectic estuaries peace.. 031007 ... oldephebe okay ..i'm getting closer to what i'm trying to say.. misstree..such a glorious mingling of diachotomies..one so at home in the river of chaos..and able to argue ferociously with a rabid rabbinical tenacity..the relative merits of her opinion, belief..etc...like someone weaned on a culture of talmudic disputation..and i by no means by my referances to rabbi's or the talmud intend any offense toward anyone of jewish or any other faith..or ethnicity..it just seemed appropriate to frame my sentiments in that metaphorical carraige..it just exudes or encapsulates more viscerally the meaning of my regard of mtree.. later ... 031007 ... User24 misstree, I just want to say thankyou for appearing and providing such rich stimulus for my little brain. ah. well, I guess I just did say it. :O 031013 ... pipedream because i don't want to delve into cliche, or streams of fancy-schmancy i'll just say this: you rock, girl :)) 031014 ... oldephebe mtree - gurl..just when i've got you pegged..as if anyone could peg you or place you in a box.. you go and say something that just rends my heart and adds another layer or one that i'd blithely discarded to this "idea" i have of you..you are truly remarkable..and there's no need to respond i just want to say what you wrote to endless on i_will_not_cry_in_school almost broke my heart it was so so so damned beautiful..so real..you know? well of course you know it emanated out of you..so anyway..if i did drink i'd love to just sit down with you (lite beer or a dicreet, subtle red wine for me) and a few other blather friends and just see what kind of incredible things would unfold out of us..you are intriguing..misstree to say the least.. ... 031017 ... misstree is drunk again heh... 'phebe, i hadn't seen that, and the red wine brought booze-filled tears...i don't know quite what to say at the moment, but i feel i should ahve some insight... i am a fickle, bitter, aggro person, how's that for truth... and add a bit of hypocirsiy (just because i think everyone has it doesn't mean i condone it), and slather with a large helping of 'tree is a fucking lush' and smear some truly self-absorbed, and you've got me. gloriousness, neh? yeah. a great pile of shit. bust out the sled, kids, the brown hill is ripe today. everything i say is a lie. including that statement. ignore me. it's for the best. 031105 ... oldephebe mtree - it's all good.. why do we spend so much time raking our souls over an open furnace? i wish there were like some hard-wiring in our souls meatus that would trigger a self-affirming sub-routine whenever we lower ourselves into that snarling hissing pit of self- denunciation or judgement.. whatever you gotta do..some soul enema or shear the shrubbery of the seven shakras..(it is 7 right?) i hope you'll be feeling better soon.. i won't presume to speak upon the authority of your wisdom over your own being..but as you know the body holds memories.. pain..the unhonored.. the unresolved .. whether i agree or not with everything you write .. you should know that your kind of distinctiveness is part of that sine se qua (sp) that indespensible element that makes blather so uniquely diverse..blather is so predisposed to truculence.. chorus of consensus..protean..peripatetic.. fluid and volatile like natively rendered Italian.. so..whenever i encounter a soul in pain.. i am wounded..really.. so yeah.. man if we cannot find worth in who and what we are and have then..man ..and sure i spin my own marathons of misery..retching upon my own reflection..so i really do hope you will be feeling better soon..and i'm saying this without judgement or irony. peace, 031105 ... Lemon_Soda I don't try to understand Misstree. I gave that up awhile ago. You are a source of happiness, however, and those true slivers of euphoria that press into my mind on occasion don't need to be understood to be enjoyed. Remember, you are who you think you are. 031105 ... time_warp it's her birthday today and she's gonna kill me when she sees that i told you 031202 ... Death of a Rose birthday? Well, m'lady, in need of some rampant carnage dancing? Happy Rending Day! 031202 ... p2 happy birthday to the sultry succubus of word_sex 031202 ... realistic optimist "would you let me walk down your street naked if i want to? can i fly fireworks on the fourth of every single july?" ... "'cuz you have seen some unbelieveable things." i'll drink some grape'sblood in honor of you this night. 031202 ... misstree thankee muchly darlings, your best wishes have broadened my cheshire_grin... today has been glorious so far, and i expect it to remain so well past midnight... and if anyone asks, for the record, i've decided that i'm finally tired of being 23, and i will allow myself to turn 24... i expect it'll be a few years before i turn 25, though, so this may be my last birthday for a while. ;) 031202 ... oE O redoubtable and mercurial one..will you partake with me this profane chalice choking with the essence swollen, pendulous grapes seared by a bachanalian flame? or how 'bout me just soberly projecting some really good kharmic thoughts your way? ... 031202 ... misstree sadly, my bacchanailian excess may by neccesity be without wine's ruby musk; but i will certainly sip a finely crafted martini (assuming one can be procured) in shared spirit, so to speak. :) 031202 ... oE oh yeah that's right you mentioned something like that before..carry on.. i've never had a martini and ah i pretty much avoid the hard stuff..i used to hang out with a drummer (jazz)back in the "Day" who was quite fond of Rob Roys..i don't think i ever drank more than one w/o getting a little drunk.. ...i wonder how ol' D is these days? 031202 ... u24 yo, have a drink on me :) 031202 ... oE heh heh..i just read that again"..bust out the sled kids, the brown hill is ripe today.." that was some funny s***..and yes the pun and the irony is not lost on me..but still..funny 031203 ... minnesota_chris I'm blathering from the coffee shop. I can't click on your list of blathers page... it says it contains inappropriate content! 031217 ... minnesota_chris for reasons of violence! 031217 ... u24 re: ask_use24 - hey, misstree, just a little check to make sure you're not avoiding me - no rushing intended. :) btw, fancy a christmas card? (no worries if not) 031220 ... misstree haven't been avoiding... if i'm not mistaken that</