unresolved
maenad
you
.
me
.
everything
.
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...
daf
I've
been
sitting
in
a
depressed
funk
for
a
week
and
a
half
now
.
Ever
since
the
most
recent
distraction
was
taken
away
,
the
reality
of
my
crimes
against
life
have
begun
to
set
in
.
It's
unbelievable
the
extent
of
the
damage
that's
been
done
by
something
as
simple
as
having
decided
to
do
nothing
.
This
lack
of
fire
is
killing
me
...
A
few
fortunate
souls
have
held
onto
their
faculties
long
enough
to
perhaps
recognize
the
energy
coming
off
of
this
reaction
.
That
is
the
horrified
desperation
of
a
person
who
finds
himself
staring
down
both
barrels
of
time
,
knowing
full
well
that
the
triggers
have
been
cocked.
Can't
move
.
Can't
just
stand
there
anymore
.
Action
is
the
word
of
the
day
for
the
rest
of
this
life
then
.
So
it
must
be
if
I'm
to
avoid
dying
unresolved.
I
don't
know
how
to
bring
myself
into
focus
..matching
action
to
belief
. Blending
thought
and
intuition
.
The
memory
of
how
is
fading
.
The
lessons
learned
are
being
obliterated
by
re
-immersion
in
a
monstrous
insanity
into
which
I
was
born
..and
have
always
been
.
I
am
ONE
these
babbling
mad
;
bouncing
against
the
walls
,
talking
to
ourselves
, bickering
with
shadows
that
are
not
there
..
071230
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
