jealousy morose No, it's happening again. I can't stop it and I know I'm gonna do something stupid. It will be one of those 'I'm watching myself and can't stop me' things I expect. Maybe I should lock myself in my room and never come out... 000120 ... snitch damn them both! ...well...damn her anyway! 000122 ... Matthew Is a cliff of emotion built on rage and envy. It is the sea of primal urge and the regret left from not acting quick enough. It teases your civilized mind that you tell yourself is so far above all of this, but in reality is still that of a child. 000621 ... MollyGoLightly he says that jesus killed his jealousy. well. if only jesus had been around when we were still seventeen. 000727 ... pink panther A horrably, mind twisting emotion... Jelousy gives you the power to hate and envy someone just because. It can get out of hand and turn into obsession. Identity crisis? Maybe so. Wishing you were someone else...? Jelousy can lead to murder, even. Damn... what a harsh word. 000912 ... Glory Box Jealous Sea. A sea of jealousy. A tiny boat rocking in the waves, a beautiful pea green boat. Who makes me jealous? Laura does. Lo. She makes me sweat. She threatens my pedestal of superiority. She's an equal, maybe even a superior. She smart, she's cool, she's witty, she's pretty, she's everything a girl needs to be, and she's better at everything. But, this jealousy is a stimulant, a chance for me to jump start my mind. She's the voice that convinces me to do that last little bit of homework at midnight on Sunday, she's the one who punches me in the arm and says "Come on. Get with it." She energizes me, and it's a friendly jealousy I feel, though, sometimes, I do feel the tips of my fingers turning just a little bit green. 001026 ... amy writhe me around a little, why don't you? 001108 ... Upset I hate the way it makes me feel inside its like a knot in my stomach. I want to trust my girlfriend, but my mind imagines her being unfaithful. When I talk with her about it she gets upset and I feel awful. JEALOUSY GO AWAY 010108 ... Quiggz It's all too human, just another reminder that, no matter how enlightened we think we are, we're still subject to our stupid primal emotions of hate and envy. Dammit, why do we have to be so human? 010108 ... unhinged i want to keep them all to myself. i know they will be happier this way. what will i do with my saturday nights when they are all big and famous and leave me stuck in y_town? 010108 ... silentbob if_she_only_knew if_he_only_knew maybe i should just stop thinking about it i wonder if i could have her if i only tried... or maybe if i acted like someone other than i am but i don't think its a personality issue i think its a superficiality issue 010108 ... FALLing into place I am jealous of her. does she have something with him that I will never have? this makes me jealous. because, in comparison...she is so right for him, they are so alike. but then I think..isn't it the differences that bring people close? because they learn from one another? It's a part of human nature, we are all bound to be jealous of something in which we do not personally have (a personality trait, for say) or is this envy? 010108 ... soph dont waste my time 010330 ... like rain. i hate the way you look at them. the way you put your hand on her shoulder made me want to scream. the way that no one has to tell me how you feel, because it's written all over your face. fucking lust. human fault. so was my love ever worth anything to you? 010428 ... Aimee burns through my veins. I know if she choses him, I'm gone. I love him, how could he love her? 010428 ... sweetheart of the song tra bong I love it because I always have it. Can't you feel my jungle green eyes slice through you? I am jealous of little things and I want to make you jealous. Aren't you yet? 010508 ... el fagtastico I can, baby. All the boys love Jenny. She eclipses it all, shining next to me at plastic lunch tables, walking over concrete through falling eucalyptus leaves that stick to sneakers. Her bright hair and har bracelets and her small hands. We does not exist with Jen. There is only she and I. . 010513 ... tara i am jealous of her because i want to be her, i envy her, i wish i had her life. and now, what i have learned, what i have so recently discovered, is that, is some incomprehensible way to me- SHE is jealous of me. 010515 ... Shugarhi I'm jealous of all the love at lunch for I know none of it is directed towards me... 010515 ... fanta I shouldn't care, but I like to have people to myself. It hurts to share sometimes. 010520 ... inferiority_complex today i realized that an old problem would return am i no longer the twinkle in your eye? i know its him... 010601 ... one last kiss tomorrow we can drive around this town, let the cops chase us around, the past is gone but something might be found to take its place. hey jealosy. 010913 ... gin blossoming red crested birdmad hey_jealousy 010913 ... aimee alright fine... I admit it. I'm jealous. Jealous of every other girl you've been with. Every other girl you've touched the way you touch me. Every other girl you ever said I love you to. I am jealous of them, but I also know that I am where you want to be now. I know that you are where I want to be. 010914 ... sphinxradio he said he gets jealous of the boy with money who drives a nice car to school. i decided not to tell him the things i get jealous of. 011231 ... kerry i feel it in my bones, my joints, burrowing in my mind and under my skin, and i'm ashamed, even if no one else knows it exists. 011231 ... ClairE "I'm so happy, I'm jealous of myself." Forget the puzzled faces and scratched heads. Jealousy can be playful. 011231 ... Toxic_Kisses festers like an over ripe zit on my dirty oily skin and to pop it would olny make it ooz and multiply 011231 ... hey now! i still say that you cannot be jealous of yourself. claire is weird. 011231 ... Mahayana: Zakah: yourself/myself= y/m y/m does *not* = constant variable ---------- i am not the same self i was the previous blather nor am i the same self i was at the beginning of this blather nor shall i be the same self i am through future: blathers seconds minutes days thoughts ponderings etc., etc., etc. ---------- y/m does = constant change therefor it *is* under my contentions that one could be jealous of a former self [unless your Buddhist, maybe U shouldnt] 020101 ... pushpins green vapor is steaming me out, i'm dancing in my envy. i'm trapped in jealous muck, but I like it because now I am justified. I can feel like I've been stomped on, taken advantage of, i can have my poetic pain. thankyou for the gift, i've been asking for it. 020103 ... CelticMistress something george didn't care enough to feel 020103 ... kelli crane is the root of all evil. 020115 ... kuru ...is nothing to be ashamed of. First of all, it's entirely natural. Part of your mammalian destiny, so to speak. Second, if nothing else it can be quite flattering for your significant other. It signals a passion and intensity beyond mere fondness. Granted, one shouldn't overdo this aspect. Third, it can be the impetus to extraordinary things: Art, poetry, or even – saints be praised – honest and meaningful conversation. I am a fan of constructive jealousy. 020115 ... Casey They all have dates and someone to be with. But they dont care about me or my feelings or even acknowlede me. fuck them 020115 ... Annie111 I find it strangely absent from my vector, currently. Having no jealousy is like finding out that ugly plant in your bathroom just died. I mean you never would have thrown it out normally. But now it's gone, you are strangely relieved. 020115 ... jim_starks i'm jealous of the simplest things. things i shouldn't be jealous of. i ended it, yet after hearing about tonight and what you wrote i got really jealous. there's something very wrong with me. 020428 ... sporkwielder so do tell me...what are you doing for your entertainment? 020428 ... pralines&cream jealousy consumes me sometimes It engulfs me often. I thought my jealousy would diminish when she cut her hair ... i'd always thought her hair was the key to her beauty. And then she cut it, but she was still beautiful, and still perfect and still everything better than I could ever be. I hate jealousy because it distracts me from what matters - school, friends, love, life - and makes me hate people I should love. I wish I had the power to control a tidal wave, but I don't. And it washes over me and drowns me in bitterness. 020428 ... shiva i would paste a picture of something bloody and severed here if i could. use your imagination. i want to do that to someone. 020430 ... Your Friendly Neighborhood Logan Sometimes it's best to be jealous of yourself... 020430 ... Mahayana i never really was a jealous person at all, it just wasnt part of my design... or so i thought, now that i am with someone whom is so eXtremely beautiful in everyway, i know people will always notice her outer attractiveness before her inner attractiveness... and to me this is unfortunate… for her most astonishing traits subsist within her, ... but still she is one of those beauties that will [always] always always be noticed, and im not use to it... quite yet, although i try to be... this is all so weird and wonderful for me... but i do the best i can & i remind myself that she loves me, that she wants to be with me, that we are planning a life together ... that we already have begun sometimes, its gonna be hard to not get jealous when others notice or when they stare at her, but perhaps i am more so disturbed about starring at myself, and this i think is the true issue ... [myself staring at myself], and even if for one second distressing that someday i might not be good enough for someone as remarkable as she is ... but i can not live a life in the [here and now of it all]- i can not enjoy these moments i have with her- if i am too busy worrying about tomorrow... we really never do know how much time we have with our loved ones here in life ... and i intend to make the best of my time ... cuz no matter how much time ill be blessed with, it shall never ever be enough to be with her and that ... is the truth of it all [final thoughts]:i used to for ever and a day desire to be beautiful on the outside, to have individuals drawn to me, but the more i have deliberations about it, and the more i have seen through the years, i am appreciative that i am not... no-one has it easier than others, we all just have it in a different way in life, and i most certainly do not want others paying attention to me, if even only slightly just because of the way i look, id rather have few people interested in me & know it is genuine than to have a whole plethora of admirers of my flesh, this is why i am thankful that i do not have external loveliness, i have never been mislead, .....*thinking*... you know what i just realized that sort of troubles me inside when people are all caught up on the way that the one I am with looks, yes i think it is nice to