marijuana
MaryJane 2 a.m. last night, first time id been home all week. i sat at my computer in my usual tech geek fashion, still wearing the clothes id worn all week, red dye stains on my beater and skirt, my boots streaked with rain and still caked with mud from the wretched weather.
amadeo climbed in my bedroom window, crying. he only calmed down enough to talk after smoking a bowl.
he looked at me: monique's gone.
(he loved her more than i think anyone could ever love anything.)
i arched my eyebrow: gone?
he lowered his eyes: yeah. they sent her to her aunt's house.
he shook his head and cried again.
i hugged him: im sorry.
he sniffled: its not your fault.
i shifted: you can stay here.
he nodded: i will.
so we fell asleep in a huddled mess on the floor. sunlight flooded the room and hit his face, waking him up and bringing him back to his usual smiling self for an hour or so before he remembered why he was sleeping on my floor.
001104
...
jojo fun 001209
...
chrs my mate puking on my floor after smoking a veeerry strong joint of bud - white willow - at a party. it was not a pretty sight.

Also Reading festival, hash and weed all weekend. It was a very good weekend.
001212
...
Colleen good stuff 010121
...
unhinged was sure working against me last night....geez. i've never seen anyone that wigged out from weed and it scared the shit out of me.

"dank?....why would i want to smoke something that rhymed with skank?"
010121
...
j_blue anybody heard of poodle_with_a_mohawk ? 010122
...
Morelen I dont know, why would you want to smoke anything named after a hairy animal? 010124
...
j_blue cuz its cutsee 010125
...
Stephen what were we talking about? 010126
...
unhinged WEED....we were talking about weed
amatuers

(please excuse anything i say right now because i know when i wake up tomorrow i'm going to be in A LOT of pain from the accident.)
010126
...
... i dont smoke it anymore. 010127
...
jennifer elvis
dank, schwag, spoofer, nug
chronic (R.I.P.)
pages from the book of chronicles
respect the O
hunka hunka burning love
zong
puff puff give reverand mother
references!
pass it to the left, yo
iridescent phoenix
010127
...
little blond who thinks too much one hell of a lot less impressive than i thought it'd be.quite a letdown, actually, after all the wonderful things i'd heard. pass the vodka, please.I'd much rather drink myself into oblivion than smoke a doob and giggle like a smurf. 010318
...
mikey smoking a doob doesnt give you hangovers. ive gotten drunk many times it gets old and boring. 010318
...
monadh is simply wonderful 010319
...
cozmo the danimal... an unusual animal...
he and cozmo on the go...
its like the sink settings and your jaw muscles and your legs at a 90 degree angle...
and the inch big monkies...
...but when you talk... its like eating dohnuts..
but we're all just a cheeze pancake in the woods..
it as skinny as a pencil!
010319
...
retartedkidnameddamian creativity?

pleasure?
010325
...
MexPanther i've gotten people into it, solely because i love it 010325
...
retartedkidnameddamian the forbidden fruit 010326
...
retartedkidnameddamian i know this mexican kid who smoked marijuana once. crazy kid. 010327
...
dizzy it'd been said many moons ago (to paraphrase) that jazz "was born with alcohol, grew up on marijuana, and will die with heroin."

anyone wanna jam?
010402
...
uhhh i didn't get high today b/c davids a fucking asshole!!! 010402
...
jennifer man made beer
god made weed
who do you trust?
010402
...
crazyenglishman ...me .. usually the chemist. 010403
...
as omg i need some.... my suplier can't get me ne for like another week (i've already been 2 weeks w/ out ne)... i feel like i'm goin to freak. AAAHHHHH 010405
...
volvap subject experiencing withdrawal, accompanied with periods of anxiety, although still possessing basic motor skills required to post blatherings... 010405
...
devotchka i could really go for some right now 010405
...
Tybay is fun until you stop
then it works its magic on your mind

ouch
010506
...
Lyle McMahon marajuana has lost all my friends for me. i dont even need to do any of the work because it does it for me. i sit here, clean and smart, and all the people are methodically exterminated around me. they drop dead and i will soon too. if i ever stop running. 010506
...
nemo marijuana is wonderful 010605
...
pitiful Marijuana helps me forget yesterday's mistakes, and the tomarrows i await to fuck up.
my todays are always scorched with a coat of depression.
Marijuana is another artificial happiness.
that i am bound to forget
010605
...
*Ziima* If everyone would smoke a bowl, there would be no war or murder. Everything would be pink and happy with Puff the Magick Dragon as our king...Smoke some Mary Jane, rid yourself of pain. I cant believe such a wonderful thing is illegal everywhere. Thats government for you. Heaven forbid we be happy and free. 010612
...
black-dyed gel product In the park, having a few laughs... good times... 010612
...
kinkazoid i think marijuana is kinda stupid, i used to do it all the time and now i think its dumb, im not a hypocrit(sp?) cuz i dont care if people do it but im not gonna do it anymore, not worth it, everytime i get high i want to get out of it cuz i cant think straight and i forget what people say and stuff. 010612
...
inferiority_complex when i do it, i become happy, and the whispers go further away from me

i know its a time hole, but it beats being bored
010613
...
burden 6/13/01 = my first time

I didn't do a lot, only three little sucks from a bowl. I think I did it wrong, anyway. 6/17 was a different story. I had 7 or 8 big, crazy puffs from a homemade bowl. Me, with little tolerance. I was gone. I didn't like it. I don't want to do it again. But I do.
010618
...
yoink i don't plan on it again. but i do plan on it again. who knows? i'll just wait til i'm in rome. 010618
...
kinkazoid i know before i said i wasnt a hypocrite and i still cant spell it, but im going to start to be one...here's my story...
ok, i have this boyfriend and i wouldnt have a boyfriend that smokes marijuana cuz i've had very bad experiences with it, and i just dont want one, well this boyfriend did smoke marijuana before but hasnt for a long time, i made sure he didnt before i started dating him, well he told me that he is going to his friends on friday and he is going to smoke some dope...i told him that if he does then im gonna hafta break up with him, and he said "so were breaking up on friday then?" so obviously he is going to smoke it no matter what...
my question to you is... how do i get him to not smoke the dope?
010618
...
pat sajaks ghost fuck. seeds and stems. 010618
...
burden 6/21 = again 010622
...
DannyH I say let him smoke the dope, most people are fine with it and if its something he really wants to do he'll just resent you for stopping him. If you're serious that its an absolute relationship killer then you've got to be true to your word and split up with him. Otherwise you're just using emotional blackmail. 010622
...
burden 6/22 = and again.

Sometimes I scare myself.
010624
...
burden Magnus. He's no good. 010624
...
black-dyed gel product shmokety shmoked up yesterday with the 911 bowl. had lots of skittles afterwards 010624
...
yoink mmm...graduation parties have taken on a new dimension 010707
...
yoink take that, bitch shit! 010707
...
...lmnop... I am not a huge pot smoker (7-8 times in the last 3 weeks) ne way, i liked it a lot. It sure beats being bored, especially where i live. I dont see why it is illegal. it is non addictive, you arent as impared as alchohol (at least not 4 me after smoking 1 supreme fatty and 1/2 of a regular one, cuz i crossed a REALLY REALLY busy intersection on foot to get some lunchables) and it is just plain fun. I mean come on, i dont do drugs, or smoke cigarettes that is just bad, but smokin a doobie every once and a while to "Smash the Silence" Aka boredom, isnt bad is it? 010708
...
...lmnop... OOPs. for got to say that the fatties i smoked were 1 hit and quit, quite potent. 010708
...
burden 7/8 = in my house.

I have it. The canister reeks. But it's a good stench.
010709
...
izzi something my mom was heavily into. yeah, she was a hippie. 010714
...
yoink lots of smoking buddies were discovered this week. 010714
...
Photophobe Its all Alan's fault, with that big grin and final ginat spliff. ow he leant me the presence of mind to find the papaers I don't know. How I FOUND papers I don't know. Probably just knocked on people's doors till I found some.

So the next morning (really only about 2 hours after I went to sleep) I'm standing there amidst all the smiling faces and the flashes as everyone says their teary farewell. I should be taking photos and getting contact details and answering the questions that people are asking me. But all I can do is stare at a paper cup and try to remember how to fill it up.
the problem is, I know that I need either a tap, or a bottle, but I have neither.

This boggles me for a while until Michelle Gubanyi rescues me, and gets me to tell her I want a drink. She guides me to the coke and holds the cup so I can pour... REALLY SLOWLY.

Somehow I get on the bus and don't leave anything behind.

A little while later I emerge somewhat and amnage to hold a normal conversation.
010714
...
burden 7/14-7/15

The odyssey continues. I couldn't find the right cupboard. I drove, but then he didn't let me. Try talking to your parents like this.
010715
...
yoink FUCKING WISDOM TEETH!!!!!
GET THE HELL OUT OF ME!
010715
...
yoink i like Jimmy Carter. he is da man! 010722
...
Norm I like this. I don't even need to drink. I don't hurt my self with this. It's different. I like it. Cause its different. 010826
...
j_blue pleasance in spite of boredom...

hm
010922
...
mmm yeah burden, its fun talking to parents when baked... i almost fell out of my chair about 12 times in 5 minutes.. i think they knew what was goin on and didn't say anything because it was funny to them. 010922
...
unhinged just make it go away
just make it go away
just make it go away
just make it go away
just make it go away
just make it go away
just make it go away
just make it go away
just make it go away
just make it go away
010923
...
thedunator I hate the shit 010923
...
burden I miss it, like a ball that's gone down the sewer, or a funny kid you knew in third grade. I gave it up for her. If I have to choose, I choose her, but why should I have to choose? It's not like she even asked me to stop (well, at least directly). I haven't been at all as creative recently.

I think I know why.
010923
...
lost it's taken my mind off of things quite a few times befor. i would much rather take pills now, but i will smoke out when i get the chance. in other words i smoke other peoples weed. i dont buy it anymore. 010924
...
Chiller all i ever smoke is Northern Lights...

but to tell you the truth, weed is a total waste. those who smoke, love it. but they don't know how to hate it. and vise versa. i'm glad i've been able to cut down and smoke a lot less of it. but that goes for the rest of the drugs in the book. moderation is the key...

marijuana isn't bad!!!!!

yet it's not for everyone...

who is it for?....

you know who you are, and lets just leave it at that...

enough said, time to roll another joint yO~!... ~~~see you around~~~
011124
...
roomite i used to love smoking. i quit finally because my woman said it put me in a different space from her and threatened to leave.

it's all a matter of rearranging your priorities occasionally...
011124
...
Subterranean Visions my head finally quit hurting from smoking on thanksgiving. now to buy a quarter.... 011125
...
unhinged she said she's never seen anyone on marijuana. something about holes in the brain.... 011125
...
jestification all the girls are telling the boys to stop.

i can only tell myself to go.
011204
...
no a little bit of oobu joobu in the morning or daytime never did anybody any harm 020112
...
unhinged i don't get her sometimes

she made him stop smoking pot when they were going out. he really resented her for it i think. and people don't get it; it's not so much that he missed the pot but that someone would put a condition like that on a relationship: "if you keep doing that then you can't be with me" well guess what, me doing that is part of who i am. i'm sure there are plenty of people out there who don't smoke dope that you can get along with just fine. but it's even more funny when you think about it that she was the one that gave me my first and only bowl. she wanted to get rid of it; said it didn't do anything for her. said she despised it. so she gives it to me...i don't really see the sense in that. *shrugs* and then she tries to tell me that the reason she stopped calling me is because she knew i had been smoking a lot and didn't want to rain on my parade...uuhh duh. the reason i was smoking a lot was because she among other people had stopped calling me. pretty much everyone had stopped calling me in fact and i was lonely. marijuana can make you happy when nothing else looks worth it. hence me being self_medicated. weed is really the best anti-depressant i can think of. sure it blows your short term memory but it doesn't give you a frontal_lobotomy like pills do. so she doesn't want the people she hangs out with smoking pot....then why when all i needed out of her was a hug did she call sam up so i could get high?
020112
...
mo0sE God damn man THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH GANJ WATCH HALF BAKED EVERY1!!!!!! it aint a drug people suck dick for coke and smack etc WOULD U SUCK DICK FOR MARIJUANA no i dont tink s0.......
its fucking harmless this is a pretty cool site need some like nu metal music and stuff to go over the back of it that be cool oh yeah every1 go to the SYSTEM OF A DOWN GIG IN MARCH AT THE BRIXTON ACADEMY ITS GONNA BE FUCKIN'A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GET SOME...
020127
...
Syrope i feel sorry for people who have mental imbalances and have to take drugs every day just to be able to walk out into the world and lift their eyelids, so it is just unfathomable to me that people would CHOOSE to give up reality like that...so cowardly...retreating into a cloud of smoke. My life sucks just as much as the next kid's, but the way I dealt with it was by confiding in my boyfriend and knowing that he loved me. Then he started smoking pot again. I was his reality just as he was mine, but obviously I wasn't good enough for him. Months and months of "I'll get help...I'll stop" and then over and over he would go back to it...His pothead friends wouldn't let him back down...I couldn't take it! I watched dope ruin my half-brother's life, and I wasn't about to stick around for more of THAT hurt. Then all of a sudden I'm the bitch for hampering his good time. Maybe I'm jealous - he had some escape and I didn't, but I'll never put crap like that into my body. He can't remember anything anymore, he doesn't know how to tell me how his day was because his life is just slinking from one bowl to another. It makes me sick. I broke up with him, and now I have nothing. All because he couldn't deal. God I hate him... 020202
...
Syrope but I miss him, too... 020202
...
the bearstone smoke the pope 020310
...
Bearstone some of the hardcore drugs will definatly make you insane and stupid , i know, been there in the five hit acid night where nothing in this world can possibly make sense and the 15 hour hallucinations have overwhelmed your senses to a point that 3 hopurs pass like ten minutes. houses turn into monster and friends turn into angels. all the mesc, acid, lsd, and x have had their dates set with me as their puppets. i had to stop listening to pink floyd entirely becuase of those unforgettable nights. but as for pot , really give me a break , its the equivalent of alchohal, therefor if you are an alchohalic you have a problem abusing that substance as if you cant handle pot or so much as say your "addicted" to it then you probably shouldnt do it. but if you can like i can then sure why not make it a daily ritual in your life if thats what gets you by the day to day grind . i'll never put it down unless it does start to effect my life to a point where i dont want to function or i start to become a dumbass. it all boils down to basically if your an idiot you probably shouldnt smoke pot habitualy..it will make you only dumber...but for us who are naturally smart..we'll laugh our asses off till the day we die. 020310
...
good people fuckin' a, i need some money. i am fucking out of bud...
this weekend, though, we went to gillian's house. she has a NICE fucking hookah.... oh my god, i died. that was fun.
020310
...
little wonder i enjoy alcohol a lot more 020310
...
schroedinger bittersweet green buds
so beautiful and crystalline
I saw them there for the last time
glowing red like the sun
my consciousness streaming
spiraling toward the light
the wonders of enlightenment
then darkness
nothing

one last dance
one last time to feel
nevermore
020324
...
burden nummy, nummy, nummy. my tolerance is back to a toddlerlike level, and I'm gonna whiz all over it tonight. they don't get back until Thursday night. they have roller coasters, but I can still soar. or something. 020806
...
jusslissen2me Weed isnt bad. It's not all good. Cigarrettes are bad, Alcohol is bad. Flip a ciggarrette box over and read what it says. It has a Sergeon General message. BUt if you flip a dime bag of weed, it dont say all that.

When you are driving under the infuence of drinking, you swirve and the road is swirvy-looking. But when you, high you become the road.

My point is, weed aint bad.
020807
...
qazual i set goals for myself.. one of them is to smoke in every state.. 021111
...
dankman the alcohol has taken its toll
i guess its time to smoke a bol
today's the day i begin to dread
because my stash is in the red
i made some calls and put out some feelers
most my good friends are also dealers
im filling with fits and filling with frights
damn, if i could just get some northern lights
there's the phone, i hope it's Manny
sweet! he just scored with some red hair Afghani
so for now i must say goodbye, so long
cuz it's time to pack the fucking bong!
021111
...
ever because you sometimes have to just go with the flow:

smoke a little weed:

the flow moves in motiton:

i never did a single thing that did a single thing to the world:
021126
...
night very exciting... i'm high right now actually. i remember when i though beer was the only thing "illegal" thing i would do. now i have alcohol (although i still drink some). with pot you don't have hang-overs, you can still drive (carefully if you haven't had a lot), and you can hide it from your parents much easier. 030220
...
megabyte I use it to wake myself up
I use it to put myself to sleep
I use it to get some ideas
I use it to pass the time
I use it to make myself feel good

I started smoking in High School with a few of my buddies, they all have quit it now. I thought they were stupid.

Now, I am stupid. But I don't care because I am just going to pack another bowl.

My friends don't talk to me anymore.

Every day I get a new auditory hallucination inside my head.
Things like "You are ugly" "You are gay" "We don't like you" are repeated inside my head all the time. It makes me sad.

The voices inside my head used to only say things when I was under the influence of this precious plant. Now I have to smoke just to make them go away.

I know I am depressed, I just wish I knew what I was depressed about. Maybe if I smoke another bowl I will remember.

Im lazy
Im tired
Im sad
Im slow

It is a-motivational
I don't wanna do anything except smoke

Im afraid that if I quit, the voices will take control. I am already too self concious about everything that I do.


I am just glad that this stuff is not expensive, because I would surely be poor.
030221
...
the Hermit i had to quit.my lung collapsed.i can eat it now but it is not the same,too heavy,makes me slow and sleepy not light like when i could smoke it.i miss it like hell,feels like i lost a lover.cant make music or do my computer art.maybe oneday i hope. 030805
...
zmo my dad smokes marijuana 030805
...
zmo i wish he wouldnt 030805
...
the Hermit OK so maybe im over reacting,just withdrawls.Sorry about your dad
zmo,smoking anything is bad for your health.
030806
...
User24 marijuana is good as long as you do it for the effects, not to escape from something, doing it because it's a nice feeling, becuase you enjoy the giggles, have fun looking at werid patterns, become fascinated in the intricate patterns on normally dull objects is fine, doing it to escape reality, to go to a special place where, for once, everything is ok, doing it to ignore your pain for a few hours is not good, sure it works, but believe me, your problems are still there, festering in some corner of your mind, and one day, they'll jump up and smack you so hard....

beware.





on an entirely different note (same topic) can someone give me a list of:

street names and what they mean, ie:
draw=weed in resin form
hash=greenery
etc.

and also a list of types of marijuana and usual effects, eg those found at http://hsmurf.virtualave.net/plant.htm
030913
...
who i am doesnt matter anymore it isnt a huge deal till u cant go a day without it. my boyfriend, went way downhill and acted like a crack addict if he didnt have weed. its all he thought about, talked about and wanted. and after a while a person like that can get annoying. he got locked up for it, lost his job for it, got lazy with it, tried other drugs lookin for a better high. yea...its not harmful right? so now he takes piss tests every week, now he takes drug classes, now he cant smoke. and now hes the guy i always knew he could be. he found a great job to support himself, his additude it beautiful, hes not lazy anymore..hes more fun to be around, and hes not pissed off all. he said he smoked "to get rid of his stress" when it looked like its what caused it because now without it, he appears to be more happy, and accepts things better.
just learn your limit. dont let it ruin your life. yea i smoke every now and then, but its not a priority. i dont go out lookin for it. i dont need it. and i could care less if i ever had another chance to smoke.
031022
...
suzi my boyfriend smokes pot hes been smoking since he was 12 years old hes 17 now, i love him but i know ne won't ever quit i can't imagin him quiting. it hurts me because i would think if he loved me he could stop. im just saying to anyone don't go out with someone who smokes weed because you will just end up hurting yourself. I thought that i could change him but i only ended up changing myself, i smoke now.and i hate the world more than ever. 031114
...
lovely times so there we were, smokin and tokin. and sam comes and spits his libary sperm into mr. peenie. and emery's there eating it. good times. especially in the fridge. 031130
...
Molly the original name for mr. peenie is, and always will be, Skanko the Cat. 031203
...
< < < blakmind > > > a place where things stand still. no place to be, not even to chill, or to kill the time of this worlds androgynous past times.we sing the songs of liberation wit weed in or lungs spitting racial slurs in our own native tounges. we watchin like the almighty big brotha times 10 keep that mufuka posted on CNN. m a r i j uana is a place like me get low take control and i on me.. because i plan to be next _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ... blakmind ... _ 031210
...
StonerPotHeadGuy I smoke about as much weed as Snoop Dogg and I can still teach College graduates! I must not be smokin the right stuff, I soooo want to be retarded... 040110
...
realistic optimist wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 040110
...
girl_jane Tonight. 040126
...
jenny enny dots is a wonderful thing in moderation. and I would take it over booze any day. but I will never ever ever eat it in a brownie or other desert for that matter. you're supposed to eat sweets after you're stoned, not with. i ate a pot brownie at Hannukah party of all things (I have weird friends). i thought i was going to go to sleep and never wake up and it was so scary. everything i saw seemed so unreal. i like to maintain a very small grasp on reality, at the very least.... 040127
...
ambermoon i love smokin' cuz it helps me unwind after a long day. and it puts me to sleep.thank you Goddess for this lovely plant we call weed. 040217
...
tyler waters happy 4:20 from 2004
the weed was good
the times were high
040420
...
empty when you breath it in you can feel your very soul lifting up...when you exhale it comes back down and you're in a parallel world 040925
...
luvvy marijuana...precious is one of the best words to describe it 040926
...
unhinged my only consistent friend 040927
...
milo stoned right now - booya! 041227
...
nina stinky dirty hippies rock 050204
...
. _marihuana_ 050204
...
my oops marihuana 050204
...
h oo ps hide the hole of your disdain
with wither eye i wither to
the pace of which is few
is few?
they knew
to pace it down
to aftermath
before the time of funnyhats
upon the crowns of thorn-icates
be dashed upon
the lazy ape...
060328
...
three words i'd_really_like_some_drugs try_harder just_give_me_medicine 060329
...
Stripped. I love it.

It makes almost everything even more fun.
060729
...
Stripped. I love it.

It makes almost everything even more fun.
060729
...
Stripped. I love it.

It makes almost everything even more fun.
060729
...
CT phil, why dont you go and smoke a little half of a joint one night after a long day in work, just have a little, and go to bed, its sure healthier than those ppl that have wine b4 bed.

besides, as long as u dont abuse it, and u dont get hooked on the nicotine! (smoke pipes) u shudnt find it mess up ur life too much, if u cant handle it, dont use it, if u like it, use it occasionally :), or u could just get high everyday and hope for the best, just remember, u do have to eat fruit n veg now and again....
070329
...
mr song i only do it for some good times at parties.. i do it only for fun so i can get a few shits and giggles every now and again. i am not an addict. i only smoke out on special occasions like 420, by the camp fire when i'm out camping, my birthday, concerts, festivals (sometimes), ect. 070620
...
hoho are you Rude or something ! 070620
...
mr song rude? what does that have to do with anything? 070620
...
fghio fghio 101114
...
fghio fghio 101114
...
fghio fghio 101114
...
fghio fghio 101114
...
alignright valigntop> align=right valign=top 101114
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from