flooded unhinged all that water and no place to go i should pay more attention to nature's omens when north avenue opened up and swallowed an escalade i should have paid more attention 100722 and now the mississippi is swollen to historic levels tears stream down my face my heart is swollen it can't absorb them all i should have paid more attention 110517 ... unhinged (the magnitude of these things will only increase as we continue to destroy the planet unchecked) 160201 ... flowerock. emotionally_flooded Partially the state of my hormonal cycle and partially just several small to medium sized stresses built up and avalanching. It's harder too when it's not just internal or about me, but about the person I care most for and coming from them too. I don't communicate well in this state but silence is not often effective either and can be interpreted as apathy, so I try to speak well, but I don't succeed completely and that's not fun for anyone... I feel like a selfish asshole and an emotional child and he sees the same I'm sure... I'm sure too that he can see through to my real self and real meaning, but it's still not fun and I still don't have any solution but time_energy_love. Maybe I'm missing something obvious. I'm trying, I'll try more. It'll be alright, loventually. 160202 what's it to you? who go blather from