ask_werewolf werewolf feelin lucky? well...are ya punk? 020715 ... sabbie [im game to prod a stick through the bars...] dear werewolf what advice would you give a young girl on the dawn of her pubertiy about unsightly hair? love sabbie . 020715 ... werewolf well...being covered in fur myself i am of course sympathetic. this is only a concern when surrounded by others more smooth and beauty defining than yourself. of course, thing about being human is that on many levels our greatest instinct is to push at and tweak our reactions and appearance to suit the envoirment. so if you wanna go brazilian fine. however the ability to adapt goes both ways. it is my theory to this day that if women wanted to remain hairy, men would eventually accept it, and give in to those drives which they can't really tweak all too much. it's all the scabs crossing the line that ruin it. solidarity. but...my ultimate advice is, don't spend time thinking about unsightly hair, spend time avoiding people who react in ways that make you feel unsightly. especially when naked. if this person is yourself, you've got a journey ahead of you. at least you'll have unsightly hair to play with if your hands are too idle. 020715 ... werewolf and after all this is just the onset...it's only going to get worse, so you might as well make it better. 020715 ... werewolf unless that was unsatisfactory...next! 020716 ... yummychuckle might we make babies together sometime? I'm free on friday, I beleive. 020716 ... werewolf yes. just unlock this cage. why wait for the possible? i'll bare my teeth, you bare your soul. friday sounds good. i might even be able to stay. it's not a full moon is it? 020716 ... werewolf well...settled...next? 020717 ... sabbie ill_bare_my_teeth_you_bare_your_soul thats beautiful, werewolf. id offer up my flesh but the contract on it is already longer than me 020717 ... werewolf grrr...contracts are written in words. in the darkness, i cannot see the words, but i can still feel your skin. meditate on the difference between the medium and the message. and how they bleed into one another. and how we can blur them with a little bit of knowledge, a little bit of ignorance, and a little bit of motion. you sound like the tattooed lady. well we'll try to smudge you to a less trapped sordidness. 020718 ... werewolf next? 020719 ... squint Gimme all the reasons that your name is werewolf, cus I've only heard one or two. I mean, could you please give me the reasons? (proper question format) 020728 ... werewolf i identify with the tragic helplessness embodied in the character of larry talbot in the movie "wolfman" as well as identifying with the archetypal werewolf legend in the way the afflicted is at the mercy of a part of himself he has no access to in the person he is when he walks amongst people endearing them to himself all the while knowing somewhere in the back of his mind that there is something he must hide from them, something that will hurt them. he understands that he can only bring pain to those who grow close to him. the aspects of him that are the hunter are set at odds with the aspects of him that long for contact for closeness, tenderness and peace. of course these are exaggerated qualities, but they are present in all of us which is why such archetypes fascinate. i am not going to eat anyone, but i do howl at the moon. perhaps more than anything it is the uneasy feeling that an important part of who we are, a part that effects so many of the relationships we forge in good will under the assumption of unity, of completeness, is in the corner of our eyes, is in fact splintered and forging a constant battle for expression, and it is the majority of our personality who suffers the constant tugging of these unrepresentive impulses. these renegades of love, of anger, of genius. the gypsy in the film describes it perfectly..."the way you walk is thorny through no fault of your own, but as the rain falls to the soil as the river to the sea, so to do tears have a predetermined end, find peace in a moment my son" peace is the forgiveness the more central parts of ourselves find for their own instability. also i have very sharp canines. for further visions into my complex, view... sympathetic_monsters 020728 ... phil today 020729 ... werewolf this is not to say i buy into psychoanalytic theory, although freud did label one of the complexes the wolfman complex (a child who walked in on their parents having sex and could not form a model of sexuality that combined emotional tenderness and lust, sexual encounters were brutish and destroyed the very roles of respect and tenderness the relationship would require to continue.) freud's intrepretations while imaginative were baseless. His proofs were much like the witchhunts and spanish inquisition. if you admitted his truths you were well adjusted but if you denied it was cuz you were repressing it. I do not mean to say that this fascination with werewolfs is something about repressed aspects of me, but rather aspects of self i cannot voice in whole due to irreducibility or aspects that are unknown, though perhaps not unknowable. Unknown because in terms of the billions of operationsa mind is making all day even as we sleep, consciousness has a very low bandwidth that ignores or discards so much by neccessity. THis leads to us occasionally finding something within ourself which surprises us. Our consciousness likes to be surprised, this means it is looking had, or has found something of value, some topic it valued enough to set up expectations around. Sometimes however we discover frightening things. This tension, this unpredictability when dealing with valuable things on which life itself often depends, where predictability would be of most utility but is often hardest to achieve. Things which are valuable tend to involve more interactions than billiard balls. These issues i find in the werewolf. Where one gives up control to a wise blindness, while also realizing how high the possibility of danger is, how strained the trust we have in letting ourselves be expressed to fully is, how high the possibility of an action that contradicts what so many other of the personality's tendencies have worked so hard for. Nothing is predictable except for the rogue nature of this state, the agression present beyond it mattering whether it was learned or innate. 020729 ... sabbie werewolf, thanks for answering htatr question. when i hit puberty i'll be sure to take your advice on board. i have another question today, but first a prescence: werehumans 020829 ... sabbie and here it occurs to me to ask about real horror - horror in real life, those that escaped the port_arthur massicre, thats horror for them, but is watching a horror film then fake horror? as real as it may seem its still pretend? or is it if you get drawn into it then it is real, if only for the hour and a half you sit in the dark? do you go through the actions with the lead charater and therefore you experence it and therefore it is real horror? does that distinction even need to be made? does it matter if its 'real' or 'fake' as long as it produces the feelings? i have been reading lots of stuff about people reading/ watching horror itself, so im working on the fact that people enjoy horror, for whatever reason. if you enjoy it, is it horror? if your having fun is it horror? isnt horror supposed to be horrific? scarey? makes you uncomfortable? do you think its true that you can only have fun if your not actually scared? youve been in real life situations where inside youve been scared outta your brain? or absolutly horrified? or so fucking petrified and too afraid to move? thats horror isnt it? if youre enjoying yourself is it still real horror? 020829 ... werewolf we live in a world that is constantly horrific if we do not learn to cope with it, if we do not learn how to not pay attention to certain implications. we're like the girl in the horror movie who doesn't know to not go downstairs. but we have to be, because if we lived our life in such exhausting fear we'd break so quickly, we'd never move, because that way you described it is exact. one pauses as if their very movement could break the ice, could bring the knife down, could set off a chain of reactions that's final movement is only glimpsed, remains shadowy and yet formed enough to frighten. People go to horror movies for small victories over their fears, to engage in that moment of horror we will all inevitably face for real someday and to walk away. It is a test, a practice. But if we are not truly frightened, it isn't really horror. It isn't that we enjoy the experience. It's just that excitement and fear are confusing when the context is mixed. And you will rarely see a movie that doesn't highlight what it is about life that is enjoyable and is taken away. This is what supplies the horror. And the emotions we experience are constantly changing due to context, but the general level of engagement is high. We laugh, we're excited, and the fear elevates the stakes. We enjoy the film before and afterwards, this is why we voluntarily go. But in a true horror film, the blood runs cold, the theatre seeks to erase the distance between the screen and our pulse. We give into a what if scenario, what if this was my decision, what if this was my situation, what would i do. And the horror is not knowing. Afterwards we find that we've enjoyed it, we feel rewarded with a new strength and confidence in our ability to survive. This is in horror movies where their is a hero and survivors. But even in bleak horror films, the experience afterwards is of walking out into a bright day with those we have shared the experience with...or a dark night. The reason we really enjoy this all i think though...is that when we're feeling emotions that strongly, our body assumes we must be doing things important, since we are most strongly moved by things we value. It seems our body rewards us for taking risks and surviving, and for understanding what it is we can survive without going through it directly. And by feeling so starkly, we are triggering all the associations we have with those feelings, all of the things we do fear losing, all of the uneasiness and possibilities we do feel within us. We are in a way, indirectly confronting if not them, then their symptoms, and we are learning what these feelings can mean. So often we cannot find the source of our fears, and it is a pleasant exercise to see it directly in front of us in an ultimately safe context. It's like being in the care of a therapist or a doctor or a parent, our fears are allowed, are most disturbing images are allowed, our minds change, and all without physical pain. One need only look at the physical reactions of people shown horror films to see that the horror is real though. Pulses raise, palms sweat, eyes tear. If people laugh at a horror film, a horror film that isn't particularly effective, then this shows only that they enjoy showing what fears they've conquered. This enjoyment is usually even greater if they see that the movie still holds genuine fear for another. This comparison shows them they are heartier perhaps. But perhaps it also draws their attention to that they do not value the presumptions of life's worthwhileness that life and cliched horror movies depend on as much as other people. Perhaps they are not rewarded with the positive feelings because they do not risk as much as others, because they are not out doing things valued enough to have emotions attached to them, like loving and having ambitions. For them, perhaps a nihilist classic like "night of the living dead" will suffice. Because all that movie does is draw attention to the inherant horror in their situation. All that movie does is show them that as numb as they've gotten, as long as we're alive, there's always one ultimate moment of horror left. i hope that answers your question. it was a good question that deserves much thought, but on blather i like to just write at the very moment i'm there, rather than revise and present it as if someone depends on it's sterility. I much prefer it being dirty and horrific. On a personal note, the horror movies i enjoy the most are ones that did fill me with a horror. And the best kind of horrors aren't the quick scares, they're the slow lingering terrors. The terror the of wolfman's situation as we see the girl fall in love with him, as we see the knowing look the gypsy gives him. The terror of frankenstein's monster looking at his creator in the final scene of frankenstein. The end of cemetary man where their feeling of endless monotony is confirmed. The middle scenes of la dulce vida where we see the children's sleeping faces and the father tells the protagonist that in their sleeping face is frozen both heaven and hell. Seeing the camera pan up to the building with the police streamers and ambulances outside is a terrifying experience. The end of in the mouth of madness...which i won't spoil. Anyways...i could go on...i love horror movies. And the horrible in fiction and poetry is even more sublime, because of the way words can hinge from neutral to wonderful to horrifying based on what word follows them. There is a sense of palatable horror in each word when read with the emotional commitment we put into the real world. 020829 ... werewolf and of course you know...the most horrible thing is the unknown. it is also the most exciting and most promising thing. we are driven to it, because of all of the rewards it has given us in the past. we ask bigger questions, we love bigger loves, we die bigger deaths. or we shrink in fear. in a horror film we are confronted with the unknown, some allow us to conquer it. some show our inevitable succumbing to it. but all horror movies depend on the unknown, on the possible. fear and excitement are both forms of surprise. this was but is no longer an accident. 020829 ... werewolf this is perhaps what has allowed our ancestors to survive what other less well equipped would not even know were the horrors of the ancient world. The brutality, the chance. Perhaps they did not frighten others. And perhaps these others perished. Perhaps we learned from our fears, perhaps we learned that they would never go away. Perhaps horror movies are reminding us to never assume, since this was once so deadly a sin 020829 ... squint Did you get the CD yet? 020829 ... werewolf no no...i'm sending one! i just haven't had time yet! but no...i don't think i've gotten any cd. hmmm...anyways...probably this weekend i'll wrap it all up and send. i have two letters to mail to hawaii. my sis went there for college. oh well. but no...nothing received... 020829 ... nin do you fuck like an animal? 020830 ... werewolf i'm afraid you're going to have to be more specific. 020830 ... werewolf i don't fuck like a sparrow. definetly like a bonobo monkey. sometimes i do like a turkey vulture. like a bull sometimes (though i've broken no one's back yet...) any part of the entire animal kingdom has a bit to offer an eager open minded afficianado of the old ugly bumping. do bat's fantasize in radar pings? could a game of pong send a bat to bliss? yes like an animal. sometimes closer to god! of course, being human and being animal, really the distinction is that we can decide to do it like animals..and we can decide to pretend we aren't animals. and we can manage both, because we can contradict ourselves at multiple levels. sometimes i fuck like a lover and love like an animal. 020830 ... ~gez~ how do you make random words sound so good? 020830 ... squint oh. thats SO not good. You probably shouldn't expect anything in the mail, then...cus if it hasn't gotten to you yet it probably just...won't. but just so you know, it was a mix. and nothing_more. 020830 ... werewolf oh but it's always something more, when I'm listening to it. and when it's my night...and it becomes MY music. anyways...quit playing around. didn't we already discuss this? i've either been too harsh or too sensitive. never just enough of either. i think that needs to stop. if you want to help me fine. if not. quit messing around. this is how people get booboos. 020830 ... werewolf well, it's a delicate balance. words reach a certain level of contemplation in our minds where they only relate to each other, and not the outside world, where all but their own relationships are arbitrary. that is we know the word tree cannot be the same as the word ghost, but not that we could not name the thing we look at when we see a tree, a ghost. What must be done, is having already allowed for the degree of arbitrariness that will no doubt consume the mind of the person hearing your words, that is, allowing for them to make the associations they uniquely have with those words, you must strive to make your words as unarbitrary as possible, by surrounding them with words that open up the possibilities you had in mind. This of course involves the use of words that have a widely agreed on public domain. which is what language is. but some words are more agreed upon then others. hello for instance has probably the most definitively approximated but exactly void definition of all of our words. it is always a form of greeting, but it can be used in a variety of contexts. haha...this is such a load of bullshit. this is like the live take on some band where they're like..hold on hold on...i messed up, can i start over. okay, random words sounding nice: you have to use the word in a way that doesn't fit in with its traditional useage, but seems like it should. in that the new meaning found seems just as valid (one doesn't have to worry about the literal level with words, because they are always just anagalous or metaphorical). But trust me, on this site i am not the king or queen of random words. check out some of the cretins gourd of marsupial collateral or whatever those nice random words are, with a syntax we recognize as almost english, not due only to the words themselves but their juxtaposition with. okay i really can't do this right now. keep on the sunnyside 020830 ... ~gez~ advice taken 020830 ... werewolf since technically this is an ask me page, i'll address the question to myself....self...did you recently receive an eye opening present from an enigma in distant lands across the seas... checking checking checking yes yes i did 020831 ... squint are you sick of the feeling, yet? 020831 ... werewolf it's tiring. i wouldn't say sick though. i suppose this means you are. i say only, it's tiring, but what else is there? a blank earth? the sprint of a split atom? what? what else is there? if anything, the feeling means health, it's the other that's sickness. but sometimes it would seem a more peaceful sicknes right? so goes the cliche. well humanity's getting close to being able to try it out. i guess then i'll just have to go all on doing what others are disinterested in, that is, to try and make the accidental joys and sorrows purposeful. so i guess i'm one half of sick and tired. i'm sick of explaining. you explain to me. 020831 ... werewolf have yall run out of questions or have mall run out of answers? stir stir stir 021010 ... kss dear weirdwolf. what advice would you give to a young girl on the lawn of her puberty in a coleman folding chair? love despairingly .XP 021010 ... krimilda dear werewolf: why do we keep asking questions? why can't i answer my own questions? lots and lots of love 021010 ... werewolf dear kss, first of all, sometimes we want to tend to the grass of the lawn of puberty. but do not, i repeat, do not get carried away in a coleman folding chair. it will fall over, if it doesn't break first. so find yourself a nice sturdy chair. the lawn itself is fine to sit on if you don't mind getting wet. my more general suggestion though is to go completely wild and excercise your newfound power with reckless abandon. notice how people bow their heads sheepishly when if you scream at them. this is because, complicating and adding to whatever dynamics your personality has is the implicitly understood worth that you are a potential carrier of life. so scream at them often. have bad days. make people owe you for them. do it now so you don't have to do it later. you know, just see what's possible now while people can still shrug it off as a transition. let the manueverability our society gives the teenage in finding themselves go to your head if you feel like it. they also throw a lot of pressure at you. our hormones go crazy. this is the period of our lives where it doesn't feel like we're going to make it much farther, where we feel we must act now if we are ever to act at all. this reminds us of our primal existence, where anything past a certain age was a happy accident, and the bold were favored. in high school, even the shy are bold in their own shy way. they cling to their shyness like an identity, like a curse, but not like a resignation. so this stage of life is anything but calm. it is only afterwards when we say, i guess i can calm down now. i guess i don't have to understand everything to keep breathing. i suggest mainly lots of masturbation. oh and read the classic books, because there's more than can be read in a whole lifetime, but if you start now, you might at least hit a respectable number. did i say lots of masturbation? use astroglide too. oh and approach love without the knowledge entombed within these blue pages. it's one of those things that can't be learned vicariously. there's not been a stimulus like a romantic kiss in any of the rewards and punishments given pre puberty. oh sure parental love, but whatever. see what that means too right now, since it has something to do with society. and that's what you're going to be shoved into striding forwards and then slowing down untill somedays it seems like you're backpeddling. mostly though, enjoy yourself. i enjoy just thinking about girls in the throes of puberty...i mean...nevermind...i guess that's an issue i shouldn't of shared. also please dont' get obsessed with your boobs. and talk about your period often to male teachers, they really enjoy it. 021011 ... werewolf dear krimilda. everything asks questions. my only problem with it, is that we know we ask questions. none of us have all the information, so i guess the reason we keep asking questions is that there keeps being answers. as long as there are secrets people will whisper. as long as there are exclamation points, there will be question marks. and i'm not gonna jump off my roof, because with my luck i'd hit the ground, but a question like that is certainly an extreme one. most people don't ask extreme questions like that, they ask moderate ones. and they get moderate answers. and one key component of a moderate answer is that it is so specific, it has more questions. so i hope i gave you more questions. 021011 ... kss dear werewolf thanks for the thoughts. I liked the part about the grass being wet, which went along nicely with the masturbation/astroglide bit. I'm now going to give up any hope of getting some sleep tonight, and put some, uh, extended thought into these matters. next question. do girls want to get busy, or what? and if so, why can you just say "hey, all things considered, I'd really like to get busy with you, and we could work that other stuff out after?" thanks for your hard work and insight. 021011 ... krimilda dear werewolf: I have more questions for you, maybe moderate, maybe extreme, I don't know what you think... but for now they are only words without any order so the only thing to do is to wait for them to get tired of dancing inside my head so I can get them into theri proper place. Thanks for your answer. 021011 ... werewolf well kss...thing is, some girls do, some girls don't. some girls think that in order to get to tomorrow we must enjoy today, and others think that sometimes today has to be sacrificed. and it's kind of like this...you know how some places make you give a deposit so they know you're good for the payoff? it's like that. if they aren't into being used, having you write them love poetry makes you unable to use what they've given you in a wicked or dismissive way, since you'll get made fun of just as much for making fun of someone you wrote love poems to. also it shows them that the value isn't solely in what they offer, it has to be proven that while it is the drive, they're appreciated in a way beyond the coarse commonalities all women have. they offer you what they have on the condition that you have interest in all they want out of it as well. and this shouldn't be too much of a problem since just getting it on is never as fun as being surprised that things could get even better. 021011 ... sucamilk Enlightenment: being always at home. Me: never home. The enlightened man knows the answer and asks it. Me: I wrote this poem. Dear werewolf, is it possible to achieve that great vagueness Enlightenment if it is your explicitly intended goal (seems like you kinda gotta stumble across it)? 021011 ... jane dearest wolfie why am i so thirsty? should i get checked for diabetes? does that include drilling a hole into my spinal column? isn't that called a spinal tap? wasn't spinal tap a great movie? i could go on forever 030226 ... u24 are your many forms significant of anything beyond a formal change? or, in english, do you use different names for different reasons or on a whim? 041124 ... werewolf as stork daddy would say, that was a very formal use of formal. and to answer your question, yes i do use them for different reasons. i'm not entirely sure what the calculus is though. however, on a page like this it may approach the arbitrary as no matter what i feel like saying, i have to answer as werewolf. 041124 ... werewolf that's the implication anyways. 041124 ... u24 I may have been jumping to conclusions I had no right to, but I assumed there was no other formal change. smiles at the paradox(es) that would have been incurred had you not answered as werewolf.. 041125 what's it to you? who go blather from