broken deb i just broke the heart.... so sad, but i cannot take back how i feel... jwhitmire4: ok Arceaon: Bec? jwhitmire4: yep jwhitmire4: such a depressing day Arceaon: remember what you were going to say last time? jwhitmire4: not really Arceaon: want me to remind you? jwhitmire4: dare i ask Arceaon: yes? no Arceaon: ? jwhitmire4: sure Arceaon: jwhitmire4: what? do you want to come to my fucking weddin? Arceaon: well, i sorta planned on bein' there anyways.. but since ya put it that way.. jwhitmire4: i wasnt going to give that an answer, acutally jwhitmire4: just because my spedometer stops at 80 doesnt mean i stop at 80 jwhitmire4: says jen jwhitmire4: sorry Arceaon: that's great. jwhitmire4: well fuck you too Arceaon: no.. seems like that won't ever happen. jwhitmire4: no, it wont jwhitmire4: i want to burn something jwhitmire4: stupid clown. now i have to go back to therapy Arceaon: hey.. you're lucky, you get someone to help ya. jwhitmire4: what? Arceaon: therapy. jwhitmire4: help me slit my wrists? oh thats helpful Arceaon: someone to help with your problems. jwhitmire4: im sure thats what you meant Arceaon: don't even say that. jwhitmire4: that that that jwhitmire4: im just being mean tonight. because im just a penny whore jwhitmire4: says jen jwhitmire4: come here... http://blather.newdream.net/ Arceaon: what's that supposed to be/ Arceaon: ?* jwhitmire4: sanity is boring jwhitmire4: blather jwhitmire4: is jwhitmire4: life Arceaon: and lie is shitty. Arceaon: life. jwhitmire4: lies are shitty, you're so right jwhitmire4: monkey bastards Arceaon: Becca, I love you all that i am. and if you want Tre back, good for you. I won't lie and say "Be happy with him" cuz, i really want you to be hapy with me. Arceaon: since that won't happen, make the best of what you get. Arceaon: and i'll see what i can do with what i get. jwhitmire4: jen says she'll be your friend if youre gay. (dont mind her) Arceaon: you get a chance of seein' him soon..maybe.. it's not like you'll see me in the next few months. jwhitmire4: ::shakes her head:: you're making this sound like i'm doing this for some logical reason Arceaon: you are. jwhitmire4: oh, whats that? that you're you? jwhitmire4: how logical Arceaon: at least i got to hear your voice.. you said you loved me.. that was so nice... how will i ever feel that way again? Arceaon: don't know.. Arceaon: probably won't. jwhitmire4: ::shakes her head:: in a year you won't remember me Arceaon: BULLSHIT. Arceaon: i'll never forget you. jwhitmire4: ::shakes her head:: i dont believe that Arceaon: i can't forget people i lost weeks of sleep over. jwhitmire4: you will find someone who is so much better for you than i am and you will fall for her and never think of me again Arceaon: I Arceaon: DON'T Arceaon: WANT Arceaon: ANYONE Arceaon: ELSE/ Arceaon: ok? jwhitmire4: i get it Arceaon: you understand? jwhitmire4: i heard you jwhitmire4: i do Arceaon: good. jwhitmire4: but you dont seem to understand that i would never be as happy with anyone else as i would with tre jwhitmire4: he is my world. when i think of him i cant think of anything else and its not fair to keep you thinking all is well when i think like that Arceaon: ::breaks:: then be with him. Arceaon: go with him. Arceaon: you love him. jwhitmire4: i am so sorry, but i cant do anything BUT be with him jwhitmire4: i'll never be happy jwhitmire4: all those days when i was silent on the phone. Arceaon: yeah.. everyone has their own Fate. jwhitmire4: that was because i missed him jwhitmire4: all those days when i cried or wanted to slit my flesh so badly that i would never wake up again, even though you were there... jwhitmire4: that was because i needed him so badly and i couldnt have him and it broke me into pieces Arceaon: y'know.. I'm gonna leave now.. because this whole time i've known you.. you've just lied to me. jwhitmire4: i cant do this anymore and im not being very fair but i cant jwhitmire4: i never lied to you Arceaon: GoodBye REbecca. jwhitmire4: not once Arceaon: don't end this with a lie. Arceaon: I love you. Arceaon: goodnight. jwhitmire4: IM NOT FUCKING LYING im not lying jwhitmire4: i swear to god jwhitmire4: well fuck you too sweet even to the end, isnthe? now watch him end up dead in the morning... great therapy for myself, im sure 991208 ... deb god, how did that happen in the first place? word to the wise... don't RP.. some people think it turns to reality 000102 ... WALK...dont run I am 000106 ... universal cynic If something's broken there are usually two things to do, brake it some more in an act of random violence or make an attempt to fix it. I'll leave it to you to decide which is the most likely. (violence violence) 000114 ... kyvin he has no idea how i feel 000123 ... lotusflower "and i battered, broken, barely hoping remade token i would crawl back to you and say thanks i needed that it's been a while..." (jude) 000306 ... birdmad after being used, but before being thrown away 000414 ... starbug did u mean to distroy me? or was it merely a happy coincidence? 000520 ... MollyGoLightly better to brake than to wind up broken, i say.. 000520 ... emily sometimes i wonder if i was ever really a whole person, because all i can remember is the me that came after you left--the broken me 000530 ... silentbob He crys out her eyes a fire unfurnaced the curve of her spine is heaven unbound but heaven is harsh a fire unfaithful like a bird that you hold in your palm i know where you hang i drive by there often i spot on the surface the make of your friends heaven is harsh a fire unfaithful like a bird that you hold in your palm broken eyes in your head broken arms at your side broken burn on that string shake it till she sings and you realize the suffering by that broken baby wing and you shake her till she sings and you shake her till she sings he cries out her eyes as blue as her fingers the curve of her ass is unparalled heaven is harsh a fire ungrateful like the bird that you hold in your palm broken eyes in your head broken arms at your side broken burn on that string shake it till she sings and you realize the suffering by the broken baby wing and you shake her till she sings and you shake her till she sings 000616 ... grasshopper I am broken and battered weary and weepy sad and tragic restless and relentless hopefully and happy aimless and pointless determined but tired I will keep going 000619 ... birdmad like the Colossus of Rhodes who sleeps at the bottom of the harbor 000909 ... psycho insomniac Cold, blank stare; tear glazed eyes. I hang my head in shame at the very thought of speaking what was on my mind. My heart gags my throat and I look away from you, so ashamed... And I wait for your hand to thrust upon my pink cheeks. So I make sure my eyes are shut tight so no tears can escape. Because, if I don't, you will see my broken soul... and slap me again. 000926 ... guitar_freak Here I lie, broken on the floor I do not wish to go on anymore The bottle of pills is by my side I attempted to live, I really tried I can't go on I doubt I will see dawn Yet, there still is a fire burning This need for life is yearning The bottle rolls out of my hand And I look up to the sky I pray for better days They had better come soon What if my fire fades away? 001110 ... b0 fr0m my life y0u've taken me th0ugh happy i have been t0 my life y0u've given me s0 much it is a sin but n0w what have y0u d0ne t0 me y0u've stricken me fr0m grace fr0m heaven y0u have taken me n0w hell's my 0nly place this wasn't meant t0 be i sh0uld've killed y0u first h0w c0uld y0u break my heart i sh0uld've killed y0u first and n0w y0u have my inn0cence my G0d i'm g0nna burst i gave y0u everything i had why d0 i have t0 pay my life was y0urs and y0urs al0ne y0u threw that life away anger and h0stility are running thr0ugh my veins the bl00d that c0uld n0t heal my w0unds has filled my sheets with stains this wasn't meant t0 be i sh0uld've killed y0u first h0w c0uld y0u break my heart i sh0uld've killed y0u first and n0w y0u have my inn0cence my G0d i'm g0nna burst my s0ul is filled with misery my heart lies 0n the fl00r i see y0u laughing in my head y0u m0ther fucking wh0re 001218 ... Meara Broken...Broken heart, that is. He broke my heart. I really loved him, too. I spent months trying to fall out of love. And now he's back. I want to say no, ignore his e-mail, ignore his phone calls, and forget about him forever. My heart still isn't fixed from last time, and I don't want it broken again. But I still love him...Should I give him another chance? 010102 ... Budrozatva Someone broke my head It appearantly has been broken for some time How was I to know I thought everyone looked out through cracks I don't know when it happened I wasn't given the manual No one taught me how to use it I just been making do Then I stumbled on to the rough edges The fringes of the mind I had never been there before But I noticed that someone had broken my head Couldn't have been me For I have been trapped inside But now I have a way out 010124 ... 13lueee "my life is a pink floyd song...I am just another brick in the wall" 010324 ... katie now i'm fixed in a daze of complete oneness, never even knowing how to be incomplete 010505 ... David Mitchell Broken, our tie, time, rhyme rhythm and reason. Can nothing be all the same again? Broken, and I made her cry, and I made her cry, and I made her cry. 010524 ... daydream believer others sell their souls. mine is so damaged that i pay you to take it. for $33.50 twice a week, you sweep up the shards of my shattered soul. what will you do with the pieces? can you fix my broken soul? 010614 ... yoink It burns like a hellcat leaping from inside of me and tearing out my insides behind it. 010814 ... indust smashed up my purity, smashed up my sanity, smashed up whats left of me, i don't know what else to do 010914 ... Glory Box Oh, very seldom am I ever really broken. I just like to assume the role of wounded martyr, as the one that let you walk away. As the one that set you free, with a cracked smile and a broken heart. 011010 ... Sonya I can't even breathe now. Do you even know what you've done? So many things I believed in and hoped for are now just figments of my imagination. You told me to believe in you, to believe that you wouldn't hurt me, to believe that we are one and always will be. And so I listened to you and loved you and learned from you, only to allow you to break me physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. And I love you still. Does that even matter? My dreams, my heart, and the core of my being are broken. I fear they can only be repaired by the person who broke them...you. 011011 ... Inanna One side says broken The other side says fixed 011028 ... Mike It was broken before I got here. I found it in pieces on the parlor floor. I'm not a liar. My love is true. Deny it, and I will be left holding a broken heart. 011110 ... she trying to fix or change something, only guarantees and perpetuates its existence. 011216 ... ClairE It can always be broken one more time. Tinier pieces. 011216 ... calypso calling in order to love, we must be vulnerable... once we're vulnerable, we can be broken... once broken, i cemented my heart back together and put up walls of stone... i guess that's why i'm now alone and love has become so rare. 020104 ... Julie* But I've got a bad case of broken heart. and your the only one whos got the cure, and I can't live another day with out seeing you smile. 020327 ... Tiffa Oh, you've left me broken A tiny plaything on the floor Oh, you've left me broken Like so many times you've lied before. And what do I do now that there's nothing left to hold me up Spine to string to your tiny plaything Oh, you've left me broken stripped of all my sane defenses Oh, you've left me broken Visions shattered in my teary lenses. Nothing left for me to see and nothing left for me to say As every minute blood and tears drain away. 020501 ... lizardqueen the worlds a breeze the