brother dallas inter-locked forever and never quite seeing eye to eye. 991206 ... andrea i never knew i even had one until this past september. hadn't seen or heard from my dad in eleven years and then he showed up with a picture of a little boy who looks so much like me. one of these days, i'll meet him. i already love him. i just hope that he feels the same way about me...all seven years of him. 991222 ... grasshopper i have two older brothers. one i don't know. the other is wild. i love them both. have you seen either of them? they're both far away. 000430 ... unhinged i love my little brother. he is everything i wish i could have been at his age. he called me today at 1pm and woke me up and i was pissed at first but we ended up talking for an hour and a half. he is so wise beyond his 15 years. he is known as the "weirdo" in his group of friends because he listens to music that no one his age likes and has his own style of doing everything that almost seems unprecedented to me at someone his age and he just doesn't care. he hates "sell-out bitches" as he puts it cause at times he gets slightly ghetto being the lacrosse playing jock that he is. he realized that no one is truly an individual years before i did. but i think maybe that he is truly an individual or as close as any human being can be to that. my little brother was the only person that was there for me when i was so depressed i could have killed myself. we will always be connected together forever in love and comedy. i didn't mind talking to my little brother for an hour and a half even though he disturbed my marathon sleep because we know each other psychicly or something "you two are the kind of people that always crash into each other...cosmic. don't worry...you will see her again." saying that right as i was thinking it. he is going to be such a smart boy. a wonderful husband and father. i love him greatly even though he pisses me off when he won't get out of my bed. 001203 ... Barrett Frozen in the place I hide Not afraid to paint my sky Some say I've lost my mind Brother try and hope to find... You were always so far away Iknow that pain so don't you run away like you used to do Roses in a vase of white bloodied by the thorns beside The leaves are falling cause my hands is pulling them hard as I can you were always so far away I know that pain I won't run away like I used to do Pictures in a box I hone yellowing and green with mold So I can barely see your face wonder how that color tastes you were always so far away I know the way so don't you run away like you used to do (j. cantrell) 001203 ... ^^ he's my brother. no matter what he does or what i do he'll always be my brother. and i love him. that's a promise. 010510 ... .sunshine. i don't have many friends. none of them are true and none of them treat me quite right. except for my brother. i will be sad when he goes away. oh, i will be truly alone. ((and isn't he lucky to have the kind of sister who wouold wash his car for him?)) 010511 ... nocturnal will you be my sister and wash my car? that way you can have a brother and a sister. balance is always important...plus my car hasn't been washed in about a year. it's really getting bad. 010511 ... elisabeth becuase of you i have stayed strong, because of you i am still alive, becuase of your love. i am here today to see you graduate. Becuase you told me to keep faith you told me to hang in when everythign was down that i am here to smile at your graduation. thank you. you and your friends saved my life. i love all of you 010614 ... Casey He's six years old and currently sleeping on my lap. 010614 ... yummychuckle isaac has been really nice to me recently. he seems okay but... i keep thinking he's contemplating suicide. maybe because my mind just wants another imaginary problem. In any case I hope he doesn't die like he did in my dream last night. 010624 ... sykoze interstellar messages rampant in the bathroom, free coffe stains in the smelly grass, redolent of so much bourgeois sportage equippage, hostage situation in the office, screaming stop loser not my gi joe nothing alone GOD brothers suck 010718 ... elisabeth Brother, why have you always watched out for me, why have you ben so nice to e this year, why can't i let you go to collage, why did i cry for an hour after you left today, for two weeks to Europe. i guess you can say that I am just afraid to loose you. I am afraid that the plane will go down. Brother i love you know that. and i am sorry i never told you before you left. Brother how will i ever let you go for collage. how will i let that piece of me go. the piece that hold you in my heart forever. The piece that says and guy friends that i have have to be as good as you. Why. Why did you make such an impact on my life. why do i have such a big heart. 010720 ... distorted tendencies i wish i had an older brother 010825 ... florescent light you open your window blinds every morning and close them at night too lazy to be bothered with such obstructions, I removed mine you brother dear with your detail orientated religion abiding nook and cranny mama's boy 'tude makes me red in the face makes the hair on my arms prickle up up till I'm impatiently waiting impatiently waiting impatiently waiting impatiently for you to close all the blinds 010828 ... sphinxradio my surrogate brothers mean the world to me. 011111 ... ClairE Maybe someday he will be the only thing I really have. Right now he's eleven. 'Nuff said. 020206 ... eklektic i'm going to ask him to be my brother in the same fashion one would ask someone to marry them or to be their boyfriend. and so what if we're two different races - i'll tell everyone we're adopted. 020806 ... alterbeana now that's a lapdance 021119 ... Jeca we used to think we were telepathic to each other my big little brother... when you had had a bad day... AMAZING!... i had had one too. i'd say you were my best friend in the world but you hate to hear me say anything remotely mushy so i give you a good arm-punch instead. you are as mushy as the mashed potatoes that come out of the box with your new girlfriend, though. HMPH. i've been demoted. where's my boyfriend? 021119 ... Rhin tommy has always been my protector. many times during childhood, he took the brunt of my father's violent nature to protect me. tommy lives nowhere and everywhere...exact whereabouts known only to a select few, including me. let me put it this way, if you were my brother, the last place you would want to get caught is in southern indiana or northern kentucky. he mostly stays on the road anyway. he's a muscular, long-haired (usally braided), tattoo bearing, scar bearing harley rider. he rides with a closeknit crew of approximately 10. they live for the next adventure. there are times when he will disappear for years at a time, then just like that, he's back. i have postcards from almost every state he has ever ridden through. he never signs them however. he just covers the entire back of the card with a sketch...usually of a beautiful landscape (sometimes naked women) he has seen on his travels. he's an amazing artist. tommy has spent some of his life incarcerated. i hate saying this, but i feel comforted when he's in jail or prison, because then at least i know that he is some-what safe. he looks slightly older than his years, but he's still a good-looking guy and always has an 'ol lady' stashed somewhere. i have always supported my brother, and in fact my mother and i keep a lawyer on retainer...just in case. i don't support his illegal activities, but he's my brother. his infractions are usually minor penalties. his incarceration is usually a direct result of repeat offending or just skipping town...except when he was chased through 3 counties on his bike, by 3 state troopers, but that's another story all-together. almost every trooper in southern indiana knows him by sight. if they see him, they chase regardless of what he's doing just because they figure he's probably up to something. my brother has an enormous heart though. he and his guys have organized 'bears on bikes' (toy drive) for needy children in countless cities every christmas. :) i constantly worry about him, and he's a pain in the a*s, but i love him. 021120 ... no reason O' Brother an ode to brothers 030124 ... pipedream i've got one sixteen year old,royal pain mass of maledom living in my house. he steals my gel, half of my music tapes are in his room, he changes the ringtone on my cell to 'Eye of the Tiger' every time he uses it and he can fake-burp like a champion, thunder-challenger. i hate him with a passaion and i love him like mad. i can't imagine life without him and his funny stupid jokes and the hands and feet he's growing into that he flings around with gay abandon, his penchant for hugs, his infectious bubbling laughter and the way he gallops down the stairs and how him, my sister and me giggle together about private jokes noone would ever find funny but us. siblings. can't live with 'em, can't live without them. wouldn't want it any other way. am i falling into cliche? 030315 ... ShnizelCheese Oh Brother.... I wonder where you may be.... how long its been.... Time flies but one day i will finally reach my destiny and we will be together again, maybe then we will be close. like we never were... not enough anywa. I love you. 030318 ... jenna mine is dead 030419 ... niska brothers 030420 ... me "a man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother." 030624 ... pobodys nerfect I don't get along with mine. I severely dislike him. I think I say about 30 words to him a year...less if I can help it. He's a spoiled,selfish asshole,and anytime my mother is pissed off at him for some stupid thing he does,I become her verbal punching bag. A few years ago,she was on this kick to try and get me to speak to him. It was a waste of time. One time in a drunken rage,he literally tried to strangle me. Another time,he would've beaten the crap out of me if my sister hadn't been around to pull him away. Christ,I had furniture in front of the door and he was STILL trying to get in to my bedroom to beat me up. :( The reason for his anger? I was supposed to take a message when one of his(drug)friends called and get the phone number for where they would be later on, so he could meet up with them,but they hung up quickly before I could ask for it. He never apologised to me for either time he tried to hurt me. Not too long ago,he was in a car accident. After I found out(but before I knew if he was okay)I felt nothing. Not even a little bit of worry. There was just nothing there to feel...like a blank piece of paper... 030624 ... god where art thou? 030714 ... Dafremen Right here bro-lord! Yee haw! 030714 ... me For as long as I can remember, I've always wanted an older brother. When I was little, I used to pretend that people on TV or cartoon characters were my surrogate big brothers and would hang out with me and play with me and protect me. When I got older, the desire didn't recede. If anything, it got stronger, for then I was beginning to date boys and longed for someone to give them a hard time when they came to the door, threatening their physical well being the way big brothers do on TV. Finally, a couple of years ago, I decided that the pain of wanting and not getting was no