crush MollyGoLightly i cannot even fucking believe this doesn't have an entry. and this page has been up how long? (at least I think it doesn't, and if the page loads and it really does exisst, I'm going to feel REALLY stupid) 000523 ... only birdmad when it rains Nope, you win. --- "#1 crush"...my favourite song by Garbage...that and "Special" ...and the copy of "Only Happy when it Rains" autographed by the whole band on a summer afternoon and shirley manson is pretty damn sexy, too 000523 ... Rummy i have a HUGE crush on my boyfriend, heh heh. here's a hint,......his name is silent bob....... and he's cute too...... i love him..... he's crazy about me! 000605 ... jennifer "I am the queen of my throne I have to make my throne and sit on it I have to make my kingdom and rule over it I am the queen of my throne" 000605 ... Silent Bob all my life ive been CRUSHED by emotions. id like girls who coulndt possbily like me and hopelessly romantically be crushed. then a {rummy} girl came along who changed all that. we keep telling each other how much like a fairytale this whole experience is and hopefully it will end the same way. Forever happily. 000605 ... Brad The latest one? My waitress tonight down at the North End. As if I needed more incentive to go back next week... as if it wasnt enough that i get to sit in with the best jazz musicians still living in memphis. She's just an added bonus. 000605 ... Zoe he left today. i had a crush on him, he didn't know. we were best friends. i'll keep in touch, but it won't be the same. god, i loved him. 000722 ... unhinged i have spent my whole life tieing up my whole heart in crushes. i had a crush that lasted for eight years. i don't crush the way i used to....rejection takes care of that. if i have a crush on someone i can't speak to them...i think it was a subconcious thing of not wanting to speak to them because if i did they would neatly be removed from the pedestal that i had so highly placed them on. i always have at least one person that is the constant object of my, some would say fanatical, adoration. i have loved the image of so many people but i don't think i have truly loved anyone. it's crushing to think this way, like a wave that will never let you up, just keeps you under the surface of the water until you drown. 001209 ... circe i liked how your eyeliner went all smudgy around your eyes, and how you threatened me over the phone at 3 a.m. 001209 ... Morelen Its good to know, when your love, even if it is abusive, is returned by false adoration, not love, but a simple minded crush.... 010124 ... clk Older woman crush on younger man. 7 years younger. Is it him or is it youth? Do I love who he is or who I was? He asks me for advice. We are best friends. We are inseperable. When we are together I feel giddy, younger, like the WB network. He can do no wrong. I am grooming the perfect boyfriend from someone his own age. No man is chivalrous enough to meet his standards. I am wise and perfect. He is young and handsome and adorable. Because the age difference makes romance safe. Or too hot to handle. An illusion. 010128 ... birdmad diamonds are born from heat and pressure 010128 ... Tank wow, i can't believe i haven't blathered this one before! i am crush bunny and always have at least one going on. they are so powerful to me. slowly kill me until i am feel so alive as i watch my confidence pour away. sometimes it seems as though i have only ever known life in death. it's always the same beginning. he and i get along well and he is overwhelmingly nice to me. i start to fall in love... as i have gotten older, i have had a tendency to tell my crushes. takes me a long while but i end up telling them. but, i always end up unrequited as by then, mr. perfect and i have become such good friends that he wishes not to risk the friendship. maybe it'll be different this time... maybe not... 010128 ... dean-bean I have a crush. A crush and a pixie. 010128 ... sabbie and i stretch… and i reach… my fingertips only my fingertips i promise myself and i think... and i think i wish… but im not sure... and im never sure... damn you. and damn me too. 010210 ... snow_angel last Saturday I met a guy,I think i fell in love. How could I not. He had such an amazing smile and he wasnt afraid to look right into my eyes and use it. I was flirting too im sure, I always do when im drunk but i didnt realize he was your boyfriend. Im sorry that we kissed, Im sorry that I hope he calls and all of that happens again. Im sorry that I hope you break up. Im sorry that Im so in love. 010601 ... . : * p s y b o r g * : . They are always so mean after you tell them you like them. I had it easy before I told Justin I liked him. He danced with me. He checked me out regularly. Then I told him I liked him and wrecked everything. He's such a jerk now. God I hate myself. 011025 ... ares i had one crush for a few years before i asked her she said "no" big surprise there it wasn't until i had reasoned my way out of several crushes that i didn't really have a crush on those people i just had a crush on love 011110 ... ClairE number one. I 3 old_skool Garbage. A drink. What you can do to the can after you drink it. Smother. lovely word, crushed velvet and lime. rush is heady and "c" starts my name. Word. 011128 ... ClairE I'm infatuated by your moves. 011203 ... whoknows ed 011204 ... Casey I had this crush on a girl, I was going to ask her out on saturday. Then she got drunk and threw up in my friend's car and also said she was going to go to bancroft and fuck some guys. So I kinda droped that idea. sigh 011204 ... phil Me and Molly sitting in a tree k-i-s-s-i-n-g 020127 ... dis Sometimes when I see his full name written on a piece of paper I get butterflies in my stomach. It's like reading a language I've only just learned, and I'm not sure anyone else really gets the significance. 020128 ... Mae don't know why, but I feel like telling maybe because I want to remember... foolish little mistakes crushes didn't work in junior high that's why they're in junior high grown-ups don't have crushes why? because you don't know very much, only that this person is cool, reserved; but there's warmpth in their dark eyes. and the adorable way they mispronounce words their tongue doesn't know- you don't know enough; just enough for the fantasy to take off but it flies too high, too fast before asking things like, "is his roommate just a friend, or is she more to him?" And as you fall, you remember why you don't have crushes anymore and you write about it. maybe to remind someone, as you lick your wounds, why crushes didn't work in junior high 020130 ... misaligned why does 'crush' in the romantic attraction sense of the word sound so painful? i crushed my finger once, in a car door. i had about five vikes a day, it hurt so bad, but that's sounding pretty good right about now. i have developed a crush on one of my friends who's had a crush on me and it's killing me to keep dodging a possible future ruined friendship. 020130 ... ...ooo... how come there isn't a blathering place for pixie...? i'm crushed 020206 ... werewolf oh tell me about it...i think that's why they're crushes...they crush all in their wake and squeeze to emptiness...nah...well...i hope you dodged well...i bet you didn't though 020426 ... lobsterman well if you walk gingerly...you shouldn't crush anything...other than a bajillion majillion well meaning dreams, and a couple of insidious ones. But to treat them the same? How can i know the difference unless i go out there bravely like wile. e. coyote and see. I mean after all...if an anvil's coming i can always hold up a sign that says help, and the chase will begin again right? right? right? as long as my crush isn't as generally painful to witness as an accordion's i'm happy. 020426 ... knot meat no no...you just don't understand. I felt so fake before...but i fell for you, i really did, hook line and sinker, and it made me feel so real, i was like, maybe there's hope for me yet. Maybe i haven't thunk myself into stillness yet at all. i think the word should be changed to expansion... 020426 ... yummychuckle i have a crush on paste! ~~~ XSHHHHHHHH 020426 ... elimeny I don't know what's wrong with me. People tell me I'm fun. I have a very, hrm, "vibrant" personality. I'm pretty outgoing, and im quirky, and i laugh a lot, and im not easily offended. And for the past four months I've felt really good about that: I'm just now disovering so much about who I really am. And that should be good. But then you come along. Suddenly I'm upon the floor, grovelling, heart on my sleeve, no shame, no pride... it's only been one fucking date. Where did my sanity go? My self-respect? My nerve? I don't understand this.... some people tell me it's great how I am... so cheerful and outgoing and friendly... but that all comes from being very emotional. and there is a whole other side to that. It's not all fun and games, kids. Some friends tell me they wish they could be more like me, just as fun as i am, or what have you. But this? this isn't fun. You are so reserved, and I can't read you. And, like the pathetic soul that I am, I sit here and stare at the IM window, waiting for you to say something to me, something to give me a hint about how you feel... and nothing comes out. And why should it? There is no rational explanation for anything I feel. I've got a crush. And it's fucking crushing me. Crazy girls shouldnt look for love. 021211 ... elimeny No, no. Lindsay is right. Grown ups do have crushes, it's natural. It's how you react that makes you different than in Junior High. "you just have to make yourself not act like you feel the way you do" Why is it that we were able to more honest as children? But I will not let this conquer me. It's not your fault, o beautiful one. I still think you are incredible. But if i continue like this, i will scare you away. So i will keep my feelings inside. Maybe Ill just spill them here or in my journals. But i wont say them out loud anymore. Words pronounced seem so much more definite. You can erase what you type or write... not what you say. And I refuse to be perceived as weak. So while I won't get over you, simply because of that chance that my feelings are reciprocated, I will stop this crazy verbal obsession. I will stop talking about you all the time. I'm growing up now, dammit. Someone take a picture. 021211 ... Kristopher I like this word, this is a good word. It's fun! I like yelling it whenever I jump in the air and land hard on something! CRUSH!! It's really made effective by my being six-foot-five and three-hundred-fifty pounds. It just seems to resonate more. 021213 ... Kristopher Hmmm, romantic crushes? I don't know. . . I sometimes fall really hard. Again, being very large doesn't help. I hope I don't crush anyone on the way down. If I do, I'm sorry. 021213 ... Strideo crushing someone wouldn't be very romantic . 021213 ... DX I remember this girl I had a crush on. And