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my msn convo. I'm "...or I'll explode". I'm talking to Kat. This is uncensored. If you don't want to read it, don't read it. I'm putting this here as a place to post msn/aim convos and to reveal how I am with FRIENDS as opposed to..well...anything else anyone on blather has been exposed to. pixk through it, read the whole thing, don't read a thing. your choice.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
mmm delicious.
...or I’ll explode says:
mmm mmm de liciousss
...or I’ll explode says:
k so hi
one heart, one hope, one love says:
indeeeeed.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
my mom made stirfry.
...or I’ll explode says:
sweet.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and shrimp. ewww. they were like... the kind where there is nothing unshrimplike about them... like i could see their faces.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
they are like the insects of the ocean.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i was like... NO THANK YOU
...or I’ll explode says:
hahahaha
...or I’ll explode says:
the legs are creepy
...or I’ll explode says:
i like my meat to be anonymous.
...or I’ll explode says:
chunks of flesh, hard to determine where it came from. I am in denial, like many meat eaters.
...or I’ll explode says:
if I saw the cow right before i ate it, i couldnt do it. neither could.....a lot of people.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah im one of the cowardly meat eating sorts
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. those are the ones that piss me off the most.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
like... the ones who would be vegetarians if they weren't so in denial.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
mouse says he'd gladly go out and shoot an animal and butcher it.
...or I’ll explode says:
wowee
one heart, one hope, one love says:
so i can respect his meat eating a little more than somebody who could eat it but not do that.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah im the piss off sort
...or I’ll explode says:
well. ok.
...or I’ll explode says:
here.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
not that i agree with killing animals at all, it's just less irritating. but there's no use being irritated about it because you can't change other people, you can only expose them to the truth and hope they see things the way you do.
...or I’ll explode says:
this isnt really a deal with you, but more myself, and youll help me enforce it.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i'm always here to support people in animal friendly choices.
...or I’ll explode says:
when I get a job. a car. I will become a vegetarian because I can control the food in my house/stomach.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
is it something you really want to do?
...or I’ll explode says:
my biggest problem is the temptation of the food in my house. my mom has a lot of meat in the house (no red meat) and cooks pretty tasty things, so i eat them because ..well...there is nothing else TO eat and why would i desire anything else?
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah i want to.
...or I’ll explode says:
Ive BEEN wanting to for a while
...or I’ll explode says:
its just that i lack willpower
one heart, one hope, one love says:
cool. i'm behind you 100%, as you know.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and when we're living in a house together you could easily be vegetarian.
...or I’ll explode says:
but being able to shop on my own would help immensely
...or I’ll explode says:
well yeah.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah... i have all sorts of willpower. that's the only difference between you and i, really.
...or I’ll explode says:
probably.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
so yay. vegetables rule.
...or I’ll explode says:
it seems right. willpower and determination. I am so wishy washy and maybe and lazy
...or I’ll explode says:
really. those are the worst vices. man. laziness kills me.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i am by nature invariably lazy and indecisive, actually.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i think everybody kind of is.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but i have this weird stirring inside me that's unavoidable and it kind of gets me off my ass and trudges me into things.
...or I’ll explode says:
sweet
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i am a majorly guilty person. i feel guilty about not doing things, or doing the wrong things. i worry incessantly. the only way to cease the worrying and the guilt is to do something about it. otherwise they'd eat me up inside. that's the stirring. it's guilt/worry and the strong desire to overcome those things.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
oh the many layers of my self. but i think many people are the same way, they just haven't taken the time to analyze themselves so completely.
...or I’ll explode says:
aha. see....i feel guilty all the time and it just leads me to a nice cycle of self hatred and self pity.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. that's where the choice is.
...or I’ll explode says:
i just wallow in what i could have or should have done
...or I’ll explode says:
i am more undesirable than many people know
one heart, one hope, one love says:
you can be like that, or you can be like... fuck that, i'm letting the bullshit win!
one heart, one hope, one love says:
only because you make yourself that way.
...or I’ll explode says:
i have the desire to be better but i sit back and cry. i guess im working on it. gimme about five months and I'll be much better.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. it's a process, for sure.
...or I’ll explode says:
its the time and transition.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah
...or I’ll explode says:
I realize my mistakes and flaws more than people think I do, maybe. or more than other people do...im just...a lazy son of a bitch. essentially thats all it is. laziness and indulgence
...or I’ll explode says:
i just have a problem with setting things into motion
one heart, one hope, one love says:
being true to your convictions is one of the most liberating things you can do...
...or I’ll explode says:
slow and steady wins the race?
...or I’ll explode says:
heh
...or I’ll explode says:
heheheh.
...or I’ll explode says:
*sigh* yeah but I know what iwant to be and I'll get there soon enough
one heart, one hope, one love says:
mistakes and flaws? it's all perception. it's just stuff you're working on.
...or I’ll explode says:
this inbetween stage is frustrating though. and its my fault. and thats WHY its frustrating.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
knowing what you want is half of it. you're lucky you know what you want to be.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
half of the people in this world never even grapple with it. they just kind of do whatever.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i think people like you and i are just different than the majority of the people on earth.
...or I’ll explode says:
thats a good thing
one heart, one hope, one love says:
like... ever since i was a little kid, i burdened myself with the world's problems. i've always been a thinker. i always wanted to do new and interesting stuff. in elementary school, i pushed the limits.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i'm excessively sensitive to my surroundings. even physically.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and i think you're the same in a lot of ways. and anybody who is truly depressed, or making a difference, or being creative... they're the same.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
we have this innate inescapable capacity to think creatively. and it's fucking difficult.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah. depression leads to introspection and this overwhelming urge for escape...ideas come and creativity follows...
...or I’ll explode says:
its a cycle
...or I’ll explode says:
and its beautiful and hideous. its...something/
one heart, one hope, one love says:
with any gift, like intelligence, talent, etc. there is the huge burden of responsibility. you assess, "why me?"
one heart, one hope, one love says:
there's a way to be creative without depression. i think the depression is a product of being creative.
...or I’ll explode says:
hmm
one heart, one hope, one love says:
creative souls are more in tune with the world. we feel it on a deep level that a lot of people don't understand.
...or I’ll explode says:
i cant decide. i think it can be the other way around too.
...or I’ll explode says:
brb
...or I’ll explode says:
back
...or I’ll explode says:
this is unrelated, but my mouth tastes like string cheese.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
did you eat any?
...or I’ll explode says:
no.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
odd
...or I’ll explode says:
indeed.
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...or I’ll explode says:
let us be rid of these heavy thoughts, let us be FREE with BEJEWELED!
one heart, one hope, one love says:
anyway... being sensitive and creative makes us more analytical of what goes on... often leading to depression.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
hahah. i like heavy thoughts. i like when people understand my heavy thoughts, cuz then i don't feel so alone.
...or I’ll explode says:
true dat homes.
...or I’ll explode says:
very true.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i have inescapable heavy thoughts. that's what depresses me.
...or I’ll explode says:
I find breif freedoms. and I wear them out.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
knowing that you're different also worsens things.
...or I’ll explode says:
its getting better. I'm trying to train my brain to be more simplistic when i need it to be. sometimes its necessary to just live recklessly and stop hurting and caring and realizing.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
well it's never bad to care.
...or I’ll explode says:
well. sometimes.
...or I’ll explode says:
like...
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i think alienation is selfmade.
...or I’ll explode says:
my brother is about to sacrifice his future and his happiness because when he leaves his boss, his boss' business is dead. my brother is the hardest worker...and his boss (mike) needs him. so mike is trying to convince isaac to not go to alaska for a job/change...but isaac will kill himself if he stays here any longer...
...or I’ll explode says:
so you have to just close your eyes and stop caring for a second and be selfish
...or I’ll explode says:
or else everything will go to hell
...or I’ll explode says:
its a really tough spot...
...or I’ll explode says:
isaac wants to stay with mike...but you know. it would drain him of life...
one heart, one hope, one love says:
well yeah...
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but he can still care, he just doesn't have to attach himself to that.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
he can realize that that's not his kuleana.
...or I’ll explode says:
heheh
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i used a hawaiian word.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
shoot me now.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah and i so didnt know what it meant
one heart, one hope, one love says:
it's not his deal.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah.
...or I’ll explode says:
exactly.
...or I’ll explode says:
but you know. caring as much as he does is so painful
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but i sometimes wonder, if i'm really that different from anybody else. i mean... really.
...or I’ll explode says:
i guess Im just one to shut off my emotions when i can to do what needs to be done.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i know more than anybody that caring a lot is painful. i'm a fucking vegan. i feel animals hurting.
...or I’ll explode says:
i feel entirely normal most of the time, but sometimes i find these entirely closeminded idiots and feel different enough. alienated, like I could be the only one with common fucking sense.
...or I’ll explode says:
oh yeah
...or I’ll explode says:
that
...or I’ll explode says:
heheh
one heart, one hope, one love says:
most of the time i feel inherently different.
...or I’ll explode says:
veganism is a pretty stong thing.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. it's pretty consuming. but i like it.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
it's at the point where it's the only way i could reasonably live with myself.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah
one heart, one hope, one love says:
oh well. it's not really a big deal anymore, to live by it personally...
...or I’ll explode says:
youve grown accustomed to it
...or I’ll explode says:
the transition would be hard
...or I’ll explode says:
maybe
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. but seeing other people doing nonvegan things hurts me.
...or I’ll explode says:
i think a good idea for me, if i needed to make the transition, would be to be stoned all the time.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i don't have to let it... i guess that's part of being an emotional being.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
hahahah.
...or I’ll explode says:
when im stoned, i am so aware of what im eating, if i eat too much meat I feel fucking sick
...or I’ll explode says:
I feel like I am chewing on an animal
...or I’ll explode says:
a dead animal. and its exactly what im doing
one heart, one hope, one love says:
for me being stoned is like this weird attempt at escaping from worrying.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i'm trying to feel normal and okay. like the rest of the world.
...or I’ll explode says:
ha well me too. if i ever overload on the emotional bullshit and i know im being unreasonable, i allow myself the escapism I so crave and indulge by smoking some weeed
...or I’ll explode says:
well not like the rest fo the world really
one heart, one hope, one love says:
someday i'm gonna figure out a way to escape by like... meditation or something.
...or I’ll explode says:
thatd be ideal.
...or I’ll explode says:
man you have got to watch the rules of attraction with me
...or I’ll explode says:
the gay guy is sooooo very very very hot
...or I’ll explode says:
and wonderful
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i know i know. you've told me. i'll watch it with you.
...or I’ll explode says:
and so so so wonderful
...or I’ll explode says:
*sigh*
...or I’ll explode says:
*drifts into a very naughty fantasy*
one heart, one hope, one love says:
hahahahah.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
fucking bejeweled!
one heart, one hope, one love says:
it isn't letting me click on shit. and shit.
...or I’ll explode says:
bwahaha
one heart, one hope, one love says:
do you heart u2?
one heart, one hope, one love says:
cuz i really don't much.
...or I’ll explode says:
no
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i think they're way overrated.
...or I’ll explode says:
U2 has some ok old stuff, just because i grew up with it
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but i like this song.
...or I’ll explode says:
but like... no.
...or I’ll explode says:
which one?
one heart, one hope, one love says:
with or without you. it's what my name is from.
...or I’ll explode says:
really??? I love that song?
...or I’ll explode says:
song!*
one heart, one hope, one love says:
me too.
...or I’ll explode says:
thats like...the one i most like like. i think it was my moms favorite. she played that cd when she was cleaning the house when i was a wee one
one heart, one hope, one love says:
my mom played metallica while she cleaned the house.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
hmmm.
...or I’ll explode says:
hahaha
one heart, one hope, one love says:
cuz it would inspire her to finish cleaning sooner.
...or I’ll explode says:
my mom was all U2 and the eagles and gin blossoms n collective soul n shizz
one heart, one hope, one love says:
it would be really weird to wake up to "enter sandman" on saturday morning when i was like 5
...or I’ll explode says:
hahahah
one heart, one hope, one love says:
my mom is like the last person you'd expect to listen to metallica, and she doesn't even *really* like them.
...or I’ll explode says:
totally!!!
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but she says it's angry music for an angry job.
...or I’ll explode says:
hahahaha
...or I’ll explode says:
Eves mom is so in love with marilyn manson
one heart, one hope, one love says:
that's kinda creepy
...or I’ll explode says:
she also likes tori amos, which is diggable.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah. her mom is pretty nice though, considering her upbringing and current relationship and kids.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i don't like youngacting parents. not that she is, but the ones who are, i don't like.
...or I’ll explode says:
I dont like the ones that TRY to be.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
it's creepy.
...or I’ll explode says:
the ones that just happen to like newer music are ok
one heart, one hope, one love says:
when i get older, i'm so gonna listen to what i like now.
...or I’ll explode says:
but yeah. parents are parents.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yep... i never want to be a parent, partially for those reasons.
...or I’ll explode says:
I dont know what I'll be like. i guess i'll leave it open.
...or I’ll explode says:
hahaha
one heart, one hope, one love says:
when you're a parent... no matter what you do it's uncool.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
not like i'm out to impress everybody...
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but it'd be kinda frustrating to have kids who are like... mom you're such a dork.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
cuz ya know... i'm not a dork.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and i never will be.
...or I’ll explode says:
heehe
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i'm not "cool".. but i think i'm relatively cool as a human being.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i keep killing bejeweled.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
the other day i got one that went to 4000
...or I’ll explode says:
wow
...or I’ll explode says:
wow
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah... you weren't playing anymore by then...
...or I’ll explode says:
bleh
one heart, one hope, one love says:
haha
one heart, one hope, one love says:
you know what would save ridiculous amounts of money?
...or I’ll explode says:
what
one heart, one hope, one love says:
us sharing a bedroom when we move. :-
one heart, one hope, one love says:
S
...or I’ll explode says:
heheh
...or I’ll explode says:
or
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i don't know though. but we'd both be so busy with working and stuff that i doubt there'd be a big conflict with room space.
...or I’ll explode says:
ilike i said before
...or I’ll explode says:
i could be the house whore
...or I’ll explode says:
and switch from you to john. or maybe...you to jamie? bwahaha
one heart, one hope, one love says:
that would never work.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but seriously, like... sharing a room could save mucho dinero.
...or I’ll explode says:
actually
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah
...or I’ll explode says:
thats really really not a bad idea
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and we both understand the other's respective need for privacy.
...or I’ll explode says:
pushing stupid relationship shit aside, we could fuunction on both a freidnship level or otherwise, sharing a room/
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and i'm really good about getting privacy by going on walks and stuff.
...or I’ll explode says:
haha yeah
...or I’ll explode says:
ditto
...or I’ll explode says:
i'm all about the 'walk' escape
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and we'll be like... okay masturbation...
one heart, one hope, one love says:
oh my gosh. everytime i go to parties, i end up taking walks.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
cuz i can't deal with that many people all at once for that long.
...or I’ll explode says:
ew i just did the nastiest thing. puke swallowing.
...or I’ll explode says:
haha
one heart, one hope, one love says:
eww i know that whole puke swallowing thing it's whoagross.
...or I’ll explode says:
i always seek out a couple people i really like and try to get them away from the crown, to some sort of corner
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah. i tried to take way too bgig of a swig of ...ugh....wine.
...or I’ll explode says:
and it came back up, then went back down
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i go for walks, and sometimes this intrigues people and they come along. and if they're cool... it's generally welcome. ocassionally i invite people...
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and i just love walking. especially in the dark when the streets are empty.
...or I’ll explode says:
thats how we became more friendsish
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yep.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
parties.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and me being socially retarded.
...or I’ll explode says:
me being rebelliousd
...or I’ll explode says:
eve gave me the scariest look of murderous rage when i left with you
one heart, one hope, one love says:
that's scary. jealousy freaks me out.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah
one heart, one hope, one love says:
like... people get all territorial and ownerish over people... it's silly.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
nobody owns anybody else.
...or I’ll explode says:
true true
...or I’ll explode says:
i hate to feel as if i own someone
...or I’ll explode says:
its like...such a conflict with me
...or I’ll explode says:
really.
...or I’ll explode says:
I tend to get a bit dominant when guys let me, and then it gets out of hand
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah... that's how it is with me and zach. i don't want him to be submissive, but he is.
...or I’ll explode says:
and i get so comfortable with my domination that I get sort of....jealous and feel as if they are not a belongin of mine. of course my reasoning/logic catches up with me and it just stews into a nice passive aggressive jealousy deal
...or I’ll explode says:
it frustrates me because...you know....i KNOW that the relationship wont work
...or I’ll explode says:
I need some sort of balance
...or I’ll explode says:
I need someone that can be as independant as me, or as detached as me, and yet still be madly in love and attached....
one heart, one hope, one love says:
what irritates me, is that people are like... why are you so controlling?! and say zach's whipped or whatever... but uhhh hello?! i never told him to be like that. i do have a strong personality, but i can't worry about how that influences people. that's not my deal.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. i know what you mean completely.
...or I’ll explode says:
and I kow what you mean completely
...or I’ll explode says:
they are all too willing to be submissive and controlled
...or I’ll explode says:
I try not to be, but its like..sometimes functioning will require it. its ugly.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i just am how i am. i'm a very strong and opinionated personality. i need somebody who can hold their own opinion in spite of me, but also not be completely closed minded to what i'm saying. and won't fight with me about it.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
plus, it takes a lot to earn my respect.
...or I’ll explode says:
hahahaha true.
...or I’ll explode says:
it takes little to earn mine....but little to lose it, as well.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i'm always questioning people's reasoning, logic, justification, and actions. to the point of it possibly being called judgmental. and if they are doing something that is against their beliefs and they can't justify, i find it hard to respect them.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i've gotten to the point where i can mostly get past that... but part of me is just like that.
...or I’ll explode says:
well. its really fair reasoning
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i just think people who stand for absolutely nothing are kind of a waste of time.
...or I’ll explode says:
hypocrisy is no fun...but sometimes i understand. I can be quite the hypocrite. its hard for all of me to come together and agree.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
everybody can be hypocritical.
...or I’ll explode says:
Oh. I stand for things. sometimes I'm not sure fo exactly what, but then someone comes along and says something and Im like "wait a goddam minute...."
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but what irks me is like... zach will say he thinks something, and then he fully cannot back it up. and i'm like... then why? it's because i'm very analytical. i want to know more before i can agree. and people think that being analytical automatically makes me a critic.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah... a lot of times you aren't sure what you believe. that's true.
...or I’ll explode says:
I think something that sets me apart from certain people with very strong beliefs...is that...I know what i think, I have my opinions, but I am open enough to realize that maybe I havent heard all sides of the situation. So with strangers, anyone, even if I KNOW they are wrong, i dont jump on them right away and I just ask for their reasoning
...or I’ll explode says:
like
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the painter guy. he said something like he wasnt a fan of blacks. I asked why and got him to tell me about it before i set my beliefs out there
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i do that too, generally. i'm more open minded than it seems. otherwise where'd i get my opinions?
...or I’ll explode says:
I told him that I really thought its the PERSON that counts, nto how they were born. you cant control your genetics
...or I’ll explode says:
and i went on like that, but i was also interested enough to hear everythign he had to say without totally blocking it out and gettin bitchy
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah
one heart, one hope, one love says:
that's hard for me. like when somebody fully doesn't make sense and they have this total bullshit logic...
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but i'll listen just so i know what they're talking about. oh i listen. and then i use their own reasoning against them. which is why i'm such an excellent debater.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but personally i've struggled a lot with being right vs. being nice/happy/whatever
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah. well to be honest , I can argue for a while, but if i get caught off gaurd on a question or some other reasoning (even if its entirely wrong) I cannot back it up
one heart, one hope, one love says:
oh i argue passionately. as long as it's something i feel strongly about.
...or I’ll explode says:
anyway. In my own mind, i find the peace and just leave people as they are. shake my head in shame if i cant get them to open their brains up a bit more....but thats all
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i've gotten way better at accepting that some things are just not going to change. people aren't going to change their opinions, not to say i don't try when it seems appropriate or possible.
...or I’ll explode says:
exactly
...or I’ll explode says:
I try to use their mindset to CHANGE their mindset
...or I’ll explode says:
thats why its so important to hear how they feel
...or I’ll explode says:
you need to know where they are coming from before you get them going somewhere else
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and some things are kind of minor, and not worth getting really upset about. but some things it's like... OMG WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING... and i try harder with that.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah... fully i so hear you.
...or I’ll explode says:
yep yep ditto
...or I’ll explode says:
like when people are extremely prolife
...or I’ll explode says:
I am so WHAT THE FUCK!?!? and all up in their faces
one heart, one hope, one love says:
like... homophobes... i hear out their reasoning, but no reasoning they have will win my approval or respect. ever.
...or I’ll explode says:
cus i am prochoice, only sort of prochoice, but definitely not prolifeprollifeprolife
...or I’ll explode says:
oh yeah me too
...or I’ll explode says:
homophobes
...or I’ll explode says:
man I can hardly stand when people use the term "gay" or "fag" in a negative manner
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah... i'm prochoice but that doesn't mean i'm proabortion per se, and people are like... yes it does you baby killer.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
so hearing you on the gay thing.
...or I’ll explode says:
Im always like "yeah thats so goddamn homosexual!"
...or I’ll explode says:
so hearing you on the baby kilelr thing. haha
one heart, one hope, one love says:
then they realize what they said, or else they look at you funny.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i am so not proabortion. abortions suck. a lot. but that doesn't mean they should be illegal.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
people are gonna do what they're gonna do.
...or I’ll explode says:
Im like..........goddamn it there are instances where abortion is acceptable! you cannot be prolife when some thirteen year old girl is raped and risks dying if she gives birth! you fucking cock! you need to consider every possibility!
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah.
...or I’ll explode says:
yes. I am not pro abortion
...or I’ll explode says:
it tears me apart.
...or I’ll explode says:
but. yeah. you know, there are cases where abortion is really the only way out.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but one thing i've learned... being all up in someone's face is the last way to change their minds. and it goes both ways. for me, and for them.
...or I’ll explode says:
yep yep
...or I’ll explode says:
hence the whole listening thing
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. i agree. and some people really just shouldn't have children.
...or I’ll explode says:
you have to be tactful
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah... i have a hard time when it comes to things that i'm absolutely hardnosed on, but then i consider that they're like that too...
...or I’ll explode says:
it sucks when you find someone with just as much passion behind their side...like.... an extreme prolifer....
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
it's sooo difficult.
...or I’ll explode says:
Me and Dalia were fully goign off at eachother in US history this year when we covered the topic of womens rights and ABORTION
...or I’ll explode says:
and like. arguing with a pregnant girl is no fun
one heart, one hope, one love says:
what's really frustrating is really closed minded and ignorant people who absolutely will not listen to your reasoning, and they can't even refute your evidence or anything.
...or I’ll explode says:
YES!
...or I’ll explode says:
when they dont care in the least, even if you are being way way reasonable
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and then so they pull out the bible card. that's what really pisses me off.
...or I’ll explode says:
oh. oh man.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
some 2000 year old book means exactly dick to me.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i'm sorry.
...or I’ll explode says:
it frustrates me.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
ya know?
...or I’ll explode says:
dont be sorry.
...or I’ll explode says:
I know.
...or I’ll explode says:
I fucking hate when people get really specific with the bible
one heart, one hope, one love says:
well... i have a couple of instances in which i can get specific to refute them and they're like... no no no that means this....
...or I’ll explode says:
because...the bible has some nice ideas to teach, but so many things have been misconstrued and generally fuckd up and misinterpreted
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i'm like... here it says a. a means a. and they're like. no no no a means b! can't you see? it means b!
...or I’ll explode says:
hahahaha god its so endlessly and frustratingly true
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and there's really no way to argue like that.
...or I’ll explode says:
i give up on them.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. it's just crazy.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah. you cant use logic because theyve thrown logic out the window
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but i need to study the bible a little better just so i have a better basis for my refutation. i mean, i will be the first to admit that i'm pretty ignorant about the bible... and they are probably kind of frustrated when i don't take their evidence seriously when i haven't read the book.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i don't want to be as ignorant as them.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i want to surpass that.
...or I’ll explode says:
makes sense. i havent either. I considered it, just to have something against those hardcore bibleaddicts....
...or I’ll explode says:
but I felt like...it wasnt anything i was interested in in the least
one heart, one hope, one love says:
the lame thing is... with prolifers usually... no matter how right you are or how correctly you argue your case, they're just going to be even more prolife and think you're a baby killing bitch.
...or I’ll explode says:
if im going to botehr with religion...the first thing i want to look into is buddhism
...or I’ll explode says:
yes
one heart, one hope, one love says:
like... i can respect people who are prolife. if they have good reasoning. really good reasoning. and if they don't bring up hypocritical evidence.
...or I’ll explode says:
yes.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
but hardnosed prolifers won't respect me. and that's fucked up.
...or I’ll explode says:
aruging has a lot to do with respect and open mindedness
one heart, one hope, one love says:
like... my friend mason is very prolife because he's just prolife in general. he's a very sensitive soul and a gentle person. he's a vegetarian. he's hindu... and i totally respect that he's prolife. he isn't being hypocritical about it. it's just how he feels deep down.
...or I’ll explode says:
i LIKE when an argument goes somewhere. when we can both get fired up. but when someone absolutely refuses to reason or listen...man there si no sort of frustration that matches that
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. i know.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
and i kind of like arguments where i learn something and actually have to reevaluate my argument. it's more interesting.
...or I’ll explode says:
i am so all over radiohead;s ok computer. just thought id stick that in
...or I’ll explode says:
yes it is
...or I’ll explode says:
thats what arguing should be about. change.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
radiohead is one of those bands that i just never really could get into... i think they're okay, but i guess since they've been hyped so much i don't think they're *that* great. like i don't think they live up to all the reviews. but that's what happens when you expect a lot.
...or I’ll explode says:
yeah
one heart, one hope, one love says:
you should take debate jamie. seriously.
...or I’ll explode says:
i think the reviews are a bit much. but i love the lyrics.
...or I’ll explode says:
i cannot. its much to late much much too late
one heart, one hope, one love says:
what do you mean?
...or I’ll explode says:
plus im too lazy to attempt
...or I’ll explode says:
i mean. i cant sign up for it. too late
one heart, one hope, one love says:
yeah. you can.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
seriously.... you can.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
mrs. chatfield is like the coolest. i only signed up for it today.
...or I’ll explode says:
and I'll be intimidated. if im in a regular class, i can be the smart one. if im in debate....i can just be...some....classmate....
...or I’ll explode says:
im too scared.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
no... you're loads smarter than a lot of the kids who take honors and such.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
trust me.
...or I’ll explode says:
I'll stay in my comfort zone thankyouverymuch
...or I’ll explode says:
i can pull off stupidity too
one heart, one hope, one love says:
well... if you insist, but i really think you'd do great in debate, and you might even end up having less homework than in regular english. seriously. i was in ap with mrs. chatfield last year and i had WAY less homework than any of my friends in honors.
...or I’ll explode says:
mmm....less homework....
...or I’ll explode says:
well. if i get ahold of my mom.
...or I’ll explode says:
lemme call her right now.
...or I’ll explode says:
brb
one heart, one hope, one love says:
heheheh.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i can't *guarantee* it since i haven't taken debate, but i've had mrs. chatfield for two years, and i know that it was downright easy.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
(homeworkwise) and i still learned a lot too.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
hey kiddo.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
i've gotta go.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
there's "fun" to be had.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
werd.
one heart, one hope, one love says:
.......... okay... adios.
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i finished it
hold the ten million til im twenty, though
what doth thou bring thund'rous growth
to the soul?
this a sight
to see others as they feel
running used emotion forth from them
and from them gather thy thoughts
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good idea for a page.
the funny thing is though,
i thought it was ashmanzhou because i scrolled down to the bottom to see who blathed it. and it just didn't. . .fit.
**oh and i know what you mean about the food thing. i would eat such different food if i could buy my own groceries*
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I read it. Course I'm used to this sort of thing, what with having to proofread here and all.
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Whew! i read it and ...ah
it was long and uh kind of interesting
and the insights and depth of being you young people have really, every generation just gets more and more precocious - and the whole strong personality thing, that's a good thing, kind of like preparing the armor of the soul for the buffeting it'll take in adulthood - i enjoyed it didn't agree with all of it but interesting and provocative reading -
blather on!
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