a haplo good grade in school 980922 ... eric i guess this would be about the shortest word. 980923 ... [marissa] A .the.first.letter.in.the.alphabet. .the.highest.possible.grade.earned. what is the american's preoccupation with first is automatically best? [ all those hours at the fast food drive-thur perhaps? ] 981023 ... a name i call myself when i'm too tired to type 981120 ... Caine America has been well served by its silly preoccupation with winning ever since we childishly fought for our freedom in the Revolutionary War. 981124 ... shamus portable model of... [party able model of] 990131 ... velouria brand new love 990302 ... adam girl who quotes sebadoh songs makes me swoon. 990303 ... stephen the article that couldn't make solid plans. 990306 ... OTK cf. "The World of ~A" A.E. Van Vogt 990516 ... jake enk. cynicism in the pursuit of cApitAl gain, and advocates of a whining montage of the lazy and weak-hearted parasites. ........... A first version of a new invention is rarely considered the best. It is in our changes and improvements that we eventually reach "A" reality. Eventually is never-ending, as it always pertains to the "now" which is the only existent piece of time that isn't the past. maybe. 990603 ... Alexander Beetle without it, my nme would be lexnder beetle, which looks stupid and is rther hrd to sy properly. get it? 991116 ... paul lick a licky thing. 991121 ... valis what the fonz would say when things were just too cool for words. "aaaaaay" very zen. 991214 ... nameless the people just couldnt let words go so they added "a" to them 991217 ... camille beginning, atom, adam, shortest single letter word besides "i" the word that begins a descriptive sentence. "i" "c" "a" "b" "u" "t" full sunset 000103 ... bee hmm. it goes with everything. 000104 ... amy is for that gorey girl who fell down the stairs. a grade for beef, milk, LA restaurants, or study. a-sics, my officemate's sponsor. a-ty, an age. a, g, p, s, v, z all get held the longest when you sing that song. 000121 ... camille before "e" "i" and "u" 000125 ... camille "o" i forgot "o" (hahah oops) 000125 ... flyingreddeath erica got an a when she was born that's why she's my girlfriend 000517 ... silentbob One Hundred Percent of the women i've kissed start with this letter. They also end with it too. and O what kisses those R! 000713 ... Daanuh Big A Little A Bouncing B The system might have got you But it cant get me 001114 ... evolutionending BEGIN the process early, at school. First, create confusion by hurling a multitude of unrelated, disconnected facts at him. Meaning is not sought and so, by implication, is shown not to exist. Yes, there is poverty in the world's richest countries; yes, the Gulf War was fought against a dictator armed with US, British and French weapons; yes, air pollution is getting worse while we applaud the creation of more jobs in the car industry — he knows the facts but he does not know why, he cannot know why, he must not know why. Second, teach class position: he is told his place in the hierarchy, he is “streamed”. He is taught to envy the “bright” and despise the “slow” and to believe the concrete reality of both. Take your pick — failure (shame, rejection, relative poverty) or success (conformity). Third, encourage indifference: he is taught not to care too much. When the bell goes, his enthusiasm is left to flounder before the greater logic of the school timetable — he is there to learn but, more importantly, he is there to stick to disciplined schedules. He must turn “on” and “off” like a switch as required. Obedience, not enthusiasm, is primary. Fourth, teach emotional dependency: by stars and ticks and frowns and prizes, honours and disgraces, our desolated human being is taught to surrender his will to the chain of command. The judgement of right and wrong, value and worth is abdicated to external authority. God forbid that anyone should be able to evaluate themselves as successful beyond conformity. Fifth, teach intellectual dependency: good people wait for the teacher to tell them what to do. Only the “expert”, the authority, can decide what is good for him to know. Successful people are those who believe what they are told with a minimum of resistance. Sixth, encourage provisional self-esteem: confident people make bad conformists. Self-respect, therefore, is taught to be dependent on “expert” opinion. The desolated human being is constantly evaluated and judged. Dissatisfaction is crucial for his continued conformity. Self-evaluation — “Know thyself” — the heart of every major philosophical system, is rejected out of hand. People must be TOLD what they are worth. Our desolated human being is told who did what, when, where, how, but he is not told why learning about algebra, plant reproduction and the French Revolution are in any way important to him. All he is told is that learning this stuff will help him pass his exams, which will help him get to university, which will help him get a “good” job, that is to conform as part of the economic system. This, of course, is presented as being an entirely adequate answer to life; he need not detain himself with seeking or considering alternative answers (unless he is suffering from some form of anti-establishment neurosis). But despite this great weight of brainwashing, our desolated human being is not really convinced that this is the best path, he does not really believe it answers his deepest needs. He takes it on trust, because there seem to be no other alternatives, for none may be seriously proposed. Even discussions of vegetarianism and environmental issues in the classroom are liable to be denounced by our mass media as left-wing or Fascist propaganda, or politically correct preaching (threatening to swamp the constant appeals by fizzy drink, hamburger and sports-wear manufacturers and the like, which is not brainwashing but simply giving kids “what they want” — that is, what they're required to want). Our future desolated human being acts “responsibly”; after all he does not know what the future holds and so he plays safe to give himself more options later, not knowing that by then he will have been brainwashed so powerfully, and for so long, that he will almost certainly be unable to extricate himself. After all, he will then say to himself that he has certainly not done all those exams just to throw them away: what sort of investment would that be? By then, half-way up the career-ladder, to leap off will seem a sort of suicide, a sort of madness. Who chooses to earn less? Who chooses to “fail”? Because the answer he has been effectively forced to choose does not answer his deepest needs, but answers the deepest needs of the economic system into which he has been born, our desolated human being continues to suffer endless boredom. The career work he is required to do is that of a cog in a giant machine. Above all, it does not involve his deepest need as a living being — his need to be self-directed rather than “employed”. Instead it requires that he hide all aspects of his personality which do not fit the necessary template. He wears a dark suit to indicate his conformity, his submission to the norm. True, the brightness and colour of his tie does loudly insist on his maverick individuality but only in the way that government PR departments insist on their “yearning for freedom and human rights” and corporations declare their commitment to “green consumerism” and “corporate responsibility”. Beyond this, there is no colour, no individuality, no distracting spare fat or idiosyncratically human baggage. The dark suit announces that he is there to serve the absolute goal of profit, and all his individual likes, dislikes, interests, goals, values, have been subordinated to this aim. The dark suit represents the smothering of his ultimate concerns, and their replacement by the company automaton. The need to withdraw his ultimate concerns from the world becomes far more intense at work than it was at school. He must smile, speak, shake hands, think and discuss in exactly the right way. Our desolated human being unconsciously knows that he will be successful only to the extent to which he succeeds in cutting the cloth of himself to fit the requirements of the system; that he will be successful only to the extent to which he becomes “outer-directed” as opposed to “inner-directed”; that is, to the extent to which he succeeds in becoming an essentially dead THING as opposed to a living BEING. Because his ultimate needs conflict with this goal, they are a real danger. The more he is aware of them, the more he attempts to fulfil them, the more he will find himself in conflict with the world around him. So he tries his best to become unaware of his ultimate needs, because he does not want to become a shameful failure, does not want to become even more disgraceful and shameful than he already believes himself to be. For then (he knows) they will say — “I always said he was a bit strange” — and it is precisely this “strangeness”, this inadequacy, that he has dedicated his life to concealing and overcoming through “success”. Thus is created one desolated human being. 001123 ... guitar_freak ohh my fucking god that was long. yet i liked it :) 001218 ... keeth A is for ALPHA..J is for Jack 010117 ... Agent008 sdf! 010118 ... vinny you are the one. Dony lie... Vinny... The one who, the one speekin is the one who looks apon the screen. You however are the guilty party who incriminated two of which one me who did nothing wrong. Dont spread rumors as@#ole 010122 ... stark a. as in aaaaaw SHIT! 010227 ... linus alive 010307 ... kx21 Answer(s) 010312 ... Chrity go to: i_have_words 010408 ... The Truth Alpha and Omega I love you. 010412 ... ladybird my name (ailbhe) sounds like Alpha.....when I was younger I was an altar server and at Easter we would stand outside the church as they lit the Easter candle from the Paschal fire.....ten or twelve of us in a row, two by two, dressed in our white robes with coloured ropes tied round our waists, carrying candles and crosses and thurible and incense.....it would be a dark calm night, and the congregation hushed... ....then the mood would be destroyed completely because the priest would say "Alpha and Omega" and all the altar servers would giggle and stare at me. While I went bright red. I still feel self-conscious at that point, every Easter. 010515 ... adam lesbian is a word that always stumps me, because for some reason it has middle-eastern connotations for me, it's like someone says, "hi, im a lesbian" and i start smelling incense and seeing turbans and camels or something, i know i'm weird, i know i'm stupid, please just ignore me. 010517 ... Alexia Leboski everyone has so much to talk about when it comes to A, but by the time you get to Z, it seems everyone runs out of steam...this is the nature of injustice. 010715 ... sykoze asshole 010718 ... grrgurl a day like today,gray and rainy 1st of the month days.... its fitting, the weather...being so dreary..on a day like today grey and not cheery. 010904 ... Ally Anonymous and common Split personalities an A 010928 ... Tjousk alleged anonymity 011108 ... Mike the beginning.... 011110 ... nemo an alternative version to reality 011120 ... kelli crane bcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz 020113 ... kim the word i say very often in my sentances before nouns 020114 ... optic discretion A ... what I must have to successfuly complete high school. The expectation I have now thrown into the wind like dust ... 020119 ... J. a beggining; maybe to a journey twards nonsensicallity 020305 ... j owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwie! and the answer is inside of me [as usual]; dunt even need your answer. but any fine points? [damit wher r thos arms when u need] 020308 ... Chrity fuck me in the ass 020308 ... lucky duck DAY ONE ( from autumn to ashes ) can't wait to break these chains and escape these broaken dreams It won't be long now: Just walk right out the door, like you've done a thousand times before ------------ peaking at the threshold; a fairy tale I've purchased on my own.. --------- Since you intoxicate me with all your voices & maybe if I grew wings and you lost yours, these words would flow like water if you let them scrape your heart because the hardest part is trying to find someone to pick up the pieces of how you remind me of how i