youngstown god i didn't get to explore it thoroughly, but what i saw of it was great. my, but it does seem pretty rough in spots. buncha crazy motherfuckers. i felt at home. 020331 ... unhinged small dirty dark bars the chiming clock of home savings and loan downtown downtown downtown that was youngstown through all the cracks in the sidewalk and all the firecracker gunshots the drugs drugs drugs we smiled sometimes sitting on federal plaza in the steamy heat smoking cigarettes watching the sticky breeze play in the trees downtown downtown downtown and his crooked teeth caught rainbows ivet model citizen naked being jarring loud downtown i was a groupie downtown but a few miles away jesus smiled at the nyabinghi he remembers when it was pop's lounge driving on the northside watching the expensive houses flash by on fifth avenue home was just a jump away from downtown youngstown 020401 ... unhinged leaving god i am so goddamn tired can't you people see i moved eight hours away i'm away now saying_saying_away i still think of you everyday i do but i can't live my life in two places i'm so goddamn tired but that doesn't mean i don't love you but christ let me be 030903 ... unhinged me: i think that everyone should just vacate that place and it's surrounding areas him: no doubt him: it's turned to shit me: but for some reason, it is so hard to leave there and i didn't even grow up there him: lot of drugs and partying him: lot of bars too me: but it just wasn't that; every place has its drugs and partying and bars me: the people there have this mutual bond of misery and are somehow less randomly shitty to each other him: lmao him: couldnt have said it better myself me: so i guess there isn't a better place in the united states to be depressed.... me: cause walking down the street is like walking to your support group me: but it's really hard to be anything but depressed and addicted there 050614 ... unhinged only in youngstown would someone sell their bar on ebay the scene in that town just imploded so now there aren't any good bands to play there. the owner used to get semi-decent national acts in there too sometimes like clutch, the white stripes, and wesley_willis . 061015 ... unhinged the same people who paid me to play in orchestras for their listening pleasure made my friends smack addicts fuck the sopranos. living in a documented mob town was not glamorous. living in a documented mob town in the rust belt was desensitizing. she freaked out about hearing A gunshot outside of his house. when i lived on the streetside of my dorm, i heard gunshots almost every night. but i lived in cafaro house. there were tall fences and video cameras and locked doors and cops at the front dest from midnight to 5am every night. to be honest, i kinda miss the security. there were no good sides of town. only worse and better. when the pizza hut on 422 blew up no one was surprised. the only good restaurants in town were the italian ones. red lights were stop signs late at night and 'i felt unsafe' was actually a viable excuse for the cop not to write you a ticket. 'ok. good thinking.' pretty much any drug known to man was available in that town. the only economy left in the town was the university and the bars. there was a serious rock scene in that town for awhile and i saw some of the best of it. i really fucking miss that. but the scene is dead there now. too many wannabes couldn't handle the forementioned drug availability. it was not uncommon to check yourself into the mental hospital. i had several friends who did. living in that town was like a sick surreal movie by the end. i would have loved to make a shostakovich music video there with him. 070515 ... unhinged you don't stop just cause you're down. most people don't have the ability to be happy for your accomplishments cause their too caught up in what they don't have. that doesn't mean you listen when they talk shit. i've got a path in front of me that wouldn't be there if i didn't know you. 080522 what's it to you? who go blather from