a_curious_resonance blueberries i watched from the hollowed out log, raindrops entertaining this patient pause, when the sound leaking from heaven reached my fur covered ears. i looked to see a faerie wrapped in trillium sitting on the back of a sparrow, blowing primordial music through the greenest blade of timothy grass. and i thought, "goodness is a mask. a costume we wear to celebrate the day, which is every day, for holidays come one at a time, when the eyes open and the dream is remembered." 020124 ... Grievance Lasting smiles were removed as she stopped her fell forward, her mask falling from her face and distributing upon the earth a million porcelain pieces of release.. chards colored from the ties she once held, there by her feet and yellow once accented her brows, and beneath her left hand a blue drifting that once framed her lips. Too many fragments to remember properly she stepped freely over the broken pieces and walked, alone, and shuffling her coat upward past the nape of her neck, pushing her hair forward so as to hide the beauty that was once covered, and all that remained were the eyes, the darkness, and her trembling steps that slowly began to vanquish her. 020124 ... unhinged when i walk out the door and it is cold and slippery and white i think of you. when there is no sun but the snow clouds make this light in the night sky that reflects all the street lights, shrinking the sky closer in to me, i think of you. kid, all i can think of is the first night we slept together, how i pressed my cheek so close and fast to your forehead and you twitched spasmed the way i did whenever i was held. you probably think it was a big fat lie, what i said to you that night. you always had a curious way of holding me just a moment too long for friendship but you let_go a moment too quick for intimacy. but i held on to you through all the doubt and the months and the repeated lapses of interest and the shows of indecision. i didn't want you to think that i had lied to you when i said i would always be there. no matter what, when you called, i was there. but, you didn't call nearly enough for every kiss i wanted to give you. and every other person i pushed away when i was waiting for you. i remember the night that you couldn't keep your lips off of me in crowded rooms, but suddenly when it was dark and we were alone on the stoop you barely wanted my arms around you; you were drawn back inside by his concern not mine. and when he asked if we were together you only laughed and i laughed too, a curious resonance of the alcohol and true intentions reflected in your_voice. i still think about you so many seconds a day. i miss the curious resonance of unrequited_love that you took away from me the day i decided i couldn't love you anymore. without_you, i'm empty in my silence. everytime i see you, my heart stops. i felt every cell of my body crying when i was waiting for you. but now that i know you are never going to call again, i'm empty. i pushed you away eventually. he told me that he told you to call me. he said you didn't seem concerned. he said that he wanted to pass you off on me because he needed space. and all i wanted to breathe was you. i don't think i am ever going to be interesting enough. 030103 ... bespeckled a curious resonance, an enticing suggestion, emanates from his mouth when his voice is low and dripping with allure. 030104 ... lost of hope unhinged, that made me sob. my tears taste good, though, its ok. 030104 ... unhinged you know how after something is gone all you can see is the good in it? she still manages to make me cry. heart_pang 030104 ... Mahayana a curious resonance opens windows, opens doors and i want to dance, a dime a dance romance 030105 ... Mahayana stars .*. & everything around preambulates like fantastic stills of quieting liquid 030119 ... . . 050101 ... Karma God_at_War 050101 ... unhinged i thought i was over you. i thought i had convinced myself that you were right, that we weren't right for each other romantically. but i still couldn't bear to be your friend, because years ago she made me feel the fool over and over again for being there for her in any way possible, through thick and thin. because i had been on both sides of the_friend_fallacy and knew it didn't work. i heard you moved to shanghai and i had a heart_pang. i got a new job recently and the bus i take to get there leads me right past the apartment you lived in while we were dating, the same bus route i used to take to get to you. i look for you there even though i know you live on a different continent now. i thought i was over this. but every time i take that bus heart_pang 161209 ... unhinged that bus took me past the_death_of_us again just the other day different parts of me are shook but_still shook nonetheless i trusted you more than i realized more of me was broken with that trust than i realized 180720 what's it to you? who go blather from