bobbi auto cross reference system Has a tendency go home on weekends. See writing_randomly. 011229 ... unhinged she left me with a handful of excuses and my red hoodie 011229 ... unhinged tonight i stopped by to talk to her after rehearsal and we ended up going out to dennys to talk. we vented about the things that were bothering us. she was pissed cause her exboyfriend and exgirlfriend were getting up on each other at a bar. i was pissed because everyone in chamber orchestra was treating me bad. we drank coffee and talked. but we didn't talk about us. we never do. 020130 ... silentbob i dont like it when people spell my name wrong 020131 ... unhinged we had dinner together and then later hung out. we watched a movie in the basement of her dorm. everytime we do it makes me wish it was the time that we were cuddling. 020131 ... unhinged dear dear dear bobbi. i am dead inside. you will always find other better ways. i will always love you. that has never changed. i just can't watch anymore. 020305 ... unhinged pothead replaced letter_to_a_friend how_she_makes_me_feel crashing pale_beautiful lost_friendship uneasy she_still_makes_me_tremble she_loves_me falter mexico dragonandphoenix i_am_here it_was_real confirmation talking_to_myself an_email_unsent random_bar_thoughts passage constrained forgiveness this_is_me_not_caring i_hate_you no_more_yesterdays smoking should_i_call slowly_devolge_into_curious_homage you're_on_my_wrist_and_on_the_page_too ex_girlfriend i_pleaded eyeliner falls_apart collapsed i_did_care heartbroken stark_realization 020314 ... unhinged People will forget what you said. People will forget what you did, but People will never forget how you made them feel. 020322 ... unhinged saints and sailors this is where i say i've had enough and no one should ever feel the way that i feel now. a walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and i don't believe that i'm getting any better. waiting here with opes the phone will ring and i'm thinking awful things and i'm pretty sure that few would notice. and this apartment is starving for an argument. anything at all to break the silence. wandering this house like i've never wanted out and this is about as social as i get now. and i'm throwing away the letters that i am writing you 'cause they would never do, i would never do. waiting here with hopes the phone will ring and i'm thinking awful things and i'm pretty sure that few would notice. and this apartment is starving for an argument. anything at all to break the silence. so don't be a liar don't say that 'everything's working' when everything's broken. and you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor and your eyes say the jokes on me. the brilliant dance so this is odd, the painful realization that all has gone wrong. and nobody cares at all, and nobody cares at all. so you buried all your lover's clothes and burned the letters lover wrote, but it doesn't make it any better. does it make it any better? (no) and the plaster dented from your fist in the hall where you had your first_kiss reminds you that the memories will fade. so this is grange, our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance where nobody leads at all. and the picture frames are facing down and the ringing from this empty sound is deafening and keeping you from sleep. and breathing is a foreign task and thinking's just too much to ask and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights. this is incredible. starving, insatiable, yes, this is love for the first time. well, you'd like to think that you were invincible. yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time. well this is the last time. dashboard_confessional 020528 ... unhinged why? i still cry at all of this 020622 ... unhinged just last week, i wanted to say that i was sorry, but i was too stubborn to apologize for what i've felt guilty about for way too long. the long and short of it all was that i predicted the way it would be and it turned out the same. maybe it was a self-fulfilling prophecy. maybe i was too conflicted. i didn't run away. i have decided that i couldn't live with the impossible anymore. what i wanted from you was impossible. it wasn't my fault; it wasn't your fault. but i couldn't have it anyways no matter who's fault it was. we are too different me and you. 021211 ... unhinged heart_pang 021230 ... unhinged happy fucking 21st birthday 030320 what's it to you? who go blather from