stark_realization jennifer almost a year ago, megan_mcguire had a crush on me and as I was outside smoking my third cigarrette of the day I remembered that she had a crush on me 000613 ... silentbob almost 4 months ago i decided i should probbly fall in love with someone again. i didnt know who though. i just wanted to. it happened to be this girl i met like 2 years ago. she loves me too, i realized that recently, it HIT me! and its forever changed my little pathetic life 000613 ... blown cherry taht if I ever get out of this, I may not be in love again for a long time. Fuck. Oblivion here I come. 020313 ... silentbob this has all happened before. i cannot escape drama. it finds me wherever i go 020313 ... lycanthrope i can't believe it. I still can't. I'm waiting for it to fall through. I feel like i just skated to the middle of a pond with those creepy thin ice warnings and did a backflip. I felt the depths below as i turned in the air, i saw them black when i had imagined them as blue, i saw no life, i saw only the thinnest skin between me and all of that sudden shocking feeling. But the ice didn't give. Just barely it didn't give. And so my flips are gonna get heavier. 020313 ... unhinged i finally believe what i've always thought of you 020313 ... bethany that most things are my problem and not something wrong with some one else 020722 ... Daria That I am a misfit, was a misfit, and most likley will always be a misfit. 020722 ... squint my life is empty. i mean that with as much pressure as I could possibly put on it... 020722 ... squint began at the right time I'm thinking first it came to the back of my neck and the absent look i give to my hands as they rub eachother to look busy and she asks whats wrong I have to make a funny face and say i dont know, nothing because I wasn't sure enough to cry. and then i laugh because thats what i do when I'm upset. and nobody catches on to me nobody catches on to what I really mean. 020730 ... knot meat perhaps it's best that way. 020730 ... white_light i have 2 hours till i wake up. i 4 hours of blathering up my sleeve.. hehehe... i have a million and one ways to make you paranoid. i have an infnite amount of words to justify the ways i don't feel about you. 020814 what's it to you? who go blather from